CHAPTER 6: BRAVE AND SMART

CELESTE

I hold onto his chest and crampled his sando and I closed my eyes as our lips crashed. Last night I was drunk, padalosdalos ako sa naging desisyon ko. But right now, I was on right mind. I know what is happening and this is wrong but I just wanted to deepen our kiss. I'm becoming totally selfish now, hindi ko na nagawang isipin si Celestia and what consequence I might face if these scenario will keep on happening in secrets.

As we deepen the kiss my hands made its way to his nape and pull him more closer to me. My minds saying that this is wrong but my body saying otherwise. I like this! I love his kisses, I love the way he devour my lips, I've been dreaming to feel his touches over my body, ngayon pa ba ako magpapakipot at itutulak siya. Dahil kahit anong gawin ko baliktarib ko man ang mundo ginugusti ko rin ito! I like him there's no time for it to denied.

"N-Noah hmm" moan surpassed on my mouth as he bit my lower lips, his hand was caressing my thigh. Our lips parted we are both gasping for an air, we just look at each other eyes. Umayos ito sa pagkakaupo, I thought he was already done but I was wrong. Cause he carry me and made me sat on his lap in front of him. My eyes widen at what he did. Kumabog ang dibdib ko wala pa man din syang gaanong ginagawa ay naiimagine ko na! I can't help but to overthink, nakaramdam ako ng takot bigla but at the same time I was so curious!

Ohh Jesus Christ are we going farther right now? I don't know what to do anymore to stop him but honestly I don't want him to stop. Bahagyang lumihis ang skirt na suot ko kung kaya't nakita ang cycling nasuot ko but I didn't bother pulling down the hem of my tight little skirt. As I move my hips I heard him groan I can feel his boner! Damn it was so tense! 

I don't know where we really was, I don't even know if this car is tinted. And I realize something that made me push him away from me na ikinataas ng kilay nito. Someone might see us! For god sake Celeste, you let him again for second time around hindi ka na nadana. 

"What's the problem?" Hindi pa rin ito bumabalik sa dating pwesto, his both hand was still behind my head napakalapit pa rin nya sa akin. His hot breath was touching my cheeks kung kaya't nag iiwas ako ng tingin. Pinagpapawisan ako maging ang mga kamay ko, hindi ko magawang tumingin sa kanya naiilang ako! And I can't stand looking directly at his eyes! 

"L-lumayo ka nga!" I try to push him but he didn't let me, hinuli nito ang kamay ko at ibinaba but he didn't let go of it instead he intertwined our hands. Damn, hindi ko na ata kaya pang pigilan ito at itulak siya palayo! His so really hard to resist, kahit anong gawin ko kabaliktaran ang sinasabi ng katawan ko. 

No matter how wrong and sinful the way I kissed him back I do honestly love it and I don't feel regret everytime our lips crashed. I know he can also feel the fire ignite between us, the things thats make our situation complicated is his relationship to my sister. His my sister boyfriend and I shouldn't entertain this heat that I feel pero hindi ko mapigilan. Dahil kahit saang anggulo ko tignan, what I feel for him are not just heat, not just a simple admiration cause I have this special feelings towards him. 

That's why i'm having a hard time to resist his every touch, his words, his movements it was inevitable! I was attracted to him. Sobrang hirap pigilan dahil alam ko sa sarili ko na hindi ko talaga kaya pigilan. 

"Why would I? I love being near at you, I know you can feel it, you can feel the heat. Stop denying and being persistent, just accept the fact that you can't resist me. I know you love this" his fingers made its way to my lips and brushed it slowly. I can feel how his fingers stroke every part of my lips, he was looking at my eyes directly while doing it, kaya sinong hindi maiilang. Pakiramdam ko ano mang oras ay bibigay ako at ipagkakanulo ang sarili. 

I was under of his seductive drug, I can't get through it. It was too much to handle. Marahan akong napapikit ng maramdaman ko muli ang paglapit nito sa akin, pilit kong pinipigil ang paghinga ko dahil sa init na nararamdaman. I want to show him that I wasn't affected but my body telling otherwise. I love being near at him as our skin touches tila sasabog ako ano mang oras dahil sa init na nararamdaman. 

"You wanted my touch, you desire to be touch by me" napaigtad ako at napakagat sa labi ng maramdaman ko ang paggapang ng kamay nito papasok sa skirt ko. I can feel how he caress and stroke the skin of my thigh, ramdam na ramdam ko ang mainit na palad nito. I can feel the sweat on my forehead. Sobrang hirap pigilan at hindi ko kayang pigilan yun ang totoo. 

His fingers brushed the tip of my wetness until he cupped my wetness using his palm. Napaarko ang katawan ko dahil sa ginawa nito. I hold onto his bare shoulder as he continue brushing his palm against my wetness. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang mabilis na paggalaw ng palad nito, I was now wet. Napahigpit ang hawak ko sa balikat nito ng ilihis nya ang cycling ko, his now cupping my wetness without any cloth on it. Damn this is such a torture. 

His right I love his touch, i'm addicted to it. At sa palagay ko hahayaan ko nanaman sya sa ano mang gagawin nya.  Unti unting nawawala ang takot at pangamba na nararamdaman ko dahil sa ginagawa nya. Maybe I should just let to where it will take us, dahil kahit  ako ay nakakaramdam ng sobrang init at sobrang hirap nitong pigilan.

"So wet" my mouth was parted a little bit, I can see the sweat on his forehead. Naramdaman ko ang dahan dahang pagpasok ng daliri nito sa akin. Ohh god, napasubsob ako sa leeg nito dahil sa ginawa tila ano mang oras ay sasabog na ako. 

"N-Noah" 

"What?" Nakangisi ito sa harap ko, he already remove his finger on my wetness. Damn you Noah Arkanghel your such a bastard! 

"N-Noah please" 

"You want this?" 

"Ohh god!" I bit his bare shoulder as I felt his two fingers moving fastly inside me. Ohh god for god sake he doesn't even let me move on even for a while. Hindi ko mapigilan ang ungol na kumakawala sa bibig ko mas dumidiin ang kagat ko sa balikat nito at alam ko na magmamarka iyon. His just looking at me while his trusting his fingers on my wetness on a fast movement. 

He thrust his finger more faster this time at mas lalo lang bumabaon ang ngipin ko sa balikat nito, I just felt something was coming and I just let it. Ramdam na ramdam ko ang panlalagkit ko he already remove his finger and he put it on his mouth. Napangiwi ako dahil sa ginawa nito, why does he need to do that! 

"So sweet no wonder. I told you, you love this and you can't deny it. Wag mo nang pahirapan ang sarili mo Celeste I know you also desire my touch and kiss. I know you can feel the heat too" nahihiya akong umiwas ng tingin rito, he was cleaning me down there. Damn! Nakakahiya, I didn't expect that we will do this on his car. 

"B-But Noah mali ito, maling mali. Girlfriend mo ang ate ko at ayaw ko syang saktan...please let just pretend that it didn't happen madali lang naman siguro sa iyo yun diba?" I saw how his jaw tightened at what I said. Bumalik na ito sa pagkakaupo mula sa driver seat. I notice how he tighten his hand on the steering wheel. 

Madilim na madilim ang aura nito, nakakatakot. His green eyes was on fire I can't understand kasi wala naman akong nakikitang mali sa sinabi ko. This is for the sake of everyone. 

"Easy for you to say! I fetch you later wait for me" 

"No need No---" 

"Will you just please shut up! I know what am I going! I know its wrong but I don't care anymore just let me decide what I wanted to do!" I closed my eyes intently ng makarating kami sa school ko mabuti na lamang at hindi pa ako late sa first class ko. Pagkababa na pagkababa ko ng kotse nito ay pinaharurot nito ang sasakyan na may madilim na aura. 

You should be the one to adjust for now Celeste. If he was unstoppable then be it ako na lang ang mag aadjust hanggat kaya ko pa. Ayaw kong saktan si Celestia even I know that I already hurt her the night I kissed Noah. 

"Celeste!" Nagawi ang tingin ko ng may tumawag sa akin. It was Keith, he was with his messy hair and he look like a mess pero hindi ito nakabawas sa lakas ng dating nito. 

"K-Keith" 

"Sorry I can't be able to help you last night I was drunk masakit ang ulo. I'm really sorry but I make it up to you" nginitian ako nito ng tabihan ako sa bench sa ilalim ng puno. Ayaw ko punang lumabas baka maabutan ko si Noah hahayaan ko siyang maghintay roon bahala siya sa buhay nya. He was so hardheaded! Hindi sya nito maintidihan ang punto nya! 

Keith, but still I was thankful kasi sinama nyo ako. That was a great experience, that time naramdaman ko na I was free and has friends that is willing to protect me. I owe you a lot" bahagya nitong ginulo ang buhok ko, he offer his snack at me at hindi ko iyon tinanggihan. 

"Ano ka ba, your like a sister to me. You have friend and it was us, it just that we might look like a bad influence to you but we swear we still value education. We're just like that as bond as friends hindi naman madalas I think" natawa ako dahil sa sinabi nito, ang madalas ang pambababae nito. Nagkuwentuhan lang kaming dalawa at kumain ng snacks sa ilalim ng puno. 

It was so nice to know that they already treat me as their friend. 

"You should go and bond with us. Ivy has been worried at you last night, kahit ganun ang babaeng iyon mabait naman iyon she just look like a bitchy" Keith was right, andami kasi sa atin na hinuhusgahan ang isang tao kahit hindi pa nila ito kilala. They was actually a friend material and honestly Keith was achiever he was active with school activities napapaisip tuloy ako kung paano nilang nagagawang mag chill habang stress sa tambak na school works. 

"About that man last night, is he really your boyfriend. No offense huh but it seems like I already saw him dating your sister Celestia?" Napahinto ako sa pagkain dahil sa sinabi nito, ito na ang kinakatakutan ko. Ano na lang ang sasabihin ng ibang tao kapag nalaman nila na I was flirting with my sister boyfriend? Malaking kahihiyan iyon panigurado. 

"A-Actually...he was my sister boyfriend your right. He just there...last night cause my sister told him to fetch me" 

"Uhh I see, but I just wanted to reprimand you as a brother and friend. Celeste you are slendid on your unique way there's a lot of guy adoring and loving you from a far. I know that you know your limitation, if you continue that you'll know what will be your consequences. Hindi lang ang kapatid mo ang masasaktan dahil sa inyong dalawa ikaw ng masasaktan" he hold my hand and squeeze it. 

"Your brave and smart enough to know what is right. I'm just always here for you, think what is good for everyone I trust you"