{'There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.'}With my chin up, I was sitting on the couch with composure while this hag was scrutinizing me since she made an unpleasant entrance here. There were reasons why I should murder this girl in the woods.First, she was Quinn's ex yet she seemed not agreeable at this little piece of information as she stared at my girlfriend like she was something that needed to be done raw every day on her bed.Second, she interrupted our oh-so-glorious moment a while ago and I was formally sexually frustrated. Third, Claire demanded her to stay here for the whole weekend and that could get her a chance to harass my angel sexually in bed in the middle of the night as Khloe secretly had told me. I refused to leave so here I was, praying that Claire didn't notice that I really needed to be home right now.Taking a glance at my angel beside me, I made a frown as she acted like this was all nothing for her. DUH?! Her ex and her current gi
Quinn{'The best revenge is massive success.'}The shades of the night cascaded through the room as I hung up after I said I love her, knowing that she was already sleeping on the other side of the phone. Throwing my phone down carefully at the bed, I glanced up at the familiar form, standing in my room's doorway. Her blue eyes were set of mine, observing me for a couple of minutes. Her stare made me huff in worries and it gave her reason to shut the door as she came inside without asking any permission.Jane had been quiet and that meant she was aggravated, controlling herself from uttering insulting words that she would regret later. It is just the way she was; a total escapist. But I knew this time, she brought all the courage with her to talk to me. And I knew that she wouldn't even try to win me back because it's silly for her to do so.A deafening silence freely mixed with the nighttime. The only thing that came between us was the light from the lamp over my bedside table, polis
{'If you are going through hell, keep going.'}Several weeks had passed yet curious eyes couldn't move on to the fact that Quinn and I were together. I've been chased and I've been pushed inside a closed space. Almost a disgusting mouth landed on my lips just because of the sudden news of my relationship with Quinn spread out. The entire week dragged like I'd been running from monsters and searching for my safe haven. Now that the peasants of my kingdom or should I say the entire school knew that my senior and last doll was Quinn, I was haunted by the people I cheated with, assuming that they could taste my sin again with their hungry lips.And all those boys who kneeled around my feet were aggravated because I shattered their dream of having the sweetest face that they'd ever seen. Some of the girls were pretty sickened but who cares? I was the most desirable girl here until my girlfriend arrived and they could do nothing about it. It was a fact and I swore that I wouldn't mess thi
{'Love that we cannot have is the one that lasts the longest, hurts the deepest, and feels the strongest.'}The crowd was rising up to their feet. Cheers and claps boomed in the school field. Everybody had their animal hats on. Students were bustling as they found the parading pets adorable while some boys were whistling because one of the contestants was shaking her booty over the stage with her little dog. Next to Hillary, I could see diamonds sparkles in Tiana's eyes, watching all the pets performing on the stage. She was too distracted that she didn't even notice Bailey was with some guy I didn't know.I searched the surroundings, looking for Quinn but she was nowhere to be found. I located Khloe talking to her animated minions but my girlfriend was missing.I escaped a worried sigh. What the hell was my girlfriend up to? She was being so distant since I told her the "L" word.My Dad nudged me from my side so I looked at him puzzled. He wiggled his eyebrows, asking me what w
Quinn{'Here we are, trapped in the amber of the moment. There is no why.'}A noise woke me up from my dreamless sleep. As soon as I opened my eyes, I scanned my room and rubbed my eyes from my own drowsiness. It didn't take too long to realize that Risa was talking to Uncle Elric who seemed so upset about something. I sat up and they tilted their head at me once they sensed that I woke up from their loud murmuring. Risa bent her lips upward, smiling sweetly at me but it looked like she was faking it while Uncle Elric was scowling as he observed the two of us. I must be smiling back at her or maybe I was grinning too much. I didn't know how the hell she got more beautiful in each passing second. Or how she got more gorgeous in each millisecond."So what's up?" I started, sitting at the edge of the bed. I didn't realize that I slept for hours because I noticed that the sky was getting darker from my window, hiding the light autumn radiant of the sky from above.Uncle Elric cleared
{'People will stare. Make it worth their while.'}"What?!" Bailey howled, looking at me like I'd gone crazy. "You can't allow those animated bimbos to get close to us."I rolled my eyes. "We are just going to hang out. Nothing more, nothing less.""And who thought of this idea?" Hilary asked."Quinn," I answered."Oh, I get it," Tiana said as she threw the dart at the clutched balloons, attached to the wall. A bunch of confetti was blown out from the popped balloon and a tiny bear key chain fell out from it.Tiana's eyes widened as leaped in victory. "I won!!!"I smiled at how easy it was for her to be happy. Seriously, she jumped that high just for a tiny bear keychain? What more if Bailey became her official girlfriend?"Can you guys just cooperate with her?" I said, snatching the keychain from Tiana."I'll cooperate," Tiana responded sadly. "This is her last week here. I'm gonna miss my bunny so much.""Don't call her your bunny," Bailey said."Why not?" Tiana countered."Because—,
{'For my part, I prefer my heart to be broken. It is so lovely, dawn-kaleidoscopic within the crack.'}Long-distance relationship? Would I able to endure it? Of course! Distance might suck but as long as you love the person, everything is going to be all right, right?Why did it had come to this? Oh right! This man appeared without notice, taking away my angel from me. To top it all off, that Krause was also claiming that my father is gay. I clearly knew that he was just making up stories but it bothered me so much. I wasn't really against the idea but it kinda ruined my mind because I could see that my father was very much in love with my Mom. I mean, yeah, whatever. Krause was just bluffing!Placing my lappie on my lap, I hovered my fingers over the keyboard and typed 'How to survive in a long-distance relationship?.' A numerous site was recommended but I just stared at them before I shut my laptop in frustration."What are you doing?" a familiar voice asked behind me and I almost j
Quinn{' Love is a decision, it is a judgment, it is a promise. If love were only a feeling, there would be no basis for the promise to love each other forever. A feeling comes and it may go. How can I judge that it will stay forever when my act does not involve judgment and decision?'}I released out a huge breath and looked at myself in the mirror. I was pretty nervous about this date as well as I was excited thinking about spending the whole night with my gorgeous girlfriend.My blonde hair was in a tangled beautiful mess which Khloe curled a while ago. It was a surprise that she expertly was able to make a smooth waterfall braid on the back of my head. I twisted around to see how my dress shrouded wonderfully around me as I wore the gold and black vintage dress that ended above my knees while a pair of Campbell clear glass heels with black leather strap was securing my feet.I sighed again to calm my heart from pounding but it didn't help. I gazed at myself and took the blush on a
Quinn{‘Once in a while, right in the middle of an ordinary life, love gives us a fairy tale.’}My own forestry eyes automatically opened by the sound of exquisite kisses. The sunlight fell against my own sight, making me sigh in warmth inside. Instantly, my lips tugged a smile once I saw my girlfriend watching me slowly waking up to reality.To a beautiful reality.I took a time to cherish the view beside me. Starting from her pink lips who looked so misty from the way we endlessly kiss last night. To her heavenly eyes that I held endearingly to the deepest core of my heart and then to her raven smooth hair that caressed her lovely face magically. My arms found its way around her waist and pulled her naked body closer which caused her to moan silently.“Good morning,” I said, bringing my lips to her own.She giggled through our humble kiss. “Morning, love.”I pulled myself back to gaze at her, stroking her face soothingly with the tip of my fingers and then she closed her eyes softly
{‘Heaven knows we need never be ashamed of our tears, for they are rain upon the blinding dust of earth, overlying our hard hearts.’}The rain was pouring hard over the damp soil of the cemetery. Looking up, the sky seemed in agony and in greatest sympathy. I gripped my black umbrella hard as I refused to accept that the person inside the casket deserved this kind of cry from heaven.I turned to look at my parents beside me, including Aunt Claire who was now crying. I searched for Khloe but she was nowhere to be found as I predicted. Honestly, I didn’t want to be in this place right now but my Dad wanted me to. He wanted to wear something black and go with them as a formality.Watching the coffin slowly pulling down beneath the moist earth, I walked forward and tossed the white rose hard, not even cared if the people around me gasped from what I did. Turning around, I stormed off, throwing the umbrella aside and ignored all the people who were watching me.I didn’t care. Even in the p
{'There are wounds that never show on the body that are deeper and more hurtful than anything that bleeds'}QuinnI had two choices.It was either take all the risk and be brave just what my Aunt had advised me to do or rather what she persisted me to do.Or...Follow that bastard's order and end all my family's hardship including our future.I didn't want to accept that this was all happening and at the same time, I made the biggest mistake of my life by not making sure that they wouldn't go here. But they were here. Here she was, obliviously walking into the pits of hell that was about to crumble down with me all the way back to the deepest.I was scared. I was always afraid but I was trying my hardest to remain standing. It was painful to see my Risa trying to reach out for me but I couldn't and how I wish I could. However, at that moment, she gave me strength and courage. I wanted to survive. I wanted to fight for them. For my parents. For my grandma. For the sake of my family and
{'Chaos is an angel who fell in love with a demon.'}"I am very disappointed..."I closed my eyes tight and leaned my head against the car window as Khloe spoke out finally after an undivided silence. I didn't say anything... I was just gobbling all the pain I was feeling right now even if I didn't want to. I couldn't help it for the reason that it was too strong and I think it would not fade away no matter how. Just hearing those cruel words from Quinn caused me to feel so vulnerable and broken. It was too intense that all of my being shattered. I didn't want to believe all of this but she slapped it in my face, breaking what we had built together.How could she do this to me? How could she keep all of those lies whenever she touches me? How could she say she loves me back if my touch makes her sick?Why she was crying? Was it guilt or she just couldn't take the empty feeling of not being able to feel? It wasn't my fault that she could not sense anything physically but why was she b
Quinn{'The only thing we have to fear is fear itself--nameless, unreasoning, unjustified terror which paralyzes needed efforts to convert retreat into advance.'}I had to do it.I had to tell her the truth. They needed to go away from here or that bastard would pull them in his web of wicked games. I wanted her to leave, away from here—— away from danger, even if it means losing her.Despite I had successfully pushed Risa away, hearing those painful words unbuckled my knees as I slid my back against the door, embracing myself together and sobbing in agony. I didn't want her to know what I really was but I knew such desire wouldn't do any good for the both of us because eventually, she would find out. I was just so afraid to the point I was fooling myself.Freak, I thought to myself. Maybe I truly deserved that insult because instead of embracing it, I kept it under my sweet fake personality. I deserved her resentment because I broke our promises to each other, concealing the truth I
{'If you love someone, let her go. If she comes back to you, then she's yours forever. '}I tapped my foot in annoyance as I listened to the security guy who was talking with Khloe. We were outside the gate of this country club and I couldn't wait to see Quinn anymore. Khloe said she needed help but it was really odd that she wouldn't even answer her phone. We called her so many times but the line would always direct us to her voicemail.Of course, my friends tagged along with me. They were waiting inside the car we had rented from the airport while we were talking to these two big guys wearing a guard uniform. Tiana was excited as I was while Hilary kept on complaining because she didn't get to pack properly as if this was a vacation. Bailey? Bailey just slept all the time as if she didn't care."I told you, Ma'am. We can't allow you to enter this private property without authorization from the people inside," he said, not paying his whole attention to us while he scratched his fatty
Trigger Warning: Read at your own risk.{'The worst enemy is memories.'}QuinnThe sound of the ticking clock softly caressed my ear—— never stopping. Timeless and eternally like my throbbing heart inside my chest. My eyes flickered open and I saw myself standing in the middle of a grandiose foyer. The surroundings felt neutral and miserable as the nightshade slipped outside through the glass window, overcasting my form tremendously. Tilting my head up, the light of the chandelier in the center of the ceiling was the only thing that breaks against the darkness.It was like a dream—— or memories.Deliberately, my eyes landed on a form, standing in the middle of the grand staircase. It was a little girl, gazing back at me. Her eyes were untainted and innocent as they gleamed against the light. She stepped down one at a time, still, her forestry gaze not leaving mine. The hue of her braided hair was blonde as mine as it draped over the princess-like floral dress she was wearing.As she w
{'She walks in beauty, like the night. Of cloudless climes and starry skies, and all that's best of dark and bright. Meets in her aspect and her eyes.'}QuinnEyes close, the sound of the ocean waves spoke calmly in my ears. I tried to enjoy myself as I lied down under the sun yet there was always lacking: the sun heat, the sea breeze, and all that reminded me that I had lost a significant thing. However, paradise also recalled the beautiful taste. Her lips and those eyes which kept the colors bright upon all my sight could see.I was missing her so much——badly and terribly.Even though I had decided that it was better to give some space between us, I knew I couldn't endure being away from her like this. I called her a few times, to tell her the truth, but I didn't find the courage to speak out to her.I was too scared. I also felt guilty whenever I hear her disappointed voice in each of my calls. I wasn't that responsive to her and always had to cut the call short. True, I was busy b
{'I became insane with long intervals of horrible sanity.'}Gripping my wheel hard, I drove faster like a madwoman. Hitting the road as if I was in a race, I couldn't help but feel hurt about this morning when Quinn left me without saying goodbye. There were hundreds of questions floating in my mind right now. Was she angry about what happened last night or she feels disappointed because she realized I'm not good in bed? But that was nonsense. We did it a couple of times until we fell asleep together so I wondered why she left me alone in our beach house this morning.Last night was so seamless for me and flashes of memories came abruptly into my mind as I caressed the angel wings pendant she gave me. The way she touched me was the gentlest feeling I've ever felt. The way she kissed me was so passionate and my heart never ended to burn in intensity. I was in a far-reaching pleasure that I almost died in unbroken enchantment.However, waking up without her in my arms felt so lonely and