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I had trouble on my hands and that was a fact.

Before my father died, he had a lot of issues with the police, a whole lot, he was the most wanted criminal but most untouched because they couldn't get him.

He also had enemies, lots of enemies that we believe also killed him, and one of them swore to end the entire family lineage, he did well killing my mother and my sisters, and now my father is out of the picture, I'm the next he's coming for.

I never for once thought I'd become a Mafia, but as it is now, I have no other choice than to be one.

That's what has caused my sudden Character change.

I use to be a nerdy weird kid that could barely make a sentence without stammering, that was what killed my esteem and I knew that I will never be that it girl.

But after I moved away from Italy and moved to the United States, I suddenly found my confidence.

The Hastings brothers have been my childhood family.

Their family was friends with mine and so we became best of friends especially after I lost my sister's, they were basically all I had.

I had this huge crush on Damon for over 10 years, he was extremely handsome and very chill and he has this Aura I craved to have, I begged to have.

To me he was just perfect, flawless, but then I was the complete opposite.

I wasn't pretty like other girls he rolled with, I wasn't so bright academically but I was a smart kid, and I was a stammerer. So that affected me so much.

Everyone knew I was in love with Damon, since I couldn't express myself verbally, I'd write him letters, lot's of letters, letters which he never responded to.

He never looked my way, not even for once.

It was as if my presence disgusted him.

Ever year on my birthday I'd make a wish before I blow the candle that Damon would notice me even for once.

The only person that had my back was Alex, he was my only best friend in the world.

He use to help me sneak letters into Damon's bag and all, use to tell me to keep my hopes up that one day he'll see my efforts and actually like me back.

I remember when I did the craziest and asked Damon to be my date for prom, it was actually publicly. It was my first most clear word without stammering.

He looked at me awkwardly and then turned around and left, I think that was the day that I knew that I was no match for him, ever.

I thought the reason he didn't like me was because of my speech and so everytime Alex and I would practice speaking together, he was so eager to help me, eager to make me smile.

The only reason I wanted to be a better person was for Damon, so maybe he could love me .

Alex immediately ran to me that day and told me to celebrate that I didn't stutter that I was getting better and offered to go to prom with me.

I decided to take everything in good fate and focus on my friendship with Alex.

All of the sudden, the relationship between Damon and Alex began to wade.

They fought over the tinniest things and one time Jeremy told me it was because of me, I never got to understand that, but once highschool was over, my father was bent on sending me to another continent for college, for my safety.

That was when I got to know about the whole lifestyle, the money, the drugs, the blood, the killing, everything.

Five years later and I'm a different person now, more cold, cares less about the world and barely gives a fuck, if I could walk out on my father's funeral do you think I'd give a fuck about my childhood crush?

Things have changed now, and it's going to remain this way while I find my father's killers and end them.

Jessie walked into my room.

"Hey bitch", she said.

I gave her a small smile.

"One of the Hastings brother wants to see you, now", she said.

"Please don't tell me it's Damon", I mumbled.

"It's Damon", she said.

I groaned.

"Fine, bring him in", I said.

She nodded and left, few seconds later Damon walked into my room.

My heart still skips a beat when I see him, I still get tiny butterflies in my tummy.

The feelings may be gone, but it's not dead.

Damon was sexy as hell, even worse now because he's this sexy ass man now.

"Damon", I said calmly.

"Blu", his deep voice filled my room.

He seemed lost staring at me, either that or he's thinking of what to say.

He cleared his throat.

"Uhm, how are you doing? really?", he sounded concerned for the first time in my life.

I shrugged and dropped the glass of wine in my hand after a long sip.

"I'm good, got a few people to kill here and there but I'm good", I said.

"Oh", he said.

"Listen, about the other day. Uhm, you know you've always been so dear to me, you've been like my family, like my little sister and uhm, your dad was basically my god father so I share equal amount of pain as you do. And do remember he died in my hands so, trust me, it's a hard pill to swallow.

But blu I want you to know that I want the very best for you, I don't want anything to happen to you, I'm in your best interest. Think about, your father was impossible to hold, not even the police, not even the governor could have their hands on him and somehow, someone managed to kill him don't you think they'll come for you next?".

I grabbed my glass and took a short sip, "I'll be waiting then ", I said.

"No no Blu you don't get it, these people are dangerous, they could actually kill you, you don't have much about Mafia but I do because I am in the system, Blu they will come for you, and I don't want that to happen "

"Damon I don't need your protection, I have bodyguards everywhere, the only reason my father died that day was because he went on that journey undshaperoned without anyone there but you, Damon, I appreciate your efforts but I'm fine, the least thing i need now is you in my space "

"But you loved being around me, what changed?", he scoffed.

"What changed? what did you expect me to be following you around like a lost puppy? or is it that you just genuinely enjoyed me begging for your attention?", I asked about to snap.

"Blu please, don't tell me you're still holding on to a childhood drama? Blu that was years ago we were both young and we made stupid decisions, don't come and play with your life because of a stupid childhood beef "

"That stupid childhood beef recked me Damon", I said calmly, I was about to loose it then I picked myself back.

"Thank you, for trying to help, but I don't need it honestly, I'm fine on my own ", I said

"Blu listen they're going to -"

"That'll be all Damon", I sternly, I don't know where I got my confidence from, but I know I would never had spoken to Damon like that.

"Blu, I made an oat to your father to protect you, and that is exactly what I'm going to do whether you want it or not", he said calmly, walked out and shut the door.