I opened my eyes to find myself burried in Toma's chest. It was already morning and I was a bit worried that he's going to be late for the first class. "Hey, aren't you going to attend class?"
"Not when you're sick, I got to take better care of my boyfriend, you know?"
"I'll be in your care then." I said, smiling.
He just laughs nervously and blushed hard. "Yeah, and uhm, about last night. I just want to make things clear, I meant all of what I said. Are you not bothered by it?"
I chuckled and had to admit something myself. "You know given my circumstances, I'm quite the same. I always see you in a different way before though I always tell myself that you're just a friend. But the feelings were undeniable whenever those girls approach you, I think I'm a jealous type."
It took a couple of days after i recovered from the fever. Fortunately, I was able to catch up to the classes I missed and it was all thanks to Toma's efforts in taking notes and in teaching me too. "Ahh~ I really missed walking outdoors with you." He said while we were on our way to our first class."So do I." I said, smiling."Wanna hangout somewhere after classes?" Toma asked.I raised an eyebrow at him. "No. We got to study, we're almost done for the last semester. We should get serious on this for a better future."He giggles and teased me. "Look at you, so concerned about your future.""Yeah, we really should be. Don't you want your future to be secured?""Hmm, good point. I'll think more about that." He said.
Since Toma had something to do with his other friends, I was left alone to go home. It felt nice being by myself once in a while and I get to sort my thoughts in a more focused manner. I went to the mall to buy some stuff out of boredom before going home.And everytime my eyes see a couple passing by, it would remind me of my thoughts of earlier. Will things be better between us if I was the other gender? I'm still not entirely comfortable with my secret relationship with Toma. I was still very unsure of a lot things, but the only important thing I know right now is that I love him.While I look through some books in the novel section there was this unexpected person who approached me. "Hey! It's nice to see you again, Yuji." Yuu smiled very brightly."Ah, hey. Nice to see you too." I casually replied.
I didn't get to buy anything when I came back home. My mind was still taking in every word that Yuu had said to me. What the hell did he meant by telling me all of that? This is definitely blackmailing but what is he doing this for!? That Yuu… he's a psychopath! Can't he just mind his own business?! "Hey, I'm back!" Toma said when he opened the door. I tried my best to change the expression on my face before things get out of my hands. Toma must not know about this. "Hey." I forced a smile. "So, anything interesting that happened?" Maybe it's best if I don't think about it while Toma is here. "Hng, not really. They just made me carry some stuff and bought me some food in return." "Atleast you were useful." I teased.
He's definitely hiding something from me."Damn it Yuji, can't you even trust me?" I sighed as I grabbed some snacks off the shelf. I don't feel like seeing him like that right now so I thought of taking a stroll somewhere.After buying the stuff I need, I head some place who knows where. I kept staring at a distance while I sipping on my drink. "Haa… I should've brought an extra jacket."Lately it's been too cold…I'm happy but sometimes I feel like I'm suffocating, is this how it is being with Yuji? It's like a rollercoaster with so many twist and turns. I know he loves me but the way he pushes me away these past few days kinda hits hard. The way how restricted our relationship is, it's almost like a crime to hold his hand in public."Heh, but I
Ever since I encountered Yuu at the mall, I can't help but to be anxious with every eyes glancing at me. I must be overthinking things, and I can't even shake these stupid thoughts off. This is why I went to the campus seperately."Yo, Toma isn't with you?" Hino sat next to me."Y-Yeah, he'll probably be here later.""Oh okay…" and he continues to talk randomly. I can't really follow what he's talking because I was still bothered by so many thoughts.Will Yuu show up today?Is Toma upset with me for going here seperately?…should I just break it off with Toma?"—oi, Yuji!""…oh, what is it?" Shit, I guess I
"Ah!" Yuji fell on the ground as Yuu gave him another hit. He was badly beaten by Yuu along with another guy. While getting beaten, Yuji thought so hard of what reason Yuu could possibly have against him. What has he ever done to him to resort onto a situation like this?"You. Disgusting. Fag!" The two laughed as they kept kicking Yuji down when he tries to get up.They also keep taking some pictures on their phones while they beat Yuji. "…ell… e…""Hm? Is there something you want to say?" Yuu asked in a mocking tone. He grabs Yuji on the hair and lifts his face off the ground. "Don't keep me waiting, I'll smash your annoying face on the floor.""…tell… me… what did I ever do to you?" He asked with all the strength left in him.
"And for the winner of this theatrical competition!… the North Peaches High School!"The crowd roared happily, agreeing with the results of the competition. All that performed on stage was great and entertaining, but not as good as the winner of the competition. Though the achievement of the North Peaches High School wouldn't be possible with it's lead, Yujiro.Many have admired his talent in acting, and it is also said that with his talent, it is possible to reach higher grounds if he continue to mold and pursue his talent.There was also this one person who claims to admire Yuji the most, Yuu. He was also an aspiring actor like Yuji, he wants to be someone just like him. And so he thought of getting some advice from this person himself.Yuu was confident that words from his idol will definitely
"…I thought you'll come to my performance when I told you about it, but it really pissed me off when you ditched it. I thought I might finally have you acknowledge my talent."Now that it was all clear for Yuji, he greatly felt guilty for making someone feel so horrible. It also reminded him how bad he treated Toma."I… I'm sorry." He weakly mutters.Yuu glares at Yuji. "It's already too late for that.""I'm sorry.""I said it's too late for that!" Yuu stands up to get something he hid behind the dumpster near them. And as Yuu gets closer to his victim, Yuji was frozen in fear of the hammer in sight. "Which one should I choose first? Your hands? Feet? Man, so many choices!""T-That thing will kill me!"
By the time the man finally left, mom even gave me loads of money so I could stay away from her. It was then I decided to cut ties with her. I was done dealing with her… "It was a mistake to stay here. I'm leaving." I never should've come back. "W-Wait!" Before mom could stop me, I quickly got to my room and brought all my stuff with me. "Toma, please! Please hear me out!" "…IT'S TOO LATE FOR AN APOLOGY! Don't even think that I'll ever forgive you." I told her while I was running down the stairs. She just kept pulling my stuff to make it more difficult to leave. "No, Toma! I can't—" "Don't stop me!" I glared at her, "I don't want anything to do with you ever again."
Nobody ever knows about it.I kept that very dark secret of mine all to myself. I can't even bother myself to tell my mom about what happened to me, I know she won't give a shit about it. And so, everything that I ever experienced from that man was written down on a journal. That was the only way I could vent all the stress and anger I had.While she was still on a relationship with that man, I would always hide from him so he won't be able to lay a finger on me. But there were times that he would sneak in my room just to make me suffer for his disgusting pleasure. He would often leave with a threat so I wouldn't dare tell anyone about it.I was really scared… no one was ever there for me. But instead of letting myself suffer even more, I try to make myself distracted when I'm out of the house.Y
We moved into a new neighborhood when I was at the age of eight. That's when I met Yuji, the guy who became my best friend… the guy who I came to like. And the one who I fell for.He became the person who I would run to whenever I'm at my worst. Yuji would always welcome me at his house, both his parents treating me like I was a part of their family. I really loved his company, it lets me feel all the things I lacked on my own family."Tomakawa, don't your parents worry if you spend the night here without telling them?" Auntie asked.I shook my head and gave my brightest smile. "They won't. Mommy said it's okay if it's at my best friend's house." It was a lie, and I was not guilty one bit. I don't really want to go home that night."Hmm, alright then."A
When I was about five years old, I can remember how my parents would argue all the time. It eventually led to physical violence, and sometimes I get hurt as well. It was really scary for a child to experience something like that from his own parents.If I remember well, the one who's most at fault for all the arguments was mom. Dad would always come home late and drunk, then mom will start to complain. They argue, fight, and mess up the house."Stop telling me what to do, woman!""I told you a million times already, haven't I?! Stop getting yourself drunk whenever you go home!""Shut up and lock yourself in a room. Seeing your face ruins my mood!""Why, you!… you should be the one locking yourself in a room! You're a wretched mess!"&nb
Since I was kicked out of school, the only place I can stay at was at my mother's house. It sickens me to go back there but I have no other choice. "Hm. And what do you think you're doing here?" Mom asked. Just when I arrived, I didn't expect to see her outside the house to water the plants. Usually, she fools with every man she brings home most of the time. "I'll be here for a few days, I'll leave as soon as I find another place to stay at." "Heh, I heard you were kicked out of school." "None of your business." I just ignored her comments and got inside the house. Seeing this place only reminded me of the past I always wished to forget. Every room, every corner… it was all too disturbing for me. After opening the lock on my room, it was just like how
That was it.Everything is over.I no longer have anything to do with him. When I got back from the hospital, I learned that Yuji's father had storm at my place and took all of Yuji's belonging. They said he'll transfer his son onto another school because of me, though he had never mentioned to the faculty the reasons. But rumors seem to have already spread because of Yuu."How disgusting! The school should expel him.""Is it really that guy?!""I heard he was sexually assaulting his roommate, that's why the father of the victim took away his son.""That fag is a scum!"Many people kept whispering behind my back as I walk on the hallways. I couldn't care less about what they s
As the sun rises, Toma immediately went to the hospital for Yuji. He hopes to see him conscious when he arrives, though it was unfortunate that he found Yuji still sleeping. He also discovered something worse, his worries on Yuji has double.Toma quickly calls for help and as the doctor arrived, things were explained to him. "…we have seen this through our observation on the patient last night. These tiny red spots you see on his skin is called petechiea. It's a symptom for many diseases. We're currently testing from which disease it comes from.""How come I was not told about this!? I—" the doctor cuts him off before he could throw a fit."We have already informed his father sir. We thought you must have been informed through him."Toma was stunned to know that Yuji's father didn't told hi
"…Yuji." Toma muttered while he was sitting on a chair near Yuji's bed. When Yuji was admitted to the hospital, he stayed beside him the whole time after he settled things with Yuu at the police station. He also informed Yuji's dad about the situation because he needed extra hands on this.Toma can't keep his eyes off Yuji's broken hands. It pains him to see that it was wrapped in thick bandages because the doctor told him that every bone in his hands were broken into bits. This would mean that Yuji won't be able to use his hands anymore, he can imagine how devastated Yuji will be when he finds out about his hand.'That damn Yuu. I'll get him for this.' He suddenly wished he beaten up Yuu just as bad as how Yuji was beaten—no, he wanted to double the pain, because aside from Yuji he was also hurt to see the one he love like this.Th
Toma was greatly bothered when Yuji got to the campus earlier than him. It made him doubt that Yuji might have been troubled by something, and it annoyed the hell out of him that he can't figure what it was."Haa. I lost interest attending first class." He muttered.And so he spent most of his time laying on his bed, reminiscing about the cheerful times he had with Yuji. Now that Yuji's gone to school, he never felt this lonely before. He tries to find comfort in every memory he shared with Yuji.When he got bored of it, he decided to have lunch at his favorite restaurant. But on his way there, he encountered a familiar face, though he wasn't noticed by this other fellow. It was Yuu. One of his acquaintances, though he was mostly ignored by Yuu because he seemed more interested in Yuji."Wait…" b