Esme's POVIt's been over a month now since me and Jaxon have been able to put a lot of the stuff that happened past us, we miss our baby so much and I always think what would I look like heavily pregnant now, would I have a small bump or would I be big. The image makes me smile but also cry and I've been doing that recently. No one knows we're trying again but I believe I've put more weight on which is good he keeps saying. And then complains that my scent has changed a little bit but we haven't really been able to do much as last week he went away for a few days to another pack and only got back yesterday."Jaxon" I say while sorting out some clothes. I officially moved into his room and I get told off whenever I call it his room as it's now our room instead. I usually roll my eyes which results in a disagreement on how I'm too sassy for my own good and it'll get me in trouble one day. Just thinking about it makes me roll my eyes and sigh because I find it funny."Yes princess"And
Esme's POV "Jaxon do you think everything will be okay? You know with the baby?" I'm sitting in Jaxon's office while he does his work as we have finally finished the vampire diaries and I'm not wanting to start another series yet so I thought I'd sit here and watch my handsome fiancé do his work until he's finished or until I get extremely bored which will probably be that one. "Esme why do you ask?" "Because I lost the last baby and.." "Baby...no, no you didn't well yes we did but it was not your fault and every time you blame yourself I feel guilty because I couldn't stop it from happening, those few weeks was hell and when you realised what had happened my heart sunk and I felt awful and heartbroken. You felt the need to stay away from me because you assumed I was mad and I really wasn't not with you anyway but I was at the world. Everything we had planned for and everything you had worked so hard for came crushing down on you and us and it really hurt" I felt the
Esme's POVIt's been 7 weeks since we found out I was pregnant. My pregnancy had gone smooth so far minus the odd occasions of sickness and the feeling of having our pup kick at the strangest of times is beyond belief that I'm carrying our baby.I have 1 week left of my pregnancy and I'm so scared and nervous now! I have Jaxon and Robyn as my birthing partners which is a relief. Robyn's like the mother me and Finn never got. She's given us both the same love she gives her boys and it's so warming for us."Jax...what time do you think you'll be back tomorrow?" I ask him because he's away at our old parklands for the night sorting out some problems that Aloha Dylan has been having. I can't say I'm not okay with it because despite down not. My parents will probably be there too and asking for updates on me and Finn...thankfully no body from that pack knows of our baby and I will be glad for it to remain that way! I don't want them barrelling in my life now that I have a reason to live an
Esme's POVSo far everything's being going great. Now that me and Reggie are home we have had so many people just coming over and wanting to meet him, meet the next Alpha of our pack and I honestly feel so grateful to be here...with Jaxon and Finn and also my new family. The family I didn't think I would ever get and now I do I don't want to give it up. I don't want to wake up if this is a dream I just want to live in this life."What's up princess?"I look up to see my future husband and the father to our baby standing above me in our room with our son tucked under his arm...his broad, tattooed arms with so much pride. The same sort of pride that I love to see in him."Just sitting here dreaming. Now that we're home it feels real. Everything feels so real and I'm scared that it's all a dream Jax. I'm scared that non of this is real" I say with all honesty speaking."Listen. Give me a minute let me put little man back in his crib and we will talk okay""Okay"After a few minutes of li
Esme's POVIt's been a whole month properly since I gave birth, my figure is slowly going back to normal now that I have started my training sessions again. Something I couldn't wait for when I had had our son.Tomorrow is the annual Gala that Jaxon's pack have held every year. Something about this makes me stomach churn in a good way now that he has his Luna here with him. Something about his presence makes me feel more at ease about all of this seems how our old pack is going as well. My old mother and father will be there too and she's been adamant about seeing me.Like that's ever going to happen."You alright princess?"I turn my body around upon noticing Jaxon's voice behind me and I now only realise I've been in my own world for quite some time. Especially if he's asking me if I'm alright. I mean I am but at the same time I'm not I guess I haven't been away from Reggie since he's been born unless Jaxon is there himself and that's even a short shower usually so to go all night w
Jaxon's POVTonight's been planned for weeks, it got postponed when Esme gave birth to Reggie but everything's gone according to plan.Over the last month I've noticed Esme changing into this incredible mother, fiancé and our Luna, she's been through hell and back but yet she has managed to maintain a decent amount of comfort, love and passion towards herself and the pack members of our pack.Theres a knock at my office door which usually means my mum or dad as everyone else just walks in and it's actually Charlie."Hey man we've got company. There here now but want to speak with you personally""Who is it?""It's the alpha of the red claw pack. It's alpha mark and his Luna""Send them in, thanks man"Alpha Mark and his Luna Melissa walk into my office. Concern etched on there faces and I can tell this isn't going to be a good chat."Alpha mark, to what do I owe the pleasure?""Good afternoon Alpha, we'd had word that Alpha Dylan Langley has rogues on their territory. They have killed
Esme's POV"I do! Jaxon we've got our whole lives to chill out and relax! I mean if you don't want another one I completely understand""Baby...no I do! I just didn't think you would with how you felt during labour with Reggie! But yes....yes I want another baby with you of course I do!"Everything has started to come together recently and sometimes it scares me, sometimes it feels strange, this whole new life me and Jaxon has created and sometimes my heart feels so full it might just burst out of my chest."Then get your butt over here!" I say while taking my top off. I'm about to take off my trousers when a strong hand takes grip of my hand and pushes me back to the bed. My excitement doubles and my heart rate spikes. I secretly know I'm the boss here and he knows it too but he's just trying to show off his alpha male dominance which I do very much enjoy!We've been entangled in each other's embrace for the last 40 minutes and it's only then that it occurred to me that we have a gal
Esme's POVI'm sitting in my room having a bit of a break when I begin to feel different in myself, I have become more moodier again and my breasts hurt but I then realise that I'm 3 weeks late for my period. I didn't think much of it because I have been training along side Finley again and its been a stressful few months- first the gala- then my old pack coming into our pack lands- then training everyday or training other children who want to become warriors- and now this...my missed period and a handful of emotionsI haven't exactly had the time to be thinking about such things but now that I'm on my own and I have a moment to think I cant help but wonder what to do. I decided to mind link Robyn and get her opinion or even advice seems how she's the closest person I have to a mother."Robyn, are you busy? I need some advice""I'm on my way darling give me a minute as I have just got to finish making this and then I'll be up"10 minutes pass by and I'm still sitting in my room, t
Kai's POVPerfect.Everything about her is perfect. Her hair splayed out on my pillows, her body curled into the duvet that's pressing against her chest and her soft, even breathing and light snores are the only sounds in my room right now."Alpha" "Yeah?"“We’ve got a lead on the rogue wolves that have been surrounding the outer perimeter of the pack”“Bring them in. Take them to the-”“Yes, Alpha. We will be in the dungeon when you are ready. Take your time”The one thing I hate about being an Alpha is this. Knowing that sometimes there are things that I cannot change or take a handle on the outside of my land. Put me in a board room full of sarcastic assholes any day. Place me in a room with maths problems and a shit ton of coffee by all means but I can't stand the not knowing of any situation. My men and warriors are nothing but great. They do their jobs and they get highly rewarded.Since being the Alpha of my pack, I have never encountered a rogue wolf. They tend to dodge a lo
Millie's POVHe kisses me like I have never been kissed before.You haven't been properly kissed before dumbass. And of course, my wolf has to interject the humiliation of my...would it be classed as a first or second kiss? Who cares right now? I'm currently kissing my mate who has yet to let me go since he started this.His bed is so soft that I wouldn't mind just staying here forever. I wouldn't mind just being in his company and thinking screw it to my achievements but I know that this is just because he's making me feel good right now. I don't want to sound insecure but I'm insecure. And needy right now. "Kai" I whisper as we watch some TV show that we aren't even watching. He's stroking my hair as I lay there all awkward and nervous because I want to be closer to him in ways that I have never been with anyone before. "Yeah?""How does it work?""How does what work Millie?" he asks. I can tell he's getting sleepy but even sleepy Kai is sexy. Good God."This? I'm still in college
Kai's POVTorture.It's absolute torture having her here.In my home.In my space.In my presence and not being able to hold her.I wanted her to invite me in, to have me then and there, to allow me to hold her and give her the love she needs from a mate.My room is spacious enough to be considered a small apartment. It has a fireplace and a small section for a sofa, perhaps, but I didn't want them. I just wanted the space for working out if I fancied it and to chill out—not more mess to clean when I made it."Fuck it" I mutter under my breath. I don't want to be away from her and I certainly don't want to have her here and think I don't want her here. I'm just truly glad my parents adored her.That's what makes them great. They are just so laid back that everyone loves them. My mother loves to do arts and bake and my father helps out with the grounds and training.To say I'm Alpha, and to say I'm the one people submit to, my father still holds an authoritative nature because it's in
Millie's POVThe drive to his pack house isn't far, and I'm glad he doesn't drive that far when he comes to see me, but my nerves have gotten the better of me right now. I can't sit still, and I can't feel much other than my anxiety.Reaching over to my hand, Kai locks his fingers with mine and runs his thumb over my knuckles in a loving, tender way. I didn't think a mate's touch, mated or not, could ever settle nerves and anxiety.Just the thought of being in his territory and his life this way makes me feel so out of sorts."Relax princess," he says and my heart swells with a weird fluttering feeling at the endearment.I'm in my 20's and I have never had sex. I have barely kissed anyone before and the one time I did was when I was 13 we played truth or dare and I kissed Sean Calloway in front of my sister who then threw a punch at Sean because he went and told everyone I was too frigid and boring."Sorry. I- I just haven't-""I know. I understand and if it's too much I can take you
Millie's POVI didn't want to lay in bed all evening, but as time went by and my music playlist kept going, I lay in bed feeling defeated, like I usually did whenever I couldn't perfect something or when one of the mean girls would corner me and I couldn't handle it.My phone is on Do Not Disturb, and I'm sure my sister will be sending out a search party at this point and I don't blame her. I've avoided her calls and my mother's calls all evening because I feel like a total idiot for ever thinking someone like Kai would want to be with someone like me.My music is playing loudly so I don't have to listen to Natalia knocking on my door. Only, when I finally open my tear-streaked eyes, Kai is standing at my bedroom door with a worried and angry look on his face.When I got home earlier I made quick work of looking him up and sure enough, he is the CEO of a fair few restaurants and hotel chains and I understand he can't exactly claim to be an Alpha to a pack of wolves but I found myself
Kai's POVAt 3:40, when I was expecting Millie to turn up, I called her, but it went straight to voicemail. I don't worry too much about it because LA traffic can be a nightmare at this time in the afternoon, but I do drop her a message instead.Kai: Just let me know when you have arrived and I will come and meet you. I send the text, and it says delivered, but as the minutes tick by and my nerves begin to put me on edge, I send another message. Kai: Got some nice plans for the evening. When the meeting is done we can get the night started.Again, the text is sent as delivered so I know she is getting them but she doesn't read them. "Sir?""Yes?" I say looking up to find Cassidy standing in the doorway. She's one of those women who lives on daddy's money but doesn't like to do her job without being fired every damn minute of the day. Pushing her arms together to show me her cleavage which doesn't work because I would rather not look at her in that way so I keep my eyes trained on h
Millie's POVAt 3:30 on the dot I pulled into the carpark, Kai told me to pull into.Pulling my phone out of my pocket, I texted my sister to let her know I was fine and asked her to stop ringing me every five minutes.Walking into the building, I manage to get through the reception area and straight up to Kai's floor. I'm only wearing skinny jeans paired with calf-high winter boots and a long top with a cardigan, and I feel comfy and snug. This is what it feels like nearing November weather: not too cold but not too hot either, but in the late afternoon and evenings, it does get really cold here."Hello. May I help you?" the pretty woman behind the desk asks. I don't know what my facial expression is doing, I think I'm smiling but my body is as straight and tense as a metal pole pipe."Hi, I'm looking for Kai?""Appointment?" she clips at me. Her work attitude throws me back a little. He knew I was coming here so surely she should be alright with me heading straight through to wherev
Kai's POVFor the last few weeks, I have been travelling down to the UCLA campus to meet Millie after her lessons.She passed all of her exams at the end of last semester and the more I get to know her the better I feel.She was hesitant to get to know me at first before I showed up here and took her for breakfast after her morning practice.I also found out that she has a good trust fund but she doesn't use it, she prefers to work at the local diner on evenings and weekends and I respect a woman who doesn't want to rely on her family for money.My phone rings in my pocket as I'm walking towards Millie's practice."Rhodes," I say into the phone. I don't usually answer like this but when one of the office's phones for something then I do."Good morning Mr Rhodes it's Hallie" Hallie is my soon-to-be-fired secretary. Don't get me wrong I'm sure she does a brilliant job of her actual work but all I see is her trying to flirt and get in my pants at work."Yes?" I say as I come to a stop.
Millie's POVThe music echoes around the room. The thrill of skating to a good song makes everything feel much calmer to me. Everything I have exceeded is because I have given it my all, and I am proud of myself for getting this far."Mills, You're getting there with your axel but you need to push yourself further. Before you do it, duck and twist your body to get the right angle you need" Coach Steven's says as she notes down my movements. She's been my coach for the last 3 years since Avery retired and started travelling with her husband."Yes coach" no say feeling the back of my neck hairs stand on end. My body is going crazy and Zia is going absolutely nuts in my head.I carry on focusing on my movements and what I can do to keep with the same routine as the song nears an end."I want you to keep practising your camel spin okay, your footing is perfect for it but you're pushing yourself to the highest level and it's going to cause you some pain if you keep doing it, Millie""Yes,