Worthless

Rain’s POV.

“C'mon, Rain. You look good the way you’re.” Kylie, my best friend,  says behind me as she watches me pace the length of my room.

I take a moment to pause and swallow down the tension I feel rippling through my body.

“Are you sure, Kylie? I wanna look my best tonight.” I state while looking at her with uncertainty.

Kylie’s brunette hair cascading down her shoulders bounces as she lifts up her tea-length flowery swing dress and walks close to me.

She grabs my hand and pulls me in front of the mirror. My heart surges as I gaze at myself, watching the brown poodle skirt and Peter Pan shirt I’m wearing.

I look a bit odd despite knowing tonight’s school dance everyone is expected to dress like those in the 50s.

“I’m certain, Rain. You look just as perfect with your Marilyn Monroe hair. Trust me, Killan won’t resist your charm once he sees you tonight.”

Her small talk gives me hope and I huff, nodding my head. Killan, the king of our school Oakdale High and his father is one of the four leaders of our town, Oakdale, as well as my father.

My father is among the leaders and he has only me and my sister, Nadia.

Nadia and I never get along. She’s my dad's favorite while I’m the despised daughter. 

However, I got the best thing every girl in school ever wanted and that’s Killan.

We’ve been dating for a year since his return to town.

I love him so much that I’ve decided our bonds as lovers will be magnified tonight once I offer him my virginity.

Being one of the rulers’ son adds to Killian’s influence in the school aside from the fact that he's the leader of the school’s football team.

“Okay. Let’s go…” I mutter to Kylie and a smile cloud her face as we walk out of my room.

My chauffeur, Mr. Clint is already downstairs waiting for me.

While Nadia drives the best of cars and has a handful of bodyguards, I don’t.

My father managed to offer me this Sedan just so the town’s people wouldn’t know about his dedicated hatred for me.

“Why do you seem so nervous tonight, Rain? I’ve never seen you this way before.” Kylie questions me with an intensive quizzical look when we settle in the cab.

I had intended on just keeping what I’m about to do tonight a secret but I can’t anymore. Not when Kylie is giving me that grilling look that screams, ‘What do you have up your sleeve, girl?’

With a huff, I tell my friend. “I plan on having my first sex with Killan tonight.”

“Omigod, Rain!!!” Kylie splutters with a low, surprised laugh. “You’ve finally decided to give sex a trial? Aww, friend, I’m so proud of you.”

The crying face she makes urges me to laugh. For ages now, Kylie had been advising me to try having sex.

She literally tells me endless tales about her past relationships and sex life. Kylie, being different from me, has dated about six guys in Oakdale High, and has had a secret affair with her father’s adoptive brother.

Well, they’re practically still having the affair, and I always wonder what it’ll feel like to have sex.

I guess, there’s seriously no need to waste time. I’ve to try it out tonight.

“Yes, Kylie. I love Killan, so I think it’s high time we both feel each other’s bodies.”

“That's simply perfect!” Hoots Kylie. She’s about to throw in more words when her phone rings and it turns out her father’s adoptive brother is the one calling.

I drown out the giggles of ecstasy Kylie makes as she blushes while answering the call and decides to text Killan.

I just wanna let him know I’m almost at the school and that I have a surprise for him.

“Hey, babe. Kylie and I are almost at the school and…I have something to show you.”

I end the text with a love emoji. When I squirm on the car seat, I feel the g-string panties in wearing graze the crack of my ass.

I saved a ton of money from the little money my father gave me as an allowance to buy this sexy black lingerie I’m wearing inside.

I honestly can’t wait to see the shocked look on Killan’s face when I eventually bring him into the restroom tonight and remove the old school in wearing.

Though I’m not within reach of him, I can already feel my body humming with excitement at my first lovemaking with him.

It’s unlike Killan not to respond to my text quickly which makes me crease my brow in worry.

“What’s up? I hope you ain’t backing out from the plan?” Kylie asks me energetically as she cuts her call.

“Nope. Of course not. Look Killan and I have dated for one year. So, it’s worth trying it out now.”

“Good, girl. Good sex is life, trust me. I can’t wait to crawl back into Andrew's arms tonight my body is already feeling funny.”

We both laugh at her words while inwardly, I’m a burst of nerves.

“Seriously? Your parents haven’t caught the two of you doing…”

“Fucking?” Kylie intercepts me, finishing off. “Of course, Andrew is an expert in hiding things. Sometimes he'd even sneak into my room at night giving it to me without my parents knowing…”

“Eww, that’s risky.” I intone.

“Yeah, baby. The fact that it's risky makes it more hot. I kind of love the forbidden nature of our relationship. It adds spice to my attraction for him.”

Kylie ends the words with a wink and we go silent for the rest of the drive to school.

The moment the car stops, I alight from the car, exploding with anticipation.

The school ground is already brimming with students in their old-school attire. Their loud chatter rings through the air.

I hold the hem of my poodle skirt as I wait for Kylie to join me once she alights from the car.

Then we begin sauntering toward the hallway. Some students hang around the dark corners, kissing and pressing their bodies together.

A few of Killan’s football members hang around the bar, rocking girls, fondling whatever exposed flesh they can while also smoking.

Hell, tonight is gonna be a crazy one, I think to myself.

But then, I remember Killan still hasn’t responded to my text.

“You wait here, Rain. I’m gonna grab us some drinks.” Kylie says, prancing away.

But I know better. Liam, our school Lacrosse captain is standing under the lamp that leads toward the locker room, staring and waiting for Kylie.

Ugh! Kylie! I groan with a roll of my eyes as I watch her slink into the man’s arms, quickly pressing her lips to his.

When they’re out of sight, I start weaving through the bodies of the students on the school ground, searching for Killan.

Where the fuck is he? I bite my lower lip in frustration, almost drawing blood when I still don’t see him after twenty minutes of moving through the school ground.

My legs carry me to the schoolyard lit by the lamp and moonlight. Under the lights, I see two figures huddled over the stone chair.

The guy has his face between the girl’s legs and sloppy wet sounds ricochet into the air.

“Oh, no!” I snap under my breath, veering on my heels to give the couples space but I pause when I heard the familiar name bubbling from the girl’s mouth.

“Fuck, Killan! I’m gonna…fuck…squirt all over your damn face.”

My steps falter. My first thoughts are ‘It can’t be my Killan’ but hearing that baritone voice that usually sheds my skin with gooseflesh, the doubt clears completely.

“Damn it, Nadia! You know just how much I love it when you do that.”

Killan punctuates that statement by sending a wet slap over Nadia’s snatch.

Nadia!? My goddamn sister!

Staggering, the hand I clasped over my mouth was unable to smother the whimper leaving my lips.

“Oh, God!”

Tears blur my vision faster than I imagine as Killan and Nadia gasp, pulling apart from each other.

“Rain? Fuck, what are you doing here? You should be on the school ground with the rest!” He precisely barks with no hint of remorse on his face.

That worsens the ball of pain I feel as I dagger him with a disgusted look.

“I should be at the school ground so you can continue with your treacherous act!?”

Nadia scoffs at my words and that's when I manage to give her a hard look. The bullet bra she’s wearing over a mini leather skirt isn’t even covering her breasts.

“You…slut!” I bark at my sister who happens to be our school head girl and a fiery look crosses her eyes.

Nadia walks in fast stride towards me and hits me hard on the face like she always does.

“Bitch!” She hisses while I cup my burning cheek watching her. The dampness of my palm tells me Nadia’s ring cut through my skin, drawing blood.

 Killan doesn’t even attempt to step in for me.

He only watches with a proud smile on his face.

“You’re the slut! You became one when you thought you'd snatch Killan away from me.”

“You guys have been dating?” I gasp, throwing a bewildered look at Killan.

When he doesn’t speak, I know it’s true. So, that was the reason he wanted us to keep our relationship a secret?

I was fooled. My first-ever boyfriend fooled me.

Worse yet, Killan steps forward and slings his hand around Nadia’s wasp waist.

“Yeah, Nadia’s right. We've been lovers even before I returned back to Oakdale. I hate to say this but you were just a specimen. I wanted to confirm a theory regarding the rumors about you. You truly are not responsive to a man or woman’s touch.”

Omigod! Darkness falls into my vision at Killian’s words.

I was just a mere specimen? He never loved me but wanted to confirm the rumors about me?

“You heartless bastard!” I roar, marching toward him. Without thinking twice, I slap Killan hard on the face. “Rot in hell! The both of you.”

Echoing the pain I feel, I twirl on my heels and run off. Where I’m going I have no idea but only one thing rings through my mind as I race through the crowded, lousy school ground.

I am a specimen. Maybe my father was right all these years he told me I was worthless.