23 Lori

Lorelei

The days seem to fly by in a blur as I stay in Asher’s apartment. The nights only eased by Ashers presence beside me in bed his strong arms wrapped completely around me. Refusing to let me go even in sleep. After the first night of me waking up to nightmares Asher has been a constant presence in my bed. Just not in the way I used to always dream about.

He even initiated multiple sleepovers with Eli. He would curl himself around me the big spoon to my little and have Eli curl against my front. Those were the nights I felt the safeties, the most secure.

Yet my heart isn’t here anymore. I feel so numb to the world around me. I’m terrified most days to even open the blinds. I’m scared to look in the mirror. I can feel the difference inside of me. I am broken.

The days are endless filled with fear and pain that break me in every way. I curl in a ball on the bed and cry. I can’t help the pain. I know I shouldn’t feel like a whiny bitch. I’m not the woman he killed. I’m j