"I'm Noru, a friend of Toma."
"Oh…" so this was the guy who helped Toma with Cami. "I believe we met before. I always saw you with him when we were freshmen."
"Ah yeah, I'm a friend of Toma and as well as a childhood friend." I told him.
He smirks as he pass by, "It doesn't seem like it anymore."
…jerk.
After that, I left the restro0m and continued my day without a hassle. Though it quite bothered my mind about the guy from the restroom and Xia confessing to me. I'm getting mixed emotions by thinking about it.
The next day wasn't so easy, when I saw Xia. It was awkward like I expected. "Uhm, hey." I kind of… greeted.
"Y-Yeah." She couldn't even make eye-contact with me.
I attempted to find another seat but everything in the room was taken, so I had no other choice but to sit next to her. When I take a glance at her, I noticed how stiff she is.
She's definitely uncomfortable with me because I know she likes me now.
This will be a problem if it keeps up, interaction with her isn't necessary that much but she's my research partner. And we haven't even done half of the research yet. So I devised a plan for Xia that I can execute when lunch time comes.
"Xia, do you have a moment?" I was the first to approach, I hope she doesn't avoid me like those romantic clichès.
"S-Sure."
"Cool, can we have lunch together? I think we should talk about the matter yesterday… and about our research papers."
She nods while looking flustered and focused her eyes on the ground, "Okay."
"Let's meet up later then, see ya."
As I was done with ordering my food, I found Xia waiting for me at my usual spot in the cafeteria. "Hey." She smiles sweetly.
"…thanks for sparing time for me."
"It's no biggie. So… what do you want to talk about?" It was written all over her face of how anxious she was, and I admire her for being so brave to face things like this on her own.
"Firstly, I'm done with my part of the research so here's the data." I handed her the flash drive, and as soon as she got it, I got straight to the point with my second objective in this conversation. "So, about yesterday… your confession."
Despite knowing this might happened, she's still quite shaken about me confronting her about it. "Yeah. It was a ridiculous confession! I suggest we both just forget about it." Her eyes says otherwise. I could see a little hope glittering in her eyes.
"But Xia--"
"Aaaah please! I know I'm gonna get rejected, but please spare my feelings and just forget about it. It's also very embarassing for me." Ah, so she have got to a conclusion that I'll reject her.
"Xia."
"I know, I know. Though you don't have to worry about the research papers, I'll do my part until the very end and after that I won't bother y--"
"Xia!"
"I promise not to ever bother you again, ever!"
"Xia, I'm not rejecting you!" I yelled out loud.
"--Really, I won't ever bother you, huh? What did you just say now?" She asked, looking unsure about what she just heard.
"I said, I'm not rejecting you, rather…" Looking at her face that looked at me with curiosity made me feel a bit awkward. "Would you go out with me?"
Her curious face evolved into a shade of red with her mouth gaping.
By the time the man finally left, mom even gave me loads of money so I could stay away from her. It was then I decided to cut ties with her. I was done dealing with her… "It was a mistake to stay here. I'm leaving." I never should've come back. "W-Wait!" Before mom could stop me, I quickly got to my room and brought all my stuff with me. "Toma, please! Please hear me out!" "…IT'S TOO LATE FOR AN APOLOGY! Don't even think that I'll ever forgive you." I told her while I was running down the stairs. She just kept pulling my stuff to make it more difficult to leave. "No, Toma! I can't—" "Don't stop me!" I glared at her, "I don't want anything to do with you ever again."
Nobody ever knows about it.I kept that very dark secret of mine all to myself. I can't even bother myself to tell my mom about what happened to me, I know she won't give a shit about it. And so, everything that I ever experienced from that man was written down on a journal. That was the only way I could vent all the stress and anger I had.While she was still on a relationship with that man, I would always hide from him so he won't be able to lay a finger on me. But there were times that he would sneak in my room just to make me suffer for his disgusting pleasure. He would often leave with a threat so I wouldn't dare tell anyone about it.I was really scared… no one was ever there for me. But instead of letting myself suffer even more, I try to make myself distracted when I'm out of the house.Y
We moved into a new neighborhood when I was at the age of eight. That's when I met Yuji, the guy who became my best friend… the guy who I came to like. And the one who I fell for.He became the person who I would run to whenever I'm at my worst. Yuji would always welcome me at his house, both his parents treating me like I was a part of their family. I really loved his company, it lets me feel all the things I lacked on my own family."Tomakawa, don't your parents worry if you spend the night here without telling them?" Auntie asked.I shook my head and gave my brightest smile. "They won't. Mommy said it's okay if it's at my best friend's house." It was a lie, and I was not guilty one bit. I don't really want to go home that night."Hmm, alright then."A
When I was about five years old, I can remember how my parents would argue all the time. It eventually led to physical violence, and sometimes I get hurt as well. It was really scary for a child to experience something like that from his own parents.If I remember well, the one who's most at fault for all the arguments was mom. Dad would always come home late and drunk, then mom will start to complain. They argue, fight, and mess up the house."Stop telling me what to do, woman!""I told you a million times already, haven't I?! Stop getting yourself drunk whenever you go home!""Shut up and lock yourself in a room. Seeing your face ruins my mood!""Why, you!… you should be the one locking yourself in a room! You're a wretched mess!"&nb
Since I was kicked out of school, the only place I can stay at was at my mother's house. It sickens me to go back there but I have no other choice. "Hm. And what do you think you're doing here?" Mom asked. Just when I arrived, I didn't expect to see her outside the house to water the plants. Usually, she fools with every man she brings home most of the time. "I'll be here for a few days, I'll leave as soon as I find another place to stay at." "Heh, I heard you were kicked out of school." "None of your business." I just ignored her comments and got inside the house. Seeing this place only reminded me of the past I always wished to forget. Every room, every corner… it was all too disturbing for me. After opening the lock on my room, it was just like how
That was it.Everything is over.I no longer have anything to do with him. When I got back from the hospital, I learned that Yuji's father had storm at my place and took all of Yuji's belonging. They said he'll transfer his son onto another school because of me, though he had never mentioned to the faculty the reasons. But rumors seem to have already spread because of Yuu."How disgusting! The school should expel him.""Is it really that guy?!""I heard he was sexually assaulting his roommate, that's why the father of the victim took away his son.""That fag is a scum!"Many people kept whispering behind my back as I walk on the hallways. I couldn't care less about what they s