CHAPTER 3

YESHA was quite as mute when she look at the window of the private plane that she was in, millions of scenario was knocking on half of her head wanted to enter-she keep pushing it away.

Yeah I right I should always thinks positives things!. The other side of her brain shouted.

She sighed multiple times to calm herself, she even did the 'inhale-exhale' exercise to calm her inner self that experiencing massive turnado.

Now that she was fleeing away from her husband's cruelty, would it be good? Or would it be disastrous?.

Did she did the right thing? Or she just make things worst?.

"Hija,". A soft voice makes Yesha's mind back to reality where she thinks a lot of questions. Questions that even her doesn't know the answer.

She inhale before giving the woman a tight smile, freda's face is calm and beautiful but her eyes is full of worries. "Sorry I was spacing again,ano po 'yon?". Magalang niyang sagot at pilit pinapasigla ang walabg buhay niyang boses.

She felt the woman hand hold her tightly. "I've been calling your name but you are spacing out,is there's something you wanna talk?".

Umiling siya. "I am okay po,I can handle it.".

"Nah-ah,now that we are moving out and you having a new start, why don't you open yourself to me?".

Napatitig siya sa ginang na nasa harapan niya. "It's okay po,I can handle things I just need time".

Tumango ito at ngumiti. "I won't force you,but you need to adjust tell me something you wanna talk to lessen the heaviness you are carrying,I am always willing to listen it's time to open yourself Hija,".

Anito at pinisil ang kamay niys bago binitawan napatitig siya sa kamay na nasa paanan niya muli.

"Call me if you need anything, don lang ako kay Tito Greg mo.". Ani nito ng makitang wala siyang balak magsalita tumango lang siya at sinundan ang ginang ng tumayo ito at lumapit sa asawa nitong busy sa pagbabasa ng magazines.

Yesha can't stop herself from questioning why this two are helping her?what would they possibly gain?is that because of guilt that her mother end her life inside the jail for not winning the case?or they have hidden agenda?but what for?.she lost everything and these two seems have the power,if it is not about the money then what?and why did she even trust this two?,Yesha shook her head it was stressing her to think why they help her!.

But she won't ask herself again!she wanted to start over and have a new life!away from her abusive husband!. Speaking of the which. Is he even thinking of me?.

Is he mad that I leave?

Or he was enjoying his self and celebrating because she was already away from him?.

She clenched her fist, she knows that no matter how Clyde hurt her she cannot hold grudges at him.

She keep telling herself that because of Clyde traumatic experience he became an evil.

That's why he was hurting her nonstop.

But Yesha's mind was intact before she leaves the country. "SHE WILL START OVER,FINISH THE DEGREE SHE WANTED AND SEEK FOR THE JUSTICE HER MOTHER DESERVE AND GET WHATEVER SHE HAVE AND WHATEVER HER MOMS HAVE." She promised that to herself and to the grave of her mother.

You will suffer as my mother did and when that day come, I will crush you until you will ask for mercy.

CLYDE was spacing out while holding a glass of martini in his left hand while the right one was holding a documents.

His head is in turmoil, he keep closing his eyes while processing the report he was holding. Fuck!can this get any worst!.

"I am certain and hundred percent about the report I handed you ,believe me or not that's the truth you are looking for,it's up to you if you believe it or not.".

His gaze dragged to the man infront of him who was sipping his own glass of alcohol. He was Raiven one of his friend.

Napapikit siya at nanghihinang napasandal sa kinauupuan niyang sofa na nasa loob ng private room ng TUAXON' MIDNIGHT BAR na pag-aari ng kaibigan niya.

He was holding his glass with so much force and not realizing that the glass crack and it turned into pieces.

He was silent and clenching his fist. Fuck!.. shit!.

"Is this all you got?what about the real suspect?". He ask out of desperation!. He is going insane!.

Nakita niyang umiling ang kaharap. "As of now that's all I got, and I am telling you her mom is innocent,the evidences of her innocence was snatched before the final hearing and that's the thing I am currently working because you are pointing at wrong person!". Sagot nito at umiling.

"You and I know the truth,don't worry I wont tell a drop about this to those three lunatics,but bud now face the sequence of your action." Ani uli nito at tumayo. "I have to go, I will give you an update again if I'll found something.". Tinapik nito ang balikat niya bago tumayo at malalaki ang hakbang na lumabas ng kwartong kinaroroonan nila.

Malakas niyang naibato ang bote ng mga alak na nasa mesang nasa harapan niya!.

Fuck!he was mad at her for nothing!.

Nasasaktan niya ang babaeng mahal dahil sa galit niya na wala naman palang halaga!.

Paratang na hindi naman palang totoo!. Malakas niyang sinuntok ang mesang mamahalin na nasa harapan niya.

He didn't even blink after the unbearable pain enter in his vein!

Wala siyang pake kahit nabasak ang mesang babasagin.

Tumayo siya at malalaki ang hakbang na lumabas ng bar, mabilis siyang pumasok sa sasakyan at malakas na isinara ang pinto at halos paliparin niya ang sariling sasakyan para lang makarating sa mansion niya at makahingi ng tawad sa asawa niya.

As if she could forgive me.

The pain I gave her was unforgivable!.I raised my hand at her!. Fuck me for being so jerk and moron!.ahhhhhhh!.

It suffocated him, imagining and thinking those days he raised his hands at his wife,those scars,those marks,and those slapped.

He clenched his hands and punched his steering wheel!.

But whatever he will do it was too late!.

It will send him to mental hospital if his wife cannot forgive him!.

Halos hindi na dumadapo sa semento ang gulong ng sasakyan niya sa bilis ng takbo niya. Nang makapasok sa napalaking de remote na gate ng mansion niya agad niyang pinark sa solar ng bahay niya ang sasakyan at malalaki ang hakbang na binuksan niya ang pintuan ng bahay.

Emptiness and loneliness wrapped his outer and inner self.

Nagdadalawang isip siya kung tatawagan ang pangalan ng asawa.

But in the end he needed to see his wife.

"Yesha?!". He shouted and run to the maid's quarters room but it is empty.

"Yesha?!". He shouted again and open everyroom he saw but it was empty.

Shit!." Yesha?!". Malakas ang boses niya at halos marinig yon sa bawat sulok ng bahay.

He searched the whole place. His mind is blank he already searched everything.

He was about to go out to see if his wife was outside the garden when he remembered that he didn't go to his room.

Umangat ang tingin niya sa kwarto at malalaki ang hakbang na tinungo iyon ngunit isang tahimik na silid ang bumungad sa kaniya.

Nanghihinang napaupo siya sa king size bed na nasa loob ng kwarto niya.

The master bed room.

His chest tightened when he remembered how he treated his wife not knowing the truth.

No I need to find her, i don't care if I kneeled infront of her to forgive me I will do.

I am jerk!.

I don't deserve even a chance.

Clyde was about to leave when he saw a brown paper that has a red ribbon at the middle.

He frowned while staring at the envelope.

Out of the curiosity he lean picked the paper. He opened it and a letter flashed through his eyes.

Dear Clyde,

As of now, I was far away from you.

By the time you've read this message it means I quit, I cannot no longer accept the pain I am in Clyde. Clyde I was in pain but what can I do?I Can't prove my mother's innocence,don't worry by the day I've completed the things that will show and prove my mother's innocent I'll be back,please Clyde don't find me, oh silly of me you are not even worried.

But always take care honey,you are the husband I dream off,hoping someday you will see my worth. Alagan mo ang sarili mo mahal,mahal na mahal kita. Sana balang araw maging maayos din lahat,sana lang talaga Clyde.

Your wife,Yesha.

Clyde can't help it but wiped the tears running from his eyes down to his cheeks.

For the first time in his life time he teared.

Even his parents funeral he didn't blink but as he read the letter of Yesha tears started to run from his eyes.

Parang pinipiga at sinasaksak ng paulit-ulit ang puso niya habang paulit-ulit na binabasa ang sulat ng asawa.

I think I deserve this pain,

This is just a letter.

Pero yong sakit na binigay ko sa kaniya.

Nanghihinang napaupo siya sa kama habang hawak-hawak ang sulat. He is pain pero kapag naiisip niya ang sakit na ibinigay niya sa asawa parang gusto niyang saksakin ang sarili!.

"No,you can't leave me love, I hurted you but I am willing to kneeled myself everyday in front of you asking for forgiveness."

"Luluhod ako araw-araw habang humihingi ng tawad sa lahat ng nagawa ko".

"I promised that,hahayaan kita sa ngayon pero hahanapin kita pagka lipas ng limang taon pinapangako ko iyan.".

Naiyukom niya ang kamay. Clyde was lost.

CLYDE is messed, he was sleeping with lots of bottles. Mga bote nang alak na siyang naging kasangga niya sa bawat araw na lumipas.

He wiped the tears in his eyes before standing and he groaned when he felt unexplained pain in his head.

Kahit nahihilo tumayo siya at pasuray-suray na tinungo ang cellar niya bago humugot ng alak at doon at binuksan walang lingong nilagok niya ang alak sa mismong bote.

Natigil siya sa ginagawang pag inom ng bigla umikot ang paningin niya.

Kinocontrol niya ang sarili para hindi matumba ngunit hindi niya kaya, ramdam niya ang matinding sakit bago siya nawalan ng ulirat.

YESHA sighed it's been a years and nagsisimula na rin ang pasok niya sa kilalang skwelahan sa California she took lawyer.

Hindi niya alam kung saan at paano nakuha ng mag asawang frolin ang mga papeless niya ng hindi nalalaman ng asawa niya. 'Speaking of her husband,ni minsan ba hinanap siya nito?.

Ni minsan ba nasagi sa isip nito ang kalagayan niya?kung nasaan siya?anong ginagawa niya?maayos ba siya?.

Kasi siya sa bawat araw na lumipas simula ng umalis siya walang ibang laman ang isip niya kundi ang asawa kahit i*****k niya sa kukute niya na wala itong pakialam sa kaniya,hindi niya pa rin kayang kalimutan ito

Kumakain kaya ito ng maayos?.

Kilala niya ang asawa hindi ito sanay sa hindi lutong bahay.

Pumikit siya at inihilamos ang palad sa sariling mukha.

Hindi na niya dapat pang isipin ang asawa hindi naman naging maayos ang pagsasama nila.

"Yeah I should not think about him".

Umiling siya at kinalma ang sarili bago kinuha ang laptop at nagsimulang magbasa para sa report niyang gaganapin na sa makalawa.

She was in the middle of reading her topic when her phone rang.

It was Freda, agad niyang dinampot ang cellphone. "Hello po?".

"Hello,Hija?kumusta kana?kailan ang uwi mo?patapos na ba ang report mo?".

Hindi niya mapigilang ngumiti matapos marinig ang sunod-sunod na tanong ng ginang. "Ahm matatapos palang po and uuwi ako sa makawala,ayos naman ako rito and then patapos narin kami sa wakas.".

Narinig niya nakahinga ito ng maluwag. "Mabuti naman kung ganun hija,miss na miss kana kasi nila kanina pa ako kinukulit.".

Natawa siya ng mahina bago isinara ang laptop. "Pasensya na po kayo sa dalawang Iyan,medyo makulit po talaga".

Tumawa ng mahina ang ginang. "Nako,okay lang ang cucute nga ng dalawa eh nakatulog na sa kakakulit na makausap ka".

Napangiti siya habang naninikip ang dibdib niya gusto niya makita ang dalawa pero kailangan niyang tiisin dahil ilang buwan nalang matatapos na siya.

"Pasensya na po,pero malapit na po Tita,pasan bat makakasama kona rin sila,kayo".

"Take your time Hija,paggising ng dalawa ifafacetime ko ingat ka diyan Hija,see you soon.".

She smiled and then bid a goodbye.

Finally patapos na siya malapit na rin niyang makumpleto ang ebedensya.

Just wait mom, the justice we deserve we will be getting.