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Only Regrets Chapter 54
After reaching the dorm room, I don't see Emily here. She might have gone somewhere. Thankfully, she isn't here. I want to be alone for a while. I need some time to process whatever is happening to me. Throwing my bag, phone, and the bouquet on the bed, as I try to sit, I wince. My lower back is aching badly. I've eaten outside; I can take pills now. I swallow the pills with water; and then, my eyes land on the bouquet again. Why did I not throw it somewhere? Why does it hurt me to hurt him? Do I have feelings for Ethan? “It's too early to consider it as love, but too late to consider it as nothing,” I murmur and pick up the bouquet again in my arms. It hurts me when I hurt you, Ethan. Why can't you just leave me alone? I am not ready to develop any deep, intense feelings for anyone. I don't know if you truly love me or not. Even if you do, I still don't want to be with you. I don't want any more drama. I know you are the same like your ex best friend, Aiden. I'll trust you, s
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As soon as I reach Aiden's apartment, I see the door is not locked; it's a bit open. How did he forget to lock the door today? Is he alright? Is there any thief in his home? Should I call the police? At least I should check first. I enter the apartment, taking slow steps. The apartment is filled with a haze of smoke, and the acrid smell of burnt tobacco lingering in the air. Empty bottles are scattered all over the floor, some tipped over, and liquid spilling out. Ashtrays are overflowing with cigarette butts, and there are crumpled packs of cigarettes laying around. Whole place looks like a mess. Did he drink and smoke the whole night? Obviously. Because I broke up with him. He slapped me. I can't tolerate abuse. And then, my gaze shifts to Aiden who's settled on the couch, holding a cigarette in one hand and a bottle of alcohol in another, his eyes glued to the flickering screen of the TV. My daily vlogs which I used to shoot only for Aiden—because he used to say he likes watch
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As Aiden's grip vanishes on my hair, my knees feel weak and give way, witnessing my long hair scattered on the floor. Tears roll down from my eyes as I collapse on the floor. “Now you are looking pretty…darling,” Aiden says, making my blood boil in fury. I grit my teeth. Settling at my feet again, I grip his jacket tightly. “Are you a monster or what? Do you not have any emotions, Aiden? What are you? How could you do that to me?” I scream aloud, my lower lip jutting out from my sobs. “I warned you I am a bad person. Why are you crying now? It was your decision to become my girlfriend. No one forced you Belle.” More tears stream down my face, as I realize he's right. Why am I asking him? It's my fault I chose him as my boyfriend. Obviously, it's my fault. “Why is it hurting you that I let Ethan fuck me? You are not my boyfriend anymore. We have broken up.” He pulls me closer to him, holding my arms and glaring into my eyes. “I told you there's no option to break up in our re
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Why is this idiot here? Lest Aiden will hurt him too. I can't see anything bad happening to Ethan because of me. Please go away from here, Ethan. Please! Ethan's jaw tenses as his gaze shifts to my inner thigh, his eyes blazing and chest heaving up and down in fury. I arch my body to see what he's staring at. And then, my jaw drops, witnessing a bruise on my inner thigh. “How dare you touch her, motherfucker?” Ethan's loud voice echoes across the whole place, as he settles at his feet and storms towards Aiden, who's struggling to sit up on the floor. My heart races with terror, anticipating the next outcome as Ethan grips Aiden's collar, pinning him to the floor and sitting above him; and then, he begins to shoot constant wild punches on his jaw, each punch landing with a sickening loud thud. My mouth drops open and my pulse quickens, feeling haunted by his wrath. “Sister-in-law…” Alex’s voice guards me off. I turn my face slightly, witnessing Alex, Colin, and Sam also in the apa
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Ethan is driving recklessly, fuming with rage. His grip is too tight on the steering wheel. His jaw is tightening as he increases the speed. His hands are imprinted with Aiden's blood. Feeling scared of his wrath, I grip the seat tightly. “Ethan, we'll be dead if you continue driving like this,” I say, breaking the ice between us. And then, without any warning, Ethan pulls the car over to the side of the road and stops. He parks the car, unbuckles his seat belt, and gets out of the car. Shutting the door with a yank, he walks around to me, and opens the car's door. My heart races as he unbuckles my seat belt too and pulls me out of the car. My pulse quickens and my breath hitches in my throat, as he shuts the door roughly, pinning me against the car door. “What do you think of yourself, Miss Dubois? Why did you go there? What were you thinking of doing? You wanted to patch up with him. Huh? How can you love a guy like him?” he growls, his chest heaving by taking rapid breaths.
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Forgetting about my so-called pride, I look into his eyes and pull him for a tight hug again, trying to seek comfort in his arms. “I never loved Aiden. I never did. I lied to you.” “Lied! Why?” he asks, pulling me away from him gently and locking his eyes with mine. “Because I wanted you to give up on me. I thought you would stop chasing me if I said this white lie.” “So…you never loved Aiden?” he asks, his voice barely audible, choking with emotions. “Never. I never loved him.” A tear escapes from his eyes down on his cheek, a little smile playing on his lips. “Come that again,” he insists. “I never loved Aiden.” “Again, Belle,” he insists, cupping my face and leaning on me. “I never loved Aiden,” I say, my heart racing as Ethan's nose brushes against mine, a cold shiver running down my spine. “Again,” he whispers against my lips. “I never loved…” I say, but get interrupted; my breath hitches in my throat as Ethan gives a quick soft peck on my lips. I glance up at his
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I was blushing all the way home—obviously because of Ethan. I don't know where destiny will take us, but these moments feel beautiful in which I'm with Ethan. I wanted to spend more time with him. I feel like a different person with him now. As I enter the dorm room, I see Emily using her phone in her bed. My jaw clenches as I recall the video of her making out with Aiden. She has been acting like a sweet friend all the time with me. “Did you ever meet Aiden, Emily?” I ask, to get her attention. She glances up at me, raising her brows. “What do you mean?” she asks, clenching her jaw. “You slept with Aiden,” I say, not wanting to play any game. I just need to hear this from her mouth now. “I have many other things to do. I don't have time for your nonsense,” she says, standing up from her bed and walking further to the door. As she opens the door, to step outside the room, I hold on her arm tightly, tightening my jaw and pulling her back. “You slept with Aiden. I know every
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“Belle, open your eyes,” Ethan's voice guards me off. I flinch and open my eyes quickly, my head still laying on Ethan's shoulder. I look here and there. We're still in the car. “Did I sleep?” I ask, turning my face slightly to Ethan. He flashes a warm smile and nods. “Yes, you did,” he retorts. “I'm sorry. I didn't mean to. I felt so safe and comfortable. That's why.” “It's my pleasure, Belle. That you felt safe and comfortable with me,” he says, tucking a strand of my hair behind my ear. Whenever he does it, my heart flutters badly. As soon as we reach the venue, the driver pulls the car to the side and stops it. Stepping out of the car, he opens the car's door for Ethan. Ethan walks around to my side, and opens the car's door for me, giving me his hand. I sigh and hold his hand tightly, stepping out of the car. Ethan helps me adjust my dress and hair. How cute he is! I grasp his arm gently, and we both walk further in. The venue is elegantly decorated with twinkling f
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I push open the heavy wooden doors of the church, the familiar creak echoing softly through the quiet space. I walk down the aisle, my footsteps muted by the worn carpet, and make my way to my usual spot—a solitary pew in the corner.The church is dimly lit, shimmering with a soft glow from the candles flickering by the altar. I sit down, feeling the weight of my heart pressing heavily on my chest. I bow my head, folding my hands in my lap, and let out a shuddering breath."God, it’s me again," I whisper, my voice trembling with emotion. "I’m not sure how to start this conversation. I don’t even know where to begin."I close my eyes, trying to steady my racing thoughts. Ethan’s face flashes in my mind, and my tears begin to fall, tracing hot lines down my cheeks."I don’t understand why things had to end this way. I wanted so much more. I thought we had a chance, a real chance to be happy together."I take a deep breath, trying to calm the storm inside me."He said he loved me, but I
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As he kisses and touches me, his hands roam possessively over my body. I gasp, feeling overwhelmed and exposed.“Ethan, it's enough,” I whisper against his lips.“No, it's not. I want more of you, sweetheart,” he whispers, his voice raw with desire. "What if someone enters and sees me like this?" I ask, my voice trembling with a mix of fear and desire. “I don't want anyone else seeing me in this semi nude form.”“You’re mine, Belle,” he murmurs, his voice low and possessive. “Every part of you is mine, and only mine. If anyone else dares to see what’s meant for me alone, I’ll make sure they regret it.”He looks at me with a fierce, possessive glare. "If anyone dares to see you like this," he growls, his voice dripping with intensity, "I'II make that person blind. No one can dare to take a glimpse of your naked form until I'm breathing. No one means no one.”Hearing Ethan's words, my heart pounds in my chest. The intensity in his voice, the fierce protectiveness in his eyes—it sends a
