** warning: this chapter is of loss, which viewers may not like. Blood, loss, anger and violence**Esme's POV"Will you do me the honours of marrying me and becoming my wife..?"I'm shocked I'm speechless. I try to talk but I instead end up crying more."Esme?""Yes..." I nod my head several times pulling him up and hugging him as tightly as I can."Yes. I'll marry you" I said with so much emotion running through me."SHE SAID YES" Jaxon shouts across the room. I did not expect this at all!The crowd erupts into a cheer and howls and laughter and soon the party is in full swing and I'm dancing with my Fiancé when I feel a tap on my shoulder. Finn is standing there waiting for me to hug him, I leap into his arms and he returns the hug and asks me if I would like to go for a walk.I agree and let Jaxon know."I'm just going to go for a walk with Finn. We won't be too long. I love you""Alright beautiful. Be careful and you make sure she's safe please Finley""Will do alpha"We head towa
Jaxon's POVIt's been 2 weeks since Esme got shot. 2 long and painful weeks. I haven't left her hospital bed since they allowed me to come in.Everyone has been coming in to the hospital room for weeks now and checking up and bringing me food so I have the strength to look after her when she finally wakes up because she will. She will wake up I have faith. I have to have faith that she will wake up. I say it like it's my mantra...Over and over again"Esme baby it's me. It's Jax. I think it's time for you to wake up now okay" I tell her."Finley's here. He keeps telling me all these weird stories you two use to share when you were kids and it sounds really weird. But I guess that's just who you are. My weird little wolf" I say quietly.It's been a further 7 hours and she's finally breathing for herself. And I can feel movement in her fingers. I look down and she's trying to move her fingers!"Finley go get a doctor" I tell him as quietly as I can."Baby girl. I'm here okay. Take your t
Jaxon's POV*** SLAP ***I have never raised my hand to a woman before and I didn't even know I what I had done until she started crying and backing away from me."Baby! Baby I am so sorry I didn't mean to do that please believe me"She stayed quiet. I tried to reach for her but she backed away in fear. From me.She runs past me and towards the door, I grab her but she lets go of me and screams for me to get out."Baby please I so sorry please believe me I'm so so sorry!""GET OUT! GET OUT AND DONT TOUCH ME AGAIN!!" She screams at me.I'm absolutely devastated at what I've just done I get out and she slams the door in my face. I hear ruffling and her walking around. I run downstairs to my mom and I'm instantly regretting what I am about to do."Hey sweetheart are you alright""Mom. I've just done something and I didn't mean too I swear I didn't mean to it was an accident""What have you done?" She asks while staring deeply in my eyes for answers."I slapped Esme"" YOU DID WHAT!""I d
Esme's POVI waited for a while for Jax to wake up. I paced his room I waited by his side of the bed, my nerves entangled in each other and I couldn't help but think that he will just reject me when he does wake up.Robyn told me to give it a go and to talk to him but she didn't exactly give me a time frame on how long I'd be waiting for. Night time fell and I was sort of asleep but I could feel him stirring in his sleep apologising for something. I couldn't make out what he said so I lay next to him in hopes that the mating bond will coat up all my fears and he would be fine as when I was struggling he was always able to calm me down even when I didn't want him to be near me but he calmed me over and over and now it was my turn to repay that favour back. I seemed to have forgotten that he also lost our baby and I never gave him time to get his thoughts or feelings across. After a while he started to wake up. I still laid next to him with one of my arms under my face and the other ho
Esme's POVIt's been over a month now since me and Jaxon have been able to put a lot of the stuff that happened past us, we miss our baby so much and I always think what would I look like heavily pregnant now, would I have a small bump or would I be big. The image makes me smile but also cry and I've been doing that recently. No one knows we're trying again but I believe I've put more weight on which is good he keeps saying. And then complains that my scent has changed a little bit but we haven't really been able to do much as last week he went away for a few days to another pack and only got back yesterday."Jaxon" I say while sorting out some clothes. I officially moved into his room and I get told off whenever I call it his room as it's now our room instead. I usually roll my eyes which results in a disagreement on how I'm too sassy for my own good and it'll get me in trouble one day. Just thinking about it makes me roll my eyes and sigh because I find it funny."Yes princess"And
Esme's POV "Jaxon do you think everything will be okay? You know with the baby?" I'm sitting in Jaxon's office while he does his work as we have finally finished the vampire diaries and I'm not wanting to start another series yet so I thought I'd sit here and watch my handsome fiancé do his work until he's finished or until I get extremely bored which will probably be that one. "Esme why do you ask?" "Because I lost the last baby and.." "Baby...no, no you didn't well yes we did but it was not your fault and every time you blame yourself I feel guilty because I couldn't stop it from happening, those few weeks was hell and when you realised what had happened my heart sunk and I felt awful and heartbroken. You felt the need to stay away from me because you assumed I was mad and I really wasn't not with you anyway but I was at the world. Everything we had planned for and everything you had worked so hard for came crushing down on you and us and it really hurt" I felt the
Esme's POVIt's been 7 weeks since we found out I was pregnant. My pregnancy had gone smooth so far minus the odd occasions of sickness and the feeling of having our pup kick at the strangest of times is beyond belief that I'm carrying our baby.I have 1 week left of my pregnancy and I'm so scared and nervous now! I have Jaxon and Robyn as my birthing partners which is a relief. Robyn's like the mother me and Finn never got. She's given us both the same love she gives her boys and it's so warming for us."Jax...what time do you think you'll be back tomorrow?" I ask him because he's away at our old parklands for the night sorting out some problems that Aloha Dylan has been having. I can't say I'm not okay with it because despite down not. My parents will probably be there too and asking for updates on me and Finn...thankfully no body from that pack knows of our baby and I will be glad for it to remain that way! I don't want them barrelling in my life now that I have a reason to live an
Esme's POVSo far everything's being going great. Now that me and Reggie are home we have had so many people just coming over and wanting to meet him, meet the next Alpha of our pack and I honestly feel so grateful to be here...with Jaxon and Finn and also my new family. The family I didn't think I would ever get and now I do I don't want to give it up. I don't want to wake up if this is a dream I just want to live in this life."What's up princess?"I look up to see my future husband and the father to our baby standing above me in our room with our son tucked under his arm...his broad, tattooed arms with so much pride. The same sort of pride that I love to see in him."Just sitting here dreaming. Now that we're home it feels real. Everything feels so real and I'm scared that it's all a dream Jax. I'm scared that non of this is real" I say with all honesty speaking."Listen. Give me a minute let me put little man back in his crib and we will talk okay""Okay"After a few minutes of li