"Look. I don't think we want to ruin a good evening. We should let this go. " Mathew says jumping in before Jay says anything. Mathew looks at Olive and she shakes her head at his comment.
"With all due respect Mathew I didn't ask for your opinion. I don't see why being honest will ruin anyone's evening. Maybe you don't like hearing the truth but I do. And I don't really care for your opinion anyway." She says and Mathew smiles
Later that nightI'm lying in bed my phone in hand and I'm staring at Shalom's beautiful face. I'mfeeling exhausted from this evening's conversation and I wish I was home with her and not here."I'm coming home in two days," I say to Shalom who is looking at me through the phone screen.
"What do I want from you?" Olive asks her voice getting loud again. She takes a few steps towards me. I raise my brows at her in question and she steps back and then she takes a calming breath. "I want you to show that I meant something to you once upon a time." She says her voice low. "I did care about you," I say and she groans out loud. The sound is not too loud but she made her point. "Kane you dropped me like trash the moment that girl showed up." She says sitting on the bed. I move to the door and look at her. "I loved you. I was there for you when you needed someone. I gave you everything. I was understanding, I was. And she..." She says and I shake my head. "And she gets benefit from all the hard work and time I put into..." "We were at school together. We were there for each other equally. You can't claim to be the only one who has put in work on our relationship." I say stopping her from continuing. I don't want to hear this. I know what she's going to say. She held my h
The next morning Kane is on the phone with Shalom. He's in his bathroom getting ready for the day."Are you sure you're okay?" Shalom asks me as I wipe my face clean for the third time in the last five minutes. I can't stop thinking about my conversation with Olive. I was mean but I had to be, she thinks there's a chance for us to get back together."I'm good baby," I say when I catch my breath."Are you sure?" She says and I pick up the phone and change from voice call to video. I wait for her to accept the video call."I'm sure baby." I say when I see her face and she smiles."Okay." She says but she still has questions and I can tell. "I would tell you if something was wrong," I say and she nods."I'm glad to hear that." She says and I can hear the bathroom door open behind me. My heart sinks when I see Shalom's face change from joy to fear and then pain."Hey, Kane," Olive says and when I look i
"Is she still not answering?" Jay says looking at me in the review mirror. I shake my head no and he sighs in disappointment. "I'll try to call her with my phone maybe she'll answer." He says reaching for the phone.Mathew is sitting silently on the passenger side. I know he has a lot to say but he's not the I told you type of guy. He might not agree with my choices but will support me by being there.We left the house as soon as we were done packing. We have a two-hour drive ahead of us and I can honestly say I'm terrified of what I am going to find at the end of this drive.I can handle her screaming at me, throwing things at me, cursing me out but I can't take her leaving me.A part of me knows I am going to get home and it's to be empty. "She won't ."I say as his phone starts ringing."I fucked up and I'm going to have to get out of this myself." I say as the phone continues to ring. "I should
It's 24 hours since I got home and Shalom is still not answering my phone. I've been sitting on this sofa since I got home from work two hours ago and I haven't moved an inch. I'm having every emotion a human can experience flow through my bodyBut the worst one is an emptiness in the pit of my stomach.My mind is going back to a place I don't want to be in. Memories I buried a long time ago are resurfacing and
An hour and a half later I walk into my bedroom and find Rene asleep in her crib and Kane is fast asleep on my bed. He's lying on his side with his hand over his chest. I stare at his face and wonder if this is the man I fell in love with. How could he do this to me? I trusted him, opened up to him, had a baby with him and I was ready to get married to him.And then he did this to me.I'm so angry I could strangle him.I want to scream and let all the hurt out of my body. I want the world to know how much I hate him and his ex-fiance"Kane wake up," I say touching his arm. I shake it lightly and wait for him to open his eyes. It takes a minute but he opens them eventually. "It's time to go home," I say and the smile on his face fades slowly."You're kicking me out?" He asks his voice breaking a little. he turns all the way onto his back looking up at me. He touches my hand and I take it away. He looks at me and then
It's been three days since the situation with Olive happened. Shalom is still not talking to me. She hasn't allowed me to explain myself.I feel like shit, I'm not sleeping. I'm not eating and I can barely keep myself upright. The thought of living like this is killing me. I can't imagine a time when I'm not with her and my kids.I've been going to work, mostly 18-hour days. And when I get off I go to her house spend time with my daughter and then go back to an empty house.As soon as I walk through her door she lets me know where Rene is and then she disappears into her office until it's time for me to leave. She's said maybe three words in the last three days.And today is not any different."Hi," I say when she opens the door. She looks at me and then she steps aside to let me in."Rene is on the sofa in her baby pod." She says in answer and then she walks away. I close the door and head to
Day one of my fellowship starts right now. I pull my car into my designated parking spot. That's perk number of this new chapter in my life. I purposefully left home early so I could have five minutes to myself here. I sit back and take in all that I have achieved. It took a lot of blood, sweat, long nights and tears to get here.I had to make so many sacrifices to be in this very position I don't take any of it for granted.I just wish Shalom and I were on good terms. I wish I could call her and tell her how much I love and appreciate the support she has given me in the last year. I needed her and she showed up for me in more ways than I can count.I reach for my phone and stare at it. I don't kno