Chapter XXI
The Lore Behind the Painting Part 2
Rory prepared the blanket and other stuff she needed to prepare. She brought a bag full of books, watercolors, and papers. After everything was set, she let the kids sit alongside her.
“We’re going to paint?” Revi asked.
Rory nodded. “Yes, so I’ll give each of you a paper and three watercolors. Your activity for today is to paint anything that comes into your mind using the colors I will give you. Isn’t that fun?” She gave them the supplies.
Heidi and Naya beamed after hearing what Rory said while Revi and Yner had no reactions and started immediately.
Renata got violet, black, and red. She didn’t know what to do with those colors so she just filled the whole paper without any context in her mind using those.
After filling the whole paper, she just sat and looked at Rory. “Teacher, I’m do
Chapter XXII Renata's Caligo Oculus Something had been bothering me . . . ever since the day I heard Teacher Rory’s story about a mortal who was blessed by the gods. Hours after Teacher Rory left with Heidi and Naya—it was midnight, I felt like I just reminisced a memory that I didn’t even have. As if I was on the spot, watching that mortal’s journey. As soon as I heard Teacher Rory’s story, I wanted to correct her. Although I said I understand nothing, it was because what she told was completely different from what I saw. The main character of the story, Sator, wasn’t a mortal, but an archon and a compelling god. He wandered the celestias or universes he created with his immortal comrades but . . . a tragedy struck in the abode of the deities named Procyron. Sator was part of Procyron’s council, a group of eight gods ruling the abode of deities and celestias. The council
Chapter XXIII Renata's Caligo Oculus Part 2 Another thing, searching for the truth requires a lot of effort and I’m lazy for that. I jest, the real reason was . . . I don’t want my views or perspective about the world to change. I think I already have enough knowledge about this world. The trauma . . . almost made me go insane. I never wanted my perspective to change because of what my babu said to me before he died. “Everyone around you, Renata, is perfidious. You can’t trust anyone . . . not even gods.” Remembering that line . . . was always making me wary. “Renata.” As soon as I heard a voice, I came back into reality, a reason why the dominoes fell continuously. I groaned. It took me time to build all of this. I glanced at the person who disturbed me. Only did I realize that it was our math teacher. “Why are you playing dominoes in the middle of the class, Renata?” I frowned. “Uh . . . To help me with numbers?” I stayed silent for a moment. “Perhaps?” I released an awkward
Chapter XXIV Unvalued Medal Only then did I realize that time passed rapidly as light. Everything went so fast, and everything went so peculiar for me since the day I bumped into a woman who eventually turned out to be my father’s new lover. Felix and the new girl named Thebe were lovers. Although I doubt it as my father loves Mom so much and I think he can never astray. I just have this intuition that he is just using the woman for his plans. I’m not sure. Who knows what was going on in Felix’s mind? Instead of arguing with him, I faked a warm welcome for his new lover. I acted as if I approve of their relationship. That was because I trust Father with his schemes. This was only part of his step, for sure.
Chapter XXVUnvalued Medal Part 2As far as I could remember, when I was a year old, we used to live there with Babu but the moment I celebrated my 2nd birthday, we moved to Rajanseth for some unkown reasons. Babu was left there alone until I turned three, he decided to stay with us until the last moments of his life.We never went back to the palace, and lived normally like commoners in Rajanseth and still receive a special treatment. The palace was kept hidden under the care of the Royal Family. Only Father and the king knew where it was.I sighed and went inside the house. There I saw Father in the living room, reading a lot of documents. “Father, I’m home,” I said.Even though I knew he wouldn&rsquo
Chapter XXVIWalking ParadoxI tightened my grip to the medal as I stepped forward to watch the river.It was past midnight, and I just woke up from having that unexplainable, confusing, and strange dream I had. I didn’t have any good feelings about it. It might be something my creative mind created or it might also be a message from the gods. But as much as I wanted to believe that she’s a god, a part of me said it’s ridiculous. I’m still a kid after all, with a strange mind.I decided to take a walk outside, not minding the possible dangers during night. The gloomy and dark sight of my bedroom was creeping me out somehow, and I wanted some peace of mind as it was giving me constant nightmares and hallucinations. And I knew the beauty of nature will hel
Chapter XXVII Walking Paradox Part 2 I went back home quietly as Father was peacefully sleeping in his bedroom. I better not wake him up. Hoping to end this all, I closed my eyes and tried to sleep without having nightmares or hallucinations. Hours passed, and I wasn’t able to go back to sleep. My body never had the urge to rest, so I spent the hours staring at the lonely luminous moon. Although I didn’t sleep again, I found myself never being restless. It was strange yet I was thankful for it. When the sun started to rise, I did my morning routine without waking Father up. I also cooked my own food and went to the storage room for some potatoes. Then, I went to the river once ag
Chapter XXVIIILittle GirlsTeacher Rory nodded as I stared at her without uttering anything. “We came from the same nation, Renata, but the only difference was I grew up here and you grew up on the island.”She sighed. “It’s surprising, I know, but I’m letting you know this because I want you to trust me.”Trust. This woman was basically asking me to trust her just because we share the same history of ancestors, but who knows if her mind was already corrupted?I stayed silent. I shouldn’t let my guard down. I shouldn’t trust her. No matter what, I should stick to my fake identity. I’m not a Cidgian. I’m not from Atolon. I am a Madreese. I was from Delural. That’s what I should be in front of their eyes.“People forgot about us, Revi. It’s upsetting that the government hid a sin and we didn’t even have a chance to punish them. They moved on, continued spreading chaos, and proudly raised their flags in wars as we—or shall I say you and your fellows that are hiding in the island, living
Chapter XXIXLittle Girls Part 2“Can you . . . at least listen to my grief?” She slowly looked at me.For some reason, I found myself in her. Since my mother's death, I've had a void in my heart that I've been unable to fill, no matter what I or they do. In spite of the fact that they were patient with my rants and my fury, I was still lonely. I wanted to tell 'them' how much I was hurting and how much I was angry, because I felt so isolated. I’m simply talking about Madreese, including this girl in front of me. And my common and obvious reason why was because they raided my town.Inquiring minds want to know . . . In the end, it wasn't about retaliation; it was about retribution for what they had done to me. Or is there something else going on that I'm not aware of? Why do I want to destroy?“Fine,” I said even though it was against my will.On the rooftop, which was off-limits, I accompanied her. There was no one there.Unlike the storage room, the place was wide and bright, althou
Chapter XXIXIs Everything Really Well?I never looked at her, and instead clenched both my jaw and fists. Tears attempted to escape my eyes, but I tried my best to prevent it. Not now. I can’t cry now.“I saw what happened, Revi.” I could sense she’s upset. And so am I. She’s one of us. Rory’s a Cidgian. She should be angry towards the victors. But look, here she is, taking their side—justifying what they did because it was “eons” ago.As I breathed heavily, she spoke again. “I understand your animosity but—”“No!” I screamed. “You don’t understand my hatred! You never did! Because if you do, you wouldn’t be so upset at me right now.”"I certainly do!" Her tone was solemn. "But those Madreese you were unleashing your rage on aren't to blame for their ancestors' misdeeds!"She exhaled a sigh. "It must have been difficult for you to believe that 'we,' our civilization, were imprisoned in dread as a result of what occurred in the past. You must not, however, generalize or criticize some
Chapter XXIXLittle Girls Part 2“Can you . . . at least listen to my grief?” She slowly looked at me.For some reason, I found myself in her. Since my mother's death, I've had a void in my heart that I've been unable to fill, no matter what I or they do. In spite of the fact that they were patient with my rants and my fury, I was still lonely. I wanted to tell 'them' how much I was hurting and how much I was angry, because I felt so isolated. I’m simply talking about Madreese, including this girl in front of me. And my common and obvious reason why was because they raided my town.Inquiring minds want to know . . . In the end, it wasn't about retaliation; it was about retribution for what they had done to me. Or is there something else going on that I'm not aware of? Why do I want to destroy?“Fine,” I said even though it was against my will.On the rooftop, which was off-limits, I accompanied her. There was no one there.Unlike the storage room, the place was wide and bright, althou
Chapter XXVIIILittle GirlsTeacher Rory nodded as I stared at her without uttering anything. “We came from the same nation, Renata, but the only difference was I grew up here and you grew up on the island.”She sighed. “It’s surprising, I know, but I’m letting you know this because I want you to trust me.”Trust. This woman was basically asking me to trust her just because we share the same history of ancestors, but who knows if her mind was already corrupted?I stayed silent. I shouldn’t let my guard down. I shouldn’t trust her. No matter what, I should stick to my fake identity. I’m not a Cidgian. I’m not from Atolon. I am a Madreese. I was from Delural. That’s what I should be in front of their eyes.“People forgot about us, Revi. It’s upsetting that the government hid a sin and we didn’t even have a chance to punish them. They moved on, continued spreading chaos, and proudly raised their flags in wars as we—or shall I say you and your fellows that are hiding in the island, living
Chapter XXVII Walking Paradox Part 2 I went back home quietly as Father was peacefully sleeping in his bedroom. I better not wake him up. Hoping to end this all, I closed my eyes and tried to sleep without having nightmares or hallucinations. Hours passed, and I wasn’t able to go back to sleep. My body never had the urge to rest, so I spent the hours staring at the lonely luminous moon. Although I didn’t sleep again, I found myself never being restless. It was strange yet I was thankful for it. When the sun started to rise, I did my morning routine without waking Father up. I also cooked my own food and went to the storage room for some potatoes. Then, I went to the river once ag
Chapter XXVIWalking ParadoxI tightened my grip to the medal as I stepped forward to watch the river.It was past midnight, and I just woke up from having that unexplainable, confusing, and strange dream I had. I didn’t have any good feelings about it. It might be something my creative mind created or it might also be a message from the gods. But as much as I wanted to believe that she’s a god, a part of me said it’s ridiculous. I’m still a kid after all, with a strange mind.I decided to take a walk outside, not minding the possible dangers during night. The gloomy and dark sight of my bedroom was creeping me out somehow, and I wanted some peace of mind as it was giving me constant nightmares and hallucinations. And I knew the beauty of nature will hel
Chapter XXVUnvalued Medal Part 2As far as I could remember, when I was a year old, we used to live there with Babu but the moment I celebrated my 2nd birthday, we moved to Rajanseth for some unkown reasons. Babu was left there alone until I turned three, he decided to stay with us until the last moments of his life.We never went back to the palace, and lived normally like commoners in Rajanseth and still receive a special treatment. The palace was kept hidden under the care of the Royal Family. Only Father and the king knew where it was.I sighed and went inside the house. There I saw Father in the living room, reading a lot of documents. “Father, I’m home,” I said.Even though I knew he wouldn&rsquo
Chapter XXIV Unvalued Medal Only then did I realize that time passed rapidly as light. Everything went so fast, and everything went so peculiar for me since the day I bumped into a woman who eventually turned out to be my father’s new lover. Felix and the new girl named Thebe were lovers. Although I doubt it as my father loves Mom so much and I think he can never astray. I just have this intuition that he is just using the woman for his plans. I’m not sure. Who knows what was going on in Felix’s mind? Instead of arguing with him, I faked a warm welcome for his new lover. I acted as if I approve of their relationship. That was because I trust Father with his schemes. This was only part of his step, for sure.
Chapter XXIII Renata's Caligo Oculus Part 2 Another thing, searching for the truth requires a lot of effort and I’m lazy for that. I jest, the real reason was . . . I don’t want my views or perspective about the world to change. I think I already have enough knowledge about this world. The trauma . . . almost made me go insane. I never wanted my perspective to change because of what my babu said to me before he died. “Everyone around you, Renata, is perfidious. You can’t trust anyone . . . not even gods.” Remembering that line . . . was always making me wary. “Renata.” As soon as I heard a voice, I came back into reality, a reason why the dominoes fell continuously. I groaned. It took me time to build all of this. I glanced at the person who disturbed me. Only did I realize that it was our math teacher. “Why are you playing dominoes in the middle of the class, Renata?” I frowned. “Uh . . . To help me with numbers?” I stayed silent for a moment. “Perhaps?” I released an awkward
Chapter XXII Renata's Caligo Oculus Something had been bothering me . . . ever since the day I heard Teacher Rory’s story about a mortal who was blessed by the gods. Hours after Teacher Rory left with Heidi and Naya—it was midnight, I felt like I just reminisced a memory that I didn’t even have. As if I was on the spot, watching that mortal’s journey. As soon as I heard Teacher Rory’s story, I wanted to correct her. Although I said I understand nothing, it was because what she told was completely different from what I saw. The main character of the story, Sator, wasn’t a mortal, but an archon and a compelling god. He wandered the celestias or universes he created with his immortal comrades but . . . a tragedy struck in the abode of the deities named Procyron. Sator was part of Procyron’s council, a group of eight gods ruling the abode of deities and celestias. The council