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2024-10-29 19:42:56Don't Let Me Down - Chainsmokers, Daya
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I forced Gerald to get up, watch the sunrise. It's a shame if you come all the way here and are willing to lie to my mother and end up in bed? No!
Now, even though it was only 4:23 a.m., it was dawn with the cool air that was so piercing. Inside I am not cold because there is natural heating.
I wore a pink jacket, and black leggings and flip-flops, even though I wanted to wear sports shoes to make them look more sporty.
I move my body so it is not too sore. Sleeping in a united body, it feels like you cannot be free and accessible. My body is numb.
I got goosebumps myself, thinking about that cursing act. It can't be helped, and I was trapped.
Gerald is still sleeping, and the Caucasian is still asleep. He is tired, but I want to see the sunrise from a height. Want to see the light with loved ones? Maybe it will be a moment that I will never forget. He's not a romanti
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