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chapter 34 - Apologies

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Esme's POV

I waited for a while for Jax to wake up. I paced his room I waited by his side of the bed, my nerves entangled in each other and I couldn't help but think that he will just reject me when he does wake up.

Robyn told me to give it a go and to talk to him but she didn't exactly give me a time frame on how long I'd be waiting for. Night time fell and I was sort of asleep but I could feel him stirring in his sleep apologising for something.

I couldn't make out what he said so I lay next to him in hopes that the mating bond will coat up all my fears and he would be fine as when I was struggling he was always able to calm me down even when I didn't want him to be near me but he calmed me over and over and now it was my turn to repay that favour back. I seemed to have forgotten that he also lost our baby and I never gave him time to get his thoughts or feelings across. After a while he started to wake up. I still laid next to him with one of my arms under my face and the other ho
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