I shivered in cold when the water hit my skin coming from the shower. I chose not to turn on the heater to wake my blood by the cold water. I closed my eyes as I savored the pouring cold water on my body.
I'm getting ready to go to school. It was as if I were dead in my actions, lifeless. I can no longer understand how I feel. I'm confused. My memory replayed everything of what I saw yesterday. It was as if my heart pounded again when I remembered it.
Fear is what I felt at the time when Adeena held Auden’s hands. I'm afraid that maybe at that time, her words will come true. Because who am I in Auden's life? In the beginning there was nothing connecting the two of us while them...They loved each other.They used to be inlove with each other. There are promises for each other. They have dreams built together.Tears constantly dripping from my eyes mixed with water from the shower. I keep sobbing as tears continue to feI can't think of a reason why I deserve to feel this kind of pain. Why all people, it has to be me? All my life, all I wanted was to have a peaceful, happy and contented family. And I want to experience it with Auden. He was the only one I loved my whole life, no one else. With him, I experienced the thrill, the joy, and the hurt of this.Auden is the reason why I want to live longer. I wanted to be with him until his hair turned gray. I want to hold his hand when we are old. I want to be the one beside him through his ups and downs.I want to blame my heart because it loved someone I can't love back.My walks gradually slowed as I got away from them. I could feel my knees are shaking, as if I were a wet notes now because of my stupidity. I hugged myself as the wind blew which caused me goosebumps. My lips were trembling. I felt the large drops of rain touching my skin.&n
Auden's POV"Love! Look!" Adie excitedly call for me as she motioned her hands. She's always been cheerful every time she's with me, but this time, it's different. Her eyes weresparkling, she never been excited like this before.I left the book I was reading and then approached her. She's sitting on her study area whilefacing her laptop. I leaned down a bit to see what she is showing methat causes the flashing in her eyes. I can see in my peripheral vision that she's looking at me, probably reading my expression."Love! I got an offer! OMG! This is the best day ever!" she said happily, she wrapped herarm around my neck and then hugged me. She pulled herself awayimmediately and suddenly fell silent. I straightened up when he looked at me, his eyebrow was almost a line when it was so close. "Aren't you happy for me? I got an offer as a model in States, we should be
Kennedy's POVIt's passed two in the afternoon when I took a step out of my comfort zone, my room. I'm wearing a black cat printed loose shirt for my top and partnered it with denim shorts. I went downstairs. I even met my Daddy who was in the living area, playing with our cat, Stella. A little ball of fur. The babyofour family.My heart meltedby justlooking at them. I approached them. I picked up Stella and placed her in my arms. Daddy stood up to face me."Where are you going? Today is Sunday," Dad told me, observing me how by how I dressed today. He knows that I used to stay at home when there's no classes or it's weekend. Unless it's important. That's the reason he's wondering where I'm heading to."I'm going to visit, Cami, Dad. She didn't attend school for days." My voice couldn't hide the concern. I missed her and I feel the nee
"Mom, are you certain about this? Dad?" I inquired. They went through a lot because our company was relying on the wedding to happen. And now everything is messed up. Maybe I'm wrong as well. I aimed too high. My family and others were also impacted. Auden and I caused so much heartache that even my parents were affected."Yes, we do, sweetie. It hurts us to see you in that state. We'll make sure that man never gets too close to you "Mom said this as she tucked my stray strands of hair behind my ears. My chest thumped violently. I'm conflicted. I'm torn between wanting to leave him because he chose to be with her ex-girlfriend and not wanting to file for an annulment because I still love him. I'd like to express my displeasure with what Mommy just said."We sincerely apologize; this is our fault. You wouldn't have been so badly hurt if we hadn't reconciled you with that Silverio. If I had known this was going to happen from the start, I woul
His gaze was drawn to mine after he cast a glance at me. My spine shivered as a result of his cold stare."Why are you wearing such revealing clothing?" he inquired, his teeth greeted. He even cocked his brow. He didn't alter his behavior. He is still conceited.I didn't close my mouth. I'm at a loss for words to respond to him."This is my body, so that it is none of your business what I wear," I told him bravely. That's all I had to say. That is correct. When else was he supposed to please me? His eyes narrowed and his mouth clenched. His fists were balled up. What exactly is his issue? Adeena's outfit is more revealing than mine. To be honest, I was wearing nothing in comparison to Adeena's outfit. She even exposes almost all of her skin. Why isn't he there to express his concern!?"Excuse me," I said as I was about to pass through him. Hesuddenlyyanked off his hoodie and handed it to
The only lights that illuminate the road are those from cars, street lights, and moonlight. Because it is only after seven o'clock in the evening, the businesses are still open. The cold gusts of air from Dash's car's air conditioning made me shiver even more. Something is also stuck in my throat. I'm tempted to cry. I want to let go of the burden of how I feel.I had no idea Dash's cousin was my husband's ex-girlfriend, proving how small the world is. I hadn't seen him in a long time, so I left quickly.In this battle, I feel like I'm the loser. It's only now that I realize I'm envious of Adeena. She was victorious.The agony of feeling as if you didn't have a say. Ihave all of myrights, but Istill lose. Every time I remember we were only married on paper, I get a big slap in the face. So that's how simple it is to nullify our agreement. He didn't even think about our parents... I'm in the same boat. A
"Forgiving people in silence and never speaking to them again is a form of self care." - poetsglobe.While scrolling through my Instagram feed, I came across this post. Okay, fine. Maybe it's best if I just stay quiet and find peace on my own. You will be dissatisfied if the enjoyment you seek comes from others. True enjoyment is having peace of mind and being content even without the assistance of others.I promise myself that even if it's just me, I'll have fun. Even if I'm only carrying myself. I'm going to rebuild myself. I'm going to get up and start over. Maybe it's time to let go of the people who have just hurt me.I was happy without him, and I'm confident I can do it now.Cami, you can do it. It's difficult, but you can and must deal with it.For a few moments, the ride became awkward. This is because ofwhat Dashtold me last time. I don't want to make assumptions any
I've always wanted to slow time down. I want to appreciate every second, minute, and hour of my life. I want to live a longer life. I'm not sure I believe what my doctor told us. I refuse to accept the fact that I only have a short time left to live. That is something I despise. But I still want to give my all. I wantall the best. That's how valuable time is to me.But during these times, I want to finish quickly and make the most of every second. I was in pain every minute. Choking and breathing difficulties Why isn't the ferris wheel spinning faster? I must be a moron if I ask for it to roll faster. I'm desperate for this to be over. I don't want to because it is already in pain. Their sweet gestures take my breath away.It seemed to take away all the enjoyment I had previously felt when I hadn't even seen them. I'm content. Even if only for a few hours, I was content. But why is fate betraying me yet again?We w
Lush leaves from the big tree serve as shade for Cami and Auden in the park. Cool and fresh breeze accompanies their singing hearts.Cami couldn't take her eyes off Auden's gentle face. She looks at him the way she looks at the sunset. Sunset is her favorite part of the day and Auden is her favorite person."Do you feel bored? Do you want to go home?" Auden asked Cami as she noticed her husband's silence. He put his hand in his wife's hair and combed it."I don't want to, I enjoy the view here, I want to savor every second and every minute looking at it," Cami said meaningfully while smiling. She is currently lying down and resting her head on Auden's thighs. She has a big belly and will only have a few days to wait for t
"I said where am I and you... Who are you?"I blinked a few times as I swallowed what was really going on. Tears start to trickle down my cheeks. It felt like my heart was being stabbed continuously. Gradually it is crushed.Why doesn't he remember me?I stood up and turned around because I could no longer. My chest tightens. I cried but I kept from making a noise. I quickly turned to face Auden as he pulled my arm.Suddenly the tears stopped flowing when I saw him laughing. "I was just kidding my wife. Come here, you called but I grabbed my hand and hit him."I though
"Please! Do everything you can! Please save him!" I pleaded with the nurses as Auden lay on the stretcher and headed to the emergency room. He's showering with blood. The shirt he was wearing was almost red and no longer white. I don’t know where he was hit, I don’t know if it was critical. All I knew was I was scared.I do not want to. I'm scared.Only now have I felt this fear again. Fear of losing an important person in life. I just want to take over there. I just wish. For me, isn't that bullet? Why does it always have to be Auden? Why not just me?I ran following the nurses until one of them blocked me when we got to the emergency room. "You're only up to here, Ma'am. It's forbidden to go inside," he said
Each of every second and every minute counts. The wedding will begin in ten minutes. My hands were shaking, cold yet sweaty with nervousness as if it hadn’t been once we were married. Almost everyone was waiting at church while I was still here at my Mommy's house, our house. I wanted to strike and pull my heart out because of the sheer force of its beating. Quiet, please. Auden might hear you later, embarrassing! I'm so stupid, talking to myself.I lifted my gaze in front of the mirror. A beautiful woman was standing in front of the mirror, facing me. A white, dazzling, diamond-covered, trumpet style gown made me in love with myself. Shez! Is it really me?This is not the wedding gown I wore then, that is way too simple compared to this one. We prepared everything better for this weddi
CAMI'S POV"Calm down, Cams," Kenny said as he nuzzled my back to calm me down. He sat next to me here in our living area. He took my hand and suppressed the shiver. "I really hope that Adeena witch gets caught, she has done nothing but disturb you!""I hope so too, Kenny. I hope he catches up so I can calm down. We have been married for a few days but this is still happening," I told her sadly. I sighed.Kenny is here at our house to accompany me. Auden doesn’t want to leave me alone, especially now that Adeena is just around and there seems to be a threat to us. Auden went to the police station because Adeena was about to be arrested by them. I kept praying that he would be imprisoned.
"Oh fuck!"I heard that and I know it was Auden. It was followed by the sharp and loud sounds of shoes hitting the floor and approaching me but I remained bent over and focused on my stomach.I don't feel pain.I don't feel anything.I kept my eyes staring at the blood stain in my dress and I froze with fear. I held it and immediately the missing red liquid was placed and clung to my hands. I almost fainted when I looked at my hand wrapped in red liquid."Damn it, what happened!?" Auden asked hurriedly, there was also a hint of fear in his voice. When I turned to look
What should I wear? Hmm?I picked up the blue knee -length stripe and the pink plain drop waist dress from the bed. I applied it one by one to myself while facing the full body mirror to compare which one would suit me better. I can’t decide what I’m going to wear. I'm leaving now because I'm going to earn Kenny. It’s also been a long time since we last met."This one seems uncomfortable," I said to myself while holding the pink drop waist dress to my right. I shook. I turned my gaze to the blue stripe dress on my left. This one looks nice and comfortable. My skin color got even brighter with this dress. I like it but I need a second opinion.I went out of the room and there I saw Auden talking on the ph
The newly rising sun was faintly shining in the streets, bringing a chaotic activity in the morning. I couldn't help but have fun while watching and retaliating here on our veranda. I still haven’t done it because sometimes I repeat. It's not that easy even though I'm just doing the basics.I decided to finish and make a scarf for my baby. I wish I had worked hard to be the first to hug him. I want her to feel my love through this scarf. That whenever he sees it, he will remember me. That his mommy did that. And she will give it more importance than other things because I did it for her myself.Tears well up in my eyes because I can't help but get emotional every time I think that Auden and I are going to have a baby. The speed of time. My decision to go back to him was not wasted. Those dise
“No, please ... Not my baby. It's just me! ”I struggled to beg as my trembling hands clasped and tears continued to flow into my eyes. I feel like I am on the brink of death."You took Auden with me, do you think I will just let both of you be happy?" She laughed like crazy then shook her head as she slowly stepped towards my direction. “Fucking no! Maybe in your dream, yes. But I won’t let you enjoy the position that is supposed to be mine. You should also feel how miserable I am because of you! ”Adeena's teeth chattered as she was crushing and killing me in her gaze. Her eyes were dark.I grew colder as if icy w