STARING e?" With that question, I snapped back to reality.From staring at the bread rolls in his stomach, I lifted my gaze to his face and saw a mischievous smile on his lips, causing me to blush even more.I quickly averted my gaze. Like, seriously, I didn't even realize that I've been staring at his bread rolls for a few minutes! Like, what just happened, self?! What happened to you and why did you lose control of yourself suddenly?!I really wanted to slap myself for this opportunity, to be honest. I really wanted to slap myself for unintentionally staring at his stomach earlier. Like, what the fuck self, don't tell me that he still has the same effect on you after three freaking years?! Like, god, if there's anyone to blame, it's definitely not going to work out for us with our plans!"Can you get dressed?" And now, you stuttered self, like just what the fuck is happening to you?!My desire to slap myself earlier only increased because of that. Like, what the fuck, why did you st
I have already made it a habit to jog every morning. So, the next day even before the sun rose, I already dressed in my jogging outfit, ready to go. And when the designated time came, which I set for myself, I started my morning routine which is jogging.After jogging almost every day, I have memorized the streets and routes in this neighborhood. I know where each turn and intersection is, unlike my first time when I stumbled around not knowing where to go. Luckily, Storm found me because he was worried about me since I took too long to come back. I was grateful because if he didn't find me, I would have been lost.Since that day, Storm has been accompanying me every time I jog. While we jog, he shows me the directions of every street here. Eventually, I learned all the directions, and that's why I never get lost anymore.In the middle of the town, there is a place they call the plaza. Beside the plaza is a basketball court where you can jog because it is spacious. In fact, many peopl
Mitz stopped speaking because of what I said. "What? Are we here already?" he asked while looking around.I nodded and said, "Yes, in fact, that's our house," pointing towards the direction of my home.While I was speaking, I gathered up the courage to control myself from trembling, even though the sharp looks from behind me were like a knife staring at me.I saw surprise in his eyes when I told him about my home. This didn't surprise me because I'm used to the reactions of the people here whenever they find out that I live in that house.The surprise I saw in his eyes was replaced by wonder. For some inexplicable reason, I was perplexed, because I expected his eyes to show fear like the others. Why did I only see surprise and wonder this time? It was strange."Oh, so you're the one they're talking about as the party girl?" he asked, and I nodded. I didn't see any benefit in denying the truth, so I nodded.Besides, I wasn't surprised when he said that I was the party girl because I al
I feel cold because of what I realized. Thousands of questions flooded my mind. And it made me cry without him even noticing."So now tell me, who--"He was ranting about something, but I stopped him by slapping him hard. He gasped and stopped.He stared at me with wide eyes and his jaw clenched, indicating his anger. He was mad at me for slapping him.But his anger dissipated when he saw tears streaming down my cheeks. He approached me with questioning eyes, wondering why I slapped him and why I was crying."M-arra what happened," he said as he tried to reach for me, but I slapped his hand away."Marra, what--" I didn't let him finish his sentence. I immediately interrupted him and said, "Leave."The confusion in his eyes deepened at my words. "Why?"His question made me want to hurt him, to strangle him even, because he was so good at acting innocent. He was so good at pretending that he didn't know what was going on, even though the words came from his own mouth.So what was it? He
After leaving that place, I locked myself in my room. And I let myself be consumed by anger and pain.Anger towards myself and anger towards him. Towards myself, because for so many times, I've let myself be fooled again. I didn't learn. Anger towards him, because why is he so fond of deceiving? Why is he so fond of hurting? Why can't he leave me alone?! What does he really want?! Like for pete's sake, isn't what he did to me before enough?! Isn't that enough for him to fool and play me again?!For pete's sake, I'm tired. I'm so sick of crying and hurting because of him. I'm so tired of being fooled, but why? Why does he keep doing the same thing over and over again? Why does he keep hurting and fooling me? And now he's planning to deceive me again, and just great. He nailed it! He fooled me again for so many times. He made me believe again!What is your plan, Dashiel? And why can't you leave me alone?! I gave you everything. My virginity, my womanhood, my dignity that you destroyed. I
It's impossible for him to leave. With his stubbornness, it's impossible for him to leave with just my simple words... but honestly, I hope so. I hope he leaves because if not, he's too shameless to stay here. After what he did to me, he's really thick-skinned.I really don't know what to do when we meet again. Will I act as if nothing happened so I can continue with my plan? Or will I kick him and kill him? I don't know and I have no intention of finding out. I will just go with the flow. Maybe.I sighed. Then I continued to wash my face and went out of the bathroom to fix myself.I fixed myself because I needed to show him that I'm strong. That I'm not weak. That I'm not affected by the lies he told me. I thought it was so unfair if I was the only one crying while he was happy. And because of that thought, I realized that I needed to continue with my revenge. But it's different now. The plan has changed since so many things have happened.But even though I'll continue with my plan,
He asked for forgiveness. It was something I needed back then to move on, but that was then. Now, a lot has changed, and it has changed my perspective and the course of my life. And now, I don't need his damn sorry to move on. I need his life!Instead of being happy because he finally apologized, I didn't feel anything. In fact, I felt even more irritated, so I just laughed at his sorry."Sorry?" I asked him, laughing. "Eat your sorry!" I looked at what he was cooking, grabbed the spoon he had just used, and threw its contents on the floor, some of it hitting him.And since it was still in the pan, it was very hot, causing him to curse as some of it hit his stomach, which was already red and shiny from the sauce and heat."Ho! It's hot!" he complained. But instead of feeling sorry for him or feeling bad about the wasted food, I felt overjoyed, as if I had won the lottery.Seeing him in pain brought out the hell of joy in me.But honestly, the food looked good, and it was a bit of a sh
EARLY MORNING but the mouths of my neighbors were already shouting loudly. And that's the reason why I woke up from my not so beautiful sleep. Even in my sleep, I was visited by sadness.The screams from our neighbors were the first thing I noticed the next morning when I woke up. They were shouting as if there was a fire. They were also getting rowdy for some unknown reason. I couldn't quite understand what they were shouting, but one phrase stuck in my mind.And those words were "Someone's dead!"Thinking that there might be a fire and someone had died, I quickly got up to find out where the fire was.I was about to leave the room, but I was interrupted by my cellphone ringing on the bedside table.Even though I wanted to go out and find out what was happening outside, I decided not to. I didn't continue because I had a strong feeling that the call was important, the call from Storm.And how did I know that Storm was calling me even though I hadn't looked at the phone yet? It was si
"I didn't expect that because of my search for her, I would get into an accident on my motorcycle, causing me to break my leg and be disabled for a few months. Someone sent me a tip that she could be found in that area, so I hurriedly went there without expecting that my haste would lead to an accident.Months passed, and they continued searching for the woman I love. This time, even my dad helped in the search, but unfortunately, there was still no update.I have already started walking again, but up until now, there is still no news about her. I have already buried my dear mother, but still, there is no update about her.I failed the Bar Exam because I did not review properly due to my experiences, and my dad was disappointed in me, but still, there is no news about her.My dad has already passed the company to me, and I have made it prosper, but there is still no update about her. I have won the case about her mother, but there is still no update about her. I have even set her free
I never expected that I would fall for her because of our everyday interactions. At first, I tried to stop myself from falling for her because it was forbidden for us to get involved, if ever.But I couldn't resist. I was carried away by my emotions to the point that I claimed her as mine for life even though she didn't know it yet.But will she be mine too?My feelings for her grew even stronger when I learned about her past and how strong and independent she is. It impressed me so much that I even thought about making her mother's case my first case when I become a lawyer.Our secret relationship, which only I knew about, was going well until... I became careless - we became careless - until Buenaventura came along and acted as if he was my girlfriend.Until someone recorded us having sex. I tried to find the person who was filming us while Marra and I were doing that thing, but unfortunately, I couldn't find him.When I told Buenaventura about it, he advised me to stay away from Ma
The wake, where I always go to whenever I want to escape my bitter and complicated life.When I reached the foot of the hill, I paid Manong using the money I took from the person I killed.During that time, there was no path leading to the top of the hill yet, so I had no other choice but to climb it from the foot to the summit.The feeling of nostalgia that I first felt when I arrived here returned as soon as I reached the top. I closed my eyes and leaned my shoulders on each side to feel the cold breeze coming from the Pacific Ocean.Ghad. I miss this! I miss this feeling!It reminded me of how I found this place. It was raining, and I was crying because for the second time, my mother's friend abandoned me on the side of the road. Since I didn't know where I was, I had no choice but to follow the road in front of me.The second customer left me alone in the woods after using my body. I was left alone, crying and disgusted with myself.Since I didn't know the way back home, I just fo
The woman, whose name was apparently Jane, immediately followed the order of the gay in front of me.After a few seconds, Jane returned with a long black whip. I swallowed hard as I saw it, knowing it would make me cry if it hit my body."Looks like we'll have to use force on you, baby boy," the gay in front of me taunted before nodding to his companions.It seemed to be the signal for the two of them to approach me and grab my hands, causing me to struggle."Strip her," Jane laughed like a demon.The gay in front of me proceeded to rip my t-shirt off, and even though I was struggling, I couldn't fight back as the others were too strong.As my t-shirt was completely torn, the gay in front of me immediately sucked on my nipple, causing me to struggle even more.This passage contains graphic and disturbing content that may be triggering or offensive to some readers. It depicts a scene of sexual assault and is not suitable for all audiences. Reader discretion is advised."No! No! No! Ple
I thought that she was just using me to pay off her debts, but it seems like she's also selling me. Well, what's the difference between the two, right? Because both of them would just lead me to becoming a prostitute."You're such a cautious one, mommy! You should be grateful that your son looks delicious!" the gay guy said while shaking his head, then he took out a white envelope. The others followed suit, taking out envelopes from their bags. Then, they gave the remaining envelopes they had, which I assumed contained money."Here it is, mommy dear," said one of the gays as he gave the envelope to mommy. Mommy was about to accept the envelope, but the gay guy suddenly took it back. "Wait a minute, mommy, is it really okay for the three of us to take on that kid?" the gay guy asked while raising his eyebrows.Mama nodded, 'Yes, of course! How could he not be well-trained by now!' she replied to the gay man's question, taking the money he handed her.When mama passed by, she said to th
Instead of feeling pleasure from what she was doing, I just cried. Disgust for myself filled my heart, but it was not a surprise to me anymore. It's always like this. This is always what I experience. This is always what I feel.Perhaps when she got tired of sucking, she slowly moved her lips towards my groin, causing me to squirm even more. I couldn't take it anymore. I couldn't bear the disgust I was feeling.The woman got irritated with my behavior, and punched me in the stomach. "Stop acting like a fool! You act like this is your first time. Hey! For your fucking information, your mom has paid me and her other debts several times, so don't act like you're all clean!" she shouted, causing me to cry and cry.I cried and cried because she was right... she was right about what she said.. I've experienced this several times.. I've experienced being raped and used to pay off my own parents' debts... and I've prayed to God many times to escape from the prison of desire that I never wante
"No... please tita, spare me, please." I pleaded repeatedly to the woman in front of me, hoping that she would release me from her hold.But instead of pity, she just laughed as if she was enjoying my begging."No.. no.. no baby boy, your mother already paid me, so it's only right that I make the most of what she paid for," she grinned at me while slowly taking off her bra.As she finally took it off, her huge breasts came out, which I thought could reach her belly button. It sagged, but what really disgusted me was her extremely dark nipples. It looked like the typical breasts of old women, which is one of the things I fear."No, tita, please." I begged, while wishing to God that she would hear my plea - that the demon-like friend of my mother would be enlightened and stop her abusive actions towards me."No baby boy, no." She tried to sound seductive while saying those words, even biting her lower lip as if hoping to seduce me.But instead of looking attractive in front of me, she l
Instead of answering his question, I shook my head while repeating the words I've said to him over and over again, "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry Dashiel... If only I knew... If only I knew that this is how it is--"I couldn't continue with what I was about to say when I felt his index finger touch my lips, "Shhh... no need to say sorry, honey, because I've forgiven you a long time ago. And besides, I deserved what happened to me because if it weren't for my negligence, our child would still be here now." He interrupted me, making me quiet.My body immediately reacted to what he said, making me stand up from kneeling and sit beside him. "No, you don't deserve--" I was about to protest that he didn't deserve what happened to him when he put his arms around me, holding me tight.I feel sorry for him because he didn't deserve what happened to him and he is not to blame for the death of our child, but I couldn't continue to feel his lips on mine.Our lips touched briefly, but it was enough to c
When Buenaventura and Thunder came out of the hospital, that's when I stood up from my seat to go inside.If they thought that I stopped insisting on entering Dashiel's room just to see him, well, they were wrong. I would never allow that.It has been a week since I felt embarrassed in the hallway because of that witch. And since that week, she still hasn't woken up.And during that week, I tried several times to go inside Dashiel's room just to catch a glimpse of him or to watch over him for a few seconds.But the past few days have really been unlucky for me. Every time I tried to enter his room, I would always end up embarrassed and going home with drooping shoulders.I have been embarrassed many times because I thought that Buenaventura had left the room, but I always ended up facing her angry face. Because she was mad at me and an attention seeker, she would do anything to get rid of me, including throwing a tantrum and pulling my hair, which made me go home with drooping shoulde