“Any luck?” Mason queried, dodging my attack when I tried to give him a swift jab in the face. He locked my fist in his palm, twisting it, forcing me to veer before pushing me as his defense.
Panting, I glowered at him. “Would I be here trying to defeat you if I have?”
I didn't wait for Mason to answer and charged through him, aiming to land on his face and followed by a supposed to be knockdown attack. But as quick as Mason, he predicted my offense and sent me back from my position by kicking my lower back, making me slightly wince in pain. Fortunately, I didn't lose my footing but I did felt the pain gnawing in my back.
My wolf howled inside me all of a sudden, offering her strength for my assistance. If only I hadn't been attempting to defeat Mason without shifting, I would have let my wolf help me earlier.
Defeating Mason is all I have wanted to accomplish since the moment I met him, now that five years had gone by and I still haven't found the White Stag, I just want to prove to him that I can alter my sullied reputation without relying on the purpose of the North’s legend.
“You're agitated,” he said and withdrew from his fighting stance, a gesture that he does whenever he was bored from our fight or to chastise me. “I can feel it.”
Looking away, I clamped my teeth together and planted my hands on my hips. “Who wouldn't be agitated? Five years had gone by since I vowed to get revenge on Aena, and yet I couldn't find the only way to save this reputation of mine. I have already lost my stutter. I got better at fighting by doing secret training every night. Believe it or not, the stags in the woods wouldn't even flinch seeing me roaming there. Why would I even wish to find a thing that doesn't probably exist? Why can't I just do it by myself?”
“It’s because you couldn't,” Mason pointed out, never minding the effect of his words on me. “Sure, you have become better, there was no need to deny that. Your wolf became stronger. You can fight with me without passing out. You got better at handling swords and knives. But not everybody knows that, Aera... especially here in our town. Your father was still doubting your capabilities.”
I rolled my eyes in dismay. “Thank you so much for bringing that up. Last night, I answered him without stuttering in front of the high members of the pack, but it didn't get anything but a cynical squint. Stuttering and not, it's all the same to him as well as those members who think highly of themselves.”
“Believe me when I said that you improved because you did, Aera. A lot, more than I had hoped. And my sister would agree with me if she were here. But then it wasn't enough. It’s never going to be enough, Aera. You need something powerful. Something immense that in just a blink of one's eyes everyone would look at you like you were above them,” Mason continued and walked towards me. “You need that White Stag.”
“Whoever spread that word about White Stag must be really fantastical—Ouch!” I exclaimed when Mason flicked my temple. “What was that for?”
“You’re going to find it, Aera. I know you can. Now, can you stop whining, and let’s just go back to fighting? I want to see you get defeated by me again,” Mason taunted and walked back to his position.
Glaring at such haughty words, I went back to my position and executed my fighting stance. When I heard my wolf howl at me in reminder, I smirked in secret to acquiesce.
Mason motioned me to initiate my attack. With quick steps, I pretended to start my attack by doing a diving punch, my signature attack, so he took a step back to dodge it. And it was only enough for me to have time to shift into my wolf and land on him using my paws. Mason, who thought that I would charge through him with a follow-up punch, couldn't have time to retract and was unable to advance a defense. Amused by my fast shifting, Mason threw his hands in the air. I growled straight through his face, baring my sharp teeth to require the submission of his first defeat.
“Fine, you won. It was indeed a nice combination but you know that it was cheating, right?” Mason reminded me, lifting his brows.
I growl-barked at him before I decided to withdraw my paw. I backed out for a second and tried to bite his face to unnerve him because I knew Mason would be fast enough to draw back, which he did.
He was glaring at me when I completely backed off and shifted back to human. I remained lying on the ground to let my bones fully adjust.
“You know you couldn't do that, right? Not because it was breaking the rules, but because of that...” Mason indicated, reluctant to stare at my naked body. “You tore your women's cotte...”
“That’s why I brought one for that,” I said and rose to my feet without wearing any sign of shame.
I was facing Mason with a blank expression and he just looked at me like he was awfully stunned, a reaction he had never shown me before. And I couldn't distinguish if his reaction was a sign of admiration or disgust, but I did see something dashed in his eyes that was impossible for me to fathom.
“If I were you I wouldn't do that in front of other men, especially those who had located and marked their fated mate,” he advised, so I turned his back on him to get my spare dress inside my hand-woven self-made rattan bag. “It’s too exposed and...”
“And what?” I asked, glancing over my shoulder as I put on my undergarments.
“Tempting,” Mason bit off and then swallowed hard, causing his Adam's apple to bob. “Most men could commit a sin because of that body.”
I scoffed, shaking my head. “You really need to go to the wolfsayer and read your fated mate.”
I put on my comfortable dress and reached for my back to reach for the tie to be able to close it. Mason must have noticed me struggling so he pushed my hand and pulled the strings himself to close my white and dark green cotte.
Mason pulled the string so tightly, I yowed in pain before he tied it.
“I already did that, I went to the wolfsayer this morning,” Mason answered in a flat tone. “She said she couldn't read what pack I was fated with.”
I turned to him with a creased forehead. “The wolfsayer must not be trying hard then. It was impossible not to read yours.”
“Maybe it’s not too impossible because she tried reading me thrice,” he pressed with a weary smile. “She got the same answer, none. And it's not just me but Mia as well.”
“The wolfsayer could be mistaken in all of her tries. Everyone has a fated mate, Mason. Like Aena with that Alpha from the Ignis Pack. Me to that... to that arrogant wolf shifter from the Triton's,” I said bitterly, unable to contain the urge to roll my eyes when I remembered Alexei’s smug.
“You mean the Alpha... Alexei Volkov was the next in line Alpha of the Triton's pack five years ago, Aera, he must have already succeeded his father and is currently ruling their pack now,” Mason said, purposely teasing me since he knew how much the topic vexed me.
“Alpha or not, I don't care. I don't wish to talk about him. He’s making my head boil,” I ground out with fitted teeth and then put on my boots. “Because of him, I couldn't find my second chance mate. He rejected me that day and didn't even wait for me to accept his rejection. What a jerk!”
“Maybe because he has a plan on claiming you back?” Mason jested, mischievousness playing along in his voice.
I just gave him a blank response in return, causing his smirk to fade.
“Or he was very disappointed seeing you as his fated mate because you looked so frail and inadequate. It was such an eyesore for him, that's why after the rejection he walked away immediately and never looked back,” Mason carried on and smirked. “That’s what you wanted to hear, right? Instead of the first one.”
I glowered at Mason and grunted in outrage. If he wasn't a close friend of mine, I had already struck him the moment he opened that subject. Because of that insensitive quip, I remember Alexei again, the person I have been trying to get off my mind but then failing every mating period. Not only did he make my life more miserable than it already was, but he also made me suffer in frustration whenever I'm in heat.
“That was not funny at all, Mason. You know how much I hate that guy!” I barked and gave him a sharp glare. “I was going to rest at home after the training but now you just urge me to look for the white stag tonight, damn.”
“Well, I guess, taunting remarks is your motivation now. Good luck then,” Mason said, and then turned his back on me.
With boiling nerves and a wry smile, I just watched Mason depart. I went in the opposite direction when he was gone from my sight and returned to looking for the White Stag.
Ever since I vowed to take revenge on the people who tormented me, sleeping in the woods where stags are has become my daily basis. But with those years of looking for a white stag, I had never seen one. It wasn't easy. There were times that I questioned my determination, my forthcoming future for its absence, and I feared most of the time that I may not have located one.
I sighed and pushed the young stag's head that came to me just to stare at my face. “Don’t you fear that I might bite your neck and I would feed you for my wolf's dinner tonight, huh?”
I tried to sound intimidating but the stag only looked me straight in the eye before it continued to stare some more and then eventually left.
Slumping on the trunk, I decided to rest when the stags come and go before my eyes, as if I wasn't a human that doesn't need to be feared.
While waiting for a miracle, I decided to sleep with my unsheathed hunting knife placed above my stomach in case of an emergency. And it seemed like the night passed by so quickly and I woke up at the crack of the day with a shining White Stag standing in front of me, taking my breath away.
5 years earlier...“What?” Miya asked incredulously, as if she heard the most absurd idea she ever perceived. “You are going to what?”“Revenge,” I answered promptly, still striding towards the woods where I frequently look for the White Stag. I walked past the members who were spearing their eyes at me in contempt, so I huffed and even hastened my step. “I’m going to take my revenge on them. All of them. Aena. The high members. My mate who rejected me. Including my father.”Without looking, I felt Miya winced in disappointment when the tenor of her breathing changed for seconds, before she continue to take quick breaths as she trailed after me with long steps.“Are you hearing yourself?” Miya asked, which made my forehead crease. Not just because her query was carries a hint of inhibition but because I couldn't believe that she didn't understand my notion given the fact of my dire situation that she's been always aware of.“Of course, I am. I am never been more certain doing something
My father was smiling. Never once had he offered me a smile before whether it was fake or forced. It was the thing my father couldn't spare for his disappointment child. However, I have to admit that I reached the point when I waited for this day to happen. For the first time in my life, I finally saw him smile at me, yet it never gave me a sense of fulfillment but rage. I have hated him ever since he blamed me for the death of my mother. Even so, sometimes I found myself yearning for his appreciation as his daughter. But now that I have sought exactly what I yearned for so long, I never knew that I didn't need it. At least, not anymore. To me, it was easy to appreciate a person, to purse lips to give someone a smile. Father never had a problem giving it to Aena, but to me... I had to fucking kill an animal just to earn his appreciation. Unbeknownst to me, I got tired from doing a lot of exertion that always ends up being a futile attempt. It wasn’t worth it. I have another purpos
ALEXEI“Stop! Go back to the banquet and withdraw what you declared. Claim your mate just like what you are supposed to,” my father, Alexander Volkov said, disappointment playing along in his voice, making me halt from taking another step.I saw most of my father’s beta walk past me with concern, almost a wary expression before I glared at them to walk away, indicating that I didn’t need anyone’s pity. These betas think that they were entitled to show me mercy since I was on cue with a long chastise from my father. However, I care less about what they think. I did what I thought was right, not for myself but for the sake of Triton’s pack.With a smug expression, I turned to my father. “Father, you must have gone blind. Did you see that woman? Is that the kind of woman you want to reign alongside me? The kind of woman you want to be the mother of my child and your grandchildren?”“It doesn't matter if that woman was weak or mute or crippled. It doesn't matter if it’s from another regio
For a moment, I felt like I was struck by lightning. Alexei’s sudden appearance caused my ability to discern things to malfunction. I remained frozen as I gazed down at him, dumbfounded, not knowing what to react, think, or say. I was completely surprised, weighing down all the hatred I felt for him for the last five years.“Alexei...” I murmured, and then hated myself that his name escaped from my lips pretty naturally, as if he had never caused me pain and misery. All of a sudden, I heard haste footsteps from the door and saw Mason arrive by the door, gasping for air with a bruise on his right eye and a cut on his lips, fresh blood scattered on his chin, untidily wiped. I don't have to confirm who caused that wound because there was only one who intruded into the packhouse.Alexei.“Forgive me. I stopped Mister Volkov at the entrance of the packhouse. Unfortunately, I was defeated by the brawl initiated by Mister Volkov and I wasn't able to stop him from ruining today’s...” Mason tr
Three years earlier...“You need to choose an heir,” Diego suggested solicitously, his voice was low but vehement.I stopped taking a step toward my room when I passed my father’s office. Suddenly, I felt my wolf enlivened at the topic and forced me to stay. So instead of going on my way, I placed my ears near the open door while paying attention to my surroundings just in case someone passed and caught me listening to someone's undisclosed discussion, especially a discussion between the Alpha and his most trusted strategist.It wasn't my attention to eavesdrop. After every unjust treatment I received, nothing excites me anymore other than killing the White Stag. However, I have no idea as to why I tolerated my wolf’s inclination. I ended up taking it as my chance to find out what my father’s decision was about this important matter.At the very least, I have to admit that Diego was right and smart to have prodded this regard. At my father”s age, he was accustomed to choosing an heir
Four. There are four ways to kill this arrogant shifter by laying his hands on me, let alone wrapping his arms around me, just by the use of my hunting knife hidden in one of my boots.First is by wringing his neck, which will end his life for approximately thirty seconds. Severing the trachea below the larynx to prevent him from screaming and then meeting his death. A clean and quick murder, I could say, and preferred by most of the rogues to get away with murder after executing a wolf shifter that belongs in a pack.The second one would be cutting his wrist. Although the first one was faster than cutting his wrist, however, slow death is what Alexei deserves for rejecting me five years ago. It wouldn't be as slow as five years of suffering but I know it would be worth a sight to watch.Thirdly, by stabbing his heart directly and then twisting the knife to sever all the functions that were causing his heart to beat. My hunting knife was sharp enough to get through his heart and kill
“I think this will do.” Miya buried the shovel in the ground and shook off the dirt in her hands. When I remained silent beside her, she crouched down and tapped my arm. “Are you alright?”“I am,” I answered without looking at her, withdrawing my hands from flattening the soil. “I don’t think doing what’s right is what I need to do, Miya. I want to do what’s smart.” “I understand your reason,” Miya said, pertaining to the plan I told her to end my dilemma. “And forgive me for lashing out. I just feared losing you since your mate suddenly wanted to claim you back now. We used to jest about that before, and now it’s happening. It’s your choice to accept or reject him and not mine.” Dusting off the dirt in my hand, I turned to face Miya. “You’re a good friend, Miya, you know that. You are the only person who urges me to train and improve. If not for you, I wouldn't be here in front of you, in these very woods, and just locked in my room instead. But you have to trust me, okay? You and M
“Get out, Volkov!” Fuming, I pointed at the window when his grin grew wider on his lips. “Out!”Alexei threw his hands in the air as a sign of his surrender but it only aggravated me. He headed to my window with a huge grin and the longer I gazed at those curves, the more I remembered what he did to me.“What’s wrong? Don't you want to admit it? I was just saying that you might need me to do—”Before Alexei could end up his sentence, I strode towards him and carelessly pushed him out the window, not minding if the fall could kill him or get broken bones. Either way, it was still a satisfaction for me.“Goddess...” I muttered in front of the window and then massaged the bridge of my nose with my forefinger and thumb. When I heard a long groan mixed with spite and pain from below, that’s when I knew Alexei survived.After five years of being a rogue without any protection, of course, he made it; proving to everyone that he wasn't just an ordinary shifter like others thought he was. With
“I couldn’t believe that shifters here in Buenavista forgot the siblings after just two decades, what are your plans for the Martinez siblings and Calisto now?” Irino asked, breaking the peaceful silence I had with Alexei.“Well...” I looked at Mason and Miya and exhaled deeply. “I would love to give them a proper burial and let the Calisto know that they were the Martinez siblings who survived the fall of the Martinez twenty years ago. The shifters who should be the ones ruling Calisto and not the Alvarez. I would also love to conduct a rescue and search for anyone who survived other than Mason and Miya that day to give Calisto back into their hands.”“What if they were the last of their clan?” Irino asked.“I have no choice but to let Akim take Calisto as the new Alpha like everybody was expecting him,” I answered and paused before I faced Irino and the others. “But I won’t let the others face the same leadership here in Calisto, so I will take the shifters who wanted to leave the p
“I’m sorry, Miya...” I uttered under my breath when she dropped at the last blow.Witnessing how Miya shifted back to human, my knees gave up and I threw the gun in outrage, fear, and sorrow. As much as I was thankful that the gun saved me and Alexei, it was still the most dangerous weapon anyone could have possessed to kill one’s wolf.I immediately held my belly and made sure that the baby was alright inside me by caressing it several times. I watched the siblings' dead bodies lying on the ground and heaved a deep sigh.With a heartbreaking sight, I suddenly remember their fates read by the wolfsayer six years ago. It was blank. Unreadable, as the wolfsayer called it, saying she had trouble reading their mates and possibly that they were one of the few that aren’t fated for another. I recall refusing to believe our wolfsayer before, thinking that she only made a mistake.And it turned out that wolfsayers don’t make mistakes. Because the meaning of Mason and Miya’s blank fate is beca
Miya let out a horrified scream before she shot me using her malevolent, trembling eyes. “This is all because of you... this is all because of you! You killed my brother.”Stunned and weeping, I ignored Miya’s outburst and held onto Mason’s stab wound, pulling him closer to me as I refused to believe what Miya had done to her own brother. Mason's eyes were fluttering when I looked at him and his vision was unfocused while watching the setting sun.“Mason, look at me...” I told him as I kept tapping his cheeks. He slowly complied and gave me a sad smile when our eyes finally met. “The Moon Goddess is very kind to let me see you before my life ends, Aera. I had no regrets about saving you, so you should feel the same.”“No, Mason. You will not die! Do you hear me? You will live!” I persisted, but Mason’s breathing started to become shallow and short, making me panic more than I already was.I was now covered in blood. And I didn’t know where to place my hand when Mason suddenly reached
“I will not mess this up, sister. You can trust me,” Mason said, avoiding my gaze as he faced his sister and undisclosing the state I was in.He could have told Miya that I wasn’t unconscious anymore. Kill me the moment he had crouched down since I was secretly listening to their conversation when I should not. Slit my throat without waiting for me to gain consciousness but he didn’t. He remained pretending that I was unconscious for my own sake.With that considerate gesture, I felt like there was still kindness in him, which Miya had totally forsaken a long time ago because of her rage and her intense need for revenge. I most definitely feared that my life was possibly coming to an end, but I felt rather confident about Mason sparing my life.Silently, I just wished I was right.“I trust you,” Miya said to her brother and then she left the cell afterward, leaving Mason who suspiciously trailed his eyes on her sister and let out a big sigh of relief when she was finally out of sight.
MIYA26 years ago...“Yes, honey. You heard your father right. You will be the first female Alpha of the North and the North Canideans will love you once you take the highest rank,” my father, Manolo Martinez, said to me, twirling me in the air and my laughter and shrieks filled my room that blissful night.My mother, Susan Martinez, gave me a warm smile before she walked toward my father’s side. “Okay, that’s enough. The heir to the highest rank will need to get a lot of sleep so she can be the first female of the North when she turns twenty. And that is fifteen years from now. You need to be strong and brave when that happens, Miya honey. For your shifters and for Calisto.”“I would be strong and brave, mother. I promise,” I vowed with my hands spread in the air and then explained excitedly when my father twirled me even faster.After a few turns, my father placed me down and gently tucked me into bed. They kissed my cheeks and wished me good night as their daughter and now the newl
I woke up in a dark room with fear and anger filling me, my hands and feet tied behind my back and I was helplessly facing the floor, trying to shout for help but no words could emerge from my mouth other than a silent moan.Struggling yet determined to move, I tried to free myself by flinging my hands constantly behind my back but my whole body was still numb that I even find it hard to blink or even turn sideways so I would not put all my weight on my stomach since I was a month old pregnant. I am soon to become a mother and I couldn’t lose the most precious blessing the Moon Goddess has given me when other shifters are struggling to bear a child.I never thought that a shifter like Miya, let alone a shifter whom I treated as one of my closest friends and a sister more than I treated Aena would do such a thing to me. And maybe— no, certainly, I am to be blamed as to why I am here in this dark and cold room only the Goddess knew where it was located. It appeared that I trusted Miya t
A week later...Wearing a black dress, I made myself inside Calisto’s hall without minding the mixed gaze of everyone was piercing me.All eyes immediately turned on me when I stepped inside and they gave me a deep respectful bow when I walked past them. Not just Calisto but all shifters from other packs who paid a visit to my father’s funeral. After everything that I had been through, the praise and the exaggerated appreciation, seeing them treat me like I was next to the Moon Goddess was never new, especially when there was a rumor that I helped Muck and not long after when Andras revealed that it wasn’t a rumor but the truth.Aera the Great. That’s what they called me even before the revelation. Now that the truth was out, they began to worship me for driving out all the Antartis as though I did it by myself. I had help. Andras could receive some attention as well, including the Muck’s brave shifters who fought with me during the riot, but the North has never been a fair region eve
“I am what?” I blurted, holding my stomach, unable to believe what Yelena said. “No, I am not.”“You are. Look.” Yelena held my waist and made me face the mirror. And then she tilted me to the side and carefully scooped my bump I never knew I had. “You are pregnant.”I gasped when I realized Yelena was right and my hands flew to cover my mouth in shock and delight. “Oh, my Goddess... I am! I am indeed with child, Yelena.”“You are...” Yelena gushed and did a little jump while holding my hand. Out of excitement, the news made me jump as well with her, but Yelena stopped me immediately. “Careful, Aera. You cannot jump or fight, or do straining activities from now on. You have a precious life inside you now. Oh, what a blessing for you and your mate! We shall tell the others, especially Alexei.”“No,” I cut her off, making Yelena's eyebrows arched in wonder and confusion. “I'm afraid we have to keep it for ourselves, Yelena,”“Why?” she asked with a little wondering laugh that turned out
“W-What?” Mason asked, his tone in utter disbelief and rather contemptuous. “Aera, are you hearing yourself? Are you forgetting yourself? He is your father.”The corner of my lips arched and I looked away, dropping my gaze to the table with a silent yet spiteful laugh before I looked back at him testily.However, this time, my lips turned into a thin line and my reaction turned cold, my face went slack quite intentionally, not because I regretted what I said but because I was disappointed by the fact he had the courage to ask me such an absurd request when he knew my painful past. And seeing how he gave me the reaction, right exactly the opposite reaction I would like to receive from Mason, I knew that the madness inside me that had been kept and caged for long awakened, wanting to spew forth and wild.“A father who abused me mentally and physically,” I corrected him, my voice rising in fury. “Now, let me return the question to you, Mason. Are you hearing yourself? You know exactly wh