Chapter 54

After reaching the dorm room, I don't see Emily here. She might have gone somewhere. Thankfully, she isn't here. I want to be alone for a while. I need some time to process whatever is happening to me.

Throwing my bag, phone, and the bouquet on the bed, as I try to sit, I wince. My lower back is aching badly. I've eaten outside; I can take pills now. I swallow the pills with water; and then, my eyes land on the bouquet again.

Why did I not throw it somewhere? Why does it hurt me to hurt him? Do I have feelings for Ethan?

“It's too early to consider it as love, but too late to consider it as nothing,” I murmur to myself, as I pick up the bouquet again in my arms, my tears trickle down from my eyes.

It hurts me when I hurt you, Ethan. Why can't you just leave me alone? I am not ready to develop any deep, intense feelings for anyone.

I don't know if you truly love me or not. Even if you do, I still don't want to be with you. I don't want any more drama. I know you are the same like