Chapter 30

Marry

I thought giving birth was the most painful and the hardest. It didn't occur to me that something way bigger and harder was waiting for me when I was raising my son all by myself.

There were times when I didn't know what to do and I would just cry. Every time he would suddenly cry without knowing why and I couldn't do anything but panic.

The sleepless nights and anxiety that I feel every night as I watch him sleep, it was all overwhelming. How my life changed in just a blink.

I always wonder if I would ever be a good mother to him. I wonder if I could provide all the love that he needs enough for him not to look for attention from others. Because I don't think I would ever be ready to face his questions if the time comes.

"You think I could handle everything alone, Manang?"

I slowly put down the coffee I was drinking and stared at the scene outside. The cold breeze kissed my skin softly, leaving a chilling sensation in my bones. The city lights illuminated the streets and the bu