Chapter 3

Alana’s POV.

I paused immediately as I walked into the pack’s garden, hurt and irritation made me pause at the scene in front of me, the plan to clear my head in the garden, vanished immediately as I stared at Aurora and Nathan.

“I’ve missed you.” Aurora murmured, kissing Nathan.

“You saw me last night.” He replied, they kissed  like they needed each other to breathe.

I couldn’t take it anymore, everything that happened two days ago and right now was too unbearable for me.

I stared at Aurora and Nathan, and my wolf began pacing, getting more erratic with each second. The pain that came from the realization of what had happened to me started spreading through me again.

I tried to ignore the feeling of suffocation, as I looked away from Aurora and Nathan.

But it didn’t work, everything felt unbearable, like a million needles piercing through my heart, trying to get out of me. My breathing got deeper, but no matter how much I tried I could not calm down my wolf. 

The sensation grew more intense.

Finally, I gave up on staying strong.

I ran towards the direction of the woods. Away from them. Away from the pain they caused me.

“I can’t take this anymore.” I whispered softly in the woods.

“I need to leave this place.” I  added, louder this time.

I didn’t know where to go or which pack to run to, all I knew was the fact that I needed to leave, the pain I felt every second I remained here was too much for me. But how should I leave? What would be best for me?

What would make me feel better?

My wolf whimpered. It seemed so desperate, and I had never heard her sound like that before. This was her first time experiencing true panic and pain.

A sudden shift in energy caught my attention. As if something just happened outside of sight, something shifted inside of me too. 

A spark of anger ignited inside of me as I realized why that presence felt familiar to me. I clenched my jaw and inhaled deeply, trying to calm my wolf down.

“You need to stop whatever it is you’re doing.” Nathan’s voice suddenly snapped me out of my rage. He was standing right behind me, staring at me intently.

“What are you talking about?” I said, still looking straight ahead. My wolf wanted to escape from its confines, she paced frantically back and forth trying to break free, still angry with everything going on.

“The weird thing you’re doing.” He continued to stare, his expression unreadable. I couldn’t read him anymore.

“I don’t know what you’re talking about.” I turned slightly to look back at him, still trying to control the urge to lash out. I didn’t know what he was going on about.

“Excuse me.” I muttered and walked past him.

“Alana.” He called out after me. I didn’t want to be more embarrassed, I was on the verge of breaking down.

I increased my pace, suddenly racing back to the pack.

I couldn’t stop thinking about leaving, and I just knew it’ll be impossible without someone else to help, but I felt more determined.

“I see you’re here.” Aurora's voice interrupted me. She approached me, the stupid smirk on her face. She stopped in front of me, laughing for a few seconds.

“Where’s Nathan?” She asked.

“How would I know?” I  replied irritated, turning my back on her.

“Are you really going to talk to me like this?” She sounded annoyed now.

“Yes.” I answered shortly. “Leave me alone.” I tried to walk away, but her hand grabbed onto my arm and pulled me back roughly. I stumbled forward, trying to regain my balance.

“Don’t worry Alana. You’ll feel angrier soon.”

“What do you mean?” I finally regained my composure and looked at her curiously.

“She was right about you.” She added.

“Right about me? About what? What are you saying?” I furrowed my brow in confusion. 

Her words had me confused.

She raised an eyebrow, “I guess I needn’t explain it to you anymore, huh?”  

“I want to understand now.” I said.

“It doesn’t matter.” She shrugged.

“Of course it does!” I exclaimed. “You’ve really changed.” I  mumbled under my breath.

She scoffed, “So what?” Her attitude was very different now.

I couldn’t put my finger on what exactly made her change so quickly and why she was doing this to me, but there was a change, nevertheless.

We stood next to each other quietly for a few minutes.

“Isn’t this the wannabe Luna of the pack.” A voice made me turn. I sighed as I realized it was some pack members, my eyes narrowed and I knew they were going to trouble me.

“I’m sure she thought he’ll make her Luna.” Another chuckled, I sighed as I swallowed.

“How did you handle being friends with a weirdo?” Another asked Aurora.

“I wondered how good I was at pretending I liked her, I’m happy the Alpha finally cleaned his eyes and realized that she wasn’t fit to be his mate.” Aurora replied.

“How can you say that?” I demanded.

“I’m just telling the truth.” She replied, rolling her eyes.

I stood there listening to every insult they threw at me, the embarrassment I felt two days when Nathan rejected in front of all the pack members increased tenfold.

I clenched my fists, as I stared at her, the urge to swing at her and make her pay for the hurt she made me face right now.

“Alpha Nathan is here.” The one close to Aurora tapped her on the shoulder making her rush to Nathan.

She tiptoed and kissed him, my heart began beating so fast I was sure everyone around heard it beat.

I watched them kiss and walk away hand in hand, the laughter continued and I sighed, frustrated with everything going on.

My wolf became restless again, making my emotions all over the place.

I ran back inside the woods, trying to push out the suffocation I felt. I sat down under a large tree, the breeze calmed me down.

My wolf wasn’t calm, but it didn’t act as erratic as it didn’t minutes ago. I clenched my jaw angrily, planning my leave from the pack more than ever.

I thought of where to go, which pack will accept me without calling me a rogue.

I suddenly heard footsteps, I turned around ready to see Aurora and her minions bothering me.

A gasp left my throat as I stared at the figure standing before me. Fear gripped me as I wondered if he was a rogue or not.