Chapter 4

Aunt Riza is one of the people that I should protect too. She was there for me when our house fell to ruin. She knew how I felt, so she tried her best to support me. I am too small. There is nothing I can do now with it. I’ve received another chance so I should use it well. I could start with the minor things—learning words. Since now, my teeth are growing. I will be able to speak a little. I try to say father and mother but instead came out weird sounds. Tears fill my eyes. It’s so hard; I can’t believe it. But it’s so hard. How did we manage to speak normally? Yeah! I remember that I read a book about habits. We have, in our brains, different places where we stock what we learn. Habits help the brain to memorize things faster; when you see a similar thing or situation, you act by the habits that we do not with our intelligence. For a knight, they can defend themselves well if they are trained to fight without relying only on their eyes. Habits make it easier in a lot of situations. So, I’ll build a habit of training my body to do smaller things. I realize now that I have my memories but without the memories of the habits. That’s why my body is a foreigner to the things I used to do.

From learning how to crawl around my room, I went to learn how to walk. Father had the task to help learn it. He changed from my memory from before, and I guess he just needed a little push to show his affection towards me. I like him more now. Every time that he waits for me to reach him while practising walking, I smile at him widely. I’ll benefit from every moment that I pass with my family. In the following years, nothing happened much, since I didn’t have permission to go out due to my age. But, when I reached five years old, my pronunciation became better, and I could walk freely, I built my muscles. I am glad that I arrived to do it. I practised a lot. At five years old, I had to attend my first tea party. My first mission started; See who are the ones who helped William in the murder and the ruin of our family. To crush them completely by crushing their will to fight. Death is a salvation for them, and I am not generous enough to spare them.

" Oh, Bonine! You fit in everything. My baby girl has grown too much. I wished if you grew up a little slower. Oooh, look Riza! Isn’t she adorable ? " rejoiced mother.

" Absolutely Madam, Bonine is our precious treasure, " said aunt Riza.

" Mama if we don’t go now, we’ll be late! "

" Oooh right! Is the carriage ready? "

For me, it has been a while since I attended a tea party, but it’s my first since returning in time. It’s even the first after my father’s death. Considering how the death of my family was buried away, it has something to do with the high nobles or the aristocrats. My father’s death was a huge matter, but it was buried away quickly, which means that William is not the only one in the show. I must know who will be standing with him. Nothing has started yet, that’s why I must prepare for it. I don’t remember much from my five years old. So I paid attention to the conversations that my mother had with the servants. I caught something about The Sarlintine family. I remember something about their son; he will discover the cure for the black plague that occurred in the war. But now, he was seen as a sick person, a child who couldn’t think well, he is older than me by six years.

" I am Bonine of the Rayginaz family. It’s a pleasure to make your acquaintance, " I said, greeting all the Ladies elegantly.

I bow my head a little taking the sides of my dress in my hands and moving them up. Basic etiquette for a noble. Saying their faces, they are shocked to see me acting like a grown-up, but I can’t bring shame to my mother.

" Please treat me well from now on, " I finish by saying those last few words and move to the children’s gathering.

I hear them asking my mother how she raised me, but she responded by she doesn’t know how herself, I didn’t show her anything. Ooooh, mom! You can brag about it all you want. I am giving you a way to gain other nobles as an ally. Why are you wasting my effort?

" I’ve never expected to see you selfish Lady Elisabeth. I never thought you were like this. Well, I understand since everyone wants their child to be the best, but we could learn from each other. It’s a matter that involves our children, " said Lady Rachel, a selfish woman that I remember from my last life.

She was a horrible person; she was involved in drug trafficking.

How dare she disrespect my mother? I’ll teach her a lesson. I am glad that I didn’t reach the other children. I’ll show her that she can’t disrespect my family when I am here.

" Of course, I have a teacher, Lady that-I-don’t-know-the-name. My mother is my teacher, can’t you see how my mother is composed and moves elegantly. I’ve been watching her and copying her for a while, which is why I am so well versed in etiquette. I hope that you won’t be offended Lady that-I-won’t-remember-the-name, " I said confidently, smiling to her innocently.

She responds by how lively I am and how clever to copy their parents when they know too well their etiquette. She was nervous. I saw it, those eyes that swear to pay it back. Lady Rachel, you are on my list. I don’t like it when my mother is insulted.

" You are embarrassing me with all this flattery! Thank you for your compliments, but my mom is the person that you should flatter. She deserves it because mom is so kind to me, " I added.

I can’t say what they are lacking, but Lady Rachel is a woman who abuses her power, if she presses her daughter too much, she’ll break her. If someone has high expectations, it may cause problems for the child’s growth. It’s better if you learn to love your child as she is, as time will pass, she will learn etiquette normally.

I think that I did my role well. I defended my mother, it’s not like she can’t defend herself, but we can’t take a child’s words seriously. I spot Sarlintine family child, and he was sitting all alone while waiting patiently for the end of the tea party. I need to see it for myself that he wasn’t insane. For someone who’ll find the cure, he must be sane enough for it. I move to him; he seemed scared of something.

"Greetings Mister Sarlintine! May I sit beside you? "

Without waiting for him to answer me, I sit, I know he will refuse. Surprisingly, he nodded. That’s a first. I heard that he hated sitting with people; that’s why his mother was always ashamed of it. He always runs away when he sees an adult, especially a noble.

" My name is Bonine Rayginaz! A pleasure to meet you! It’s crowded, isn’t it? "I smile as hard as I can while showing a lovely face.

" I am Madeleine Sarlintine! A pleasure to meet you too! "

He doesn’t seem insane. Is he shy to sit in a corner like that and alone? He was facing down while introducing himself; he didn’t even glimpse at me. I remembered something about him. His mother will die in a tragic accident; he was severely affected. Oooh my! Did I stare too much? He began shacking.

" Did I stare too much? I am sorry, it must’ve troubled you, but I was admiring your watch. "

It was like I activated something in him. He turned his head to see me for the first time. Do I seem like a child to you? Maybe it is, he is older than me by six years.

" You are not dark at all; why? "

Dark. I don’t understand.

" Mother says that I am insane. But I see people as colours, but for now, I can only see the white and black colour, yours is white. It doesn’t bother me. I am not scared of you. It’s not like… I am expecting you to understand me. "

I read about it in the past; it’s a rare ability that someone can inherit. It permits you to see if a person is good or bad, but if you train it enough, you can see other colours that symbolize the traits of the personality. So his mother didn’t understand him. No wonder, he will grow up as a distant person. I remember that once at a party I tried to talk to him but he ignored it. I held a grudge back then, but I let it go after a while. I can’t let this go. This isn't nice for him. I’ll help him. Different people tend to suffer without support.

"Then learn to control it like that you can dispel your ability to live normally. But you mustn’t tell your ability to anyone, or you’ll be in danger. "

Oooh no! Did I say something that a five years old child wouldn’t say? I must find something to say.

" My mother says that I am too smart, and warns me never to show it, mister Sarlintine, " and I smile showing that I understand his concern.

" Call me Madeleine ! " then he smiles too.

" Call me, Bonine ! "

" You are the insane one, " said a young girl that seemed around my age, strangely, I find her familiar.

Who the hell called him like that. They don’t teach their children good discipline. Someone must stop them. I realize that it’s Alma, in her younger self. She has green eyes and brown hair. She was the one who said it. This S***, I can’t forgive her.

" You the child saying anything over there! " I thundered at her.

" Who are you, stupid wench! How dare you cut me, a Lady, while I am speaking? "

" You don’t know even proper etiquette, yet you dare call yourself a Lady. "

" You, you, I’ll show you later what I will do to you. I’ll tell my mother about it. "

Like mother, like daughter, I didn’t recognize Lady Rachel at first.

Feel free to do anything, since I scolded Lady Rachel; she will not find trouble with me; instead, she’ll try to discipline her child because everyone will say that she lacks education when she picks on a sick boy.

" Thank you for defending me, but you didn’t have to do it. She’ll pick on you too, " whispered Madeleine.

" Don’t worry! We are friends. Aren’t we? I heard about your symptoms. You can find how to control your power better if you read the Dimantra book. I heard my mother talking about it. She said that there are a lot of details about rare abilities."