Taylor's POVAfter my talk with Ryan down at the lake, I came here in the pack garden, hoping to clear my mind and listen to my heart. I hoped that Ryan would not follow me here. that he would respect my request for some space and time and this time he would actually follow-up to his actions. I don't know if I could take any more heartbreak. I didn't want to think about it anymore. but the thought of him just kept popping up in my head. From the garden view I looked up at the pack house and at the top corner window where I saw Mrs Monroe watching me. I knew that she was angry from how I agreed that they are back in our bedroom but I wasn't going to apologize for it.I took my stand in what I believed in and I was still hurt by how she was quick to judge me but different Ryan for his wrongdoings.As I sat lost in my thoughts, I was startled by the arrival of Alpha Mark, Whom I have not even noticed approaching. He greeted me with a warm smile and took a seat beside me. his presence r
I walked at the side of Anita, there was no way I could pry myself away from her iron grip. She smiled at me as she led me into the pack house. Two other women, who I remembered to be mates of some of the alpha’s as well, walked behind us while whispering among themselves. I got the unsettling feeling that they might be talking about me. The way that they talked in Low tones made me feel uncomfortable. But maybe It was just difficult for me to trust anyone anymore. I was not sure what to think About it so I just remained quiet and let them lead me towards the entrance.I was led into the packhouse, still feeling shaken up by what had transpired with Ryan. My skin tingled with the aftermath of when Ryan held me and tried to pull me with him. The fact that thinking about Ryan terrifies me, is what truly heartbreaks me. “It’s nothing coffee or tea can’t fix.’’ A feminine voice breaks me out of my trance. I looked up at Anita, who had just walked into the kitchen with me. She walked to
As I made my way back to my room, my mind was still reeling from the ugly encounter with Ryan and the Alphas in the garden. The weight of all my emotions made me feel overwhelmed and just buried in too much anger. I hated the way Ryan behaved, I hated the way he acted and how he was now treating me. I felt like an object in his hands. A property he thought he had ownership of. Anita had made me feel a little better. I was honestly not surprised when she told me that all the other alphas had at some point behaved in that manner. It seemed sensible that an Alpha, who has had to go to battles from a young age and take the lives of fellow wolves would be a little broken. Yet I could not understand the cause of Ryan’s behavior. It did not make sense that he’d suddenly just decide to start behaving and acting as possessive as he did today, or the day before that. Was it fair that he would always push me away then pull me back in whenever he was out of his crazy moods. I need to teach him
I carried the small bucket of supplies towards the middle of the packhouse and down to the east side where I met charity and the other women waiting for me. When I set down the bucket and sat down on a large Rock next to the well, Charity came to sit beside me.“You don't look so well.’’ she said as she smiled and took my hand. “ Is it pregnancy hormones.’’“I’d wish.’’ I confessed, “I'm just a little worried because of the arrival of all the other Alphas and whether this alliance is going to pull through.’’“Well there's nothing to worry about their my queen because they will be lead by our Alpha.’’ she said reassuringly as she rubbed my back.“And what about me?’’ “What about you, Luna?’’ she stared at me confused trying to figure out what I was saying.“What about me Charity, do you believe in me? does anyone?’’ She stared at me for a long moment. I tried to bury the pain behind my words clenching my fists as I pulled my hand away from hers and tried to contain my emotions. I felt
Taylor's POVTo the man I love with all my heart… When we first met, I was afraid. I was afraid of what it would mean if I let someone in. if I allowed myself to love you. love as a weakness. That was what my father had taught me. but you showed me different. and you showed me that I was worth loving and that loving someone else wasn't so bad. being mated to you is not the reason I love you, genuine love for you came quite after. and I have fallen madly in love with you Ryan and I just can't stop myself. Over the course of time that we've been together, I have worried about you every step of the way. every time you went into battle I couldn't sleep and I cried and cried praying to the moon goddess that you would come back safe. That was the only pain and anguish that I needed. The only thing that really scared me was losing you. I could never imagine a life without you. you completed me so perfectly that I could never define myself without you. and so now and like we first met my
Taylor’s POV I sat under the tree, fighting the urge to cry. Under the shadow, I felt at peace. I could finally sit with myself and think on my own. Ryan, who was still in the garden having the Alpha’s talk him down from what was an ugly experience, he must have been looking for me again because I noticed the warriors moving around the pack perimeter, their eyes sharp and on the lookout as they passed the message on to one another. My mind reeled back into the beautiful days when Ryan and I first met, down to when things just got weird and bizzare. I was trying to pin down when exactly the change occurred. When he started becoming this other version of himself. My hope was that in that discovery I could understand who the enemy was. Who my husband had met in between to trigger such an ugly change. I picked up the notebook and the pen that sat beside me on the grass. I stared down at the empty page, as my fingers itched to start writing. The truth is, I was tired. And I could not ta
Taylor’s POVI took a deep breath as I folded my first and brought it towards the door. I wasn't sure whether this was a good idea but I had run out of options and I needed answers. I needed a helping hand and Ryan's best friend was the next best thing. He knew Ryan from childhood. I knew him better than I did. If there was anyone who could give me answers about him then it was Philip. After the conversation I had with Nate I figured that it wasn't a good idea to ask him anything about Ryan. I didn't want him to think that I was losing hope in my own making or that I didn't know the first thing about him. I need someone I can trust who would keep this private and confidential. Philip and everything to lose here. He was the alpha’s second-in-command. if I went to him then I could trust him.I knocked on the door, and Beta Philip's deep voice called out, "Come in."I entered the room, finding him seated behind his desk, engrossed in paperwork. As he looked up and saw me, a look of worry
Charity greeted me with a warm smile as I arrived at her doorstep, her eyes full of understanding. "Come in, dear," she said gently, gesturing for me to enter her humble abode.As I stepped inside, the comforting aroma of herbs and wood welcomed me. Charity motioned for me to take a seat by the fireplace, and I gratefully accepted the invitation. The warmth of the flames seemed to mirror the tenderness in her gaze, and I felt my guard lowering as I prepared to share my heartache."Taylor, child, what brings you here?" Charity inquired, her voice soft and soothing.Tears welled up in my eyes, and I took a deep breath, trying to compose myself. "It's Ryan," I began, my voice shaky. "We had a terrible argument, and I can't bear the thought of causing more harm to the pack."Charity nodded understandingly, and her eyes held a knowing glimmer. "Sometimes, my dear, all we need is some space to find clarity and peace," she said gently. "The pressures of leadership can cloud our judgment, and
Taylor's PovWhile I stepped out of the dungeons, my heart still remained back there. Scared and wondering whether bad things will happen. Charity threatened the life of my unborn child, and it wouldn't be long till I brought them into the world. What happened now? How could I stop her if I did not know what I was stopping to begin with."That bad, huh?" Philip spoke as he greeted me at the entrances. He bowed his head, showing respect as I stood in front of him."She won't give anything up." I let out, feeling frustrated. '"Should we have a go at her?""Even though I would not want that, I'm beginning to think I have no option." I quipped."My Queen, there is something you need to see. " His tone is urgent, indicating that something really troubled him. I nodded my head, allowing him to lead the way."How has Nina been?" I asked as I walked with him."I have not yet gone to see her, Luna." His tone mild rises, showing a level of irritation for the name."She's your mate.""Who betra
Taylor's POVI stood there, feeling frozen in time. Uncertain yet, completely sure that this had to be one of the worst days of my life. “We’ve been friends since I came here,” I said, stepping forward as I stared at her. “Why?’’Charity stepped forward, her eyes mirroring a rage I’d never seen before. “I should have seen it. How fucking stupid…”“NO! You were not stupid. I just had to play stupid to make you believe you were winning.” My answer was clear, as precise as I would have hoped. “All this time we’ve spent talking. All the times I’ve given you advice on your bastard of a husband and that curse growing in your womb. Why would you think I care about you?’’ she let out, eyes meeting mine at a distance. Her words hurt me. The trust I had put in her was shuttered at this moment. Why does everyone I trust always end up hurting me?“Why did you do it Charity?’’ I repeated. “Why do you do the things you do?”“For the ones I love.’’ I affirmed. “For the ones I love.” She mirrore
Ryan's POV“We should do something,’’ I said as I paced around the office. “ We cannot let her go out there on her own. That woman is dangerous.’’ I run my fingers through my hair as I try to overcome my frustrations. The thought of my mate being hurt enraged me. it invoked the wolf inside me making me feel out of control. Taylor was everything that I had.“ You have to trust her, man. You've already told her that you believe in her now it's time to show it. let her do this. I believe she can.’’ Philip reassured me.“ You're awfully calm. Do you not understand the magnitude of the situation? This is fucking Charity. the conniving b**** that once tried to break up my parents marriage.’’ I spoke feeling anger rise inside me.“ You need to understand that sending Taylor out there was our best option.” “This is not about options here Philip, this is about my mate. who is carrying my child. this is about the reckless decision that we have made to send her out to a powerful and dangerous
Taylor's POV It was the first time ever since my ordeal that I was leaving the Pack House. A lot of the Pack members have been caring and had left gifts at the pack house entrances. The doctor had told me that I needed to take care of myself and be less stressed. The truth is just that during this pregnancy I have really neglected myself. I was stressed about everything and anything. please have a tough time and I felt guilty for not being able to take care of my child well. as I walked through the Pack I noticed Philip on the other side watching me at a distance. I nodded my head giving him the recognition. some of the other warriors had been positioned at designated areas of the Pack watching me. Ryan was in his office talking to Alpha Michael, Alpha Luke and Alpha Mark about what had happened. Once I gave the go-ahead, then the Pack would be called to an emergency meeting where it would be announced that the alpha had finally given their support to Ryan. Surprisingly a lot of cal
“But my love, you have to rest.’’ Ryan insisted, trying to push me back into the bed gently. I understood that he felt guilty for what had happened to me but 3 days of bed rest was already enough. Alpha Joseph was going to attack the pack in less than 4 days now and Ryan knew nothing.“ I just want you to be okay.’’ he said politely, sitting on the bed giving up. I stared back at him. Every time I look at him I remember what he said to me. and it breaks my heart all over again.“ What happened to us?’’ I asked in a low tone sitting on the opposite side of the bed. He remained quiet. The tension in the room was heavy.“ I don't know.’’ his voice was low barely above a whisper. There was so much guilt and shame in his voice that it almost made me feel horrible. I felt like I was making him this way. But he has made a lot of mistakes and I still have not seen the real Ryan trying to surface. “ but I want to make it up to you. and I've been trying my best to show you just how sorry I am.
As we exited Philip's office, I could feel the eyes of pack members on us. Everyone had heard her screams and they had come to check up on her. somehow I suspected that both of them believed they had hurt her. The package was feeding me. They saw me as a monster. They saw me as a direct representation of my father. Even though I hated them for seeing me like this, I couldn't help but feel content that they would be ready to protect my maid even against me. “What happened to the queen?’’ one woman asked in a high-pitched voice. “Luna Taylor, are you okay?’’ a little kid about 5 or 6 years old as good as she tried to touch her amol I carried her through the people. the crowd of people only began to grow. each one of them murmuring and praying to the moon goddess that Taylor would be all right. Among the voices was a sample even asking whether I had hurt her. Another one said that the moon goddess was punishing me for the way I treated her. I wanted to silence my brain. I wanted to sil
While we all turned to look who it was, I couldn't help but clutch my stomach feeling overwhelmed by fear. I felt anxious. and I wondered whether alpha Joseph had decided to finally attack. We were unprepared. we were unguarded and no one would expect it. the traumatizing moments of when he and my father had kidnapped me into my mind. I felt the tears flowing from my eyes as I fell to my knees. “Alpha Ryan! What is the meaning of this!’’ Philip reprimanded Ryan as he stepped into the room with an ax in his hand. there was a sharp pain in my abdomen causing me to scream out in pain. all attention was turned to me. I felt as if my stomach was churning. I could feel the tears flowing from my eyes. it was as if everything else had quieted down. it was as if I was the only one in the world.“AAAHH!’’ I let out another scream feeling yet again the same search of pain in my abdomen. What the hell was going on? “Taylor.’’ Will someone call my name screaming my name? but I couldn't Place Wh
Over the past few days everything has been remarkably better. Ryan and I had not gotten the opportunity to talk about what happened. I avoided him while he tried apologizing. I was done with it. he had apologized enough times and none of the two seemed sincere. I had spent a lot of time among the people. providing food and upkeep while learning recipes from the older women in the pack. This was also my opportunity to try and learn as much as possible about the witches without asking people directly. I had gathered quite a reasonable amount of information. Everyone seems to have seen dust. There was a dark brown dust that had risen in the air the day before the battle and it came from the north side of the Pack territory. At first I had dismissed that information until I figured that more than enough people saw it. a bunch of people could not have hallucinated the same thing. they had to be credible to that story. I couldn't help but wonder whether the smoke was an indication that tha
Earlier today, Ryan's grandmother had summoned me into a room. She wanted us to talk about something. I knew what she wanted us to talk about, i didn’t want to talk about it but I still availed myself. and I wasn't wrong. “ Taylor my dear, I'm glad you could make it.’’ she said with a smile on her face as she stretched her arms welcoming me into an embrace. I did not hesitate, hugging her immediately as she held on to me much tighter than usual. Mrs Monroe had never called me into her room. I have only ever gone to her whenever I was troubled but after the meal I had shared with the pack members my heart had been feeling lighter and I was no longer so worried about everything.Ryan’s grandmother was sitting by the window and looking out at the pack grounds. Her expression was a mix of sadness and contemplation, as if she held the weight of the world on her shoulders. Sometimes I felt like she was lonely. sad. That is why I always took it upon myself to try and spend more time with h