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2020-10-28 07:56:33"Thank you for coming today," the therapist said. "I was afraid you wouldn't come because of the way you sounded when you left my office the other day."
"Can we continue from where we stopped. As you can see, I am already getting tired of this introductions."
"I understand. I understand, Perer."
The therapist turned my file to the next page.
"I thought I would never say this about you but you are an incredibly smart person. You deserve a good life."
"Almost everyone does," I replied.
"Some, more than others. Those who set goals, work very hard, stay out of trouble and complete their education deserve a better life."
"Can we get on with this, ma? I am trying hard not to freeze to death."
"Are you cold?"
"No! But I am freezing yo death inside of me."
"Give me time."
I watched as the woman looked at my file, raised it up, turned it over and placed it back on
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