I KNOW I'm being immature but he's being insensitive here! Maybe his comfortable and stress-free life gave him a notion that he can speak to me like that. Palibhasa hindi niya alam nangyayari sa bahay! Since my anger has been the god in this situation I decided to distant myself with people. Anger will not do me any good, I might burst here any minute by now.
" Athena? " not now please I pleaded as I heard Elijah. My emotions are overpowering that I can't even control it. I cursed because he's getting nearer and nearer. Napansin ko pang pinag titinginan kami. " You look upset. Come on let's get out of here " he persuaded. Elijah noticed that students are already staring at us to be specific gawking at him. Maybe they're wondering why our hot professor is approaching a student like me.I stand up and walk passed by him. Para na rin hindi mahalata ng iba kung ano nga ba kami. Wait meron bang kami? The anger that builds up earlier is slowly vanisAfter spending the break at the garden we both decided to go back. Me obviously to the classroom and him to the faculty." You got this baby, a'right ? " tumango ako at napapikit ng dumikit ang kaniyang labi sa noo ko." Tara na! Napaka harot mo " nudging him a little. I don't why he suddenly paused when I said that. Nag tataka akong tumigin sa kaniya. Oh no! Don't tell me he thinks that we're already in a relationship?" Di pa ba tayo? " Ngumuso siya na parang batang nag tatampo. Namamangha akong tumingin sa kaniya. I don't know if I'll feel insulted about his remarks or matutuwa. Nga naman ang ganitong kagwapong nilalang hindi na nanliligaw. I mean look at him from his stance everyone can conclude that Elijah is a wealthy man. Not to mention his body build and face! Luluhod lahat ng babae sa paanan niya kahit wala siyang ginagawa. I rolled my eyes at him." Hindi ka pa nga nanliligaw " nakanguso kong usal. I'm a lit
This day is exhausting but the row earlier gives me the reason to become productive. Malapit na mag-uwian. Buti na lang vacant namin ngayon kay Elijah. I still don't know what will I do if we have class on him today.Maybe going home alone is what will I do now. Hindi naman na bago yun sakin dahil lagi naman akong umuuwi ng mag-isa. However, my heart is aching like there's something wrong with it. There's no need to point out the reason cause it's obvious. Her master is nowhere to be found. Nag expect pa rin talaga ako na susuyuin niya ako. I heaved a sigh he's a matured man alright? What do you expect Athena? Hindi siya katulad ng mga sumusubok na manliligaw mo na todo suyo noon. You chose to open your heart to a matured sexy creature therefore live with the consequences! Stop whining." Uuwi ka na ba? " my sluggish soul has been awakened on its reverie because of Bobble's sudden question. Nanghihina akong tumango kasi ayoko pa talagang umuwi gusto ko siya
The date earlier was magical and special. Not all women in the whole world can experience something like that. Sobrang bihira na makatagpo ng lalaking kagaya ni Elijah. Now I'm sure that I like him not because of his money but for who he is." I'm going to fetch you everyday. You don't need to cook me breakfast but if you insist I'll gladly eat that " we both laughed when he said that. Nandito na kami ngayon sa tapat ng bahay namin.The luminous stars is shining brightly on the pitch black sky. For me that speaks something. Sa kabila ng kadiliman mayroong maliit na liwanag na mag papaganda sa dilim na ito. People love star gazing but do you think the stars will be able to shine brightly if it weren't for the darkness? I don't think so. And I think this same question applies in a real life situation too. Na kapag ba nasa dilim ka hahayaan mo lang na lamunin ka nito o mas mag liliwanag ka pa? Kadalasan ang tao akala nila na kapag may problema wala ng pag-asa.
" Good morning po! " I said lively to my lola who's now looking at me weirdly. Siguro iniisip niya kung anong nakain ko at bakit ako ganito sa kaniya. Well, obviously we're not like other households where the parent-children relationship is fruitful. I am living in a toxic household with a toxic mindset and attitude. Subalit ngayon ay tila gusto kong maging ganito. To greet her a joyful good morning is the first thing I wanted to accomplish. Iba talaga ang pag mamahal ni Elijah.Ganito ba talaga kapag in love? Nevertheless, at least risking my heart reaps a big blessing. Siguro naiisip ko rin na kung sakali mang mag tagumpay ako sa plano ko at makaalis kami dito ayoko namang iwan siya na hindi kami okay. The thing is I'm still grateful for her because technically she nurtured us still. Hindi kagaya ng ama ko na wala na nga dito mas priority pa ang girlfriend niya.Since nakapag luto na akong agahan ay ipinag handa ko na rin si lola ng pagkain
Pag karating namin sa parking lot ng school ay kinalas ko agad ang seatbelt. Tumingin ako sa wrist watch kong suot at 6 :55 am pa lang naman. Thank God we're early today. He stared at me and I know now what he wants. I grabbed his face, the small stubbles are already visible and feels so spiky against my palm. Hindi ko alam kung ano ba ang gusto ko clearly stubbles can make him more manly but even without it, he's still a hottie.The peck turns out to be a passionate kiss. Buti na lang tinted itong sasakyan niya kaya walang makakakita samin.His tongue seeks for an entrance so I allowed him. The smooth but skillful tongue of his explores my mouth like a anthropologists seeking for artifacts in a cave. Slow, wet and of course my own tongue clashed with his. Hindi ko alam pero alam ko na parehas naming namimiss ang isa't isa. Hindi pa naman matagal nung huli kaming nag halikan. However, what do you expect from a teenager with raging hormones and from a man like Elijah? Eto
Our first subject in the morning was done and it's time for our classes with Elijah. I feel so giddy and excited! A student-professor romantic relationship is forbidden but why does it feel so thrilling? Yung alam mong bawal pero masarap gawin? This kind of relationship is unethical but one of the kind." Uyy peram namang liptint dali! Parating na si Sir pogi! " Biglang sumimangot ang buong mukha ko ng marinig ko ang mga kaklase kong nag-aagawan sa liptint. Seriously their face our full of cosmetics already! Every period ata nag re retouch sila.Of course, I'm not the only one who's excited with his arrival. What did they called him? Sir Pogi? Well, I can't deny the fact that he's undeniably handsome but hearing other people fantasizing about your soon to be boyfriend is infuriating!" Wait lang ako muna. " Agaw ng kaklase kong bakla sa liptint at salamin. I understand why they're acting this way alright? Kahit nga ako noong una ko siyang makita halos mag laway di
The clouded blue sky is boasting it's majestic self to me as I look up here from the window of my seat. Whenever my orbs see the white fluffy looking like a cotton ball on the sky, I often think God is there. Sitting, watching, and observing people do their stupid monkey businesses.Narinig ko dati sa isang pastor na ang ulap daw ay parang alikabok sa paa ng Panginoon. The sky is his pathway as he walks every single day or just sit above the clouds to look down to his creations.Sabi niya pa kapag daw nakakakita ka ng ulap ibig sabihin nandon si Lord. Kaya heto ako ngayon nag-iisip ng ganito dahil nakakita ako ng ulap. Kaya lang naisip ko naman so ibig sabihin pag walang ulap wala rin Siya? Of course not, God is omnipresent. Meaning He's existing everywhere thus whether clouds are visible or not on the sky God is there.Anyway, Elijah is lecturing about patterns. That's why my mind wandered to my surroundings, my eyes roamed around the patterns
There are students who are going to cafeteria because it's their breaktime. Halo halo ang amoy sa kapaligiran. The scents from the nature, people and animals are perfectly combined creating a scent of life. Nag lalakad ako papuntang faculty kung saan niya ako pinapunta. While walking I observed other students do their own businesses. May mga mag kaibigan na nag-tatawanan, meron namang nag-aaral, syempre hindi mawawala ang mga nag- haharutan I smiled at that thought. On my way to the faculty I glanced to my secret garden. My lips forms a smirk as I have seen all the anemone flowers blooming beautifully. Dati kapag tinitignan ko ito medyo nalulungkot ako pero ngayon nabubuhay ang pag-asa sa aking puso.Someone grabbed me and put his palm to my mouth to prevent me from screaming. Kinakabahan kong tinanggal ang kamay nito at handa na sanang sipain sa golden part ng lalaki pero si Elijah pala ito." You scared me! " I terrifyingly uttered my eyes are almost popping out of m
" What is beauty? " weekends has ended and weekdays has finally arrived. Today is Monday which is the start of every hell week for students. My professor is discussing the term "beauty" and how beauty is defined distinctively from every countries around the world. But he's still asking our own point of view regarding about the said term of course with examples based on facts. Hindi niya pa masyadong ipinapaliwanag ang term nanghihingi agad siya ng examples. I rolled my eyes inwardly.Tumingin ako sa harapan at nakita ko ang prof ko na may hawak na libro habang naka sandal sa teacher's desk. He's in mid 40's I guess. Wearing a gray slacks and a white polo shirt he doesn't look appealing compared to Elijah. Hindi naman siya mukhang masungit at mahigpit pero I'm not quite sure.I observe everyone on the class. Some of them are barely listening. Sa totoo nga lang ay may natutulog pa hindi nga lang nakikita. The disappointment in me is visible through the
" Ate don tayo. "" Ate dito pala. "" Gusto ko rin don Kuya. " Abby is so excited that she can't pick properly among the available rides in the Amusement park.Narito na hinatak kami sa Bumbling Boulders tapos maya-maya hinatak niya si Elijah sa Carousel tapos noong nakita niya ang Ferris Wheel hinatak niya kaming parehas. All we can do is to laugh because of her cuteness. Pinisil ni Elijah ang kaniyang pisngi para huminahon ang kapatid ko saglit." Calm down Abby. Don't worry we will ride all the rides that you want, kay'? " Abby nodded willingly. Alam niya na kailangan niyang kumalma para makipili siya ng maayos. She inhaled and exhaled and when she already calmed down, Elijah turn her around facing all the fun rides.He crouch and ask her " So, ano ng rides and gusto mong unang sakyan? " umikot ang mata ng aking kapatid sa lahat ng rides. Her pupils are like a small black ball tossing back and forth inside he
Bumyahe kami papuntang Laguna ng ilang oras dahil gusto nga ni Abby sa Enchanted Kingdom. I can't help but fill my eyes with the wonders of the earth and with the tall buildings built by talented architects and engineers.Ngayon lang rin kami makakalayo sa bahay namin. Ang makapunta at makasakay sa kotse ay isa ng malaking pag papala para sa amin kaya sinusulit ko talaga. This is what I'm praying for and God answered my cries." Are you hungry? " napatingin ako kay Elijah dahil doon. Sumulyap siya sa akin saglit ngunit binalik rin sa daan ang tingin." Hindi pa naman. Ikaw ba nagugutom ka?, " tanong ko. " o nauuhaw? Do you want water? " tumango lang siya at kinuha ko ang bottled of water na nakalagay sa dash board.Ibinigay ko sa kanya but his veering the car so he can't drink by himself. So, I open the lid of the bottle of water then I move towards his place in order for him to drink on the water bottle. Medyo nahihiya ako kasi baka mak
Today is the day where Elijah and I will spend our day with Abby. Tuwang-tuwa si Abby noong sinabi sa kaniya ni Elijah na igagala siya nito." Talaga po? " the thrill and excitement in her voice is palpable. Hindi siya mapakali at kagaya ng ibang bata naging maligalig. My heart clench at the thought that her childhood is not as happy as like the other children in her age. Minsan nakikita ko siyang tumitingin sa laruan ng ibang bata dahil wala siyang kahit isang kagaya noon. Insecurity is in her eyes and as much as I want to buy something like that for her, money is an issue. Wala kaming perang pambili noon kaya ang ginagawa ko ako ang nakikipag laro sa kaniya. One tear had escaped from my right eye. Agad ko rin yung pinunasan para hindi makita ng kapatid ko." Of course! San mo ba gustong pumunta? " Elijah is good at this. Hindi ko alam kung dahil ba teacher siya o ano. I can't believe that he and Abby would get along right away in their first
Nanghihina kong pumasok sa kuwarto ko at umupo. I am emotionally and physically drained. Ang bigat bigat ng dibdib ko na para bang may libo libong hollow blocks ang nakadagan dito. But I also feel empty. What an irony. Hindi ko na namalayang andito pala si Elijah. Bigla tuloy akong nahiya dahil narinig niya ang lahat ng pag tatalo namin kanina.I close the door and just like that darkness consumed each of one of us inside the room. But I don't feel fear, it's comforting even. Ang madidilim niyang bilog na mata ay nakatuon sakin ng pumasok ako. But unlike what I expected, I don't see pity there. Hindi ko siya mabasa, wala akong mabasang emosyon sa mukha niya.He stared at me momentarily, but went to my side a few seconds to give me the most soothing and tears triggering embrace. Earlier, I thought my drama is over but his touch enabled me to cry once again. Sabi nila kapag niyayakap ka daw tatahan ka na pero siguro kung yung yayakap sayo ay yung taong gusto
I'm not yet done... The need to release my anger is so adamant and no one can ever stop me. My father is just staring at me his face is void of any emotion. Habang ang kaniyang girlfriend ay nanlalaking matang nakatingin sa akin." I'm done putting up with your bullsh*ts! " I don't care anymore if he's my father because the one moment he stepped out of this door years ago his position in my life became unclear.I know parents are humans too. They can be sad, broken and can be vulnerable too at times. Wala akong sinasabi na hindi siya pwedeng umiyak. Na hindi siya pwedeng malungkot just because he's our father because before he is a father to us, he is a husband to my mother. I can't clearly see them anymore because my tears are blinding me. The air smells anger, betrayal and... falling apart.We're a family . He should cried with us, grieved and mourned with us. So that in the process we can be able to give strength and encouragement to each ot
I swallowed the lump on my throat and carry my feet to the living room where my father is. Back when I was a child I remembered the astonishment I have for him. My father in my eyes is the kindest, bravest and the best father in the world. Maybe because we didn't see and be with him as we grow up. The need to work outside the country to provide for our needs is what they prioritized. Bata pa lang ako iinuukit ko na sa isip ko kung anong itsura ni Papa. Kagaya ba ng mga tatay ng kaklase ko? Malaki rin kali ang katawan niya? What about his voice? Does it lies in a bass timbre of voice? As it should be because he's a man? or Is he soft spoken?I was in a kindergarten that time when my mother broke the news. For the first time in my life, my father will not be faceless in my mind anymore. The silouhette inside the young Athena's mind soon will have an eyes, ears, mouth, and a lips. But what she wants to see, more so to feel is a fatherly love. Ano bang pakiramda
Days passed by like a wind so fast and everything went smoothly with my relationship with Elijah. Every single day he's making me special not just by giving me bouquet of flowers. It's counted but the way he takes care of me is what makes my heart flutters. Mapapatingin ka na lang talaga sa kaniya at mag papasalamat sa Diyos na binigyan ka ng ganitong lalaki. We're still not official and I'm thinking ways to utter my sweetest "yes" in a most memorable way. Yung hindi niya makakalimutan kasi wala pang nakakagawa. The Saturday morning doesn't makes me feel sluggish, it boosted my energy even.After I got up from the bed, a wide grin is already plastered on my face. Hearing the birds tweeting, I averted my gaze outside our house and as I see the trees dancing along with the rhythm of the wind, the urge to also sway my body is strong.Kaya kinuha ko ang cellphone ko sa loob ng kuwarto at namili ng kantang mapapasayaw ka talaga. Cleaning without music is s
I came for the first time in my life. Kagaya nga ng sinabi ko hindi ako inosente at marami akong alam. Reading books is one of my past time and there are book themes for that kind of escapade. Erotica as we all know. However, I never touch myself even though my body is responding in the same way the characters in the book is feeling. Hindi ko alam na masarap pala ito sa pakiramdam. Maybe because I'm doing it with the person I like...love.We're both panting really hard after he licked and finger fucked me. He lifted me up but my uniform is dirty.He smirked evilly." You look hot. " umirap ako sa sinabi niya at napatingin sa gitna ng pantalon niya. He followed where my eyes are." How about that? " bigla akong namula ng maalala lahat ng ginawa namin kanina. I never thought I can do that. Bend so willingly on the grass and let him do me!" Nah, I can't took your virginity here in this dirty place. It's your first time so it should be in