Was I stupid to love you?Was I reckless to help?Was it obvious to everybody elseThat I'd fallen for a lie?You were never on my sideFool me once, fool me twiceAre you death or paradise?Now you'll never see me cryThere's just no time to die - Billie EilishLyana How to start something I don't even know how to talk about, the worst taking over and the abstraction of happiness moving further and further away in search of a safe place to hide from everything, from so much dirt.This is how I ended up sitting here looking at the sea and the infinitude on which the horizon lies when my heart breaks more and more as I feel the grains of sand instead of feeling your hand against mine. Tired of the way everyone always expects me to participate in everything and be somehow trying to talk or participate in some group when the pain is so much greater. My friends expect you to overcome because of so many achievements but none of them guaranteed that you would stay, none of my words convin
Yurich Counting weapons in the shed in Kislokan at the abandoned site set up for us to use as an ammunition counting point, far enough from prying eyes and close enough to my eyes."Dobriev, look who it is. " I told my new UnderBoss, after discovering a few months ago that large loads were being hijacked from routes I quickly killed the idiots and put him in the highest office for being a loyal man.Rats persist in trying to take the throne, they are like a plague that infests and replicates through the sewers, they should know that sitting in hell burns and dying at the hands of the devil is miserable torture, for none of them will last long in my hands.No one should know that we are here, in other words, someone has given it away, at least I already have some names that I listed just to separate the weapons that will be sent to Brazil, the land where weapons are always missing."Boss I put safety devices in the shed, we can blow everything up with them inside" Dobriev spoke quickly
Lyana As strange as it is I can't take my eyes off the man lying on the bed in front of me, his rhythmic beats should be something positive but the reality is that seeing the way the strong-bodied body is lost amidst the white sheets of the bed causes a pang of pain inside my chest. I sigh once again building up the courage to say a few words to her somehow I need to know that she is okay, to know that she will survive. Cassandra beeps an emergency message on my cell phone, I rush out to the hospital emergency room and find the pair of emergency responders bringing an elderly gentleman under the stretcher hurriedly, I put the stethoscope on promptly, doing a quick auscultation identifying the out of rhythm beat by some ventricular murmur. I nod to the nurse . "Call Doctor Michaels to the surgical center." I passed the order. Leaving the interns behind rushing to the surgical center, elderly patient unconscious, low heart rate, auscultation with ventricular murmur, and low pressure
Yurich I ignore the cynical looks as Dobriev tries to appease my quest to know who the person is that was here inside this room with me, how his soft voice was able to call out for the demon I carry with me. The pain of my injuries begins to shuffle my thoughts, but not enough to ignore the entrance that causes complete silence within the room. I watch the nurse next to me finishing what she said was a medication walk away, the doctors whispering among themselves, I see a short woman wearing a blue uniform with short sleeves, the blouse too big for her and the loose pants giving the appearance that her legs are even smaller. The large cheeks and the different features gave away her nationality, she is not Russian, the dark eyes analyzing each of the machines monitoring my heartbeat until our gazes locked. The mixture of innocence with fire in the dark irises is surprising, as if she didn't know she had dark desires inside of her somehow this just ignited the wolf that wants to run to
Lyana I slam the door of the rest room leaning firmly against my back, seeking to breathe deeply, that look of a grayish blue stirring with each of my structures and forcing me to maintain a professional facade. Somehow numbing from the moment this man came in here bleeding like an animal, I could feel the changes that would occur. Maybe it’s just the silly granddaughter of a Brazilian full of superstitions or some divine being trying to warn her to stay away from him. His acid words tried to penetrate every layer of my skin, I could not even pay attention to what colleagues were discussing despite having the notion, that for someone who suffered serious injuries, we did not expect him to wake up so early much less with such courage and strength. The many nurses around the hospital did not disguise their distrust of him, from what I understand Yurich Romanov is a man of great power and above all: dangerous. I release the air and inspire again seeking to calm the frantic beats, I hav
YurichA child without love, a man without morals, and a life based on carnage is in this diabolical friend in which I am always being shaped, when something good or beautiful appears I have a perverse taste in touching. Unlike Midas does not become gleaming like gold but distorts into ashes heaped at my feet, destroying any goodness is easy, breaking beauty is as natural as dawn. Your innocent eyes cry out for the wickedness I carry with me, so why would you deny it? I analyze every trace of the beautiful face the dark threads falling so perfectly, a princess being poisoned by the belief of protection to the kind of heart. My little nymph sighs between the bed sheets. I inspire the delicate perfume completely obsessed with the vision of an unreachable paradise for a demon but at my fingertips, I would not let it escape. After I left that room I was quick to organize everything to get out of the hospital as soon as possible, a war was brewing within my territory, and standing on a
Lyana I feel the warm touch against the skin as a slow caress, making my body match the firm and possessive voice is as tempting as the darkness in which I am enjoying rest. I sigh fighting against the heavy eyelids when the heat fades leaving only the empty place, the softness of what I recognize to be a fabric. But it is the pains spread throughout the body that attract all my attention, gradually I will regain consciousness of the unhappy night and feel the panic coming back with everything. I lift my body at once being taken by dizziness, I’m seeking to stabilize my breath is when I finally realize I am in a highly luxurious room. The huge bed covered by silky fabrics is lit by a beam of light between heavy curtains, I check my clothes in place before getting up, closing my eyes, and mentally thanking for having some sign that I was not abused. I want to believe that none of that was real and I’m just in some twisted nightmare, but it’s the cold ground against the soles of my fee
And all the kids cried out, "Please stop, you're scaring me"I can't help this awful energyGod damn right, you should be scared of meWho is in control?I paced around for hours on emptyI jumped at the slightest of soundsAnd I couldn't stand the person inside meI turned all the mirrors around - Control - HalseyI closed my eyes forcefully wishing that somehow everything would turn into just another strange nightmare, even fighting these different sensations caused by being in the arms of a monster."Open your eyes Lyana. - Deep voice commands." Unable to disobey I see his look analyzing every detail of mine, I feel the excitement of before returning even more forcefully, I look away watching the same room in which I woke up. He seems to wait for some word from me, but I have nothing to say, finally let him stand and the strangest thing is to miss his warmth. "Don’t you dare do that again, I might not be so compassionate". I quickly turn my head to look at him I feel my cheeks b