"Damn it Toma, we're going to miss the first day urgh…" I closed my eyes, avoiding any light that shines on my face.
Toma who was at the lower part of this bunk bed started throwing up at the bucket beside his bed. "Bwaargh…! Ugh, s-sorry." He said, sounding so weak.
"You said just a drink or two, but we both ended up with five bottles."
"Uuugh, I said I'm sorry."
"Right. Let's swear not to ever do this again."
"Agreed."
Then both of us spent the whole day recovering from our hangovers. However Toma has it worst than me all because he got drunk more than I did. "Yujiii… my head is killing me. Can you get me some water?" He cried out.
"You do that yourself, my head is aching too."
"But you seem better than me."
"No."
"I've been continuously throwing up earlier, have you no mercy?"
"And whose fault was it to get you into that state?"
He groaned. "…Yujiiii." He cried like a baby.
"You bafoon! I'm not your mom or something like that. Heck, you're even taller than I am! You take care of yourself." I complained.
Then he whimpered like a pup abandoned by its owner, he knows well that it's gonna piss me off when he does that. "Argh! Fine, fine! Stop it."
"Hehe, thanks dude. I owe you one."
"No, you owe me a lot." I've been doing these kinds of things for him since we were kids. I used to be the one clean up his mess, and unfortunately up until now I still do.
When I climb down, my day got even worse.
sfx: clack! Blag!
"…aww! Damn it Toma! Why did you have to put your puke bucket under the ladder." Now I'm covered with his vomit all thanks to this idiot! "Ah! I'm really sorry, Yuji!" He stands up from his bed like he wasn't sick at all, and started to help me get up from the floor.
Since he was already up, I let him fix the mess he made while I rest on his bed. After that, he lays down next to me which annoyed me. "Don't lie down here!…"
"But this is my bed."
"Oh come on, don't make me climb up. My back still hurts from the fall."
"Yeah, sorry about that. But I don't want to move from here."
"It's awkward with two dudes sleeping on the same bed." I told him.
"Ugh, yeah this is pretty… gay." Then it did became awkward after that, due to my short temper, I just pushed him off his bed claiming it all to myself. "Yujiii!"
"Just sleep on the floor! Think of this as punishment to your idiocy."
"But the floor is cold!"
I tossed one of his pillow and blanket to him. "There, now go to sleep."
"Urgh, I hate hangovers." He mumbled, and soon snores so loudly when he falls asleep leaving me awake from the noise and dealing with my headache. Ah, what a way to start the first day of school.
It wasn't much an issue to be absent on the first day, even some of the subjects started introductions at the second day so Toma and I were both safe from strict professors. And yes, both of us took the same course that we agreed on since we were in highschool."Hey! Toma, Yuji! It's nice to see you again, guys." Hino greeted, another friend of mine. He's much like Toma, a pretty boy with girls tailing him.Ugh, how do I even got to be friends with a bunch of pretty faces? I can't catch up with them when it comes to looks, I actually look pretty average, but these guys?… oh nevermind."Yooo, it's been a while. I see what you've done with your hair, it looks great." Toma praised Hino as soon as he sees his shorter hair. He used to have long hair that reaches his shoulder which sometimes makes him look like a girl sometime with his pretty face. Now he looks a bit more manly."Thanks, but I'm going to grow it out again
"…let's avoid each other for a while.""HUH!?""You heard me, I won't repeat myself.""What's with you all of a sudden!?" After the whole day of school, I decided to talk about distancing with Toma."Let's say…" Though I can't tell him that some people mistook us for a gay couple because we're together all the time. I came prepared to answer his question with the excuse I thought of earlier. "…we both each need to be in different environments without seeing each other for a while.""Why?""It isn't good that you always stick with me. Somehow, I feel like I've been taking care of a little brother whenever you're around." I told him.He sulks as he hears my reason. "I'm not a kid!""Then act like your age.""Also we're best friends right? So why are you pushing me away?"I sighed at the sight of him questioning me. He
As I got meet up with Hino, I saw him waiting for me at the cafe we agreed to meet up at. "Hey dude!" He greeted.I sat on the chair at the other side of his table. "You know, I'm still not used to seeing you with that haircut. It suits you though.""Thanks. Although this won't last long. I'm definitely going to grow it out again." He touches his hair, unsatisfied with its length."Long hair makes you look like a girl. Well, it's just your face that's girly.""Are you implying that my face looks feminine?" It was weird his face flushed, even so I just ignored it."Yep. But with your body, it's otherwise. You're too tall and muscular for a girl."He chuckles. "You guys keep saying I look like a girl when I have long hair, but no one ever notices you."An eyebrow of mine raised. "What do you mean?""Well, there were times I noticed that you looked gir
I woke up earlier than Toma so we can seperately go to school on our own. I bet it pretty much upsets him that he won't be able to go there with me. He's pretty much used with going to school with me, however, that won't be happening today.I just hope things go well for him."…huh. Something is different." My seatmate Xia said."Nothing new out of the ordinary." I told her as I sat next to her."No, no. There's definitely something different with you today." Then her eyes gazed on the person who entered class. We both saw Toma coming in alone.There our eyes met, he smiles a little at me then goes to his seat without a worry. Xia then realized what she saw different in her perspective. "That's it! You haven't gone to school with your boyfriend!""What!?--I don't have a boyfriend! I'm a guy, I'm not gay!" Seriously, this girl is annoying. She just giggles as I glared at her.
It's been a week now since I started to seperate myself from Toma. These past few days were peaceful, but it was kind of lonely for some reason. It's not that I wasn't talking to other people to completely isolate myself… maybe I was also just used to have Toma with me.We actually see each other since we share the same room at the dorm, but we both made great effort to keep things in minimal, like our talks and other stuff. Also, I noticed that Toma found something for himself to be indulged in, so every seven at night he would go out and do whatever he got himself into."Hey, I'll be late again tonight. So don't lock the door on me." He often tells me that whenever he's going out."Just get the spare keys in the drawer." I told him while reading a book for my socialist class."I can't, I might lose them." Ah, it's in his nature to be careless with every small thing he possess."Whatever. I'll just
It's funny how fast time passes. And everytime a day is over, it feels like the distance between Toma and I grows bigger and bigger. He's slowly drifting away from me… "maybe I shouldn't have told him to avoid me that time.""Who are you talking about?" Xia interfered with my thoughts.That made me realize that I was talking out loud unconsciously. "Ah, nothing. Don't mind me.""Uh-huh, right." She gave me a look of disbelief. "Something's bothering you, you can't even focus on your part of the research right now."Looking at the screen of my laptop, it was still an empty draft. I really am distracted by these annoying thoughts."Ugh, I guess I need to take a rest first.""Okay, just don't forget we have to pass this next week." She told me."Yeah I'll be taking my leave now." When I was about to put my things in my bag, Xia suddenly mentioned something that blew my
It wasn't so long when I began to realize what my life would be without my bestfriend Toma. He was always the sociable guy while I was just someone who tagged along. I wasn't so friendly with the other guys he always used to hang out with other than me.So whenever lunch time arrives, I always find myself sitting alone at the cafeteria. Then I often see Toma with his other friends with him, as well as his girlfriend Cami."Never knew it would be like this." I muttered to myself, sometimes wishing I never suggested to avoid one another."…hey."I looked at the person by my side and saw Xia. "Oh it's you.""Yeah, got a room to spare here?" She asked with a cheeky smile."There's plenty of room as you can see, so be my guest." I told her, with a bit of sarcastic tone."Hahaha, sure." She sat right next to me. Ugh, of all places, this girl is really annoying.
"I'm Noru, a friend of Toma.""Oh…" so this was the guy who helped Toma with Cami. "I believe we met before. I always saw you with him when we were freshmen.""Ah yeah, I'm a friend of Toma and as well as a childhood friend." I told him.He smirks as he pass by, "It doesn't seem like it anymore."…jerk.After that, I left the restro0m and continued my day without a hassle. Though it quite bothered my mind about the guy from the restroom and Xia confessing to me. I'm getting mixed emotions by thinking about it.The next day wasn't so easy, when I saw Xia. It was awkward like I expected. "Uhm, hey." I kind of… greeted."Y-Yeah." She couldn't even make eye-contact with me.I attempted to find another seat but everything in the room was taken, so I had no other choice but to sit next to her. When I take a glance at her, I noticed how stiff she is.
By the time the man finally left, mom even gave me loads of money so I could stay away from her. It was then I decided to cut ties with her. I was done dealing with her… "It was a mistake to stay here. I'm leaving." I never should've come back. "W-Wait!" Before mom could stop me, I quickly got to my room and brought all my stuff with me. "Toma, please! Please hear me out!" "…IT'S TOO LATE FOR AN APOLOGY! Don't even think that I'll ever forgive you." I told her while I was running down the stairs. She just kept pulling my stuff to make it more difficult to leave. "No, Toma! I can't—" "Don't stop me!" I glared at her, "I don't want anything to do with you ever again."
Nobody ever knows about it.I kept that very dark secret of mine all to myself. I can't even bother myself to tell my mom about what happened to me, I know she won't give a shit about it. And so, everything that I ever experienced from that man was written down on a journal. That was the only way I could vent all the stress and anger I had.While she was still on a relationship with that man, I would always hide from him so he won't be able to lay a finger on me. But there were times that he would sneak in my room just to make me suffer for his disgusting pleasure. He would often leave with a threat so I wouldn't dare tell anyone about it.I was really scared… no one was ever there for me. But instead of letting myself suffer even more, I try to make myself distracted when I'm out of the house.Y
We moved into a new neighborhood when I was at the age of eight. That's when I met Yuji, the guy who became my best friend… the guy who I came to like. And the one who I fell for.He became the person who I would run to whenever I'm at my worst. Yuji would always welcome me at his house, both his parents treating me like I was a part of their family. I really loved his company, it lets me feel all the things I lacked on my own family."Tomakawa, don't your parents worry if you spend the night here without telling them?" Auntie asked.I shook my head and gave my brightest smile. "They won't. Mommy said it's okay if it's at my best friend's house." It was a lie, and I was not guilty one bit. I don't really want to go home that night."Hmm, alright then."A
When I was about five years old, I can remember how my parents would argue all the time. It eventually led to physical violence, and sometimes I get hurt as well. It was really scary for a child to experience something like that from his own parents.If I remember well, the one who's most at fault for all the arguments was mom. Dad would always come home late and drunk, then mom will start to complain. They argue, fight, and mess up the house."Stop telling me what to do, woman!""I told you a million times already, haven't I?! Stop getting yourself drunk whenever you go home!""Shut up and lock yourself in a room. Seeing your face ruins my mood!""Why, you!… you should be the one locking yourself in a room! You're a wretched mess!"&nb
Since I was kicked out of school, the only place I can stay at was at my mother's house. It sickens me to go back there but I have no other choice. "Hm. And what do you think you're doing here?" Mom asked. Just when I arrived, I didn't expect to see her outside the house to water the plants. Usually, she fools with every man she brings home most of the time. "I'll be here for a few days, I'll leave as soon as I find another place to stay at." "Heh, I heard you were kicked out of school." "None of your business." I just ignored her comments and got inside the house. Seeing this place only reminded me of the past I always wished to forget. Every room, every corner… it was all too disturbing for me. After opening the lock on my room, it was just like how
That was it.Everything is over.I no longer have anything to do with him. When I got back from the hospital, I learned that Yuji's father had storm at my place and took all of Yuji's belonging. They said he'll transfer his son onto another school because of me, though he had never mentioned to the faculty the reasons. But rumors seem to have already spread because of Yuu."How disgusting! The school should expel him.""Is it really that guy?!""I heard he was sexually assaulting his roommate, that's why the father of the victim took away his son.""That fag is a scum!"Many people kept whispering behind my back as I walk on the hallways. I couldn't care less about what they s
As the sun rises, Toma immediately went to the hospital for Yuji. He hopes to see him conscious when he arrives, though it was unfortunate that he found Yuji still sleeping. He also discovered something worse, his worries on Yuji has double.Toma quickly calls for help and as the doctor arrived, things were explained to him. "…we have seen this through our observation on the patient last night. These tiny red spots you see on his skin is called petechiea. It's a symptom for many diseases. We're currently testing from which disease it comes from.""How come I was not told about this!? I—" the doctor cuts him off before he could throw a fit."We have already informed his father sir. We thought you must have been informed through him."Toma was stunned to know that Yuji's father didn't told hi
"…Yuji." Toma muttered while he was sitting on a chair near Yuji's bed. When Yuji was admitted to the hospital, he stayed beside him the whole time after he settled things with Yuu at the police station. He also informed Yuji's dad about the situation because he needed extra hands on this.Toma can't keep his eyes off Yuji's broken hands. It pains him to see that it was wrapped in thick bandages because the doctor told him that every bone in his hands were broken into bits. This would mean that Yuji won't be able to use his hands anymore, he can imagine how devastated Yuji will be when he finds out about his hand.'That damn Yuu. I'll get him for this.' He suddenly wished he beaten up Yuu just as bad as how Yuji was beaten—no, he wanted to double the pain, because aside from Yuji he was also hurt to see the one he love like this.Th
Toma was greatly bothered when Yuji got to the campus earlier than him. It made him doubt that Yuji might have been troubled by something, and it annoyed the hell out of him that he can't figure what it was."Haa. I lost interest attending first class." He muttered.And so he spent most of his time laying on his bed, reminiscing about the cheerful times he had with Yuji. Now that Yuji's gone to school, he never felt this lonely before. He tries to find comfort in every memory he shared with Yuji.When he got bored of it, he decided to have lunch at his favorite restaurant. But on his way there, he encountered a familiar face, though he wasn't noticed by this other fellow. It was Yuu. One of his acquaintances, though he was mostly ignored by Yuu because he seemed more interested in Yuji."Wait…" b