We had to skip school today because Toma got sick. I had to take care of him or he might get even more sick. When I touched his forehead, his temperature is really high and he's even trembling more because of the fever.
"Why did you even think of going under the rain and getting yourself sick? I'll blame you if one of the professors fail me." I told him as I tuck him in his bed. He only smiles and think positively about it.
"I'll treat you well on the weekend then. Let me be your sugar daddy." He joked.
"Seriously?" I gave him a disgusted look.
"Hey I'm serious about treating you."
"Then I'll take on that offer."
"Great, I guess your good with taking care of me today." He looked happy as he said that.
I sighed, already feeling tired of taking care of him. "You're, .
lucky I'm here." Then I sat beside him as I checked on my phone.
"Yeah,
It was good that Toma recovered quickly, when we got back to school there was a lot of catching up to do. Those weren't the only things that bothered me though. I quite often catch Xia taking a glance on me, and when there was this guy came to pick her up, she'd shot another glance before leaving.Weird and annoying, that was the only things I could feel of at the moment."…Yuji, is there something wrong?" Toma asked. We were together having our lunch like the usual. These days, it seemed like he already forgotten about the three month distancing and kept on sticking with me.It's not like I'll try to push him away again, since I realized that he'll try to find ways to keep on hanging out with me. "Nothing, there was just this annoying fly that bothered me this first few subjects." I told him."Ahh, maybe you haven't washed yourself well. If you'd like, I'll help cleaning you." He casually said, that's when I hit hi
It's been a while since I broke up with Xia. It didn't really bothered me that much but I have to admit, those times I spent with her were actually pretty fun and sweet. The only thing I hate about her is the fact she's keeping her child a secret, who would've known a girl like her already got a kid?"Yuji! Help me with this homework!" Toma shouted."That's the third time you asked for help." I yelled back, minding my own unfinished work.Both of us were trying to finish all school work before we go back to our homes because we got a long weekend, though Toma decided to stay at my house when we get back."This is really difficult!" He complained and comes over. I quickly hide my stuff in case he starts copying it. "Come one Yuji, I'll never get this done.""Then why not call Cami to help you with that?""Eh?… she won't do that. And we're from different departments! And… and…" His fa
"Uncleeee!" When we arrived, Toma was the first one to greet my dad, as if he was the real son. Though it doen't upset me how he act like that, he only annoys me with his loud voice of his."Toma! Yuji! It's nice to see you two again." Dad said while patting Toma on the head like a dog."Yeah, we won't be here for long though, so let's dig in on that feast!" Toma excitedly got in the house first looking like a starved animal. I only sighed and went inside the house with my dad.It was nice being with dad again, I find it comforting to see him around. I just feel a bit sad sometimes whenever this house reminds me of mom. That's why I chose a boarding school, it was kind of unfortunate Toma had to tag along. I'm like babysitting and studying at the same time.As it was time to sleep, we had Toma use the guest room while I rest in mine. He insisted to sleep in my room, but I want him out of sight even once in a while.
When Yuji's dad left for work, the two had nothing else to do inside the house. They thought of hanging out at the mall but Yuji was too lazy to go out, and so they decided to just make some popcorn and watch a good movie.Toma presented to cook while Yuji searched for a movie they'll watch. And when he decided on a movie, Toma was already done with the popcorns. "What's the genre?" Toma asked."Horror." Yuji really liked scary films.Toma seemed displeased with it. "I don't think I can handle horror movies well.""Oh come on man, don't be such a baby." Yuji teased.Then it made Toma pout, thinking of it as a challenge from Yuji. "I'm not a baby! Fine, let's watch that movie." And so they sat next to each other as the movie started.Though it was a fact that Toma is a big baby, whenever there's a scene that would scare the shit out of him, Toma will cling onto Yuji. "The heck
That night, I wasn't able to sleep well because of that damn accidental kiss. We didn't made a fuss about it, and Toma even apologized for it… but I can't understand myself, why the fuck am I keep thinking of it!?Now I couldn't even look at Toma in the eyes."Yeah, the exams were hard but Yuji was there to help me study.""That's good to hear. It's nice to know Yuji is being such a good kid helping his friend.""He really is great!" I stayed silent the whole time that we were all eating breakfast. I feel like it wouldn't do me good to converse with them feeling so lightheaded because of my sleepness night."…by the way, aren't you going to visit your mother Toma?" My dad asked him."Oh. There's still a lot of time though, but I'll make sure to visit her too.""Say 'hi' for me when you visit.""Sure uncle.""Hmm, Yuji? You're silent
"It's about that stupid kiss, right?""Shut the fuck up, I don't want to hear a word about it!" He's really trying to push the button. I've made it clear that I didn't want to talk about, but he still did. Toma really knows how to piss me off."I knew it. Yuji, that was nothing! Why are you so sensitive about it!?""I told you I don't want to talk about it!" Damn it, he's too pushy right now."We should really talk about it, I mean, you're not even gay to fuss over that kind of thing… right?" As he said that, I could feel my blood rushing to my face, so I decided to look the other way. "Just shut up.""Yuji, are you… do you…" Somehow, his words made me feel confused and upset. I didn't like the thought of him talking about me that way.I gathered myself and tried to cool down, "I need sleep, okay? It's not really about that. I'm not avoiding you or something and I'm not gay either f
It was a lie that Toma got a call from his mother. He went straight back to the city where his school is, though he doesn't plan to spend his days at the dorm.As he knocked at a door, it took a few moments before it opened and Noru was too surprised to find Toma infront of his door again. "Oh my, you look like a mess." Noru couldn't even greet Toma when he noticed that he looked horrible."Let me stay in for a few days." Toma walked in Noru's apartment without a second thought.Noru was still in shock seeing Toma near him, and what's more surprising is to find the confident Toma looking down on the floor. He tried to talk to Toma to know what exactly happened to the guy. "Hmm, let me guess, were you rejected?" Noru even chuckled."…worse, I… I kissed Yuji." Toma said as he sat on Noru's couch.His statement even made Noru more shocked than he already is."Aaaand then? Isn't t
He didn't came back even after the vacation was done. As I got back to school before the day class resumes, and he still wasn't there. Where in the world could he be right now?"Woah, you looked like you were working out." That's what I first heard from Hino when I got to my first class. And there was still no sight of Toma, he was no where to be found. "Of course, that's what I've been doing this vacation. And so that I wouldn't look like a girl, just like how you've always teased me." I told him.It's true that I just started working out these past few days, instead of being worried and anxious about Toma's absence, I started to work out as a distraction. "Hahaha, great to hear. I guess I'll be looking forward to what you'll look like after a few months.""Yeah. Just you wait and see." I grinned. I'm looking forward to this as well.After the whole day, I tried searching for Toma for atleast an hour but decided to
By the time the man finally left, mom even gave me loads of money so I could stay away from her. It was then I decided to cut ties with her. I was done dealing with her… "It was a mistake to stay here. I'm leaving." I never should've come back. "W-Wait!" Before mom could stop me, I quickly got to my room and brought all my stuff with me. "Toma, please! Please hear me out!" "…IT'S TOO LATE FOR AN APOLOGY! Don't even think that I'll ever forgive you." I told her while I was running down the stairs. She just kept pulling my stuff to make it more difficult to leave. "No, Toma! I can't—" "Don't stop me!" I glared at her, "I don't want anything to do with you ever again."
Nobody ever knows about it.I kept that very dark secret of mine all to myself. I can't even bother myself to tell my mom about what happened to me, I know she won't give a shit about it. And so, everything that I ever experienced from that man was written down on a journal. That was the only way I could vent all the stress and anger I had.While she was still on a relationship with that man, I would always hide from him so he won't be able to lay a finger on me. But there were times that he would sneak in my room just to make me suffer for his disgusting pleasure. He would often leave with a threat so I wouldn't dare tell anyone about it.I was really scared… no one was ever there for me. But instead of letting myself suffer even more, I try to make myself distracted when I'm out of the house.Y
We moved into a new neighborhood when I was at the age of eight. That's when I met Yuji, the guy who became my best friend… the guy who I came to like. And the one who I fell for.He became the person who I would run to whenever I'm at my worst. Yuji would always welcome me at his house, both his parents treating me like I was a part of their family. I really loved his company, it lets me feel all the things I lacked on my own family."Tomakawa, don't your parents worry if you spend the night here without telling them?" Auntie asked.I shook my head and gave my brightest smile. "They won't. Mommy said it's okay if it's at my best friend's house." It was a lie, and I was not guilty one bit. I don't really want to go home that night."Hmm, alright then."A
When I was about five years old, I can remember how my parents would argue all the time. It eventually led to physical violence, and sometimes I get hurt as well. It was really scary for a child to experience something like that from his own parents.If I remember well, the one who's most at fault for all the arguments was mom. Dad would always come home late and drunk, then mom will start to complain. They argue, fight, and mess up the house."Stop telling me what to do, woman!""I told you a million times already, haven't I?! Stop getting yourself drunk whenever you go home!""Shut up and lock yourself in a room. Seeing your face ruins my mood!""Why, you!… you should be the one locking yourself in a room! You're a wretched mess!"&nb
Since I was kicked out of school, the only place I can stay at was at my mother's house. It sickens me to go back there but I have no other choice. "Hm. And what do you think you're doing here?" Mom asked. Just when I arrived, I didn't expect to see her outside the house to water the plants. Usually, she fools with every man she brings home most of the time. "I'll be here for a few days, I'll leave as soon as I find another place to stay at." "Heh, I heard you were kicked out of school." "None of your business." I just ignored her comments and got inside the house. Seeing this place only reminded me of the past I always wished to forget. Every room, every corner… it was all too disturbing for me. After opening the lock on my room, it was just like how
That was it.Everything is over.I no longer have anything to do with him. When I got back from the hospital, I learned that Yuji's father had storm at my place and took all of Yuji's belonging. They said he'll transfer his son onto another school because of me, though he had never mentioned to the faculty the reasons. But rumors seem to have already spread because of Yuu."How disgusting! The school should expel him.""Is it really that guy?!""I heard he was sexually assaulting his roommate, that's why the father of the victim took away his son.""That fag is a scum!"Many people kept whispering behind my back as I walk on the hallways. I couldn't care less about what they s
As the sun rises, Toma immediately went to the hospital for Yuji. He hopes to see him conscious when he arrives, though it was unfortunate that he found Yuji still sleeping. He also discovered something worse, his worries on Yuji has double.Toma quickly calls for help and as the doctor arrived, things were explained to him. "…we have seen this through our observation on the patient last night. These tiny red spots you see on his skin is called petechiea. It's a symptom for many diseases. We're currently testing from which disease it comes from.""How come I was not told about this!? I—" the doctor cuts him off before he could throw a fit."We have already informed his father sir. We thought you must have been informed through him."Toma was stunned to know that Yuji's father didn't told hi
"…Yuji." Toma muttered while he was sitting on a chair near Yuji's bed. When Yuji was admitted to the hospital, he stayed beside him the whole time after he settled things with Yuu at the police station. He also informed Yuji's dad about the situation because he needed extra hands on this.Toma can't keep his eyes off Yuji's broken hands. It pains him to see that it was wrapped in thick bandages because the doctor told him that every bone in his hands were broken into bits. This would mean that Yuji won't be able to use his hands anymore, he can imagine how devastated Yuji will be when he finds out about his hand.'That damn Yuu. I'll get him for this.' He suddenly wished he beaten up Yuu just as bad as how Yuji was beaten—no, he wanted to double the pain, because aside from Yuji he was also hurt to see the one he love like this.Th
Toma was greatly bothered when Yuji got to the campus earlier than him. It made him doubt that Yuji might have been troubled by something, and it annoyed the hell out of him that he can't figure what it was."Haa. I lost interest attending first class." He muttered.And so he spent most of his time laying on his bed, reminiscing about the cheerful times he had with Yuji. Now that Yuji's gone to school, he never felt this lonely before. He tries to find comfort in every memory he shared with Yuji.When he got bored of it, he decided to have lunch at his favorite restaurant. But on his way there, he encountered a familiar face, though he wasn't noticed by this other fellow. It was Yuu. One of his acquaintances, though he was mostly ignored by Yuu because he seemed more interested in Yuji."Wait…" b