An hour and a half later I walk into my bedroom and find Rene asleep in her crib and Kane is fast asleep on my bed. He's lying on his side with his hand over his chest. I stare at his face and wonder if this is the man I fell in love with. How could he do this to me? I trusted him, opened up to him, had a baby with him and I was ready to get married to him.
And then he did this to me.I'm so angry I could strangle him. I want to scream and let all the hurt out of my body. I want the world to know how much I hate him and his ex-fiance "Kane wake up," I say touching his arm. I shake it lightly and wait for him to open his eyes. It takes a minute but he opens them eventually. "It's time to go home," I say and the smile on his face fades slowly. "You're kicking me out?" He asks his voice breaking a little. he turns all the way onto his back looking up at me. He touches my hand and I take it away. He looks at me and thenIt's been three days since the situation with Olive happened. Shalom is still not talking to me. She hasn't allowed me to explain myself.I feel like shit, I'm not sleeping. I'm not eating and I can barely keep myself upright. The thought of living like this is killing me. I can't imagine a time when I'm not with her and my kids.I've been going to work, mostly 18-hour days. And when I get off I go to her house spend time with my daughter and then go back to an empty house.As soon as I walk through her door she lets me know where Rene is and then she disappears into her office until it's time for me to leave. She's said maybe three words in the last three days.And today is not any different."Hi," I say when she opens the door. She looks at me and then she steps aside to let me in."Rene is on the sofa in her baby pod." She says in answer and then she walks away. I close the door and head to
Day one of my fellowship starts right now. I pull my car into my designated parking spot. That's perk number of this new chapter in my life. I purposefully left home early so I could have five minutes to myself here. I sit back and take in all that I have achieved. It took a lot of blood, sweat, long nights and tears to get here.I had to make so many sacrifices to be in this very position I don't take any of it for granted.I just wish Shalom and I were on good terms. I wish I could call her and tell her how much I love and appreciate the support she has given me in the last year. I needed her and she showed up for me in more ways than I can count.I reach for my phone and stare at it. I don't kno
After the tour, we're led to the department conference room where Dr Hunter is already waiting to meet us. He greets us with a smile when we walk in. I'm surprised by this because during my interview he wasn't particularly smiley and he has a reputation for being tough. I don't blame him though. He has one of the toughest jobs in the country.But it's great to see an actual human smile."Good morning, everyone. I'm Dr Hunter, the Head of the Neurosurgery Department I know we've all met before but I wanted to officially introduce myself to extend a warm welcome to all of you on your first day as fellows here. This is an exciting and challenging time, and we're thrilled to have you join our team." He says once we've settled in our seats."You've already met Dr. Malik. So I would like you to take a moment to introduce yourselves. Tell us a bit about your background and what inspired you to pursue neurosurgery. Let's start on the right." He say
My heart breaks for Kane as soon as he walks through the door. To say he looks like shit is an understatement. I can tell he hasn't slept since Olive Gate happened and he started his new job a week ago. I wish he would stop pressuring himself by showing up here every day. I know he; 's trying to get closer to me but I'm not going to let him back in any time soon.I don't know if I can forgive a cheating man."R
"You expect me to believe that?" I ask turning to look at him. I feel so many emotions run through my body. I don't know if I want to cry, scream or sit in silence forever. I love this man with all of my heart. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him."I expect you to trust me." He says and I laugh a little. "I will never lie to you. And I will never cheat on you." He says and I sigh feeling so angry."Kane, your ex-fiance walked into your vacation room naked," I say closing my eyes for a second. I shake my head trying to remove the image from my head. I will never unsee this. "What do you expect me to think or feel?" I ask looking back at him."She wasn't supposed to be there""But she was," I say cutting him off. I hate doing that to anyone but I don't know how to be civil right now. I don't know how to be understanding."I know, I know," I say placing his face into his hands, robbing it a li
Jay cold this morning and announced that he's coming over. I find that curious that he did that because usually he just shows up.He should be here in a few minutes.I bet he wants to talk to me about Kane. I don't want to hear anything he has to say about him of course. I don't care what the explanation is. I will never believe him.The doorbell rings and I go to let him in. "Hey beautiful," Hre says at the door when I open it."Hey," I say and he smiles. "How are you?" I ask when we settle down in my living room."I'm okay. How are you?" He asks and I smile wondering what he came to tell me. His energy is low and he's not particularly his usual cheery self."I'm good," I say and he frowns. I wait for him to say more but it takes a minute."Actually. I'm not doing that well." He says finally and I raise my brows at him in question. "Farrow is mad at me." He says and I look at him, concerned.
"Oh my. You are so beautiful." Junior's mother says staring at Rene, who is sitting comfortably sitting on her lap and smiling up at her. "You're making me want another baby. " She says and I stare at her surprised."I thought you're not having another baby ever again," I say and she looks at me. "I think you said hell would have to freeze over before you had another baby," I say quoting a conversation we had a long time ago."Well, when you see a face like this. You have no choice." She says in answer and I shake my head at her."That's interesting," I say and she frowns at me."So what's going on with you?" She asks giving me her full attention finally. She sits with Rene comfortably so she lies back on her chest and stares at me."Nothing is going on with me," I say lying and she rolls her eyes at me."We're not doing this again." She says her voice low with a rich of annoyance. "How d
Hey. Do you mind taking Rene to her grandmother today?I already sent a bag over for her I'm meeting friends, so I can't do itLet me know - Shalom Thankfully read the text before I was on my way back home. I search for the address and hit Start Drive."We're going to see grandma kiddo" I say looking at Rene in the review mirror. I can't see her face because she's facing the other way but I like to look anyway."I haven't seen her since I epically messed up, so I don't know how this will go down." I say and she makes a sound so I agree with her. "I think she's going to give me a bit of her mind," I say and she grunts. "I don't know how I'm going to explain myself. Honestly, I wish I spoke baby so I would understand the advice you're giving me." I say and then I laugh. I bet she thinks I'm a screw up too."I know I messed up kiddo and I'm sorry," I say feeling emotional. My decisions affect her too. I used to be there all the time and there was no division in our family but I made