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Raindrops [GL] Forty-Second Choice
{'There are wounds that never show on the body that are deeper and more hurtful than anything that bleeds'}QuinnI had two choices.It was either take all the risk and be brave just what my Aunt had advised me to do or rather what she persisted me to do.Or...Follow that bastard's order and end all my family's hardship including our future.I didn't want to accept that this was all happening and at the same time, I made the biggest mistake of my life by not making sure that they wouldn't go here. But they were here. Here she was, obliviously walking into the pits of hell that was about to crumble down with me all the way back to the deepest.I was scared. I was always afraid but I was trying my hardest to remain standing. It was painful to see my Risa trying to reach out for me but I couldn't and how I wish I could. However, at that moment, she gave me strength and courage. I wanted to survive. I wanted to fight for them. For my parents. For my grandma. For the sake of my family and
Last Updated : 2022-11-11Raindrops [GL] Forty-Third Tears
{‘Heaven knows we need never be ashamed of our tears, for they are rain upon the blinding dust of earth, overlying our hard hearts.’}The rain was pouring hard over the damp soil of the cemetery. Looking up, the sky seemed in agony and in greatest sympathy. I gripped my black umbrella hard as I refused to accept that the person inside the casket deserved this kind of cry from heaven.I turned to look at my parents beside me, including Aunt Claire who was now crying. I searched for Khloe but she was nowhere to be found as I predicted. Honestly, I didn’t want to be in this place right now but my Dad wanted me to. He wanted to wear something black and go with them as a formality.Watching the coffin slowly pulling down beneath the moist earth, I walked forward and tossed the white rose hard, not even cared if the people around me gasped from what I did. Turning around, I stormed off, throwing the umbrella aside and ignored all the people who were watching me.I didn’t care. Even in the p
Last Updated : 2022-11-11Raindrops [GL] Last Epilogue
Quinn{‘Once in a while, right in the middle of an ordinary life, love gives us a fairy tale.’}My own forestry eyes automatically opened by the sound of exquisite kisses. The sunlight fell against my own sight, making me sigh in warmth inside. Instantly, my lips tugged a smile once I saw my girlfriend watching me slowly waking up to reality.To a beautiful reality.I took a time to cherish the view beside me. Starting from her pink lips who looked so misty from the way we endlessly kiss last night. To her heavenly eyes that I held endearingly to the deepest core of my heart and then to her raven smooth hair that caressed her lovely face magically. My arms found its way around her waist and pulled her naked body closer which caused her to moan silently.“Good morning,” I said, bringing my lips to her own.She giggled through our humble kiss. “Morning, love.”I pulled myself back to gaze at her, stroking her face soothingly with the tip of my fingers and then she closed her eyes softly
Last Updated : 2022-11-11Raindrops [GL] First Kiss
PrologueEmptiness— the feeling of missing something like a deep hole was dug down inside your heart. It will slowly push you to complete oblivion, reeling by morbid darkness that will consume you until all you have left is your own voice to be able to call somebody for help.But is someone willing to take the risk? To let themselves sink by my caged emotions? Imprisoned by an unreal pain that I craved more than a pointless knife piercing me down endlessly. Is someone willing to save me from the monster of my own abnormality?For me, the world seemed like a shadow because life itself is too distracting. It will keep you busy and oblivious of what is beyond your surroundings.... to the point that you will miss almost everything.I wish I could smell the flowers my Mom took care of from all those years— how the fragrance would be like the moment of its first bloom. I wish I could remember how awful the food tasted when my Dad tried to cook for me once upon a dinner. I hope I have a photo
Last Updated : 2022-11-11Raindrops [GL] Second Glance
{'You know those nights when you can't fall asleep? Well, maybe it's because you are awake... in someone else's dream.'}How could I mess up? How could I forget to invite her to our table?With a loud sigh, I turned my head towards the direction of her golden. I watched her laughing at her newfound friends- totally oblivious of all the students who were giving her looks of admiration.I couldn't understand at all. She never glanced at me even once. She was supposed to give her attention to me after I gave her a free taste of my addictive lips. Why isn't it working?I heard my best friend, Hilary, hum playfully beside me. "You're into this cute new piece, huh?" she asked, giving me a goofy grin."Yeah," I admitted without any hesitation. "You should look closer and trust me she's different."She shrugged her shoulder while playing with her food on her plate using her disposable fork. "Yes. I can totally see that, honey... without even looking at her twice. You're practically ogling you
Last Updated : 2022-11-11Raindrops [GL] Third Butterfly
{'Those who do not believe in magic will never find it'}Great.Ever got the feeling that all things seem to shove you away from the one you crave the most? Like all the gates of hell open up to release every class of demon that wants you to get away from the path of heaven?Khloe was really a demon. How did she dare to take my throne next to Quinn?I was very thrilled to meet her in our shared class but this Khloe really had the urge to wreck my mood this very day. Blessed her, I didn't plan to make myself worse from Quinn's point of view, or else I was going to split her nipples apart.Okay, that was so depraved! I really should get my insanity in check!Clicking my tongue in frustration, I observed them across my seat. Khloe whispered something to her, causing my angel to giggle. She slightly tilted her head to give the Captain Bimbo her attention so I was able to see her dimple on her right cheek.It really made my day brighter— like it was a sun rising up from the horizon, even t
Last Updated : 2022-11-11Raindrops [GL] Fourth Lie
Quinn{'Inside all of us is a wild thing'}Orange.That's how she tasted. This morning she tasted more like a honey with a little mint on it. She had this fragrance of a branded perfume from Paris. Sweet yet alluring. And of course, with my eyes closed, I felt like I was soaring up above the ginger sky with my arms open wide on each side.It was the worst feeling, though.Opening my eyes slowly, I found her blue orbs were absence, hiding beneath her long and thick eyelashes while she continued kissing me-hard.Is she hungry?I didn't kiss her back, even though I was the one who ignited the lust resting beyond her stares which she was giving me the whole day. She never caught me observing her from a distance while she was laughing with her friends at their own table. Thanks to my sharp instinct and vigilant eyes, I would turn away my gaze whenever she was about to twirl her head in my direction.I had no doubt about it. She was totally into me and thinking about it made my guts revolt i
Last Updated : 2022-11-11Raindrops [GL] Fifth Night
Quinn{'At my signal, unleash hell!'}"Are you sure you're not going to take my advice?" Risa asked, briefly glanced at me before she focused on the road, turning her car on my way home.She offered me a ride that I refused but she was too stubborn to accept my protest while she towed me away out of the school, minutes before the school ended.And here I was, thankful that I was sitting in her passenger seat as I stared out the window, watching the rain getting stronger in each blink I made. The sound of its fall against the tinted window was like thousands of knives, grazing my heart in isolation. I tried my best not to think about it but this loss reminded me every day- on how the clouds never stopped from crying even if the raindrops already taught me about emptiness.Suddenly, the fast pace of surroundings due to the car's speed slowly halted. I turned my head to look at the driver beside me, realizing that she was now giving me a worried look and found her hand already holding mi
Last Updated : 2022-11-11
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Quinn{‘Once in a while, right in the middle of an ordinary life, love gives us a fairy tale.’}My own forestry eyes automatically opened by the sound of exquisite kisses. The sunlight fell against my own sight, making me sigh in warmth inside. Instantly, my lips tugged a smile once I saw my girlfriend watching me slowly waking up to reality.To a beautiful reality.I took a time to cherish the view beside me. Starting from her pink lips who looked so misty from the way we endlessly kiss last night. To her heavenly eyes that I held endearingly to the deepest core of my heart and then to her raven smooth hair that caressed her lovely face magically. My arms found its way around her waist and pulled her naked body closer which caused her to moan silently.“Good morning,” I said, bringing my lips to her own.She giggled through our humble kiss. “Morning, love.”I pulled myself back to gaze at her, stroking her face soothingly with the tip of my fingers and then she closed her eyes softly
Raindrops [GL] Forty-Third Tears
{‘Heaven knows we need never be ashamed of our tears, for they are rain upon the blinding dust of earth, overlying our hard hearts.’}The rain was pouring hard over the damp soil of the cemetery. Looking up, the sky seemed in agony and in greatest sympathy. I gripped my black umbrella hard as I refused to accept that the person inside the casket deserved this kind of cry from heaven.I turned to look at my parents beside me, including Aunt Claire who was now crying. I searched for Khloe but she was nowhere to be found as I predicted. Honestly, I didn’t want to be in this place right now but my Dad wanted me to. He wanted to wear something black and go with them as a formality.Watching the coffin slowly pulling down beneath the moist earth, I walked forward and tossed the white rose hard, not even cared if the people around me gasped from what I did. Turning around, I stormed off, throwing the umbrella aside and ignored all the people who were watching me.I didn’t care. Even in the p
Raindrops [GL] Forty-Second Choice
{'There are wounds that never show on the body that are deeper and more hurtful than anything that bleeds'}QuinnI had two choices.It was either take all the risk and be brave just what my Aunt had advised me to do or rather what she persisted me to do.Or...Follow that bastard's order and end all my family's hardship including our future.I didn't want to accept that this was all happening and at the same time, I made the biggest mistake of my life by not making sure that they wouldn't go here. But they were here. Here she was, obliviously walking into the pits of hell that was about to crumble down with me all the way back to the deepest.I was scared. I was always afraid but I was trying my hardest to remain standing. It was painful to see my Risa trying to reach out for me but I couldn't and how I wish I could. However, at that moment, she gave me strength and courage. I wanted to survive. I wanted to fight for them. For my parents. For my grandma. For the sake of my family and
Raindrops [GL] Forty-First Need
{'Chaos is an angel who fell in love with a demon.'}"I am very disappointed..."I closed my eyes tight and leaned my head against the car window as Khloe spoke out finally after an undivided silence. I didn't say anything... I was just gobbling all the pain I was feeling right now even if I didn't want to. I couldn't help it for the reason that it was too strong and I think it would not fade away no matter how. Just hearing those cruel words from Quinn caused me to feel so vulnerable and broken. It was too intense that all of my being shattered. I didn't want to believe all of this but she slapped it in my face, breaking what we had built together.How could she do this to me? How could she keep all of those lies whenever she touches me? How could she say she loves me back if my touch makes her sick?Why she was crying? Was it guilt or she just couldn't take the empty feeling of not being able to feel? It wasn't my fault that she could not sense anything physically but why was she b
Raindrops [GL] Forty Demeanors
Quinn{'The only thing we have to fear is fear itself--nameless, unreasoning, unjustified terror which paralyzes needed efforts to convert retreat into advance.'}I had to do it.I had to tell her the truth. They needed to go away from here or that bastard would pull them in his web of wicked games. I wanted her to leave, away from here—— away from danger, even if it means losing her.Despite I had successfully pushed Risa away, hearing those painful words unbuckled my knees as I slid my back against the door, embracing myself together and sobbing in agony. I didn't want her to know what I really was but I knew such desire wouldn't do any good for the both of us because eventually, she would find out. I was just so afraid to the point I was fooling myself.Freak, I thought to myself. Maybe I truly deserved that insult because instead of embracing it, I kept it under my sweet fake personality. I deserved her resentment because I broke our promises to each other, concealing the truth I
Raindrops [GL] Thirty-Ninth Feelings
{'If you love someone, let her go. If she comes back to you, then she's yours forever. '}I tapped my foot in annoyance as I listened to the security guy who was talking with Khloe. We were outside the gate of this country club and I couldn't wait to see Quinn anymore. Khloe said she needed help but it was really odd that she wouldn't even answer her phone. We called her so many times but the line would always direct us to her voicemail.Of course, my friends tagged along with me. They were waiting inside the car we had rented from the airport while we were talking to these two big guys wearing a guard uniform. Tiana was excited as I was while Hilary kept on complaining because she didn't get to pack properly as if this was a vacation. Bailey? Bailey just slept all the time as if she didn't care."I told you, Ma'am. We can't allow you to enter this private property without authorization from the people inside," he said, not paying his whole attention to us while he scratched his fatty
Raindrops [GL] Thirty-Eighth Repression
Trigger Warning: Read at your own risk.{'The worst enemy is memories.'}QuinnThe sound of the ticking clock softly caressed my ear—— never stopping. Timeless and eternally like my throbbing heart inside my chest. My eyes flickered open and I saw myself standing in the middle of a grandiose foyer. The surroundings felt neutral and miserable as the nightshade slipped outside through the glass window, overcasting my form tremendously. Tilting my head up, the light of the chandelier in the center of the ceiling was the only thing that breaks against the darkness.It was like a dream—— or memories.Deliberately, my eyes landed on a form, standing in the middle of the grand staircase. It was a little girl, gazing back at me. Her eyes were untainted and innocent as they gleamed against the light. She stepped down one at a time, still, her forestry gaze not leaving mine. The hue of her braided hair was blonde as mine as it draped over the princess-like floral dress she was wearing.As she w
Raindrops [GL] Thirty-Seventh Fear
{'She walks in beauty, like the night. Of cloudless climes and starry skies, and all that's best of dark and bright. Meets in her aspect and her eyes.'}QuinnEyes close, the sound of the ocean waves spoke calmly in my ears. I tried to enjoy myself as I lied down under the sun yet there was always lacking: the sun heat, the sea breeze, and all that reminded me that I had lost a significant thing. However, paradise also recalled the beautiful taste. Her lips and those eyes which kept the colors bright upon all my sight could see.I was missing her so much——badly and terribly.Even though I had decided that it was better to give some space between us, I knew I couldn't endure being away from her like this. I called her a few times, to tell her the truth, but I didn't find the courage to speak out to her.I was too scared. I also felt guilty whenever I hear her disappointed voice in each of my calls. I wasn't that responsive to her and always had to cut the call short. True, I was busy b
Raindrops [GL] Thirty-Sixth Isolation
{'I became insane with long intervals of horrible sanity.'}Gripping my wheel hard, I drove faster like a madwoman. Hitting the road as if I was in a race, I couldn't help but feel hurt about this morning when Quinn left me without saying goodbye. There were hundreds of questions floating in my mind right now. Was she angry about what happened last night or she feels disappointed because she realized I'm not good in bed? But that was nonsense. We did it a couple of times until we fell asleep together so I wondered why she left me alone in our beach house this morning.Last night was so seamless for me and flashes of memories came abruptly into my mind as I caressed the angel wings pendant she gave me. The way she touched me was the gentlest feeling I've ever felt. The way she kissed me was so passionate and my heart never ended to burn in intensity. I was in a far-reaching pleasure that I almost died in unbroken enchantment.However, waking up without her in my arms felt so lonely and
