Positive "The hell are you doing?!” I was slightly startled by Bailey's loud cry. I just looked at him through my peripheral and continued what I was doing. I heard his quick steps towards me. "Cianna!" He held my hand and stopped me from putting my clothes inside the suitcase. I looked at him angrily. "Will you please explain to me what's happening? Why are you packing?” His eyes widened in question. "I'm leaving," I said coldly. He was restless as he stared at me in disbelief. I continued packing my things. “L-Leaving... Y-You're what?!” I didn't move and let him walk by my side. "I already booked a flight for us. So pack up." When he couldn't stand it anymore, he stopped both of my arms and forced me to face him. "Cianna! What the hell is wrong with you? Do you know what you are doing? Maybe you're forgetting that you have a show to do?" I tried to get his hand off me which I did easily. There is a mixture of confusion and anger on his face. "And about that. Just tell
Leave A few moments have passed but I'm still staring at the laptop. I am thinking so hard if this is the best decision I should make. My parents would be shocked and angry but I know they will understand what I will do. All I need to do is tell them about my plans. My only problem is Bailey and my job. He would kill me if I tell him about this. Also, I am still tied to a contract. The end of that will be next year. I can't continue working with my condition. Soon everyone will know the moment my belly swells. And I don't want that. It would be a big scandal. I have to protect my baby. My hand trembled as I gently caressed my stomach. I can't believe I am carrying a child. Even if we are not on good terms with its father, maybe I can handle it on my own. Oh my gosh. Am I doing this? My throat hurt and my chest tightened with pain. Just thinking about what could happen makes me feel weak. The anger I feel for Santi doesn't help either. Even when I shouldn't be thinking about him ri
Goodbye I thought it would be easier to handle my parents' reaction. But now that I’m here, I feel so nervous. I didn't realize this was a big deal for them until I saw their reactions. They were both dumbfounded when I told them I'm pregnant. My mom recovered first and immediately approached me on the sofa where I was sitting. "Oh my god, Cianna. This is not a funny joke!” She said almost hysterically. I bit my lower lip to hold back my tears. For the past few days, I thought I had gotten used to my situation. I thought I had accepted it totally, but I still haven't. Until now, the fear is still there in my chest. I still can't believe it. "I'm serious, mom. I-I'm pregnant," my voice trembled and I couldn’t look at her straight. "Oh my God," she said covering her mouth. "Mom, I'm sorry.” I couldn't stop crying. Seeing their reactions made me guilty. It made me rethink my rash decisions in the past. If only I had been more rational in handling my own emotions, maybe this wouldn'
Mad I can't help but let out soft moans when his tongue delved deeper into my wetness. I can't even keep my head still because of the intense sensation I feel. He held both my thighs hard and wide apart as he continued sucking me down there. I whimpered in pleasure when his movements went faster, not letting me hold on to the thin line of sanity left in me. I can hardly recognize my own voice in the dizzying feeling he gives me. He looked up to me with longing and desire, lust and passion altogether written on his face. I'm quite sure my expressions reflected his. I got even more excited when he freed himself. My flesh pulsated again thinking he was going to bury it inside me, filling me to the brim... I woke up violently and combed my hair gently with my fingers. Beads of sweat formed on my forehead. It was all a dream. Of all the things I can dream of, why is that? I closed my legs and shut my eyes tight. Catching my breath, I went back to lie down and tried to go back to sleep.
Callar It took me a while before finally I realized what he said. I immediately felt a strange feeling in my chest. I should be afraid now that he already knew I fled. But to hear that he's looking for me excites me for some reason. I tilted my head to brush off the thought. I should be worried he'd find out where I am and eventually he'll learn my secret. If only I can, I will carry this secret with me forever. Bailey's rants went on and on and I just let it go. Soon he will get tired of his litanies. "I'm sorry. I don't plan on telling you where I'm going. This isn't just a small thing Bailey. I am pregnant with his child. What happened that night was a mistake between the two of us. I know he thinks the same. I don't want my child to face rejection the moment he's born." "Fine, I understand that. It happened already, there's nothing we can do. But are you sure he won't hold you responsible if he finds out? Because from what I can see, he desperately wanted to see you." My hear
MarryI thought giving birth was the most painful and the hardest. It didn't occur to me that something way bigger and harder was waiting for me when I was raising my son all by myself.There were times when I didn't know what to do and I would just cry. Every time he would suddenly cry without knowing why and I couldn't do anything but panic.The sleepless nights and anxiety that I feel every night as I watch him sleep, it was all overwhelming. How my life changed in just a blink.I always wonder if I would ever be a good mother to him. I wonder if I could provide all the love that he needs enough for him not to look for attention from others. Because I don't think I would ever be ready to face his questions if the time comes."You think I could handle everything alone, Manang?"I slowly put down the coffee I was drinking and stared at the scene outside. The cold breeze kissed my skin softly, leaving a chilling sensation in my bones. The city lights illuminated the streets and the bu
ShadowMy mind completely went blank after what I heard. My mother continued sobbing frantically which made me shake in panic even more. I couldn't make it to the resort and hurried home."M-Mom, please c-calm down. Tell me what happened," I asked with trembling hands.I roamed my eyes around to look for a cab. But the highway is very quiet and not even a single taxi passes by!"He dealt with a problem in the company. He was stressed out by it. And I caught him unconscious in his office. It was a good thing the ambulance came here quickly. I-I don't know what to do, Cianna...”I slapped my forehead while listening to my mother's trembling voice. Oh God! I hope my father's fine! Because I can't forgive myself if something bad happens.He was always desperate in telling me to go home and help with the company. And here I am being selfish and can't even give in to him. Goodness! What am I gonna do?"Mommy, calm down, please. Callar and I will go home now," I said with my eyes closed.Of
Cold "He saw what?!" The loudness of Bailey's voice nearly deafened me the next day he visited the mansion. He got so excited I went home that he immediately declared he would visit. I don’t dare stop him too since he has been wanting to see Callar in person for a long time. He was too busy with his talents he had so he was unable to visit Australia. I just nodded at him. I'm still so terrified by what happened. Fortunately, my son's eyes were sleepy so I immediately turned his attention to something else. Even my parents were dumbfounded. All of us were frozen by my son's question. I even hid that magazine after I tucked him into bed. "Oh my god! Really?" I rolled my eyes at his repeated questions. "Can you lower your voice? My son might hear you," I scolded. I took a glance at Callar who is busy with his books and toys as usual. He seemed oblivious to Bailey's loudness so I was reassured. But as I look at his serious face focusing on what he's doing, all I see is Santi. I clos
Together"Are you coming later?"I looked up to see Xander's smiling face. It looks welcoming. Most of my classmates that year would either make fun of me or ignore me. I don't mind either of those. I'm used to it. That's why it's refreshing to have someone approach me to make friends."I have some things to do at the farm," I said while arranging my things."I'll let Grandma Gracia know. Mommy baked cookies for us. Cianna's coming, too." He smiled."Who is that?" I asked brows furrowed. We don't have any schoolmates with that name."Family friend. They just moved here."I couldn't do anything when Xander came to my house to get permission from my grandmother. She also agreed with joy. Even though I don't tell her, I know she hears from school that other kids make fun of me. That's why she was so ha
PregnantI calmed myself while waiting quietly in the visitors' area of the correctional. I don't know what has gotten into me for coming here. I didn't bother to find out about the progress of the police investigation because the only thing that matters to me is that my son is safe and that the perpetrator is punished. My son is too young to experience such things. And the hardship and pain I felt as a mother were doubled.It took me a ton of courage to come here and see Ivory. I don't know why I'm doing this but I felt like I had to do this to move on.I looked up when the door opened and two female police officers entered, holding the handcuffed Ivory in both arms. She looked wasted and her sunken eyes are out of focus. Her pale lips rose for a sarcastic smirk when she saw me. After a while, she laughed a little."Who do I owe the honor of having you here?
Wait"What the hell are you doing?"I got out of the car in the middle of the rain without second thoughts. Even I couldn't understand myself and rushed to attend to him. My heart skipped a beat when he turned to me with a grim expression. His head and face were wet."You weren't inside," he murmured to himself.Just in time, the gate opened and some of the bodyguards came out with umbrellas and towels. I turned to Santi again and he still has the same expression. His jaw clenched and he looked away in anger."Let's go inside," I murmured after getting the towels from the bodyguards.The cold wind blew and my body shivered slightly. I jolted when I felt his arms wrapped around me as we walked to the mansion door.Mom and Dad were waiting in the living room when we entered. They were both surprised t
SoakedI have always wondered how all of it went wrong. We were happy and I thought it was something that would last. It never occurred to me that I could lose everything in an instant. My son is my everything. I can lose other things besides him.The sound of the gunshot still lingered in my ears until now. I heard commotions as I closed my eyes. When I woke up again, I was even more shocked by what I saw. Hugging me and my son, and shielding us from the shot, was Lance."L-Lance," my voice trembled and my eyes heavy. I tried to look at him properly.He just smiled lightly and then coughed up blood. I wanted to scream but I couldn't open my mouth. My tears just kept flowing tirelessly. He fell on the ground then the commotion around became more evident. The last thing I saw was Ivory lying on the ground being restrained by some uniformed men.
GuiltI took a few deep breaths to calm myself down. I was still shaking while holding the steering wheel. This is not the time to panic, I scolded my mind. It's more important that I get my son safely away from Ivory.I kept looking at the location Ivory gave me until I got out of the city. For several hours I crossed the narrow road with almost no houses around. It's afternoon, so darkness is slowly eating the surroundings.A few more minutes and I reached a dead end. My car won't fit if I force myself to enter the forest. I dialed Ivory's number and she answered it after a few rings."I'm at a dead end," I said immediately. I gritted my teeth as the seething anger enveloped me."There is a narrow road on the side where you are. Go through it. In the end, you will see a small hut."I roamed my eyes to look for the way
SaveMy whole body trembled and my eyes lose focus. Santi caught up to me and held my shoulders."What's happening?" He asked worry is etched in his voice. I, on the other hand, couldn't stop looking everywhere to find my son."Callar... The teacher said our son is waiting at the gate…"My chest throbbed so badly while I looked for the guard. No one is inside the post and he couldn't be found anywhere. No more students are coming out from inside and the surroundings are quiet."Let's ask the teacher once again. Maybe they sent him back because we haven't arrived yet," he said and pulled me inside.We caught up with the teacher inside the classroom who arranging her things. I roamed my eyes around but no one else was there. My chest throbbed louder. It wasn't even five minutes since the teacher called to say my so
DreamI know we have to talk things out. And here I am being stubborn again because I'm clouded with so many doubts and insecurities. Maybe he has a plan to tell me and he's just looking for a good time. Or he's hoping the issue would die down on its own so he doesn't think he had to tell me anything about it.Well, that frustrates me even more. Even more so, Ivory points to me as the reason why Santi chose not to continue with that project.And damn, I know he wanted it so bad. He worked so hard for it. I know, more than anyone, how hard it is to give up on the things I love because of other things as well. And if the thing that stops him is us, how did he expect me to react? Of course, I'd be mad! As much as I want to keep him with us, I can't just do that. And what hurts, even more, is he doesn't even share with me his dreams, his goals, his plans. I know nothing at all.
Selfish"Leave him."If she hadn't been staring at me seriously while saying those words, I would have thought she was joking. I wanted so bad to laugh at her right now. She looked helpless and a hopeless desperate bitch."Stop spewing nonsense, Ivory," I said firmly."Do you think I'm just fooling around, Cianna? Or am I just saying all of these things because of how I feel for Santi? You're wrong. Can't you see you're pulling him down?"My eyes narrowed at what she said. What the hell? What did I do to pull Santi down?"Will you please snap out of it, Ivory? If you don't have anything sensible to say, don't talk to me. You're just wasting my time," I said and turned my back on her.Just when I was about to take a step, she spoke again."You don't know anything. Or is it becaus
WantI don't know how to feel about what Jacob said. My chest throbbed with a familiar pain."Maybe they're talking about work?" I faked a smile. I tried to hide the tremor in my voice.Right. I shouldn't jump to conclusions. But no matter how hard I try, I can't stop my brain. I almost didn't even hear the loud music."Maybe," he shrugged. "Anyway, let's just enjoy the night," he grinned and gently pulled me again to dance.Before I could even refuse, a pair of hands grabbed my arm from behind. I felt Santi's familiar hold that I automatically turned to him. His eyes were dark staring at Jacob's hand that was still holding mine."Santi," I called his name in protest.He turned to me, jaw clenched so hard."Sorry dude," Jacob apologized, raising both his hands.I was about to say something when I noticed someone chasing after Santi. She stopped walking when our eyes met.Ivory looked at Santi's back in a forlorn way. My anger grew even more when it was proven that what Jacob said was