"I guess I'll have to stay here until I recover." I told Toma.
For some unknown reason, I got a high fever and had to stay home for today. "Yeah, just rest for today. I left your lunch on the table, just heat it in the microwave later."
"Okay. Make sure to listen in class and take notes for me." Though I doubt he'll do a good job on that. Toma has always been a terrible student, I was always there to help him with school work.
"Hnnng, I'll do anything for you even if I can't stand boring stuff."
"Great, have a good day!" I waved goodbye at him. And once he was out of the room, I felt a bit anxious with him out of sight. Maybe I'm scared of getting seperated from him just like he feels. I really have grown attach to him, huh?
A smile crossed my face as I remember the first ti
"Hmmm…" I tried to focus my attention on the discussion. But no matter what I do, my mind keeps wandering off. This won't do, I wanted to impress Yuji with the notes I'll take down for him. I sighed and gone with plan B. I carefully opened my phone and just let it record the discussion.I'll just let Yuji listen to this.Then as I expected of myself, I got easily distracted and had myself staring out the classroom's window. The sky is really blue today, this reminds me of that time when I was a kid. Yuji and I really played a lot during our childhood.It was really awesome to remember that I already spent my time by his side before. I got to see and remember how cute he was back then too! Ahh, such good memories.Though I never knew things will turn out like this for the two of us. Yuji used to b
Maybe I hadn't notice, but I think I already had feelings for Toma back then. He already became so special because we've been friends for so long. Though I didn't want to admit it, falling for a guy was a weird thing for me because I was always taught by my parents that every guy is meant to be with a girl.But now that Toma is mine, I don't care what they say anymore. I just wanna be with the person I want to be with for the rest of my life. "Ugh…" I suddenly felt uneasy with the headache I just had, my fever wasn't going down too even if I already had taken some medicine earlier.Lunch time was already over and I still haven't eaten. All I could do was to keep laying down since I lost my appetite, and then bear the damn headache I get repeatedly. It was very annoying. I couldn't sleep properly either, so all I have left to do was nothing.I hate getting r
I immediately went back at the dorm so that I can check on Yuji. And when I got there, he was still laying on my bed. I felt a bit relieved when I saw he ate the food I made him.I quickly rushed to touch his forehead so I can check on his temperature. And fortunately, he was already doing good. "Phew, thank goodness his fever went down." I was really worried this morning, he was unusually hot... well he was always hot to me, but his fever is really something else this morning."Mmm, Toma?" Yuji woke up and stared at me with his sleepy eyes."Ah. I'm sorry I woke you up, you should go sleep more.""...m'kay." He closes his eyes again."I'll be leaving for a bit, I'm just going to buy us dinner." I told him, but he grabbed on my arm tightly. It's like he didn't
As Toma left, I felt an immeasurable amount of disappointment. Why did he left just like that? Won't he be start acting like a perv whenever he sees me naked? I settled down at his bed and thought hard about his actions. Why would he leave so suddenly? Is it because he don't want to see me anymore? Did he realize that he doesn't actually love me? Did he hate me now for the rude things I've done to him? "Aw shit." I feel like crying when I think about it. I'm not usually this emotional, maybe it's the fever working on it but still… why the heck did he just leave me!? Hours passed by and I couldn't sleep a wink. I haven't even eaten the food he bought. My mind just kept going on and on about Toma. I wanted to call him over the phone though I doubt he'll answer. My fever also went down while I was tirelessly thinking of him, I decided to go f
"Toma, do you want to break up with me?" This was too sudden, I think I'm not prepared if he does say he wants to but the earlier the better. I'll recover as soon as I get this over with.His eyes just widens from surprise. He takes my hands and looked at me seriously. "W-What?! I would never! What made you think I want to break up with you?""I-It's just that lately I've been the worst to you, right?""Yuji…""I know I'm making you sad by keeping this relationship a secret… and it's just as hard for me to keep acting like this too. You must hate me for being like this—""Quit that non-sense!" He pulled me closer and kissed me. "I don't care about that at all. All that matters to me is that you're mine."
I opened my eyes to find myself burried in Toma's chest. It was already morning and I was a bit worried that he's going to be late for the first class. "Hey, aren't you going to attend class?""Not when you're sick, I got to take better care of my boyfriend, you know?""I'll be in your care then." I said, smiling.He just laughs nervously and blushed hard. "Yeah, and uhm, about last night. I just want to make things clear, I meant all of what I said. Are you not bothered by it?"I chuckled and had to admit something myself. "You know given my circumstances, I'm quite the same. I always see you in a different way before though I always tell myself that you're just a friend. But the feelings were undeniable whenever those girls approach you, I think I'm a jealous type."
It took a couple of days after i recovered from the fever. Fortunately, I was able to catch up to the classes I missed and it was all thanks to Toma's efforts in taking notes and in teaching me too. "Ahh~ I really missed walking outdoors with you." He said while we were on our way to our first class."So do I." I said, smiling."Wanna hangout somewhere after classes?" Toma asked.I raised an eyebrow at him. "No. We got to study, we're almost done for the last semester. We should get serious on this for a better future."He giggles and teased me. "Look at you, so concerned about your future.""Yeah, we really should be. Don't you want your future to be secured?""Hmm, good point. I'll think more about that." He said.
Since Toma had something to do with his other friends, I was left alone to go home. It felt nice being by myself once in a while and I get to sort my thoughts in a more focused manner. I went to the mall to buy some stuff out of boredom before going home.And everytime my eyes see a couple passing by, it would remind me of my thoughts of earlier. Will things be better between us if I was the other gender? I'm still not entirely comfortable with my secret relationship with Toma. I was still very unsure of a lot things, but the only important thing I know right now is that I love him.While I look through some books in the novel section there was this unexpected person who approached me. "Hey! It's nice to see you again, Yuji." Yuu smiled very brightly."Ah, hey. Nice to see you too." I casually replied.
By the time the man finally left, mom even gave me loads of money so I could stay away from her. It was then I decided to cut ties with her. I was done dealing with her… "It was a mistake to stay here. I'm leaving." I never should've come back. "W-Wait!" Before mom could stop me, I quickly got to my room and brought all my stuff with me. "Toma, please! Please hear me out!" "…IT'S TOO LATE FOR AN APOLOGY! Don't even think that I'll ever forgive you." I told her while I was running down the stairs. She just kept pulling my stuff to make it more difficult to leave. "No, Toma! I can't—" "Don't stop me!" I glared at her, "I don't want anything to do with you ever again."
Nobody ever knows about it.I kept that very dark secret of mine all to myself. I can't even bother myself to tell my mom about what happened to me, I know she won't give a shit about it. And so, everything that I ever experienced from that man was written down on a journal. That was the only way I could vent all the stress and anger I had.While she was still on a relationship with that man, I would always hide from him so he won't be able to lay a finger on me. But there were times that he would sneak in my room just to make me suffer for his disgusting pleasure. He would often leave with a threat so I wouldn't dare tell anyone about it.I was really scared… no one was ever there for me. But instead of letting myself suffer even more, I try to make myself distracted when I'm out of the house.Y
We moved into a new neighborhood when I was at the age of eight. That's when I met Yuji, the guy who became my best friend… the guy who I came to like. And the one who I fell for.He became the person who I would run to whenever I'm at my worst. Yuji would always welcome me at his house, both his parents treating me like I was a part of their family. I really loved his company, it lets me feel all the things I lacked on my own family."Tomakawa, don't your parents worry if you spend the night here without telling them?" Auntie asked.I shook my head and gave my brightest smile. "They won't. Mommy said it's okay if it's at my best friend's house." It was a lie, and I was not guilty one bit. I don't really want to go home that night."Hmm, alright then."A
When I was about five years old, I can remember how my parents would argue all the time. It eventually led to physical violence, and sometimes I get hurt as well. It was really scary for a child to experience something like that from his own parents.If I remember well, the one who's most at fault for all the arguments was mom. Dad would always come home late and drunk, then mom will start to complain. They argue, fight, and mess up the house."Stop telling me what to do, woman!""I told you a million times already, haven't I?! Stop getting yourself drunk whenever you go home!""Shut up and lock yourself in a room. Seeing your face ruins my mood!""Why, you!… you should be the one locking yourself in a room! You're a wretched mess!"&nb
Since I was kicked out of school, the only place I can stay at was at my mother's house. It sickens me to go back there but I have no other choice. "Hm. And what do you think you're doing here?" Mom asked. Just when I arrived, I didn't expect to see her outside the house to water the plants. Usually, she fools with every man she brings home most of the time. "I'll be here for a few days, I'll leave as soon as I find another place to stay at." "Heh, I heard you were kicked out of school." "None of your business." I just ignored her comments and got inside the house. Seeing this place only reminded me of the past I always wished to forget. Every room, every corner… it was all too disturbing for me. After opening the lock on my room, it was just like how
That was it.Everything is over.I no longer have anything to do with him. When I got back from the hospital, I learned that Yuji's father had storm at my place and took all of Yuji's belonging. They said he'll transfer his son onto another school because of me, though he had never mentioned to the faculty the reasons. But rumors seem to have already spread because of Yuu."How disgusting! The school should expel him.""Is it really that guy?!""I heard he was sexually assaulting his roommate, that's why the father of the victim took away his son.""That fag is a scum!"Many people kept whispering behind my back as I walk on the hallways. I couldn't care less about what they s
As the sun rises, Toma immediately went to the hospital for Yuji. He hopes to see him conscious when he arrives, though it was unfortunate that he found Yuji still sleeping. He also discovered something worse, his worries on Yuji has double.Toma quickly calls for help and as the doctor arrived, things were explained to him. "…we have seen this through our observation on the patient last night. These tiny red spots you see on his skin is called petechiea. It's a symptom for many diseases. We're currently testing from which disease it comes from.""How come I was not told about this!? I—" the doctor cuts him off before he could throw a fit."We have already informed his father sir. We thought you must have been informed through him."Toma was stunned to know that Yuji's father didn't told hi
"…Yuji." Toma muttered while he was sitting on a chair near Yuji's bed. When Yuji was admitted to the hospital, he stayed beside him the whole time after he settled things with Yuu at the police station. He also informed Yuji's dad about the situation because he needed extra hands on this.Toma can't keep his eyes off Yuji's broken hands. It pains him to see that it was wrapped in thick bandages because the doctor told him that every bone in his hands were broken into bits. This would mean that Yuji won't be able to use his hands anymore, he can imagine how devastated Yuji will be when he finds out about his hand.'That damn Yuu. I'll get him for this.' He suddenly wished he beaten up Yuu just as bad as how Yuji was beaten—no, he wanted to double the pain, because aside from Yuji he was also hurt to see the one he love like this.Th
Toma was greatly bothered when Yuji got to the campus earlier than him. It made him doubt that Yuji might have been troubled by something, and it annoyed the hell out of him that he can't figure what it was."Haa. I lost interest attending first class." He muttered.And so he spent most of his time laying on his bed, reminiscing about the cheerful times he had with Yuji. Now that Yuji's gone to school, he never felt this lonely before. He tries to find comfort in every memory he shared with Yuji.When he got bored of it, he decided to have lunch at his favorite restaurant. But on his way there, he encountered a familiar face, though he wasn't noticed by this other fellow. It was Yuu. One of his acquaintances, though he was mostly ignored by Yuu because he seemed more interested in Yuji."Wait…" b