We both panted as we finished kissing. He leaned forward to my forehead as we breath hard. He stared at me like I'm the most beautiful woman on earth. I don't know but being with this man feels sureal.It's like a forbidden opportunity to even look at him.
" What's your name? " He asked still panting. His lips is swollen and reddish. I'd be a hypocrite if I say it's not tempting.
" Athena. You? " I asked while staring at the most gorgeous man I've ever seen. Humapa na pareho ang hingal naming dalawa.
He stand straight and extend his hand to me. Pag papahiwatig ng kagustuhang mag pakilala. I noticed the veins protruding in his arm. Those tiny black hairs that rested on his arm. He looks formal and strict. Wealthy even but unlike those typical high profiled person, he seems kind I guess. He noticed that I am looking at his arm. So, I cleared my throat and looked away.
" Elijah Samaniego " he introduced confidently.
Smirking I accepted his hand and shook it with him. Diniinan ko ang pag kapit doon kaya umangat ang gilid ng labi niya. Now, he looks cocky.
" So? What do we do now? " He asked wiggling his thick eyebrows.
Ngayon ko lang na realize kung gaano nakakahiya yung ginawa ko. First, he's a total stranger. Second, I don't have any idea if he's a good person or a member of a syndicate. However, he looks well-off so I doubt that. All the more, distance should be done. Ayokong madawit sa issue ng mga mayayaman. My life has been a pain in the ass at ayoko ng madagdagan pa yun. Ngayon ko pa talaga naisip yan? When earlier all I could think about is to be saved by this man.
I did what a sane person should do. Trying to run away and save my face from the shame but to no avail he spoke of warnings.
" Huwag mong subukang takasan ako. Alam ko kung anong gagawin mo " Danger is in his voice. This man's calibre, tall and massive can squeeze me into pulp. If he wants, punching and dispatching me is such a piece of cake.
Kaso si Athena ako kaya nag patay malisya ako. Pinag taasan ko siya ng kilay at umirap. I'm 5'2 in height and petite. Kaya dinadaan ko na lang sa arte ang lahat. Even though deep inside I am kind of scared. Who wouldn't right?
He chuckled. Okay I'm not scared anymore. He's voice is like a raging sea yes but it's also alluring. Just like his body, so manly and a panty stripper.
Natulala ako. He's so hot even though he's only wearing a black shirt and a faded jeans partnered with nike shoes. I noticed that a black sleek car is behind him. So, he's really rich huh. Aston Martin is the brand of the car. Alam ko hindi lang basta bastang kotse yun. If I'm not mistaken that's a sports car. Napapikit ako ng mariin dahil muntik na akong bumangga roon. If I'm not lucky, I'll die leaving an enormous debt. Most especially if he's arrogant like others. Thank God he's different. I groaned frustratedly because the compliment is still there.
Iniwas ko ang tingin dahil baka maging totoo pa yung sinasabi ko. Ipag pilitan ko pa ang sarili ko sa kanya.
" A-ano " naiinis ako sa sarili ko bakit ako nautal. Please earth open the gates of hell and swallow me right now!
" A- ano? " He immitated what I said and of course with the stutter! When I stuttered I sound ridiculous but him sounds sensual. The world is definitely unfair.
I glared at him.
" What? " He asked innocently. His brows furrowed like a lost child being questioned by a sin he didn't do.
" Biro lang yung sinabi ko kuya, ano aalis na ako " I said without looking at him. Fiddling my hands I started walking away but he grab my arms.
" Just please let me ride you" he simply said. At first, the message is okay but as I process the words he said.
Nagulat ako at mukhang nagulat din siya sa sinabi. My face reddened at the thought of me riding him. Shemss!
" I-I mean let me walk you home " clearing the first thing he said. I noticed that his face is blushing even his ears.
He is so hot and cute. Natawa ako at hinarap siya.
" Bakit pa? Hindi na naman tayo mag kikita " I bitterly said.
' Ayokong malaman mo kung sino ako because I am just a nobody' I added.
Pinitik niya ang noo ko. He glared at me for the unknown reason.
" Aray! Bakit mo ginawa yun?" I asked while killing him in my mind. Hinihimas ang parteng pinitik niya.
" E kasi po kung ano anong pinag sasabi mo " he grabbed my hands and we started walking. His gentle touch produces butterflies in my stomach.
" Oyy- San mo ko dadalhin?' I softly said while staring our arms swaying.
' Sa kama' he said and winked at me.I am too bewildered that I just let him drag me. Walking with a handsome man will instantly make you a celebrity. In fact, few people are watching us with full adoration. Not for me but to the man I'm with.Tsk! Mga chismosa! I glared at them and they all looked away. There are girls who's shamlessly gawking at him. Triggered, I entertwined our hands and smiled sweetly at the audience. Mukhang nagulat siya don kaya napahinto. He looked around and discovered why I'm acting this way. Elijah bit his lip and obliged to my bidding.
Nag lakad kami ng tahimik. Somehow, it calmed my agonizing heart. Sa sandaling to wala akong ibang hiniling kung hindi siya. I prayed to the Divine being to stretch this moment. Just for a little while, I'll let myself reign. Being with him is the most freeing decision I made.I guess being selfish is not a bad idea at all. Kahit ngayon lang hindi ako si Athena. There's no responsibility and there's no poverty. He's not Elijah but only the man I met today. Boundaries has been lifted temporarily. Humigpit ang hawak namin sa isat' isa. There are no spoken words but the gleams in our eyes are evident.
An evidence that we both favored this situation.
Eh? San daw? Tama ba yung narinig ko? Kama? I'm too clouded with the thought of spending time with him to the point of foolishness. Ngayon ko lang naintidihan yung sinabi niya kanina. Is that how he perceived me? An easy to get woman just because I kissed him? Biglang kumulo ang ulo ko sa ideyang yun. " What the- " I can't even finish my sentence because he keeps dragging me. He really thinks I'm easy huh. " Wait! " I forcefully grab my hand from his hold. Grabe porket matangkad siya kaya kung mahatak wagas! Eh di ikaw na mahaba ang biyas! I screamed in my head. Akalain mong hihingalin ka lang dahil pa sa pag hatak niya. Imagine being dragged by a 6 footer. Sinong di hihingalin don? He gave me the why-did-you-stop look. Aba! Siya pa ngayon itong confused. Maybe he's just pretending or masking his true intention. The kiss earlier probably gave him the idea how willing I am to become his bed warmer. Well he's wrong but my inner self castigate me.
Bago pa ako makapasok ay nag salita na siya." So this is it? " He looked hurt. Does he really hurt? Maybe this is how I want to remember him. Pained because we will never see each other again. Unless, we'll set a time and place to meet each other. Which is impossible.Tanga ka ba Athena? I asked myself a stupid question." Anong so this is it? " I asked innocently trying to mask the pain.Pretending that I don't have any idea about what he's talking about." You're pushing me away. Like you're ending something between us. Kahit wala naman talaga " he chuckled sarcastically parang hindi rin makapaniwala. I don't know but the words he said stabbed my heart. Oh right, he's just a man who almost hit me by his car. Nothing more. I smiled bitterly at the thought." Yeah- you're right " he continue speaking while nodding as if he's convincing himself." You're just the girl I met earlier. Nothing more " sabi niya na nag pasikip ng dibdib ko. There
I woke up late because of Elijah's friend request. I mean what the heck right? I don't even remember telling him about my fb account. Who's he? A stalker or what? Maybe he's a hacker from FBI agency! Okay you're being stupid again Athena.I groaned please stop thinking about him Athena. Just think about your own problem. Baka mamaya mapalayas na kami kapag hindi pa ako tumayo. So I got up from my bed and stretch my hands upward. I inhaled and exhaled after repeating that ten times I look at the door. Behind that door lies my demon named lola. You can't blame me from calling her that alright? I love her of course but not enough to suck her attitude. Siguro kung anghel ako kaya kong maging mabait kaso tao ako.Okay here we go. As soon as I opened my door." Mabuti naman nagising ka na! " Lola said angrily.Well good morning to you too lola I greeted her in my mind. At least she said good morning right? That's better I guess compare to just ignoring me
We both don't know what to say after that passionate kiss. Maybe for anyone who will witness such scandalous scene may think that we are just driven by lust. We're just too horny that's why we can't stop our raging hormones. Well even I will conclude the same way. After all we're just human beings who happen to be judgementals. But it speaks something different for me. His kisses makes me feel wanted and loved. For someone so broken and lost I feel the Almighty granted me what I wanted all these years.A safe haven.A comforter.A salvation.The beginning of serendipity in my life seeps in through my parched soul. It's overwhelming yet as the hope arises fear also creeps in.Dahil lahat ng nag uumpisa ng mabilis at madali ay madali ring baliin at alisin. It's funny to think that even those people who waited for such a long time for someone they love. Ended up with the same situation like those who just waited for months. T
Hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala. Kaya pala nag tataka ako kung bakit alam niya yung school na pinapasukan ko. I never even mentioned to him anything about my University. While we're on the road going to the school I cannot remember if I gave him any direction. Maybe because my mind was still clouded by his wet kisses.Ang landi landi kase! I rolled my eyes inwardly. Duh! Sinong hindi magiging wanton mami sa gwapong nilalang na to?" Do you have any problem Ms. Delos Reyes?" his voice took me back to my reverie. Ngayon ko lang napansin na lahat pala sila ay naka abang sa sasabihin ko. Now I have a full view of his body. Ngayon ko lang napansin na nag palit siya ng damit. Kaninang umaga naka black t shirt lang siya. Now he's wearing a navy blue dress shirt and a pair of black slacks with a designer belt. I clicked my tongue inwardly mayabang din to eh. Like duh? This is a public school gusto niya bang manakawan? Showing off such expensive things will only attract thi
After Bobble left I don't know what am I supposed to do. Should I shout at his face and tell how jerk he was earlier? Should I punch his gut to let him know how pissed I am? I groaned inwardly because even though I am pissed inside I still adore him." Hey " he said as he walk towards to where I am standing. My feet seems rooted at the floor so I just wait for him until I can see his shoes in my peripheral view.I looked at him as if I wanted to click his neck. Mukhang nagulat siya roon kaya bahagyang napaatras at tinaas ang dalawang kamay. Pag papahiwatig ng pag suko kahit wala naman akong sinasabi." What do you need Sir? " I asked sarcastically emphasizing the title. He looks offended but I don't care about it. Bakit kanina parang wala naman siyang pakialam sakin? He even punished and made me answer some stupid mathematical problems!" I'm sorry if I needed to do that " he looks so guilty. I don't want to look him in the eyes be
I noticed that Elijah is being quiet ever since we left in the classroom. Nakasimangot ang mukha niya at naka kunot ang noo pero hindi nakabawas yun sa kagwapuhan niya. He looks cute and manly at the same time. We're walking outside the classroom to the parking lot. Sabi niya kasi ihahatid niya ako sa bahay namin. He's holding my hand and I felt the warm coming from him. Medyo malamig na ang simoy ng hangin dahil mag a ala sais na ng gabi." Elijah? " I nudge him to get his attention because he seems preoccupied about something. Huminto naman siya sa pag lalakad at hinarap ako. It's kinda weird because he's my professor but I'm calling him by his name. However, it's more weird if I'll call him Sir. Mag mumukha lang akong alalay nito. My nose crunch because of the disgusting thought. Kaya tatawagin ko na lang siyang Elijah cause I prefer it that way." You okay? Something's bothering you? " I asked with a full hint of concern. He sighed heavily while shaking
" Hi " I said like a 12 year old girl feeling giddy because her crush is finally talking to her. My head feels light and my mood is the same. Though, my lola has made my sister cried once again it doesn't ruin my positive mood today. I felt guilty actually because while here I am busy with my own love life. It feels like I forgotten my responsibility as an elder sister and a mother to Abby. Pero naiisip ko para rin naman samin to. Of course, I like Elijah but there's still a tiny motive in my heart that speaks about wanting money. I still desire to leave this kind of life.Sounding like a gold digger I don't care anymore. Ginagawa ko rin naman to para samin ni Abby hindi lang para sa sarili ko.Thinking about my father provokes me even more to execute my plan.My plan is too simple. I will seduce Elijah to make him fall in love with me. To the point that he will give everything that I needed. Live with him and if it is possible build a family with him taking Abby with me
" What is beauty? " weekends has ended and weekdays has finally arrived. Today is Monday which is the start of every hell week for students. My professor is discussing the term "beauty" and how beauty is defined distinctively from every countries around the world. But he's still asking our own point of view regarding about the said term of course with examples based on facts. Hindi niya pa masyadong ipinapaliwanag ang term nanghihingi agad siya ng examples. I rolled my eyes inwardly.Tumingin ako sa harapan at nakita ko ang prof ko na may hawak na libro habang naka sandal sa teacher's desk. He's in mid 40's I guess. Wearing a gray slacks and a white polo shirt he doesn't look appealing compared to Elijah. Hindi naman siya mukhang masungit at mahigpit pero I'm not quite sure.I observe everyone on the class. Some of them are barely listening. Sa totoo nga lang ay may natutulog pa hindi nga lang nakikita. The disappointment in me is visible through the
" Ate don tayo. "" Ate dito pala. "" Gusto ko rin don Kuya. " Abby is so excited that she can't pick properly among the available rides in the Amusement park.Narito na hinatak kami sa Bumbling Boulders tapos maya-maya hinatak niya si Elijah sa Carousel tapos noong nakita niya ang Ferris Wheel hinatak niya kaming parehas. All we can do is to laugh because of her cuteness. Pinisil ni Elijah ang kaniyang pisngi para huminahon ang kapatid ko saglit." Calm down Abby. Don't worry we will ride all the rides that you want, kay'? " Abby nodded willingly. Alam niya na kailangan niyang kumalma para makipili siya ng maayos. She inhaled and exhaled and when she already calmed down, Elijah turn her around facing all the fun rides.He crouch and ask her " So, ano ng rides and gusto mong unang sakyan? " umikot ang mata ng aking kapatid sa lahat ng rides. Her pupils are like a small black ball tossing back and forth inside he
Bumyahe kami papuntang Laguna ng ilang oras dahil gusto nga ni Abby sa Enchanted Kingdom. I can't help but fill my eyes with the wonders of the earth and with the tall buildings built by talented architects and engineers.Ngayon lang rin kami makakalayo sa bahay namin. Ang makapunta at makasakay sa kotse ay isa ng malaking pag papala para sa amin kaya sinusulit ko talaga. This is what I'm praying for and God answered my cries." Are you hungry? " napatingin ako kay Elijah dahil doon. Sumulyap siya sa akin saglit ngunit binalik rin sa daan ang tingin." Hindi pa naman. Ikaw ba nagugutom ka?, " tanong ko. " o nauuhaw? Do you want water? " tumango lang siya at kinuha ko ang bottled of water na nakalagay sa dash board.Ibinigay ko sa kanya but his veering the car so he can't drink by himself. So, I open the lid of the bottle of water then I move towards his place in order for him to drink on the water bottle. Medyo nahihiya ako kasi baka mak
Today is the day where Elijah and I will spend our day with Abby. Tuwang-tuwa si Abby noong sinabi sa kaniya ni Elijah na igagala siya nito." Talaga po? " the thrill and excitement in her voice is palpable. Hindi siya mapakali at kagaya ng ibang bata naging maligalig. My heart clench at the thought that her childhood is not as happy as like the other children in her age. Minsan nakikita ko siyang tumitingin sa laruan ng ibang bata dahil wala siyang kahit isang kagaya noon. Insecurity is in her eyes and as much as I want to buy something like that for her, money is an issue. Wala kaming perang pambili noon kaya ang ginagawa ko ako ang nakikipag laro sa kaniya. One tear had escaped from my right eye. Agad ko rin yung pinunasan para hindi makita ng kapatid ko." Of course! San mo ba gustong pumunta? " Elijah is good at this. Hindi ko alam kung dahil ba teacher siya o ano. I can't believe that he and Abby would get along right away in their first
Nanghihina kong pumasok sa kuwarto ko at umupo. I am emotionally and physically drained. Ang bigat bigat ng dibdib ko na para bang may libo libong hollow blocks ang nakadagan dito. But I also feel empty. What an irony. Hindi ko na namalayang andito pala si Elijah. Bigla tuloy akong nahiya dahil narinig niya ang lahat ng pag tatalo namin kanina.I close the door and just like that darkness consumed each of one of us inside the room. But I don't feel fear, it's comforting even. Ang madidilim niyang bilog na mata ay nakatuon sakin ng pumasok ako. But unlike what I expected, I don't see pity there. Hindi ko siya mabasa, wala akong mabasang emosyon sa mukha niya.He stared at me momentarily, but went to my side a few seconds to give me the most soothing and tears triggering embrace. Earlier, I thought my drama is over but his touch enabled me to cry once again. Sabi nila kapag niyayakap ka daw tatahan ka na pero siguro kung yung yayakap sayo ay yung taong gusto
I'm not yet done... The need to release my anger is so adamant and no one can ever stop me. My father is just staring at me his face is void of any emotion. Habang ang kaniyang girlfriend ay nanlalaking matang nakatingin sa akin." I'm done putting up with your bullsh*ts! " I don't care anymore if he's my father because the one moment he stepped out of this door years ago his position in my life became unclear.I know parents are humans too. They can be sad, broken and can be vulnerable too at times. Wala akong sinasabi na hindi siya pwedeng umiyak. Na hindi siya pwedeng malungkot just because he's our father because before he is a father to us, he is a husband to my mother. I can't clearly see them anymore because my tears are blinding me. The air smells anger, betrayal and... falling apart.We're a family . He should cried with us, grieved and mourned with us. So that in the process we can be able to give strength and encouragement to each ot
I swallowed the lump on my throat and carry my feet to the living room where my father is. Back when I was a child I remembered the astonishment I have for him. My father in my eyes is the kindest, bravest and the best father in the world. Maybe because we didn't see and be with him as we grow up. The need to work outside the country to provide for our needs is what they prioritized. Bata pa lang ako iinuukit ko na sa isip ko kung anong itsura ni Papa. Kagaya ba ng mga tatay ng kaklase ko? Malaki rin kali ang katawan niya? What about his voice? Does it lies in a bass timbre of voice? As it should be because he's a man? or Is he soft spoken?I was in a kindergarten that time when my mother broke the news. For the first time in my life, my father will not be faceless in my mind anymore. The silouhette inside the young Athena's mind soon will have an eyes, ears, mouth, and a lips. But what she wants to see, more so to feel is a fatherly love. Ano bang pakiramda
Days passed by like a wind so fast and everything went smoothly with my relationship with Elijah. Every single day he's making me special not just by giving me bouquet of flowers. It's counted but the way he takes care of me is what makes my heart flutters. Mapapatingin ka na lang talaga sa kaniya at mag papasalamat sa Diyos na binigyan ka ng ganitong lalaki. We're still not official and I'm thinking ways to utter my sweetest "yes" in a most memorable way. Yung hindi niya makakalimutan kasi wala pang nakakagawa. The Saturday morning doesn't makes me feel sluggish, it boosted my energy even.After I got up from the bed, a wide grin is already plastered on my face. Hearing the birds tweeting, I averted my gaze outside our house and as I see the trees dancing along with the rhythm of the wind, the urge to also sway my body is strong.Kaya kinuha ko ang cellphone ko sa loob ng kuwarto at namili ng kantang mapapasayaw ka talaga. Cleaning without music is s
I came for the first time in my life. Kagaya nga ng sinabi ko hindi ako inosente at marami akong alam. Reading books is one of my past time and there are book themes for that kind of escapade. Erotica as we all know. However, I never touch myself even though my body is responding in the same way the characters in the book is feeling. Hindi ko alam na masarap pala ito sa pakiramdam. Maybe because I'm doing it with the person I like...love.We're both panting really hard after he licked and finger fucked me. He lifted me up but my uniform is dirty.He smirked evilly." You look hot. " umirap ako sa sinabi niya at napatingin sa gitna ng pantalon niya. He followed where my eyes are." How about that? " bigla akong namula ng maalala lahat ng ginawa namin kanina. I never thought I can do that. Bend so willingly on the grass and let him do me!" Nah, I can't took your virginity here in this dirty place. It's your first time so it should be in