"You expect me to believe that?" I ask turning to look at him. I feel so many emotions run through my body. I don't know if I want to cry, scream or sit in silence forever. I love this man with all of my heart. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him.
"I expect you to trust me." He says and I laugh a little. "I will never lie to you. And I will never cheat on you." He says and I sigh feeling so angry. "Kane, your ex-fiance walked into your vacation room naked," I say closing my eyes for a second. I shake my head trying to remove the image from my head. I will never unsee this. "What do you expect me to think or feel?" I ask looking back at him."She wasn't supposed to be there""But she was," I say cutting him off. I hate doing that to anyone but I don't know how to be civil right now. I don't know how to be understanding. "I know, I know," I say placing his face into his hands, robbing it a liJay cold this morning and announced that he's coming over. I find that curious that he did that because usually he just shows up.He should be here in a few minutes.I bet he wants to talk to me about Kane. I don't want to hear anything he has to say about him of course. I don't care what the explanation is. I will never believe him.The doorbell rings and I go to let him in. "Hey beautiful," Hre says at the door when I open it."Hey," I say and he smiles. "How are you?" I ask when we settle down in my living room."I'm okay. How are you?" He asks and I smile wondering what he came to tell me. His energy is low and he's not particularly his usual cheery self."I'm good," I say and he frowns. I wait for him to say more but it takes a minute."Actually. I'm not doing that well." He says finally and I raise my brows at him in question. "Farrow is mad at me." He says and I look at him, concerned.
"Oh my. You are so beautiful." Junior's mother says staring at Rene, who is sitting comfortably sitting on her lap and smiling up at her. "You're making me want another baby. " She says and I stare at her surprised."I thought you're not having another baby ever again," I say and she looks at me. "I think you said hell would have to freeze over before you had another baby," I say quoting a conversation we had a long time ago."Well, when you see a face like this. You have no choice." She says in answer and I shake my head at her."That's interesting," I say and she frowns at me."So what's going on with you?" She asks giving me her full attention finally. She sits with Rene comfortably so she lies back on her chest and stares at me."Nothing is going on with me," I say lying and she rolls her eyes at me."We're not doing this again." She says her voice low with a rich of annoyance. "How d
Hey. Do you mind taking Rene to her grandmother today?I already sent a bag over for her I'm meeting friends, so I can't do itLet me know - Shalom Thankfully read the text before I was on my way back home. I search for the address and hit Start Drive."We're going to see grandma kiddo" I say looking at Rene in the review mirror. I can't see her face because she's facing the other way but I like to look anyway."I haven't seen her since I epically messed up, so I don't know how this will go down." I say and she makes a sound so I agree with her. "I think she's going to give me a bit of her mind," I say and she grunts. "I don't know how I'm going to explain myself. Honestly, I wish I spoke baby so I would understand the advice you're giving me." I say and then I laugh. I bet she thinks I'm a screw up too."I know I messed up kiddo and I'm sorry," I say feeling emotional. My decisions affect her too. I used to be there all the time and there was no division in our family but I made
"So, how are you doing really?" My soon mother-in-law asks looking at me closely. I smile a little and then my smile fades."I'm hanging in there," I say and then she looks away shaking her head. "Did she tell you what happened?" I ask my heart beating fast. How will I convince her I didn't cheat on her daughter when I can't convince Shalom. Why would she believe me?"She didn't tell me the details but I know the two of you are not talking or living together anymore." She says and I sigh. I don't know if I should be relieved or terrified. I can't tell her what happened I don't want her to know what didn't happen may have happened but it didn't. I don't know what to say anymore."I don't know how to... Apologize to her." I say and she sighs."Shalom is a difficult one." She smiles and then she looks into the distance. "She tends to hold on to hurt more than joy." She says and I agree. It sounds exactly like her. "So whatever h
I walk into my kitchen slowly. Kane is at the stove stirring something in a pot. He turns to look at me hesitantly and I raise my brows at him in question. I can tell he's feeling a little unsure and he should. He's not supposed to be here. The plan was that he would spend the day with Rene, drop her off at my mother's, and then leave. I didn't expect to find him here. "I made us dinner.' He says when I place my bag on the island. I put my keys down and take a seat. I don't know what to say to him."I thought I would make you a little something since you've been cooking for me all these weeks." He says and I nod. "That's thoughtful of you. But I already ate." I say and I see his body deflate. "I guess I should have asked you before I did all this huh?" He says and I nod."I wanted it to be a surprise." He says and I nod. "I have dessert." He says smiling and I smile too. I love the boyish look on his face. "That sounds good," I say deciding to be nice to him. He doesn't deserve i
"What's wrong?" He asks sitting back."Nothing is wrong," I say and he listens silently. "I was thinking of returning to work,; like getting a full-time in-office job. But I..." I say and he nods."That's good." He says smiling and I shrug."I don't know if I can do it. But I might not have to." I say and he tilts his head to the side confused."What do you mean?" He asks finally. I take a breath to gather my thoughts. How do I say this without sounding whiny and ungrateful?"I have so many demands right now. Financially and time-wise." I start and he shifts in his chair a little. "I'm thinking a full-time job will be more stable and structured," I say and he sits thoughtfully for a few seconds."Do you think you'll make more with a full time job?" He asks the answer is immediately no. I shake my head and he nods."So, it's not so much the money but the stability and structure of full-time emp
He looks at me with a blend of concern and understanding, as if he's trying to decipher a puzzle. " But I get it," he finally says, breaking the silence that had settled between us. "You want to be independent, and you want stability without feeling like you're relying on me." He says and I can almost feel him choke on the words. He believes in doing everything for the people he loves. I nod, feeling a weight lift slightly. "Exactly. I want to be able to stand on my own two feet again, I was doing that before us and I want to go back. Besides..." I say and then stop myself. He sighs knowing exactly what I was going to say. He leans forward, resting his elbows on his knees. "You're already doing an incredible job. Juggling the raising Rene, your clients, your mom and everything else. " He says pointing to himself. "It's not easy. I', just trying to find a middle ground where you don't feel overwhelmed." He says and I stare at him silentI tilt my head, curious. "What do you mean?"
I stand under the hot spray of the shower, letting the water wash away the tension that had settled in my shoulders. Closing my eyes, I hoped the steam could clear my mind as well. Kane's words echo in my head, mingling with the sound of the water splashing against the tiles. "I know it's going to take time and effort for me to gain your trust again."I sigh, pressing my forehead against the cool tile. Trust was such a fragile thing, so easily shattered and so difficult to rebuild. I want to believe him, wanted to let go of the hurt and uncertainty, but the scars run deep. Still, the memory of his concern and determination tugged at my heart. We've been through so much together, and even now, there was a part of me that misses the way things used to be.After what felt like an eternity, I turn off the water and stepped out of the shower, wrapping myself in a towel. I move slowly, my thoughts still churning as I dry off and slip into my pajamas.When I finally emerge from the bathroom,