The past one week had been nothing, but dry and lifeless days. I had been going to a group therapy because mother forced me. I was plagued with nightmares and the world didn't feel safe anymore. I'd been more than depressed and I suffered a lot from PTSD.
Mother on the other hand had been busy with work and other things concerning Dad. Mother stayed in her room most of the time whenever she was home. His death had a great effect on her and It made me worried sick.
Walking to my room, I saw a glass cup on the table beside Mom's door. This triggered a memory, causing me to have shortness of breath. I plastered my back on the wall and sled down to the floor. My knees were drawn to my chest and my head was buried in them.
I could hear myself begging Mr Robert. I shivered and covered my ears.
"Make it stop." I cried with trembling lips.
It was like I was reliving that moment again. The moment I
"You're guessing I'm irresponsible right?" Mother picked the fork. " I came home drunk right?""Yeah." I said almost like a whisper. She said she only remembered waking up with a hangover. I assumed she had no memories of the way we talked last night."You miss dad right?" She chewed on the pancakes. "He would have been here if not for you. He would have made a better tasting pancake than this crap right here."My eyes turned glossy. She dropped the fork and I made a mental note never to cook again. I had always been a bad cook. Father was the better cook, mother cooked very good too.I gave her the picture she brought out of a tiny box for me yesterday."What?" She stood up swiftly. "What were you doing in my stuff?""Mom I wasn't-""Silent! Did I not teach you to stay out of people's belongings? ""You brought it out-""
Listen to just us by DJ Khalid featuring Sza for this chapter.Quickly, I dashed into my room with a broken heart and packed my bags. I was sick and rushed to the hospital for a test. The results confirmed I was pregnant and father opened the gates of hell in our house. My mother was disappointed in me and I hated myself for it. Mother pleaded with father, but he refused. "You're a disgrace! How can a sixteen year old be pregnant and that sixteen year old is my daughter, how?!" He bellowed, while mother held his chest, pleading to him that I was their only girl child. The clouds were crying on my behalf, wetting the ground and myself. It rained heavily. I had no where to go.A knock on my office door snapped me out of my trip to memory lane. I straightened my back and placed the locket in my bag. I he
Listen to I'll be there by Jess Glynn.I opened it and was welcomed by the lovely picture of myself and the only people that mattered to me in this world. I looked so huggable with round cheeks anyone would want to eat and pinch.Bonding with my mother felt like they just lifted half the weight that was on my shoulders. Mother did everything she was asked to do in the hospital. Mother arranged for me to have a therapist and I groaned when I heard this.Why did I have to attend those things?We left the hospital in mother's car. We listened to songs and this don't worry, be happy started playing on the radio. Mother increased the volume and sang."Don't worry, be happy." She nodded her head to the rhythm of the music. "Come on, sing with me." She looked at me and returned her eyes on the road."I don't know it." I lied.
Listen to way down we go by Kaleo.Those days when I thought life was all rainbow and sunshine. I believed in fairytales and hoped to get a prince charming in shining armor that'd marry me and take me to his Castle on his horse. Fake!"Night night." I turned to leave for my room."Nicky?" Damon stopped me. "I heard about your dad, I'm sorry I couldn't make it to his funeral because-""It's okay." I cut him off to avoid showing emotions I tried to hide and hastily went to my room.Damon left very early in the morning before my mother and his got up. I was at the passenger's seat in mother's car, on our way to the therapist."Damon is in town." I announced to her dryly."Really? How did you know?""He was at our house."She gave me a confused look like I was speaking some fo
Listen to all we ever wanted by Klas Wahlstedt and per blomqvist."We're going to start again," he said calmly. "How often do you meet your friends?""Not very often, I don't really have friends." I started. "I have just one friend.""Make that two." He showed off some teeth."Two?""Yes, Emmet." He turned to the next page of the book he was holding. "Is there anyone you feel understands you and is very close to you?This question reminded me of my dad, causing clouds of tears to fill my eyes. I leaned back against the chair and tried my possible best to fight the tears from falling.The sober reality that my dad was gone stung my heart and it made me nothing, but devastated.Father held out a lollipop and dangled it in the air for me
Listen to rise up by Beyonce."Thanks." I gave Emmet a tight lipped smile, which he returned with a nod and a happy expression.I made a mental note to call Mr Philip to say thank you later. What a very nice man. I must say his therapy sessions helped me a lot. I mean, I was no longer the sad sack I used to be. He taught me how to control my triggers and told me self blame was never the answer. He made me read a lot of books, watch movies, sleep more, visit Melanie and Damon whenever he was around, he made me do exercises and I also wrote a lot about my feelings.Opening up to him helped me a lot, it lifted the grand piano that used to weigh my body down. The fist time he asked me to do those stuffs, it felt like hard work, but look at me now."Have a safe flight." Emmet poked my arm.Emmet Asa, that was the name he said his mother gave to him. I think the Emmet name is cu
Listen to said I loved you but I lied by Michael Bolton"Sorry." His voice sent lightening down my spine and struck me stiff. I never talked to anyone except Damon and u wasn't the type that enjoyed making new friends.He towered over me and blocked the sun from making contact with my skin. He sallied forth and stretched out his hand to me, but I stiffened. I wasn't used to touching other people."C'mon," he said. "Let me help you up."He pulled me up and I noticed he was wearing the same tank top with me, but the color was Ash."Thank you." I dusted my butt and picked my Pringles up."What's up buddy?" Damon approached us and shook hands with Logan.
Listen to we all want love by Rihanna.Please, let this be a lie. I closed my eyes and touched my hair, Remembering how I was in a haste after my bath. I groaned."Sorry, I have to go." I walked away from him and glanced at my Hublot wristwatch. It was seven fifty, ten more minutes before biology."Wait up!" Logan yelled and jogged towards me. "What happened to your shoes?" He pointed to my feet and my eyes followed his finger.My face flushed with heat.My eyes widened in shock and all I wanted was for the ground to open up and swallow me. I covered my face with my hands and felt like crying.What was wrong with me? How did I not know I wasn't wearing shoes? I even drove without them and didn't feel it. I hit my head repeatedly with my hands."Hey, take it easy. Here." He placed a black golazo men slippers in my hands. "Y