KAI I felt hollow. Like something inside me had been ripped out and replaced with a gaping void. I leaned back in my chair, staring at the amber liquid in my glass, my thoughts swirling inside of my confused head. Alina hates me. The realisation of that cut deeper than I expected. I knew that she was going to try and hurt me, but actually seeing her look at me like that with anger, betrayal, and disgust had nearly shattered me.I lifted the glass to my lips, taking a long swig, savouring the burn as it slid down my throat. I wanted to feel anything other than this pain. Fortunately, I had my old dear friend, alcohol, to help me with it. I slammed the glass down on the table, my grip tightening around it as if I could somehow crush the glass to let out the emptiness I felt deep inside of me. Nyx stirred within me, restless and agitated. ‘You pushed her away in the worst way possible,’ he growled, annoyed with me and my self-destructive habits that affected him more than it affected
ALINA I woke up feeling different. The calm ambiance of the place I had stayed in for the past three months was absent. I blinked up at the ceiling, trying to push through the fog in my mind. When I remembered the entire reason why I came here, I felt my heart sink. Kai had brought me here against my will.I rubbed my eyes as I stared up at the ceiling, unable to move. Why did he change his mind so suddenly? Just three months ago, he had slept with me and discarded me like I was some piece of garbage to him. Now he suddenly wants the best for me and wants me back? I couldn’t understand it, and the not-knowing gnawed at me. But I wasn’t going to waste another minute on his games. If I could count on one thing, it is that he had ulterior motives for bringing me here and I was not going to wait back until he got what he wanted. I wanted my life to be as far away from him as possible. I pushed the thoughts to the back of my mind and headed to the bathroom to wash up and get ready becau
ALINA I felt more numb than I ever have. It hurt when Kai rejected me, but I was able to move on past it because I did not trust him to not hurt me. I didn't even know him well then. But I knew Xavier. I did like him, and I believed he liked me too. It was the closest I had come to anyone trying to get to know me and fall in love with me, and now he had betrayed me. Maybe I was as unlovable as everyone thought I was. No one could ever see me for me and fall in love with that. "Alina!" Kai's voice called out through the trees. I closed my eyes, hissing when I remembered that he had seen me when I left the cabin in tears. I did not want to talk to anyone. I needed to get as far away from anyone as I could. I heard his voice again, and I ignored him. I got up to my feet and started to run, my feet pounding against the ground as I ran deeper into the woods. I heard his footsteps behind me, faster and getting closer to me. “Alina, stop!” he called out, his voice closer now, filled with
KAI Alina’s quiet sobs filled the car as we drove back to the palace. Each one pierced through me like a knife. I kept glancing over at her, my heart tightening with every tear that rolled down her cheeks. I wanted to reach out, to comfort her somehow, but I knew any touch from me would only make it worse. The guilt was a heavy weight in my chest. I had caused her so much pain, and now I was dragging her back into my world again.“Alina… please,” I tried, my voice barely above a whisper. I knew she wouldn’t want to hear anything I had to say, but I had to try. “I know this is hard, but I promise, it’s going to be okay.”She turned her face away, pressing her forehead against the window, like she had been since. She didn’t respond, didn’t even look at me. Her shoulders were trembling with each sob, and I felt completely helpless. “I’m sorry,” I muttered, though I wasn’t sure if she could even hear me. “I wished there was some way I could make you feel better.” I did not know if speak
ALINAI spent the next three days locked in my room. I heard several attempts multiple times the day of the people in the palace trying to get me to open the door, but I did not want to. I wanted to stay alone, to wallow in the pain, because thinking of interacting with someone when I was hurting this much sounded like hell to me. I didn’t eat or drink, and barely moved from the bed. I felt numb, hollow, like a shell of myself. Sometimes, I felt like I was just a soul in a vessel that I referred to as my body.I was too weak to stand up unless I wanted to use the toilet, which I eventually stopped going to because I was not ingesting anything. But today seemed to be the end and they have finally had enough of me isolating myself like this. I heard the door being unlocked, and the door creaked open. I heard soft footsteps approaching. I knew it was Kai. As he towered over me, I felt a familiar elective buzzing between us.“Alina,” he said quietly, his voice filled with concern. I didn’
KAI I almost did not believe the sight in front of me as Alina slumped down and lost her consciousness. I carried Alina in my arms as fast as I could, my heart hammering in my chest. Her skin was pale, and her breathing was shallow. I took her out of the room and rushed her down to the clinic. Fuck me… I should not have made her angry like that. I shouldn’t have upset her like that especially not when she had not eaten for three fucking days. I pushed through the doors of the pack clinic when I arrived, and the nurses quickly sprang into action, rushing over with a stretcher. I laid her down carefully, my chest closing in with fear. “We need to take her in right away,” one of the nurses said, her voice urgent. “You’ll have to wait outside, Alpha.”I nodded, swallowing hard. I didn’t want to leave her, but I knew I had no choice. I watched as they wheeled her away, disappearing down the hallway. The door swung shut, and I was left standing there, feeling utterly helpless. I paced ba
ALINA I woke up after a while with my body feeling heavy and sluggish. I blinked a few times, trying to focus on my surroundings. The room was dimly lit, and I felt the weight of something pulling on my arms. I looked down and saw that I was hooked up to several IV drips. I could even see a bag of blood hanging on one of the drips, and the other one was just clear liquid. I felt weak, my head throbbing with a dull ache. A wave of nausea rolled over me, and I swallowed hard, trying to keep it down. Everything felt wrong, my body felt too heavy and the energy felt too strange. I tried to sit up, but my arms felt like lead. I closed my eyes for a moment as I tried to regain myself back but nothing was working. My brain felt too sluggish and slow. In the end, I just kept my eyes shut. Suddenly, the door creaked open, and I heard footsteps. I turned my head slowly and saw Kai stepping into the room. My entire body tensed, my pulse quickening. He was carrying a bowl and the smell of savou
KAI Taking care of Alina became my priority. It was what I thought about when I woke up and when I went to sleep. She had taken up every one of my thoughts, and I did not know if I liked it. The risk of falling in love was one I never thought I would want to take. I was giving her my all, and she was prone to do whatever she wanted with the power. She could easily destroy me, which was why I knew I had to be careful. I could not let go of the main goal here, which is the throne of the Seven Isles. The lords and elders of the pack have been breathing down my neck, wanting to have a meeting with me. I have always told them I was busy but today, I knew I had to meet them. They were losing patience, and I felt too bad for making them wait this long for me to just speak to them. So after I woke up today and checked on Alina, who was sleeping peacefully in her room, I decided to talk to them. When I arrived at the conference room, I could hear chatter coming from the inside. They sounde