"Oh, sexretary Reyes. What are you doing here? Naligaw ka yata," pabirong tanong ni Andrius. Nadatnan ko siya nakaharap sa kaniyang cellphone habang tatawa-tawa at kinakagat ang hintuturo niya. Ano bang trabaho ng isang 'to at nakaupo lang nang maabutan ko. Baka nag-aantay lang na mismong grasya ang lalapit. Kung sabagay best friend naman siya ng isang engot kaya pinagbibigyan siya. Pero hindi pa rin ito makatuwiran. Nagtatrabaho kami habang siya, sitting here looking stupid?
I rolled my eyes but he didn't see it. Nakapokus pa rin ang atensyon nito sa cellphone habang bahagyang tumitingin sa akin. "Mr.-whoever-the-hell-he-thinks-he-is ordered me to get the document containing the stakeholders of Garrison company from two years ago until now. Ang sabi niya sa'yo ako magtanong."
"Stakeholders from when?" gulat nitong tanong. His full attention was now on me. May itsura sana, bingi naman. Hayst.
"From two years ago kako," ulit ko sa kaniya.
"What you are saying is weird. Why in the world would he asked for that when mostly, if not all, are fired already. Minsan lang may umabot ng mahabang panahon sa pagtatraba sa kompanyang ito. Yes, they are given big amount of money but once Herrick notices just a tinge of fail of their work, he would no doubt fire them immediately. Although there are some who luckily stayed and that includes me," proud nitong sabi habang itinuturo ang sarili.
"So, isa ka rin sa mga stakeholders?" mangha kong tanong. I mean, yes, it would be probable but I expected him to be a business partner instead.
"Yes. I still have to guide you to the stockroom but don't worry, it is just located on the 15th floor." It doesn't sounds like an assurance to me. Ang layo kaya nun knowing na may mga papers pa akong dadalhin. I heave a sigh and followed Mr. Andrius. His tall figure is now in my front pero mas matangkad pa rin si Mr. Garrison compared sa kaniya. I notice a mark on his arm where a small tattoo made a small attempt of erasing if not covering the scar. Sa hinuha ko'y galing ito sa isang sunog dahil sa kulay nito.
As we reached the elevator, Andrius punched the number 1 and 5. "So, how was your first day as sexretary, Ms... Who are you again?" Napakamot ito sa kaniyang ulo at halatang pilit inaalala ang pangalan ko. May selected amnesia siguro.
"I'm Lorraine Reyes," sabi ko habang ngumingiti. "And my first day was tiring," I added in a truthful manner. Totoo naman kasi. Ikaw ba naman ang gawing maid ng damuhong iyon.
"Allow me to formally introduce myself to you. I'm Andrius Lacrosta, bestfriend of Mr. Herrick Garrison," he said as he extended his hand to me and I shake it. Bakit naging pormal ata ito? Good place to extend formalities (sarcastically speaking). "To be honest, I am surprised that you weren't fired by Herrick. Maybe he was smitten by you." Tumaas-baba ang kilay nito habang ngumingiti ng nakakaloko. The elevator door then opened and we made our way outside. Tama ba ang pagkakarinig ko? He thinks Herrick is smitten by me. Nah, I don't think so. Kung iyon man ang kaso, then I am lucky.
"Why would he be? Akala ko ba sinabi niyang mukha akong losyang?" sabi ko sa kaniya habang hinahabol siya. He has long legs, the reason for his quick and long strides. "Could you slow down a bit?" singhal ko rito habang hinahabol ang aking hininga.
"No, this is like a training. Knowing Herrick, he has all the tactics he would soon use para umalis ka sa kompanya."
When we reached the particular room, Andrius switch the lights on. Hindi ko pa man nakita ang buong paligid nang niyakap niya ako. What the hell? Nagpumiglas ako. "Don't try to look if you don't want your innocent eyes to lose its innocence," he whispered through my ear. Arghh, I hate proximities. "YOU TWO, WHO GAVE YOU THE PERMISSION TO DO THAT HERE? Gusto niyo bang makarating ito kay Sir Herrick. God, get a room, people." I was stunned by what I heard. Physical urges. Why do some people don't wait for marriage to consummate their relationship? Nakarinig ako ng dali-daling pagbibihis ng dalawa at pagdaan sa aming gilid. Buti na lang at nakatingin ako sa kaliwa; opposite of the door.
I felt Andrius releases me. "I'm sorry about that," pagpapaumanhin niya habang hindi direktang tumitingin sa akin. Among problema nito at parang nahihiya?
"It's not like a big deal. How did you know I'm not new to those scenes anyway?" tanong ko. "You don't have to answer that," I held back. Must be because of the way I appear to them.
He went to the drawer with 'stakeholders' written on it. Ang dami palang naging stakeholders nila; occupied lahat ng drawer. After minutes, Andrius passed me a pile of papers.
"Good luck with carrying that," aniya at sumisipol na lumabas ng kwarto. Hindi man lang nag-abalang tulungan ako.
_______________ Hinihingal ako habang buhat-buhat ang mga documents. Hindi na ako nag-abalang kumatok dahil baka matapon pa ang mga ito. After kicking the door, I went to Mr. Garrison's desk. Nakita ko siyang nakakunot ang noo habang tumitingin sa aking direksiyon. He us facing his macbook, his eyeglasses are on. Nevertheless, the glasses did nothing to hide his beauty to others, in fact it adds to it. Magandang nilalang, puso ko'y iyong nabihag. Okay, self. Such a corny mammal."You are supposed to knock. That's the rule," bungad nito sa akin. May ganoon? May dinadala akong libo-libong papel tapos pagdating ko rito kailangang kumatok pa ako bago pumasok? Ibinagsak ko ang mga papel sa kaniyang desk na naging sanhi ng pagkalat ng ilan sa sahig. I also notice him flinched while giving me daggers. I smiled sweetly to him. Bumalik ako sa may pintuan at kinatok iyon. Wala naman siyang sinabing dapat dalhin ko ang mga documents kaya iniwan ko na lang doon.
"Sir, can you let me in?" I sarcastically ask. I even smiled as if he could see my expression. May dumaan na mga workers na binibigyan ako ng nagtatanong na mga mata. It's as if they think I'm a psycho because I'm like kneeling at the door.
"NO, DON'T COME INSIDE," pabulyaw nitong sabi. Na-i-imagine ko na mukha niya.Napatawa na lang ako ng mahina.
"But I already knock, Sir. I'm afraid I would be fired." Hindi ko mapigilang tumawa.
"Go make me a coffee lest you would be fired," huling saad nito bago ako tumakbo papunta sa kwarto ni Andrius. Doon na lang akong magtitimpla ng kape since ayaw ng Herrick na iyon na ready-made coffee ang ibibigay ko. When I reached Andrius' office, napansin ko na wala siya rito. Saan naman kaya nagpunta ang damuhong iyon. Ah, never mind. I could just use his equipment. Para naman ito sa dragon boss, eh kaya oks lang.
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"Get yourself ready. We'll be attending a business meeting today," Herrick said in the call. Yep, he called me. I don't know where he got my number, but I don't care. I rubbed sleepiness away from my eyes and yawn while sitting. Ang aga namang tumawag nito. I looked at my phone to see what time it is; 4:00 o'clock. I must be sleeping at this hour knowing I've spent hours yesterday night for making college stuffs."Yes, Sir. I would be there in less than half an hour," inaantok kong sabi sa kaniya.
"Make it 15 minutes. You still have to prepare the presentation." God this man. "And dress nicely," pahabol nitong saad bago ibinaba ang tawag.
Pagkatapos kong mag-ayos dahil hindi na ako nag-abalang kumain, dali-dali akong pumunta sa Garrison company. Shit, I arrived exactly at 15 at the front of the company. Obviously, I would be late because I still have to go through the elevator and I would be doomed. Pagkabukas pa lang ng elevator ay tumakbo na agad ako sa office ni Herrick. Nakita ko siyang nakaharap sa akin. He is inpatient now.
"You're late. That means you have to clean my entire office later. " I could imagine his nose flaring with anger. His jaw is tightened. "Gather all the necessities and don't be slow."
_____ "I told you to do your job properly. Ang simple lang ng pinapagawa ko sa iyo yet you didn't manage to make it right. I'm paying you so you must do your job properly." Hinihimas niya ang kaniyang sentido habang ginagamit ang isang kamay sa pagluwag ng kaniyang necktie.Napayuko ang trabahante. I knew he is nervous dahil nanginginig na siya at pinagpapawisan. Halatang pagod ito. "But Sir, I already revised the plan all over again for the nth time. The manager even agreed that it would be good sa darating na New Building and branch of Garrison Company," pagpapaliwanang ng worker na napag-alaman kong Mark Lastimosa ang pangalan. He is working for the company for the past year and is a father to two kids with no mother supporting. Firing him would make their life hard.
"If it was okay for that damn manager then for me that's no. We can't export our product to Australia if that goddamn plan would be the basis. Remember, iba ang Pilipinas sa Australia. The climate here is very different from there. That type of cloth would be ignored if the quality does not match the current weather in Australia. Are you even aware of that?" Ibinaling niya ang kaniyang atensyon sa akin. "Give me the papers and the sample cloth," he ordered to which I oblige. Kinuha ko ang mga ito mula sa kaisa-isang wooden table sa office.
"Here, Sir." Binigay ko ang mga ito sa kaniya. He examined the papers once again. For a moment, inilipat-lipat niya ang kaniyang paningin sa papers at sample clothing.
"What happened to this one? Kanina lang ay iba ang ibinigay mong sample cloth. This one is good but it doesn't match what you wrote in the plan. Revise this and you're good to go." I saw Mark look up to him, his expression thankful. Para siyang nabunutan ng milyong tinik. Nang tumingin siya sa direksiyon ko ay kinindatan ko siya. He mouth a thank you while I mouthed a welcome. As he exited the room, I know he is so happy as much as I am.
"You did it." Hindi iyon tanong but I chose to answer him anyway. I am behind him habang hawak-hawak ang totoong tela na dinala ni Mark kanina. Nang magsalita si Herrick ay ibinulsa ko kaagad ang tela kasi baka lumingon ito sa direksiyon ko.
"Oo. It would be such a waste if you would fire him plus he has kids that he needs to support," saad ko habang ngumingiti. Ito na ang iniisip ko kanina pa lang.
Lumingon siya sa akin habang tinitignan ako ng masama. I leveled his look. "You shouldn't have done that." Hindi maitago ang inis sa tono nito. Umiigting ang kaniyang panga.
"And then what? Panooring mawalan sila ng trabaho? Why can't you be considerate? The saying 'might is right' is such a big lie and stupidity," singhal ko rito. I don't get this man. Mark is doing his job well but this guy wants to turn his job to ashes. I mean, yes, mistakes can't be avoided.
"If that's the case, I must look for his every action. And when he's done something wrong, I'm warning you. I would include you in his fall," banta nito sa akin. Tumalikod ito at nagsimulang lumakad papunta sa pintuan.
"Okay, copy that," nanghahamon kong sagot. Napigilan siya at unti-unting lumingon sa aking direksyon. Tinignan niya ang aking mukha at nanghahamon din ang kaniyang mga tingin.
"I would love to see you try," ang huling sagot niya.
Andrius "So, I've heard about the news this morning. Muntik mo na raw alisin si Mark sa trabaho," agad kong tanong kay Herrick nang maabutan ko siya sa kaniyang office habang may tinitipa sa kaniyang computer. I did not bother to knock. No point in doing that. We are best friends for long that I can do things like that without being fired. "News spread like wildfire as they say." His sigh indicates annoyance. "I was close to firing him had that Lorraine interfered." Nagsalubong laagad ang kilay niya ng banggitin niya ang pangalan ng bagong sekretarya. Napatawa ako ng mahina pero sapat para marinig niy
Nagising ako dahil may yumuyugyog sa aking balikat. Arghh, I needed minutes. I was a sleep-deprived person so I needed to regain energy. Iwinakli ko ang mga kamay na iyon pero palagi pa rin itong bumabalik sa pagyugyog. Hindi ko alam kong nag-iimagine ba ako o mayroon talagang nakamasid sa akin. That's weird. "Ano ba Amanda. Give me more minutes, will you?" Inis kong tanong, pikit-mata pa rin. Just few more minutes and I'm up. Hindi naman siguro iyon masamang hilingin, right? "Bestie naman. Your boss just called. May kailangan daw kayong puntahan. Business trip to Siargao," pahayag niya. Umupo ako at pilit inaalis ang antok sa aking mga mata. "Kailan ba? Tsaka anong oras na ba?" Binuksan ko ang aking mga mata at inilibot ang aking paningin sa loob ng apartment. That's weird, I thought may nagmamasid sa akin pero wala naman. 
Awkward. Kasalukuyan kaming nasa kusina ng hotel. As what I've said high class itong hotel na pinag-stay-an namin kaya may kusina ito na kasinlaki ng dalawang apartment na inuupahan ko. Nakaupo lang kaming tatlo at pinapalibutan ang mesa. Nasa kaliwang bahagi ako habang si Herrick nama'y nasa aking kanan pero metro ang pagitan habang nasa harap naman namin si Andrius na pinagsasalit ang atensyon sa aming dalawa ni Herrick. Tinignan ko si Herrick at nakapangalumbaba lamang ito habang nakatitig sa kawalam na tila ba'y wala itong pakialam sa paligid. Inikot ko lang ang aking mata. Narinig kong tumikhim si Andrius bago nagsalita. "Mind telling what the hell happened?" Bumaling ang atensyon niya sa akin. Alam niya sigurong hindi sasagot itong isang kasama namin na patuloy lang na nakatitig sa kawalan habang pinapalo ang mga daliri sa mesa. &
Lorraine Reyes I considered some of the memories from my childhood indelible beyond all attempts the following years tried to fade them. It stored in my mind until now no matter the effort of trying to forget them. It wasn't a tragedy that happened. It was all those humor I heard from other people with the youngest mind I had. My innocent self wasn't new to the talks I've heard from them. "Naku, mare. Alam mo ba 'yang batang 'yan, bunga iyan ng panggagahasa ng demonyong tatay niya. Nakakaawa naman ang nanay niyan," I heard the mother of one of my classmates tell the other, her face marked with disgust. Ito ang kauna-unahang panahon na narinig ko iyon. "Kung totoo man iyan, swerte siya dahil binuhay siya ng kaniyang Ina. May iba kasi na nagpapakamatay o 'di kaya'y nagpapa-abort. Sana naman makulong na ang gumawa noon sa kaniya," sagot naman ng isa.
"Bestie,nasaan ka na ba? Get your lazy ass from the bed. "Don't yell. I'm already awake an hour from now. It's just that I don't have a class at seven. It's tiring spending time there. At ikaw, ba't ka napaaga, aber? " She doesn't usually go early. What made her change mind? "Kasi naman po, the guy I was talking about, that Andrius guy who happened to be with his boss, as what I've heard, are on their way to the university. You see, this boss of him graduated here so it's like he wanted to somewhat help Lacrosta University. Malay mo, you would eventually be hired as secretary once I introduce you to Mr. Lacrosta who would do the talking to his boss." She giggled na animo'y kinikilig sa boss 'kuno'. "Stop with what you are thinking, Amanda. From what YOU implied, he is selfish an
Awkward. Kasalukuyan kaming nasa kusina ng hotel. As what I've said high class itong hotel na pinag-stay-an namin kaya may kusina ito na kasinlaki ng dalawang apartment na inuupahan ko. Nakaupo lang kaming tatlo at pinapalibutan ang mesa. Nasa kaliwang bahagi ako habang si Herrick nama'y nasa aking kanan pero metro ang pagitan habang nasa harap naman namin si Andrius na pinagsasalit ang atensyon sa aming dalawa ni Herrick. Tinignan ko si Herrick at nakapangalumbaba lamang ito habang nakatitig sa kawalam na tila ba'y wala itong pakialam sa paligid. Inikot ko lang ang aking mata. Narinig kong tumikhim si Andrius bago nagsalita. "Mind telling what the hell happened?" Bumaling ang atensyon niya sa akin. Alam niya sigurong hindi sasagot itong isang kasama namin na patuloy lang na nakatitig sa kawalan habang pinapalo ang mga daliri sa mesa. &
Nagising ako dahil may yumuyugyog sa aking balikat. Arghh, I needed minutes. I was a sleep-deprived person so I needed to regain energy. Iwinakli ko ang mga kamay na iyon pero palagi pa rin itong bumabalik sa pagyugyog. Hindi ko alam kong nag-iimagine ba ako o mayroon talagang nakamasid sa akin. That's weird. "Ano ba Amanda. Give me more minutes, will you?" Inis kong tanong, pikit-mata pa rin. Just few more minutes and I'm up. Hindi naman siguro iyon masamang hilingin, right? "Bestie naman. Your boss just called. May kailangan daw kayong puntahan. Business trip to Siargao," pahayag niya. Umupo ako at pilit inaalis ang antok sa aking mga mata. "Kailan ba? Tsaka anong oras na ba?" Binuksan ko ang aking mga mata at inilibot ang aking paningin sa loob ng apartment. That's weird, I thought may nagmamasid sa akin pero wala naman. 
Andrius "So, I've heard about the news this morning. Muntik mo na raw alisin si Mark sa trabaho," agad kong tanong kay Herrick nang maabutan ko siya sa kaniyang office habang may tinitipa sa kaniyang computer. I did not bother to knock. No point in doing that. We are best friends for long that I can do things like that without being fired. "News spread like wildfire as they say." His sigh indicates annoyance. "I was close to firing him had that Lorraine interfered." Nagsalubong laagad ang kilay niya ng banggitin niya ang pangalan ng bagong sekretarya. Napatawa ako ng mahina pero sapat para marinig niy
"Oh, sexretary Reyes. What are you doing here? Naligaw ka yata," pabirong tanong ni Andrius. Nadatnan ko siya nakaharap sa kaniyang cellphone habang tatawa-tawa at kinakagat ang hintuturo niya. Ano bang trabaho ng isang 'to at nakaupo lang nang maabutan ko. Baka nag-aantay lang na mismong grasya ang lalapit. Kung sabagay best friend naman siya ng isang engot kaya pinagbibigyan siya. Pero hindi pa rin ito makatuwiran. Nagtatrabaho kami habang siya, sitting here looking stupid? I rolled my eyes but he didn't see it. Nakapokus pa rin ang atensyon nito sa cellphone habang bahagyang tumitingin sa akin. "Mr.-whoever-the-hell-he-thinks-he-is ordered me to get the document containing the stakeholders of Garrison company from two years ago until now. Ang sabi niya sa'yo ako magtanong." "Stakeholders from when?" gulat nitong tanong. His full attention was now on me. May itsura sana, bingi naman.
"Bestie,nasaan ka na ba? Get your lazy ass from the bed. "Don't yell. I'm already awake an hour from now. It's just that I don't have a class at seven. It's tiring spending time there. At ikaw, ba't ka napaaga, aber? " She doesn't usually go early. What made her change mind? "Kasi naman po, the guy I was talking about, that Andrius guy who happened to be with his boss, as what I've heard, are on their way to the university. You see, this boss of him graduated here so it's like he wanted to somewhat help Lacrosta University. Malay mo, you would eventually be hired as secretary once I introduce you to Mr. Lacrosta who would do the talking to his boss." She giggled na animo'y kinikilig sa boss 'kuno'. "Stop with what you are thinking, Amanda. From what YOU implied, he is selfish an
Lorraine Reyes I considered some of the memories from my childhood indelible beyond all attempts the following years tried to fade them. It stored in my mind until now no matter the effort of trying to forget them. It wasn't a tragedy that happened. It was all those humor I heard from other people with the youngest mind I had. My innocent self wasn't new to the talks I've heard from them. "Naku, mare. Alam mo ba 'yang batang 'yan, bunga iyan ng panggagahasa ng demonyong tatay niya. Nakakaawa naman ang nanay niyan," I heard the mother of one of my classmates tell the other, her face marked with disgust. Ito ang kauna-unahang panahon na narinig ko iyon. "Kung totoo man iyan, swerte siya dahil binuhay siya ng kaniyang Ina. May iba kasi na nagpapakamatay o 'di kaya'y nagpapa-abort. Sana naman makulong na ang gumawa noon sa kaniya," sagot naman ng isa.