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Chapter Six-The Present Day
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2022-04-29 02:55:48Chapter Six - Remy
Jane disappeared out into the night, leaving an entire room full of people speechless. Mrs. Johns said something beneath her breath and chased after her.
I wanted to follow her, but I knew Jane well enough to know she was already gone. Mrs. Johns walked back a few moments later shaking her head. "Y'all go ahead and finish eating. I guess the talk of Lucas was too much for her."
I felt like a dickhead for touching her.
Who was the selfish one now?
When I saw her standing in front of me after three years, I f
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