Disclaimer: The court scenes and statements are the products of the author's imagination. Any resemblance to actual person, living or dead, or actual events are purely coincidental.The author has only limited knowledge about this kind of scenes, especially about the rules or order of the court. Please bear with the lack of information. Thank you so much!"Please rise. This court is now in session, the Honorable Judge Carlito Macareje presiding."Nanghihina akong tumayo. Halos hindi ko magawang tumingin sa harapan, wala akong ibang nararamdaman ngayon kundi galit at sakit. Nasa harapan namin ngayon ang pinaghihinalaang pumatay sa kuya ko, sinong hindi maghihinagpis? Sinong hindi mag aalab ang galit? At kung ano ang mas masakit doon? Ang unang lalaking minahal ko, ang unang lalaking naging sanhi ng katangahan ko, at ang taong suspect na pumatay sa kuya ko-ay iisa.May mga sinabi pa doon ngunit hindi ko na muling naintindihan pa. Naka kuyom lamang ang aking mga kamao habang nakatingin s
"Ate Vivian didn't tell me na sa kanila pala iyon!" I hissed.Halos hindi lang din ako nakapag-participate kanina sa klase namin dahil sa kanya. Of course, I don't know how and what to react! Tuwing nagtatama ang paningin namin ay hindi ko na lang maiwasan ang pag irap. I didn't see him for years, wala rin akong kahit anong contact or connection sa kanya pagkatapos no'n. I silently cut ties with him, pinili ko na gumawa ng paraan para hindi na kami magkaroon ng kahit anong koneksyon. I blocked him from all my social media accounts, even his number on my phone. Sobrang tumahimik ang koneksyon ng pamilya namin matapos ang inisidenteng iyon. Tila hindi na kami magkakakilala dahil sa nangyari, even with Niklaus.. hindi ko na siya nakakausap, hanggang ngayon. I'm suspecting his brother, and ang pangit naman tignan kung kinakausap ko pa rin siya at sa tingin ko'y hindi rin iyon tama dahil nagkaroon na ng lamat at boundaries ang samahan ng pamilya namin.Nalaman ko na lang sa news na umuwi
"Why don't you stay a little longer, anak? We will actually have unscheduled meeting now, your presence is important," my mom suggested-- no, it sounds like a command.Wala naman na akong magawa doon dahil mukhang importante nga ang kanilang pag m-meeting-an. I need to give them financial reports, lalo na't magpapagawa kami ng shooting range, that's for kuya Vince, gusto niya talaga ipatayo iyon noong nabubuhay pa siya. We need to plan a budget, and as their CFO, I need to be here.Tumikhim itong nasa harapan ko bago tuluyang pumasok sa loob na parang walang nangyari, iniwas niya pa ang sarili sa'kin dahil medyo nakaharang ako sa pinto.I scoffed.Umupo siya sa gilid ni ate, hindi sa tabi niya dahil naglagay siya ng espasyo doon. Agad pumasok ang sekretarya ni mommy at nag serve ng tsaa doon. Umupo na lang din ako sa harap nila at binuksan ang aking iPad. Kahit na naka yuko ako ay pansin ko ang titigan ni mommy at ate Vivian, hindi ko sila pinansin, I'm busy reviewing our past financi
"So it means you reunited with Dame?" baklang tanong ni Kael habang malisyosang tumingin sa akin bago uminom nung paborito niyang shake na pina-order niya pa sa sekretarya ko."What? No," irap ko bago nagpatuloy sa ginagawa ko. 'Reunited' has a lot of meaning, ang dahilan lang naman kaya ulit kami nagkasama ay dahil sa trabaho, kung hindi lang siya ang itinalaga ni mommy sa project na 'yon, hindi rin iyon mangyayari.Andito sila ngayon sa office ko, nanggugulo, feel at home. Palibhasa ay tapos na ni Gianna lahat ng trabaho niya, tinapos niya ito ng maaga kaya free siya ngayong oras. Ito namang si Kael ay nagsarado ng boutique niya para lang makipag-chismisan, ganyan sila kauhaw sa tsismis ngayong araw.Napahilot na lang ako sa aking sentido habang pinagmamasdan ang bagong financial reports na ginawa ko, tapos na ulit ito pero nirereview ko ulit. Mahirap na, baka magkamali na naman. I moved my swivel chair before I let go a loud sigh."Ano? May nagbago ba?""He looked hotter and mature
Fidgeting my phone, I'm still wondering about what I saw last night. I'm starting to have a hunch that it is connected to kuya Vince's death. I'm really sure na tao iyon, is he checking us kung may alam na kami? Kung may lead na ulit sa kaso? What is he planning?Muling nagsitayuan ang mga balahibo ko dahil sa naiisip. Should I report this? Is my family still safe? Ngunit isang beses palang iyon. Parang gusto ko tuloy pumunta sa presinto ngayon at humingi ng latest na update tungkol sa kaso ng pagkamatay ni kuya. Nahinto muna kasi iyon, masyadong pulido ang pagkakagawa nung suspect, walang ma-trace na kahit ano.I closed my fist, mahuhuli at mahuhuli ka rin. You will rot in jail but your soul is already burning in hell.I sighed before I shook my head, baka nga namamalikmata lang ako. Masyado na ata akong na p-praning sa paligid ko dahil sa sobrang stress, I need to loosen up. Katatapos ko na naman mag audit ng mga gastos ng kompanya kanina sa panibagong project namin, our family's bu
“Damn it,” mura ko nang magsimulang mag ingay ang alarm clock ko sa may side table, agad akong humarap doon para patayin, my eyes are still closed. My head feel sore. My brain is still debating if I should sleep more or to finally get up because I need to workout today, ang tagal ko na rin nabakante dahil sa sobrang busy. Tamad kong kinapa ang cellphone ko sa ilalim ng aking unan. Ilang minuto ko iyon hinayaan muna sa aking tiyan bago dahan dahan nagmulat ng aking mga mata. It’s already 8:11 am, pwede ako hindi pumasok ngayon dahil natapos ko naman na lahat ng gagawin ko kahapon. My eyes automatically widen when I remember what happened last night, I’m so fucking wasted! And Dame drive me home! “Shit! Paano ako nakarating sa kwarto ko? I can’t remember anything!” I talked to myself, napasabunot ako sa aking buhok, pinukpok ko pa ang ulo ko—pinipilit alalahanin yung mga bagay na ‘di ko na matandaan kagabi. Ang huli ko lang naalala ay iyong sinabi niyang dalhin ko raw siya tuwing i
“Come on, pick anything—libre ko,” pagpupumilit ko nang makitang hindi pa rin siya gumagalaw sa pwesto niya. Paminsan-minsan ay tumitingin sa akin tapos lilipat doon sa mga paninda sa harap. Nagdadalawang-isip pa ata.We’re currently buying some street foods para baunin doon sa burol na pupuntahan namin. May nakita kasi akong vendor dito malapit sa site, natakam ako. Tumusok ako nung fishball. Ang tagal ko na hindi nakatikim nito dahil kay mommy, bigla tuloy ako nag crave. Minsan lang kasi ako makakain ng ganito.“I don’t know what to pick,” he honestly answered, nag iwas pa ng tingin. I sighed and rolled my eyes. Rich kid kasi. Fishball, kikiam, saka barbecue lang ata alam nito na andito sa harap namin, e. “What do you want to try?” I asked, I tilted ny head to see him properly.Kumuha pa ako ng sampung stick ng isaw, ang tagal ng titig nitong kasama ko doon. He’s probably thinking kung intestine ba talaga ‘yon. “Kuya, pa-compute na lang po ako lahat, ha.” “Sige po, ma’am,” sag
“Vaine, I will not let you drive like that,” he uttered gently. His hand is brushing my arms, inaalo ako upang lumabas na dito sa kotse ko. Habang ako ay nanatiling nakatulala.“Baby, come on… I’m here…” Nanginginig pa rin ako nang mas buksan niya ang pinto para i-check kung ayos lang ako. Marahan niya akong inalalayan pababa at nagpatianod lang ako sa kanya dahil sa sobrang panghihina.Tulala ako hanggang sa makasakay na ako sa sasakyan niya, he made sure that my seatbelt is locked before he typed something on his phone, he placed that on his ear before he took a glance at me while he's still on the outside. I can see the concern in his eyes but I can’t fully grasped what’s happening right now. “Niklaus… You’re not busy, right?... Yeah, I heard… We’re now going… Can you pick Vaine’s car here at…” Wala na akong naintindihan doon dahil ang tanging nasa utak ko lang ay naaksidente si Ate Vivian at kailangan ko pumunta agad doon sa hospital na tinext ni mommy kanina. Sunod-sunod na n
"You still haven't met my sister. Uuwi ka na agad ulit?" Vince asked the same question he'd ask me everytime we're stopping by here in their house.I'm already at their veranda when he stalked me, I was about to go home. Galing kami sa shooting range ng pamilya ko. This is our routine whenever we have free time—usually after exams but these past few weeks mas nagiging madalas na at mas nagiging close na rin ako sa kanya.He's my senior from the school that I'm going, we have the same course, and we became close because of some duties and responsibilities. It's like a student council, but not really much.He's smart, and he's looking forward for me to take his position to lead when he graduated. He's kind too, that's why I offer him to go to our shooting range and have a session there, for free—but no—I really pay for it without him knowing. I know he can pay, but it's just my way of giving back for his affability. I can say that he treats me like his younger brother as months and year
Warning: Violence, self-harm, drowning, vomit.My head is throbbing so bad, the pulse from the side of my head gone wild, that's what I felt first when I regained my consciousness. My arms, hands, and legs feel so numb and paralyzed. I think my bones aren't broken but it's aching, it felt sore and weak. Blood and sweat is all I can smell. My knees are steady and even I still can't fully grasp what's happening, it's wobbling from fear and nervousness. I tried to move my body but I teetered, that's when I realized I've been tied up to a chair. I hissed when I felt that I've been tied up for so long that it scratched my skin and there's already a blood on it.I slowly opened my eyes and it's still blurry and I'm still dazed. It feels like I'm in a glass and it's cold outside that's why it's moistening, that's how my vision looks like."Gising na ang pinakamamahal na bunso," isang mapanuyang boses and agad kong narinig.May narinig akong halakhak sa isang gilid. Tila kalabit, pinilit kon
My hands are still shaking when I grabbed a mop from our storage room. My tears kept on falling down my cheeks like a stream. Ang ilang segundo lang na pagkuha non ay tumagal ng ilang minuto dahil tila hindi kumokonekta ang kilos ko sa utak ko. Kasabay ng pagtulo ng aking luha ay siya ring pakirot ng aking puso habang nililinis ang inilabas kong kinain kani-kanina lang. I like to run away after this. I like to run away from all of my problems. But how? Is it worth it? It's not the time to run away, I can feel that we're near the truth, we're near to claim the justice for Kuya. Should I keep this on myself first? Kaya ko ba? Hindi...I got too tired and exhausted from where we've been. I drained my energy from the informations that we've learned-tapos ganito pa ang madadatnan ko dito. Sana ay binaril na lang din ako para minsanang hirap at sakit lang. "Vaine, anak? Andito ka na pala... Kamusta ang pagpunta ninyo ni Dame? Anong balita, anak?" Now all I can see is red. When I heard h
WARNING: mature content, mention of violence, vomiting."Did you just tell me that an unknown person submitted a new lead to open your brother's case again?" Gianna asked, like she's confirming it and she needed to hear it twice.I nodded. I grabbed the cup of my coffee, I enveloped it with my both hands just to feel its warm. Until now I can feel the shivering of my soul since our last day in Siargao. I can still remember how my heart beated abnormally, and until now—I still can feel the same. Hindi ako mapakali.Andito kami ngayon sa café ni Niklaus, kasama si Kael. Halos tatlong araw na ang nakalilipas mula nang makauwi kami, kinabukasan no'n ay dumiretso agad kami sa presinto. The presecutor are also there, ilang araw din ang nagdaan upang siguraduhing tunay ang nakuha nilang bagong imposrmasyon.Bukas ay pupunta kami doon, baka si Dame na lang ang kasama ko dahil si mommy ay binabantayan si Ate Vivian, medyo lumalala kasi ang pagsakit ng kanyang ulo nitong mga nakaraang araw. Aya
Morning after that, I just felt him hugging me—shirtless, with his boxers only. Ang kanyang mukha ay nakabaon sa aking leeg, nakayakap ang kamay niya sa aking bewang habang ang kanyang kanang paa ay medyo naka dagan sa akin. Akala mo tatakasan, e. He’s like a koala. I spent the night inside his room. Whenever I shift away to check my phone if there’s any message from mom and Ate Vivian—he will roll over too while still asleep, just to follow me. He nested his face on my neck while his hand sprawled across my stomach, under my shirt—uh, his shirt. I immediately get back to my room without waking him up because he looks so peaceful while sleeping, he’s also snoring but not that loud—it’s sounds so soft. I smiled because he looked like a baby even when he's grumpy when he's awake.Nag iwan na lang ako ng note sa headboard ng kama niya. I put my dress again, with still his boxers on. My body felt so sore even we just did a damn dry-hump. I felt so tired and sleepy but I still managed to
Warning: Mature content. Read at your own risk."Tell me more about him, Ate. You're so unfair! Akala ko ba hindi tayo magtatago ng kahit ano mula sa isa't isa?" sumimangot ako habang naka-krus pa ang braso sa dibdib.Narinig ko lang ang halakhak niya maski wala naman nakakatawa sa sinabi ko. She's busy putting her bags inside the car trunk while patiently hearing my rants about her unrevealed past with that hot doctor! Don't judge me, I'm just saying the truth. I'm describing him the way I see him.Medyo nakaka-recover na si Ate sa nangyaring aksidente. Nagiging maingat pa rin kami, ang binubuhat niya lang ngayon ay yung maliit niyang bag na naglalaman ng toiletries niya. Sila Dame ang nagsasakay at nag-aasikaso nung ibang mga bagahe.We're preparing to go to the airport para sa flight namin papunta sa Siargao, private plane nila Dame ang gagamitin. Kasabay na namin si Tita Danica, Tito Ramon, Dame, and Niklaus sa pagbyahe papunta roon. Just like the old times, wala nga lang si Zadki
“You’re late,” I hissed when I saw him rushing inside. He cracked a smile and ignored what I've said. He’s wearing a denim jacket with a white shirt inside of it, and his necklace. He’s literally twenty minutes late and I don’t know what his reason is. Vince Hermano is always earlier than any scheduled time of meeting or what. We decided to have an ‘oh-so-called-bonding’ tonight since he’s leaving. We'll see each other after so many years again, we don’t know exactly when—he’s a very busy person now, ever since he graduated. He went straight to one of the lanes, he’s already assembling a gun when I stepped in. “I had a talk with my sister,” now he‘s explaining. Wait. Sister? Which one? Vaine or Vivian? My jaw ticked when I remembered the last time I talked with Vaine, I could say that we’re currently not okay, we need to talk. I want to settle with her and I’m really planning to talk about it, I’m just giving her time. I don’t want to exhaust her. We’ve been through a lot of thi
I was too stunned to speak when I saw Tita Danica in front of me, she’s alone. I tried to utter some words as fast as I can but I failed. My brain is still occupied by Dame’s words earlier. My hands started to feel clammy and I’m already sweating bullets. I feel like there's a hurricane inside me, my stomach is turning upside down. I feel nauseated because of nervousness. “Do you want to talk, hija?” she asked as she gave me a small smile. Her eyes are encouraging me to say 'yes'.My lips parted, trying to speak again. Hindi pa rin ako nakaka-move on sa pag-uusap namin ni Dame kanina but I can’t turn Tita Danica down even though I think I already have an idea about what we’re going to talk about, lalo na‘t mukhang pinuntahan niya pa ako dito. I think this is the right time for us to talk, ang tagal na rin noong huli, pare-parehas silang hindi ko na nakausap pagkatapos nung gabing sinabing isa si Dame sa suspect sa pagkamatay ni kuya. How did she know that I’m here by the way? “S-
“Vaine, I will not let you drive like that,” he uttered gently. His hand is brushing my arms, inaalo ako upang lumabas na dito sa kotse ko. Habang ako ay nanatiling nakatulala.“Baby, come on… I’m here…” Nanginginig pa rin ako nang mas buksan niya ang pinto para i-check kung ayos lang ako. Marahan niya akong inalalayan pababa at nagpatianod lang ako sa kanya dahil sa sobrang panghihina.Tulala ako hanggang sa makasakay na ako sa sasakyan niya, he made sure that my seatbelt is locked before he typed something on his phone, he placed that on his ear before he took a glance at me while he's still on the outside. I can see the concern in his eyes but I can’t fully grasped what’s happening right now. “Niklaus… You’re not busy, right?... Yeah, I heard… We’re now going… Can you pick Vaine’s car here at…” Wala na akong naintindihan doon dahil ang tanging nasa utak ko lang ay naaksidente si Ate Vivian at kailangan ko pumunta agad doon sa hospital na tinext ni mommy kanina. Sunod-sunod na n