Goof I received a text from Silvy right as I was getting out of church. She told me the doctor had confirmed that she is indeed pregnant. I wanted to tell my brothers I was going to be a dad. That they were going to be uncles again. But I couldn’t. At least not yet. And it hurts. This should be a happy time that I can share. But I still haven’t won Silvy yet. She still thinks I’m ongoing back to the friend zone. It is time to step up my plan. I was sitting at the bar having a beer with Tank and Thor trying my hardest to come up with how I’m going to convince Silvy I’m in this for the long haul. Maybe I should take her out on a real date. Everything else I have done is things we would do as friends. I may need to pull the girls in to help me. Maybe they can give me a few ideas I haven’t thought of. I’m Silvy’s best friend. I know all her likes and dislikes. It shouldn't be this hard to convince her that I’m all in. I’m missing something. I’m engrossed in my thoughts. I didn't no
Silvy I had a blast with Xavier. When he arrived I could tell Gena was nervous dropping him off with me. And that made me happy. Here is why. Yes, I’m a nurse and my dad has told them stories about me. But I’m still a stranger. Gena should be on edge dropping off her son. I wanted to put her at ease so she could enjoy her night. I know my dad has gone all out for tonight. I gave Gena a tour of the house. I showed her the living room where I had everything set up for a sleepover. I moved everything around and placed a large blow-up mattress I set up. I had the tv set up with the kids channel for Xavier to pick what he wants. I explained about the pizza and snacks. Then I held my hand out. “ Let me see your phone.” She reluctantly gave it to me. I programmed my number in. “ I will send pictures every half hour. And you can call anytime you want.” I said. I saw Gena relax at that. Xavier on the other hand had no problem. After he set his bag down he went around checking everything out
Goof After talking with Silvy’s dad I got my ass in gear. The first thing I did was take a load of healthy food over to her house and stocked her fridge. Silvy tried to protest saying she didn’t need the help but I wasn’t having that shit. I was at the hospital every shift Silvy had to bring her meals and snacks. After the first week she finally stopped complaining. Just thanked me and accepted it. She keeps telling me what I’m doing is beyond what we agreed on. That I was supposed to go back to my skanks and having fun. Not babysitting her. I explained to her again that she was carrying my baby and I was going to be here for her. She let it go but not before I heard her whisper, “ For how long? When will you get bored?” That is never going to happen and I have to prove it. I wish I could just walk up to Silvy, tell her I love her and claim her as mine. I wish it was that easy. Silvy has known me too long. She knows I am a man of my word but she also knows I did like to party and
Silvy Well, the cat is out of the bag now. I didn’t think my stomach was that noticeable. I guess I was wrong. It somehow doesn’t surprise me that Merigold noticed it. Suddenly I was squealing ol’e ladies offering me congratulations. That is until Tank marches up to us. “ Hold on ladies. Where is the asshole that knocked our Silvy? Why is he not here meeting your family and taking care of you? Or did some fucker ditch you and we have to kick his ass?” Tank growls. His response shouldn’t shock me but it does. Tank and Lilly are the ones who brought me into the MC and have always looked out for me. Especially Tank. But I never thought he would go after someone for me. It makes me want to cry at the gesture. Now Tank has all the brothers riled up. All of them shouting wanting to know who my baby's daddy is. I see Goof cringe next to me. I wonder what that is about. He has nothing to worry about. It isn’t like I’m going to rat him out or anything. Suddenly a very wet Xavier is in fron
Goof Not long after Tony took Xavier home my brother’s fired up the grills. Yes, we always have to use at least two grills when we cook out. Sometimes three if Merigold makes ribs. But for the lake we just use two portable ones. We do hot dogs and sausages on one and burgers on the other. Then there are the coolers full of fruit, assorted veggies, potato salad and condiments. As I helped my brothers I kept my eyes on Silvy as she sat with Ailee, Lilly and Trina. I wasn’t that far from them so I could hear their conversation. Trina asked what sort of things Silvy was doing to prepare for the baby. Silvy told her about the nursery she was working on and the supplies she was about to order. “ And I have joined a prenatal yoga class. When I hit six months I’m going to do childbirth classes the hospital offers.” Silvy said. “ Silvy, I wouldn’t buy too much. You will get plenty at your baby shower. At least enough to cover the first three months.” Lilly said. “ Why would I have a baby sho
Silvy It has been a week since the Fourth of July. A week to think about my talk with Goof. And that is all I have thought about. I could get that conversation out of my head. And it was pissing me off. I couldn’t come to a decision. And that pissed me off more. Then there were the questions I kept coming up with. Why did Goof want to change the deal now? What changed? If this was about seeing the baby I told him he could be in the kid’s life. What more does he want? He said he wanted us to be a family. He was going to give up the parties and skanks. But will he really? You are probably wondering if I have trust issues. I do. I have been burnt too many times by men. But Goof has never lied or let me down. So why don’t I trust him on the skanks? Or that he is serious? I want to believe him, I do, but something is stopping me. I just don’t know what it is. And then there is the fact that he isn’t in love with me. How can I live with Goof and play the happy family knowing that? An
Goof I got Silvy to go on a date with me. I have it all planned out. And I will get to that in a minute. Let me tell you how my week has gone. Starting with meeting up with Merigold. I met her at her shop just like she asked. I stood outside the bay door for five minutes before I worked up the nerve to go in. Call me a pussy all you want. These girls can be scary as hell one on one. Ailee is lethal. Merigold and Speed were trained by Army Rangers. And when they are all together if you piss them off you will be lucky if you get out alive. Then if the brothers find you got the ol’e ladies mad there is no where you can hide to get away from their wrath. Once I manned up I walked in the shop. It is hard to believe this place was just a storage bay at one time. The changes Merigold has done to the place is amazing. The bay used to be full of dust, cobwebs ,and who knows what else. The floors and walls were grimy. Merigold came in with the help of some from a few prospects, me included
Silvy I went into this date with no expectations and an open mind. I wasn’t sure what a date with Goof would be like and I didn’t want to get my hopes up. So far though I am impressed. He has been a perfect gentleman. When the hostess was checking Goof out he ignored her. He kept me close to him and helped me into my seat. Just that was an improvement from some of my past dates. Yes, I have had some pretty sorry dates. One date the guy flirted with the waitress the entire time after arriving fifteen minutes late. I left before the food could arrive. Never went on a blind date again. After the waiter helped me pick out two variety platters Goof ordered. I wanted to feel bad at the amount I ordered but Goof wasn’t worried at all. He just said we could take the leftovers home. He just wanted me to get my fill of what I was craving. After the waiter left I remembered something he said while we were driving here. “ Goof, you said Lilly told you about this place. Does that mean they kno
GoofThis is my first time coming to the cabin. Viper told us about it when he heard Silvy and I discussing our honeymoon. I have heard about it in passing but that is it. Apparently Raider bought the cabin shortly after he and Ave started the club as a getaway for the brothers. I have never been here until now but I have seen pictures over the years. What had started as a one room log cabin with just a wood stove and basic bare minimum bathroom and kitchen over the years has turned into a three bedroom two bathroom cabin. A full back porch with grill and fire pit has been added. The master bedroom has it own bathroom complete with a claw foot tub big enough for two, a shower with three shower heads and porcelain sink. The other two bedrooms share a connecting full bathroom. The kitchen had been redone in a way that would be any chef’s fantasy. Sub zero fridge and freezer combo, gas range with air fryer and griddle, and a stainless steel sink. Even though the cabin is on a beautiful
Silvy I’m looking around the back yard of the clubhouse. After Viper announced Goof and I a family everyone moved the chairs around, brought out some additional tables to transform the yard into a reception area. It was fascinating to watch. I was sitting in a chair next to Goof nursing Ant watching my new family have fun. They were talking, eating, laughing, chasing kids, and drinking. And yes, I’m still nursing Ant. Not as often and only for a few more months. Especially now that he is getting teeth. He has one that has just broken through his gums but I can still feel it on my nipple. Luckily he hasn’t bitten me yet. But you don’t want to hear about that. You want to hear about the reception and any juicy bits that happened after. After Ant is fed and burped he is happy sitting on my lap while Goof plays peek-a-boo with him. I get a tap on my shoulder. I look up and see Gena with her hands out for Ant. “ You two are needed on the dance floor.” she said. Before I can ask why I
Goof I just got to my place on the platform when Anna came out the back door. She is holding a babbling clapping Ant on her hip. When he saw me he started babbling louder, giggling and reached for me. “ You will go to your daddy soon. We have to get him married to your mommy first.” Anna said. I don’t know how much of what Anna said Ant understood but he got excited and giggled louder and waving his hands. I didn’t bother to stop the smile on my face watching my boy. Anna took her seat in the front row so Ant could see me and Silvy. Ant looked over Anna’s shoulder and began to babble to Pocket’ twins who thought Ant was the funniest thing they have ever seen. Ant always has those two laughing. I was paying attention to the kids when the door opened again and the music started to play. I knew I need to focus when Gena walks out first. We didn’t do flower girls or ring bearers because Silvy and I couldn’t settle on who to pick out of the club kids and we didn’t want it to look
Silvy I can’t believe this day is here. I never thought it was possible. Today I am marrying my best friend and father of my child. Yes, I am marrying Goof. I never let myself believe this could happen because I wanted to guard my heart. Boy was I ever wrong. The man of my dreams broke down my walls made me fall in love with him and claimed me as his. I’m at the clubhouse in Goof’s old room getting dressed. It is still his room technically. We can use it if we are late and don’t want to drive home. Or in the case of the other day a quickie while Ant was sleeping. Ant is six months old now. But I will tell you more about him in a few. I need to finish getting dressed. I had just got on the lingerie I bought special for tonight and needed to get my dress on. I have Gena, Anna and Lilly helping me get ready. Lilly is here more for support and to make sure no one bothers us. And she is helping with Ant. Lilly’s vision may be impaired but it doesn’t slow her down. So she can’t help wit
GoofSilvy said yes. I was getting my girl. Finally. I wrap my arms around my family careful not to squish Ant and hold them. Just for a minute. You are probably wondering why my brothers and sister are coming over to congratulate us. It is because asking her to marry me wasn’t the only surprise I have for Silvy. I let go of my family and stand up since I am still on my knees. I sat beside them on the bench and place my arm around Silvy’s shoulder. I see the ol’e ladies coming from behind Silvy with smiles on there faces. “ Babe, could you wrap Ant up and give him to someone.” I said. I told her someone because there is always a pair of arms waiting to hold any of the Reckless kids and Ant is no exception. Silvy looks confused but fixes Ant’s blanket. As soon as it is done Gretchen comes forward. “ It is my turn to hold the sweet boy.” she said taking Ant from Silvy. Merigold steps forward with a white tee-shirt box. I know my brother, prospects, Tony, Gena and Xavier are watching. J
GoofWhen Silvy held Ant she was looking at me. She said the words that made it possible for me to breath normally again. “ Daddy is home.” Some of the best words I have ever heard. Gena walked in with a bottle for Ant handing it to me. “Figured it was you turn.” Gena said then walked away. I had forgotten she was here until now. My entire being was focused on Silvy. I got up from the floor and got on the couch to sit next to Silvy. I was so close I could have sat on her lap but didn’t. Silvy carefully handed Ant over to me so I could feed him. As soon as he was in my arms I held him to my chest as tight as I could with out hurting him. “ Yeah buddy, daddy is home. And he is going to stay that way.” I told him. It felt so good to have him back in my arms. The only thing better would be if I had an arm around Silvy as well. How was I so stupid to let this go? Never again. When Ant started to fuss I knew it was time to give him his bottle. I pulled him from my chest and cradled him so
Goof When I heard Silvy’s voice coming the living room I felt two things. Thrilled that she was willing to talk to me and concern that I may have woken her up. I’ll make the sleep up to her I vow to myself. Even if I have to stay up with Ant for two days so Silvy I will do it. I will deal with that later. I need to talk to Silvy, beg and get her to take me back. Lilly was right when she said that Silvy didn’t need me. I needed her. I know there is a list of men as long as my arm that would love to take my place. They are just waiting for me to screw up. I can name five off the top of my head. Dez, Lilly’s drummer, for one and I’m sure Lilly would help them hook up. Casper has shown interest. Two doctors at the hospital and a male nurse. I’m sure if I looked into it there are more guys. Silvy having a baby with me will not be a problem for any guy that knows and wants Silvy. They would gladly step and to be a dad to Anthony. It is up to me to make sure that doesn’t happen. In place
Goof I’m at the club house in the afternoon relaxing with my brothers. I was having a beer, playing pool and catching up. It has been a day and a half since I left Silvy’s house. I have slept most of the time I was gone if I wasn’t working. Man, I needed it. I feel so much better and I’m not at risk of falling asleep at work. I was at the table talking with Rowdy waiting for my turn at the pool table when Lilly an Tank walked in. They made a bee line for me. Tank helped Lilly sit down before going to the bar to get them a drink. Once he had their drinks and was seated Lilly asked “ Goof, is Ant any better today?” “ What are you talking about?” I asked her. Did Silvy tell her that Ant has been crying for days? They are close friends. “ Oh, is it Silvy that is sick?” Tank asked. “ Huh?” I questioned. I have no clue what they are talking about. They look at each other then back to me. “ We saw Silvy with Ant at the emergency room yesterday so we thought one of them might be sick.” Lil
Goof Our Anthony is two months old now. He stays up more and is more alert. Silvy and I have settled in to a working routine. And we are happy. Or I was. I love my son and my girl Silvy. I love them with everything in me. But today I need a break. Ant cried all day yesterday. No matter what Silvy did she couldn’t get him to stop for more than ten minutes. I tried myself but nothing worked. We both took turns through the night rocking him, trying to get him to eat, patting his back, Silvy even gas Ant gas medicine to try to help. Nothing worked. We were both exhausted. Silvy stayed downstairs in the living room so I could get some rest. I could still hear Ant through the night even if when I covered my ears with a pillow.I was only able to get a couple hours of sleep. When I woke up this morning I could hear Ant’s muffled cries though the closed door. What was wrong with that kid? I got up and checked the time. I had to be at the club in an hour for church. Fuck. I went to the bathr