132: Alive?

Demian

I knew Rachel wanted me to tell Dana that I didn't love her so she could feel more at ease. I knew I owed Rachel the respect of doing so. I had hurt her and had to make amends for my mistakes. But I wasn't sure if I could tell Dana that I didn't love her. Again. I already did it once, and it almost tore my heart apart. I didn't want to hurt Dana with my words. Dana didn't need to be rejected when she felt most alone. She needed my support and affection. It would be a low blow to tell her the same thing again.

I remained silent because I didn't know what to say to Rachel. I could explain my reasons, but Rachel wouldn't understand them. I was surprised that Rachel didn't kick Dana out of the house. Despite everything that had happened, she thought about Dana and the babies. But Rachel drew a fine line. I knew that if I didn't fulfill Rachel's request, she would leave me.

"I'm waiting for an answer. And let me tell you, Demian, it hurts not to have a yes from you. If you didn't lo