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Drowning In My Feelings
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2022-04-23 00:12:25"I didn't mean to bruise your heart. I'm so sorry it drove us this far apart. Drowning in a sea full of tears. I thought we could've lasted for years, and I still do, wanna live my life with you." —Rueben Gray.
Chapter Theme Song: 'Lifeline' by Reuben Gray.A/N: Please listen to the above song :)••Third Person"Harmony."Kite's voice comes from behind her before his palm lays against her shaking shoulder."He doesn't deserve you if he doesn't trust you."She whirls to him with tears squeezing from her narrowed eyes, and the sight of her melancholy softens his gaze."Why did you do that, Kite?"His forehead puckers as something resembling remorse crinkles in his amber eyes."I am sorry, Harmony. But I can't say I regret it. I would do it again if I had to."She glares at him wi
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