Chapter 21

Silvy

It has been a week since the Fourth of July. A week to think about my talk with Goof. And that is all I have thought about. I could get that conversation out of my head. And it was pissing me off. I couldn’t come to a decision. And that pissed me off more. Then there were the questions I kept coming up with. Why did Goof want to change the deal now? What changed? If this was about seeing the baby I told him he could be in the kid’s life. What more does he want? He said he wanted us to be a family. He was going to give up the parties and skanks. But will he really?

You are probably wondering if I have trust issues. I do. I have been burnt too many times by men. But Goof has never lied or let me down. So why don’t I trust him on the skanks? Or that he is serious? I want to believe him, I do, but something is stopping me. I just don’t know what it is. And then there is the fact that he isn’t in love with me. How can I live with Goof and play the happy family knowing that? An