Chapter 3

"I can take you right here and right now to make your accusations real" malamig at may halong pagbabanta sa tono ng pananalita niya.

Natahimik nalang ako pagkarinig ko sa kanya. I could still clearly remember the horror of last night's events. I know for sure how wild he can be if he takes things seriously.

"Scaredy cat" he smirk and teased then he moved away.

I wanted to retort but h'wag nalang. I don't even know what's running on his mind. He is so serious and scary then the next thing you knew he's making silly remarks hindi mo alam kung pinaglalaruan ka ba o ano.

"Did you... perhaps slept beside me?" I asked with hesitation kasi parang alam ko na ang sagot.

He looked at me like he was looking at a weirdo. As if saying na malamang, where would he sleep if not on the bed?

I sighed. Maybe ginapang ko talaga siya? Hindi naman sa ginapang like gapang as in, okay?

I... I always sleep with my stuffed panda and grizzly. Maybe I mistook him for one kaya I ended up hugging him or touching him? The possibility is so great that I don't want to dwell on it and argue with him.

Busy pa rin akong nag-iisip nang bigla niyang inihagis sa'kin ang phone ko.

Bastard Yohan Calling...

Great! Just the person whom I never wanted to associate myself with especially this early in the morning.

Ano bang problema ng taong 'to? Five a.m. palang tawag nang tawag. Wait, did he even sleep? This guy is not a morning person and he's calling so early. I mentally smacked my head.

What the hell, Selene! May time ka pa talagang magworry sa manloloko na 'yon! Seriously?

Maybe because I got used to it. Doing everything for him. Worrying about him. Thinking about him. My life revolved around the fact that I was meant for him.

I'm not even that in-love with him to begin with but I did everything I can for our relationship to grow and stay strong. Bata palang kami we were already told that we will be spending our lives together. So how can other people expect someone who dedicated herself and planned her future with the rest of her life to just move on after being betrayed? How can I throw away my feelings and memories kasama siya? And how can I let go of the pain and just accept that while he's with me, the hands he used to hold mine are the ones he used to caress some other girl at night? And the lips he used to utter my name sweetly and those eyes that look at me with what I thought was love were pressed on someone else's skin and gazed on her affectionately.

I regarded myself as his and here I thought that he was also mine. I reserved everything to him. In an instant, everything just went down the drain.

Hinintay kong mawala ang tawag at nakita ko 73 missed calls.

39 from Yohan, 4 from kuya and 30 from the butler.

I guessed mom and dad are very worried.

Or not..?

Seeing how many missed calls I got from Yohan maybe both families are already aware of his cheating case. They must be worried that I'm gonna get caught up with something stupid while nagpapakalunod sa sakit.

I looked at the messages I got from Simon, my older brother and from the butler.

DON'T DO ANYTHING STUPID, YOU'RE ABOUT TO GET MARRIED!

-SIMON

THE MASTER AND MADAM ARE VERY WORRIED ABOUT YOU, MISS. PLEASE RETURN HOME AS SOON AS YOU CAN.

-BUTLER

Worried my ass!

They didn't even ask how I feel. They're just worried that their trophy child will sully the family name. Are they seriously thinking about proceeding with the marriage next month even after knowing what Yohan did? How ridiculous!

These people doesn't see me as a person but a commodity instead. Something they can sell to reap benefits. Sometimes I wonder if I'm really their family or not. Perhaps it's the reality of being born in a family of conglomerates.

You are provided with everything you need except for love.

I instantly deleted Yohan's messages without reading them. Wala akong oras na pwede pang sayangin sa mga kasinungalingan niya. He's so good at fucking gaslighting! I don't wanna hear more nonsense coming from him.

My vision started to get blurry and tears started to fall down to my phone's screen. I remember the loud moans that girl made like a crazed bitch in heat as he bang her from behind.

While I did everything I could despite my busy schedule to surprise him, I never thought that I would be the one who will get surprised seeing how their two bodies intertwined as they moved in a sensual rhythmic that instantly broke my heart.

Funny thing is, in the end ako pa raw ang may kasalanan kasi I was too conservative for his libido to wait. Is it wrong for me to be conservative and reserve myself for him until our marriage?

I dedicated myself to someone who's not worthy of me.

I suddenly thought of something ridiculous and I instinctively look at the person infront of me.

He already saw everything. At least he save my life. It doesn't really matter anyway.

My family will still clearly wed me to that bastard for benefits so why don't I fuck them off especially that bastard Yohan.

"What?" He glared.

At least I can give myself to someone who's really my type well minus the attitude. I'll just try to enjoy it, after this I'm sure hindi na rin kami magkikita pa.

"Let's do it."

Kinunutan niya lang ako ng noo at pinagtaasan ng kilay.

I stood up nervously, I almost stumbled pero agad rin akong nakabawi at inayos ang sarili ko.

I feel so pathetic coming up with this idea. But it's my version of revenge for what Yohan did. Since hindi na ako makakawala sa kanya, I'll just play his game. It takes two to tango just so he knows.

Dahan-dahan kong inalis ang pagkakatali ng aking robe habang diretsong nakatingin sa lalaking nasa harapan ko.

Wala nang atrasan to, Selene.

Nakita ko itong napalunok nang tuluyang bumagsak sa sahig ang robe.

"You're playing with fire, young lady" he warned. He talks like a middle-aged man calling me young lady when I'm already 23. Looking at him I think he's not even that older than I am.

Instead of talking back I just carefully placed my hand on his chest and look up to meet his gaze. He's so tall my, neck hurts. I tried to tiptoe to give him a peck on the lips pero hindi ko abot. He's so huge! Hindi ko alam kung paano ko nabuhat ang lalaking 'to papunta ng room namin kagabi. Siguro dala ng adrenaline rush kaya ko nagawa kahit napakabigat nito.

Annoyed, I saw his nipple and immediately bite it. Beat that!

"Fuck!"

The next thing I knew he's already carrying me in his arms.

"You as for it!"

He threw me on the bed and took off his shorts. I saw his little guy waving to me. I wasn't even sure if I should call it little nang makita ko ang kabuuan nito. Now I'm beginning to have second thoughts about this.