ALINA I couldn't stop smiling. For the first time in my life, everything was finally falling into place. Xavier and I had been spending so much time together, and every moment with him felt like a fresh breath of air after years of suffocating. He made me feel alive, whole, and happy. I have never had anyone love me this way before. I believed Alex loved me once, but I did not know what love was supposed to feel like then. It was not painful and secretive. Xavier did not fail to show me off to everyone and love me openly. It was nothing like I had ever felt before. But there was this nagging feeling in the back of my mind. It had been bothering me for a long time and I needed to tell him. I needed to tell Xavier the truth— that I didn’t have a wolf. I had kept it from him for too long because I was afraid that he would look at me differently or, worse, walk away from me just like all of the other men in my life did. I didn’t want him to fall in love with a lie. He deserved to know
ALINA The next time I woke up, a dull ache throbbed behind my eyes. My head felt heavy, and my limbs were sluggish as if I were trying to move through water. I blinked, my vision clearing slowly, and realised that I was somewhere strange. My hand travelled up to my head and I pressed against it lightly. What the hell was going on? I tried to remember what happened the last time I was awake, and I immediately remembered. Kai was standing in front of me. He had punched Xavier and had made someone to make me unconscious. A wave of anger surged through me, making my chest tighten. I wanted to get out of this place, and I wanted to get out now.I felt something cool pressed against my forehead. I turned my head slightly and saw Kai sitting on the edge of the bed. I hadn’t even noticed him before. He was holding a cold towel, which I guessed he was using to press on my forehead. The fact that he thinks he can touch me after everything he has done makes me want to genuinely ask where he so
KAI I felt hollow. Like something inside me had been ripped out and replaced with a gaping void. I leaned back in my chair, staring at the amber liquid in my glass, my thoughts swirling inside of my confused head. Alina hates me. The realisation of that cut deeper than I expected. I knew that she was going to try and hurt me, but actually seeing her look at me like that with anger, betrayal, and disgust had nearly shattered me.I lifted the glass to my lips, taking a long swig, savouring the burn as it slid down my throat. I wanted to feel anything other than this pain. Fortunately, I had my old dear friend, alcohol, to help me with it. I slammed the glass down on the table, my grip tightening around it as if I could somehow crush the glass to let out the emptiness I felt deep inside of me. Nyx stirred within me, restless and agitated. ‘You pushed her away in the worst way possible,’ he growled, annoyed with me and my self-destructive habits that affected him more than it affected
ALINA I woke up feeling different. The calm ambiance of the place I had stayed in for the past three months was absent. I blinked up at the ceiling, trying to push through the fog in my mind. When I remembered the entire reason why I came here, I felt my heart sink. Kai had brought me here against my will.I rubbed my eyes as I stared up at the ceiling, unable to move. Why did he change his mind so suddenly? Just three months ago, he had slept with me and discarded me like I was some piece of garbage to him. Now he suddenly wants the best for me and wants me back? I couldn’t understand it, and the not-knowing gnawed at me. But I wasn’t going to waste another minute on his games. If I could count on one thing, it is that he had ulterior motives for bringing me here and I was not going to wait back until he got what he wanted. I wanted my life to be as far away from him as possible. I pushed the thoughts to the back of my mind and headed to the bathroom to wash up and get ready becau
ALINA I felt more numb than I ever have. It hurt when Kai rejected me, but I was able to move on past it because I did not trust him to not hurt me. I didn't even know him well then. But I knew Xavier. I did like him, and I believed he liked me too. It was the closest I had come to anyone trying to get to know me and fall in love with me, and now he had betrayed me. Maybe I was as unlovable as everyone thought I was. No one could ever see me for me and fall in love with that. "Alina!" Kai's voice called out through the trees. I closed my eyes, hissing when I remembered that he had seen me when I left the cabin in tears. I did not want to talk to anyone. I needed to get as far away from anyone as I could. I heard his voice again, and I ignored him. I got up to my feet and started to run, my feet pounding against the ground as I ran deeper into the woods. I heard his footsteps behind me, faster and getting closer to me. “Alina, stop!” he called out, his voice closer now, filled with
KAI Alina’s quiet sobs filled the car as we drove back to the palace. Each one pierced through me like a knife. I kept glancing over at her, my heart tightening with every tear that rolled down her cheeks. I wanted to reach out, to comfort her somehow, but I knew any touch from me would only make it worse. The guilt was a heavy weight in my chest. I had caused her so much pain, and now I was dragging her back into my world again.“Alina… please,” I tried, my voice barely above a whisper. I knew she wouldn’t want to hear anything I had to say, but I had to try. “I know this is hard, but I promise, it’s going to be okay.”She turned her face away, pressing her forehead against the window, like she had been since. She didn’t respond, didn’t even look at me. Her shoulders were trembling with each sob, and I felt completely helpless. “I’m sorry,” I muttered, though I wasn’t sure if she could even hear me. “I wished there was some way I could make you feel better.” I did not know if speak
ALINAI spent the next three days locked in my room. I heard several attempts multiple times the day of the people in the palace trying to get me to open the door, but I did not want to. I wanted to stay alone, to wallow in the pain, because thinking of interacting with someone when I was hurting this much sounded like hell to me. I didn’t eat or drink, and barely moved from the bed. I felt numb, hollow, like a shell of myself. Sometimes, I felt like I was just a soul in a vessel that I referred to as my body.I was too weak to stand up unless I wanted to use the toilet, which I eventually stopped going to because I was not ingesting anything. But today seemed to be the end and they have finally had enough of me isolating myself like this. I heard the door being unlocked, and the door creaked open. I heard soft footsteps approaching. I knew it was Kai. As he towered over me, I felt a familiar elective buzzing between us.“Alina,” he said quietly, his voice filled with concern. I didn’
KAI I almost did not believe the sight in front of me as Alina slumped down and lost her consciousness. I carried Alina in my arms as fast as I could, my heart hammering in my chest. Her skin was pale, and her breathing was shallow. I took her out of the room and rushed her down to the clinic. Fuck me… I should not have made her angry like that. I shouldn’t have upset her like that especially not when she had not eaten for three fucking days. I pushed through the doors of the pack clinic when I arrived, and the nurses quickly sprang into action, rushing over with a stretcher. I laid her down carefully, my chest closing in with fear. “We need to take her in right away,” one of the nurses said, her voice urgent. “You’ll have to wait outside, Alpha.”I nodded, swallowing hard. I didn’t want to leave her, but I knew I had no choice. I watched as they wheeled her away, disappearing down the hallway. The door swung shut, and I was left standing there, feeling utterly helpless. I paced ba
Four years laterALINA Years had passed, and life in the pack had settled in a way I had never imagined. As I stood in my bakery, gazing out the window and watching children run around, a warm smile played on my lips. It was one of those beautiful, crisp autumn mornings when the sunlight filtered through the trees, casting soft golden shadows across the cobblestones. My heart felt light, a rare but cherished feeling I’d come to treasure over time. My life had felt unreal for the past years. My two children, Kian and Liana, were heading off to school for the first time today. The thought made me emotional, but it also made me proud. Watching them grow up reminded me of just how far we’d come. With a sigh, I turned back to the bakery, smoothing my apron. The smell of freshly baked bread, warm spices, and sweet pastries filled the room. I had opened the bakery and bookshop a few years ago, not long after my children were born. It had quickly become one of the most beloved spots in the
ALINA It was my wedding day, and I was bursting with a mix of excitement and nerves. I sat in front of the mirror, my heart racing as my mother fluffed out the skirt of my dress, her hands gentle. I couldn’t believe this was finally happening. After everything Kai and I had been through, we were here, about to say our vows. It almost felt like a dream that I was going to be woken up from. I was so happy that it felt like there was an end to it. That I was just deluding myself by being happy. I glanced at my mother, her face calm and focused as she adjusted the veil atop my head.“You look beautiful, Alina,” she said, her eyes softening as she took a step back to admire me. Her voice was full of pride, and I could see a shimmer of emotion in her gaze. “You’re radiant.”I took a deep breath, feeling my nerves intensify. “Mom, I’m nervous,” I confessed, fidgeting with the lace on my dress. “What if something goes wrong?”She chuckled softly, placing a comforting hand on my shoulder. “Ev
KAI I did not know how I managed to make the witches come on my side, but I did. I knew that they were crucial in my plan of getting the skin walkers away from my pack, but I did not think they would come around in just one meeting. All of this really happened because of Alina’s mother. If she had not been around, I did not know if I was going to be able to get them but now I did and I was the happiest about it. I felt bad that I tried to sabotage her coming here in the first place. Since time had passed and I saw that there was a visible bad account of her being in the pack, I was grateful. Everyone found out that maybe witches were not that bad after all. We have been told the bad news about them all of the time by our parents, but maybe it was just because they hated them and they were trying to push that hate onto us too. Maybe that was the reason. Or maybe we have not yet seen the bad part of having witches around us, and I hoped that it was not going to happen any time soon.
Chapter 80ALINA The merging of the Seven Isles, the Waterstone Pack, and Blackstone Pack had finally come together smoothly, though it hadn’t been an easy process. Months of strategizing, deliberating, and forging alliances had brought Kai to this moment. It was the best three months of my life. Having my mother and Kai beside me through all of this was something I didn’t even know I deserved.I was so happy for the first time in my life. It felt like I did not even deserve everything that has been going on. The packs were now unified, and as a result, they were stronger against their common enemy—the skin walkers. The witches, with me have strategized the way we are going to kill them. My mother had been a good help. She had a lot of experience so she was helping all of us. She was a great teacher. Kai was glad that I had brought her back to life now, and so are the elders and lords. She had been great help. If she didn’t come back, then we would have all been dead by now. The ski
Chapter 79KAII was panicking. The entire night I spent pacing back and forth, replaying everything that had happened between Alina and me. The way her eyes had looked so hurt when I didn’t defend her, the way she stormed out with her mother—angry and disappointed. And now, she hadn’t come back. I gave her the night, thinking maybe she just needed some space, but when she didn’t return the next morning, panic surged through me.What did I even expect sending her out? Of course she wouldn’t be back trying to beg me to come back in the palace. That wasn’t the type of person she was. And it was all my damn fault. I couldn’t focus on anything else. I had a meeting scheduled with the new elders I appointed at the Black Water Pack, but my mind was elsewhere—on her. Even as I sluggishly got ready, everything felt out of sync. When I finally made my way into the meeting room, I could tell everyone was already waiting, but I couldn’t muster the energy to care. My thoughts were consumed by A
ALINA I couldn’t shake the feeling of betrayal gnawing at my heart as I walked away from the palace with my mother by my side. The sting of Kai’s rejection, the way he hadn’t backed me in front of Aunt Arya weighed heavy on my chest. I’d expected him to stand by me, to protect me like he always had, but instead, he chose fear over love.After all, I did. I risked my mother’s life and mine to save him from the skinwalkers. I was a newbie witch so I possibly could not do all of that. But my mother helped me siphon magic from some of the artifacts that contained magic. She told me that it could kill me, doing that, but I still went ahead to do it because I could not stand Kai getting hurt when there was something I could do about it. How he had driven me out of his house simply because of something he saw, not knowing that my mother was trying to wield back strength after what I went through while killing the white walkers. As we made our way through the winding streets, the evening ai
KAI A day had passed, but the events of yesterday still weighed heavily on my mind. Alina’s mother—brought back from the dead. The skin walkers. The power Alina wielded was undeniable but dangerous. Even with everything going on around me, I could not help but feel like it was all a dream, yet the growing unease I felt was very real. I knew I had to talk to someone about it, and Lily was the only one who could help me make sense of this chaos.When I found her in the meeting room, I didn’t waste any time. “Lily,” I began, running a hand through my hair, “something happened yesterday… something big.”She looked up from her notes, sensing the tension in my voice. “What happened? Is everything okay?”I shook my head, taking a seat across from her. “Alina brought her mother back from the dead using magic. Can you even believe it?”Lily’s eyes widened in disbelief. “What? How? I mean, I know she’s a witch, but… bringing someone back from the dead? That’s ancient, forbidden magic. If not
KAI Alina was gone for a few hours and I was growing more anxious by the second. She had left without a word of where she was going and the longer I searched, the more desperate I became. I took a team of guards with me, scouring the pack and the outskirts of the pack’s border.I had to find her. I couldn’t shake the feeling that something wasn’t right, that something was terribly wrong. The feeling had been there for a while. I knew people wanted to kill her. A lot of them, and the longer she was out the more chances there are that someone that hated her saw her and hurt her. I couldn’t handle the sinking feeling at my stomach. A while after we had searched all the possible places, I decided to go out of the pack with a few guards. I knew it was a death sentence. I was putting my guards and myself in danger, but I needed to find her. I hated that she was the reason I had to do all of this. I hated that she put me in a spot like this, to fight and put myself in impossible situations
KAI I woke up with a heavy weight on my chest, the reality of Alina’s situation pressing down on me. She was in danger, and the whispers in the pack court were growing louder. I couldn’t shake the fear that her name would be dragged through the mud simply because of her association with me. As I prepared for the day, I felt a determination building within me—I needed to clear her name.The next morning, I entered the pack court, and the atmosphere felt charged. Conversations hushed as I walked in, eyes following my every move. I could feel the weight of their judgment. When I took my seat, the court was soon filled with a mix of members, including farmers and lords. The first to speak was a farmer who looked distraught.“My daughter is dead!” he cried, his voice breaking with emotion. “She was taken from us by the skin walkers. We’ve lost too many of our kin. We can’t keep living like this!”My heart ached for him. “I’m sorry for your loss. We will take measures to protect our pack f