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2024-10-29 19:42:56Ouch.
Here’s a tip: do not sleep with a laptop on your head.
All that research took a lot out of me. I still don’t know exactly what I’m going to write about for that definitive and crucial personal essay.
Do I write about my accomplishments, my experiences, or my trauma?
Does nursing my best friend to health after drinking a dozen too many count?
Another tip for my health: don’t skip too many morning coffees at Saxby’s.
Sure, my archnemesis works there. Sure, she very well could poison my order. But I am brave, and I am strong.
I sneakily enter the doorway of the establishment. Clad in a sports bra and yoga pants, I’m prepared to book it if Sarah’s working today.
“Vanilla latte with some honey, please.”
The barista nods and starts making my order.
I take a seat at a secluded table and pull out a book that I borrowed the other day. I can finally relax and finis
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