CHAPTER 2: I HAD ENOUGH

CELESTE

<span;>"Noah...Noah Arkanghel" I gulp as I heard his manly sexy voice, it's been a long time since I haven't heard his voice. We are staring at each other eyes, those dazzling green eyes of him is the one who caught my attention. Para bang may mga sinasabi ang mga mata nya kapag tinitignan mo. Hindi ko magawang putulin ang titig naming dalawa, I didn't even notice that he offer his hand for a handshake.

<span;>Tinignan ko lamang iyon that made his brow furrowed, at ng sandaling abutin ko ang kamay nito, tila may kuryenteng dumaloy sa katawan ko and I know he feel it too dahil ito mismo ang kusang kumalas at nag iwas ng tingin.

<span;>"C-Celeste, it's nice to meet you K-kuya N-Noah"

<span;>"T-that's great! Tara na let's eat! I'm sure honey you will love my Mom dishes" mukhang naramdamanan rin ni Celestian ang tensiyon sa pagitan namin, it was too awkward. Celestia clung her hands at the arms of Arkanghel. I don't know but I am more comfortable calling him Arkanghel.

<span;>"Celeste anak may problema ba?" Napahinto ako sa pagsubo ng tawagin ako ni Mommy, their attention was on me. Maging si Daddy ay nagtataka sa kinikilos.

<span;>Honestly, i'm really not comfortable, seeing my sister with the man i've been loving secretly for a long time. I don't know what I feel right now. My heart are beating so fast, I can't look at their direction with their sweet gestures at each other.

<span;>"Uhmm I just wanna go upstair mom i'm not feeling well i'm really sorry Celestia" sandali lamang akong tumungin sa gawi nya kita ko ang pag-aalala sa mukha nya sa sinabi ko. And I saw how Arkanghel forehead creased at what I excuse.

<span;>"Okay, you really need to take a rest"

<span;>"Celeste I told you to sleep late at night, look at you, you are so pale it seems like anytime you will fall. Rest upstairs i'll talk to you later" napalunok ako dahil sa sinabi ni Daddy paniguradong lagot nanaman ako nito. But it just the only thing I can use as alibi to get out of here. I don't want to ruin this moment for my sister. Hindi ko sya masisisi. It just that I need time for myself to absurb all of this.

<span;>Especially this part, this moment that I discovered how compatible they are with each other. As you look at their eye I can say that they are so inlove with each other ano pa nga bang magagawa ko but to move on. His already my sister man and I don't want to meddle with them. May mga bagay talaga na kailangan nating tanggapin dahil hindi nakalaan sa atin.

<span;>I was just staring at the white ceiling of my room for an half hour, until I heard a series of knock at the door of my room.

<span;>"It's open" nanlaki ang mata ko ng makita ang kapatid ko, she was holding a tray of foods. The delicious aroma of the broth she made left on my nostrils, she was really good at cooking while me was on baking.

<span;>"Here I cook something for you para umayos na ang pakiramdam mo" nginitian ako nito at inabot sa akin ang tray. I can't refuse her baka madismaya ang kapatid nya, even I was full pinilit kong kainin ang hinanda nito.

<span;>"Sorry Ate I ruin that moment, kung hindi lang sana sumama ang pakiramdam. You can now go paniguradong hinahanap ka na nun"

<span;>"No need, he already go home something just came up" hindi ako nakapagsalita dahil sa sinabi nito. Ng naubos ko ang pagkain ay lumabas na rito. I am supposed to lay on the bed again when I saw Daddy poker face as he go near me and slam the door. Hindi ko maiwasang kabahan, hindi ko ba alam pero minsan ko lang makita si Daddy na ngumiti sa akin kasi sa mata nya its alwasy Celestia pakiramdam ko ala akong puwang sa puso nya.

<span;>I know that he will scold me for ruining the moment ano pa bang aasahan ko sa kaniya he is always like this. Lahat ng batay na gusto nya kinakailangan mong sundin cause he say so.

<span;>"What you just did Celeste a while ago is rude!" I close my eyes intently as he shout at me. Kinalma ko na lamang ang sarili ko at hinayaan ito sa nais nitong sabihin.

<span;>Oo, sanay na ako! Na lahat ng kilos ko para sa kanya ay mali! When is the time I saw him and feel that he care of me? Ano pa bang aasahan ko his always like that.

<span;>"Dad if you keep scolding me please just reserve it for tomorrow i'm not feeling well Dad"

<span;>"You won't get me with that scheme Kung sana katulad ka ng ate, you know what Celeste you'd been a bad girl! Make your sister as an inspiration stop being hardheaded!" Kung kanina pagkukunwari ang sakit ng ulo ko ngayon pakiramdam ko ang sakit sakit na ng ulo ko.

<span;>He is always like this, I always obey their rules so why my Dad is acting like I was a blacksheep in the family. On every milestone I achieved I never saw him proud, he never approach me just to say congratulate. Kaya minsan natatanong ko ang sarili ko ano pa bang kulang sa akin? Bakit hindi ko magawang pasiyahin si Daddy, he never gave me a genuine smile it always Celestia.

<span;>Pero minsan hindi ako nagtanim ng sama ng loob sa ate ko dahil alam ko naman sa sarili ko na she's nothing to do with it. She's just doing her best, while me? I am also doing my best It just that it wasn't enough for them.

<span;>"Are you just going to stay silence Celeste! Are you not going to defend yourself!?" I want to shout at my Dad that I had enough! I'm so tired of his everyday lesson! Ibang iba ang pagtrato nya kay ate. He will always gave Celestia everything she wanted, I envy her honestly and you can't blame me it was inevitable.

<span;>I'm so tired of defending myself kasi wala rin namang mangyayari. I will just accept all the hurtful words that he is going to say....I deserve it after all. I'm not enough, I don't do my best just like my sister Celestia.

<span;>I just let my tears flow, hanggat maari ayoko kong ipakita sa kanilan na nasasaktan ako pero hindi ko lang talaga mapigilan ang luha na gustong kumawala sa mga mata ko...even in just this way I want to ease some pain.

<span;>"That's it are you just go---" hindi ko na pinatapos sa pagsasalita si Daddy and I can't control my angered towards him anymore.

<span;>"I HAD ENOUGH DAD! I HAD ENOUGH, I AM ALSO YOUR DAUGHTER THAT'S WHY I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY ARE YOU TREATING ME LIKE THIS!" He was shock at what I said, but after a minute I saw him face became more stoic. I know that he already had enough, it was one of his rules. I don't have rights to raise my voice at them.

<span;>"W-WHY CAN'T YOU TREAT ME LIKE THE WAY YOU TREAT CELESTIA! I AM A BLACK SHEEP! LAGI NA LANG AKONG MALI!"

<span;>"CELESTE!" I heard my mom voice, bakas ang galit sa mukha nito. Fine, I am a blacksheep, for them I'm not doing my best, lagi akong mali!

<span;>"FINE! SIGE AKO NA ANG LAGING MALI! BAKIT HINDI KO NA LANG GAWIN LAHAT NG BINIBINTANG NYO SA AKIN!"

<span;>"C-celeste anak huminahon ka"

<span;>"PAREHO LANG KAYO MOM! DON'T WORRY FROM NOW ON, I'LL DO MY BEST TO BROKE ALL OF YOUR RULES! TUTAL LAGI NA LANG AKONG MALI SO BAKIT HINDI KO GAWIN LAHAT NG SINASABI NYO!" I know it was bad shouting at them, I just add fuel to the fire.

<span;>I shed my tears and made a paces I turn my back at them, and before I could made a step on the first stair I heard my mom voice shouting my Dad's name.

<span;>"Caloy!" My eyes widen when I saw my Dad having a rough breathing nahihirapan itong makahinga.

<span;>"DADDY!" I saw my sister on the doorstep with...Arkanghel. I saw my sister running towards the direction of our Dad. Worried was all over her face, my gaze shifted to Arkanghel who's looking at my direction. He was emotionless.

<span;>"You okay Dad?"

<span;>"I'm okay Celestia" I shed my tears and my way to the doorstep nilagpasan ko lang si Arkanghel na parang wala siya sa hamba ng pinto. And in that moment I know I was wrong again...I got used with it.

<span;>"CELESTE!" I groan on pain when I saw my sister pulling my hair. My jaw dropped at what she did. Ng makaharap ko ito bakas ang galit sa mata nito.

<span;>"YOU CHANGE! I DON'T KNOW YOU ANYMORE!" I received a hard slap at my both cheeks, they were all shock at what she did.

<span;>I laugh sarcastically and made a paces near to my sister and gave her a hard slap too, that made her jaw dropped. I heard my parents shout my name, see the discrimination i'ven been through at this house.

<span;>But the things I didn't expect is when I received a hard slap from my Dad and he push me that enough to me for my head to slam on the table. But instead of helping me, they help my sister, they made her stop from cying and comfort her.

<span;>When I touch my head I saw blood on my hand. MY LIFE IS FULL OF BULLSHIT! I HATE MYSELF! I HATE THEM ALL FOR ACTING LIKE THEY CARE FOR ME.

<span;>"CELESTE!" that was the last word I heard from them before I passed out on the cold tiles.