My parents had always reminded me to be thankful for the new life God has given me every morning.
But I can’t seem to have the ability to thank God right now, because today is the day that I’ll be leaving my house to go to a new school—worse, it’s a boarding school for girls. Well, it’s nothing new here in the UK to find parents sending their kids off to some boarding school. It’s just that, I never expected my parents to do it to me, their only daughter! I have lived my life for 17 years just fine in a normal school with my awesome friends, but they just had to ruin all of it, just because the principal of that school where my mum studied, came and urged her to let me go study there too.
I had always been a fan of freedom and chaos. So a boarding school isn’t just my cup of tea.
It was no secret that Whistler High School for Girls is one of the top schools in our country. Most students who graduate there can easily pass in Cambridge University—the uni where my mum and dad met. Yes, I am living with parents who are both academically blessed. Sometimes I wonder if I’m truly their child, knowing that I’m one lazy girl who doesn’t even study.
“It’s time to go, sweetheart,” my mum told me as she carries my other bag with her left hand and the other is resting on my cheek. I let out a soft sigh as I watched her and dad carry my things to the car that was sent by the school to help me get there since it was quite far from our house.
“This is actually nice, knowing that our girl isn’t going to have boys who would try to court her while she’s away since she’s going to an all girls school,” my dad commented, making my mum shoulder him on his side. I just shook my head before facing them both.
“I’ll miss you both. And no dad, I’m not bringing any drilla anytime soon,” I told them and that’s when they pulled me for a hug. I closed my eyes as I felt how warm they were.
I’ll miss this. I’ll miss them. I’ll miss home.
“Time to go, darling,” mum reminded me, so I finally let go from the hug and went inside the car.
I waved at them one last time, as I try to memorize their faces in my head, knowing that I won’t be seeing them anytime soon once this vehicle starts moving.
I watch my mum's blonde hair and the way her eyes smile whenever she smiles too. My mum is really pretty, no wonder she was quite popular back in the days. She was almost perfect, not until she had me.
You see, my mom's white but she married an Asian who’s no other than my father. My father is a Chinese immigrant who was adopted by wealthy British people when he was a year old. He grew up here, and he’s really good looking too. No wonder my mum fell in love with him.
But many people would always ask my mum why she chose to marry my father. Some were clearly not a fan of who my mum decided to be her husband. They were all even saying that I’m pretty, if only I got my mum's blonde hair and if I wasn’t half Chinese.
I’m irritated every time I remember those conversations I had with some family friends whenever there’s a party. Maybe that’s why me and my friends were what we called ‘rebels', because this world is just too cruel. Sure, we had everything that others would want. But it’s just not enough, you know?
Sure, we have the wealth, the connections and the title. But some of my friends' parents aren’t really supportive and some are just always away. It was sad, and I’m just glad my parents aren’t entirely like that.
My father is the type who wouldn’t put his work first, he made sure to be there for me and my mum. And I’m glad they are my parents. They weren’t the type to show off, and act as if they’re better than most people just because they have money. I’m just happy they’re my parents.
I just hope I can make them happy by being their daughter. I heard from their friends that their kids my age have achieved so much in life, and I wanted that too.
I want to make my parents proud too. So despite not wanting to go far away from home, I still gave it a shot in hopes of making them happy.
“Ready to go, miss?” the driver asked, and I gave him a nod and so he started to drive. Drive away from what I call home.
The ride towards my new school was steady, but I could already feel boredom creeping in since from what I heard from my parents yesterday that it was a six hour drive. So, I just took my earpods and chose the right song to listen to while I try to make myself comfortable in my seat.
And not long after, I could feel my eyes already closing, and I tried to stay awake in order to see where we’re going, but that only made me drift to dreamland faster than I had intended.
I woke up to the sound of the car being parked. I thanked the driver for driving me here safely, and he just replied with a nod and a smile. Not wanting to stay any longer, I already got out of the car.
I saw that it was already past 6. It was already blue hour, the sky and the clouds had this blue hue that made the trees look like they were just silhouettes, it kind of reminds me of the movie 'twilight' because of the colour blue. And as I observed the place, I could feel my chest tightened once I saw the insides of the large gates of the school where I’ll be staying.
This is it. I thought to myself as I observed the place. I’m really staying here until I reach grade 13. Away from my parents, away from my friends, away from home.
I let out a deep sigh and tried to stop thinking about home. I need to be tough. I can’t let this feeling control me. I’m a strong girl, I can do this.
Not long after I went out, I was greeted by an old lady that I recognized as the principal of this school. And beside her was a girl who looked my age, she wasn’t looking at me so I didn’t get to see her face because she was looking at the principal.
“There she is! Welcome, Miss Kingstein!” the principal greeted, a smile on her lips as she watched me get closer to them.
“How was your ride?” she asked, and I only told her that it was tiring, and her once smiling face contorted into concern and worry. She clapped her hands like it was a signal and the girl beside her was fast enough to ask what she could do to help.
“I’ll be doing a small orientation for Miss Kingstein tomorrow morning. For now, please guide her to her room, President Amelia,” the principal told the girl that’s now looking at me with her eyes wide because of shock, and I’m sure I am masking her expression right this very moment. But the Principal doesn’t seem to take notice of our behaviour.
“Miss Kingstein, meet Amelia Williams. She is the school's student body President and has been constantly an A student. Amelia, meet Victoria Kingstein. The daughter of one of our school's student body presidents too, Isla Kingstein,” the principal happily introduced us to one another, and I gulped when Amelia extended her arm for a handshake. I did too and my heart felt like it would come out of my chest as I felt how warm her hands are. It was sort of like a deja vu, knowing that I had constant dreams of her ever since that day happened.
“Nice to meet you, Victoria,” she said, a polite smile on her face. I never really liked being called 'Victoria' at all, but it felt nice to hear her say my name. And her voice, goddamn! I wouldn’t mind hearing her talk all day.
“A pleasure to meet you too, Amelia,” I replied, masking a smile on my face because the principal is watching us. But deep down I can feel my insides going wild because of this encounter.
It was weird and crazy to meet the girl who I met last summer in a bar when me and my friends decided to be rebels. It was that night where I realized that maybe. . .
I’m not as straight as what my parents thought of me.
And all that confusion was because of a girl with blonde hair, deep dimples showing every time she’s laughing and those pair of blue eyes I wouldn’t hesitate to get lost in.
It was no other than her, Amelia Williams.
She was a straight A student, the president of the student body. So why on earth was she in that bar? Isn’t she supposed to be perfect, like what everybody says? I mean, I just didn’t expect her to be in that bar while still being the school model here, knowing all too well that this school doesn’t like their students going into bars, drinking, and smoking.
Whistler High School For Girls.
It was as beautiful as what I thought it would be. Even at night, it was beautiful. This school’s structure was like the ones where you saw Harry Potter and his friends go to school in. It screams wealth and it kind of intimidates me, knowing that I’ll be a new student here, especially since I'm half Chinese.
I’m not denying that indeed our family is well-off, we’re part of the high class families. But my parents don't like showing off, and have always been trying to make me feel like I’m not alone.
I’m kind of scared, because what if they see me as sort of a freak? I heard rumours of girls who go here and from what I heard, most of them are the typical good girls, the ones who are very independent and don't really have a room for imperfections. It was also because the school raised them to be like that, so I really couldn’t blame them. And it’s what most of the elite parents would want their daughters to be.
Smart and Independent.
Huh. Could never be me.
“Victoria.” I heard my guide call my name, as we made a stop in front of a white door.
“Stop calling me that,” I told her, trying to hide my frustration but failed miserably. I’m indeed frustrated from being called by that name.
“What do you want me to call you then?” she asked, and I could hear how tired she was just from the tone she used, so instead of continuing this topic I just told her to kindly open the door so that I can finally rest.
When we were finally inside, I was shocked to see two beds inside. Both are neat, but the one near the window looks like someone owns it. I ignored it, and tried to look around. It was also beautiful. There’s a chandelier in the middle, a flat screen TV and a maroon coloured sofa near the door, a bathroom and a mini kitchen, I even saw a mini refrigerator.
It was so pretty and it also reminded me of my room back home. I frowned at the thought. I shouldn’t think of home while I’m here, or else I’ll end up crying like the cry baby I am.
“Who sleeps in that bed? I wasn’t informed that I’ll be having a roommate,” I asked her as I plop down on my bed.
Amelia removed her hair tie, and I stopped myself from gaping when I saw how beautiful her blonde hair is and how she looks prettier with her down.
“I forgot to inform you, but I’m your roommate. Welcome to Whistler High, Victoria,” Amelia said nonchalantly before proceeding to take her bathrobe from a closet near her bed and entering the bathroom.
Bloody Hell!
Amelia Williams is my roommate! How am I supposed to react to this shocking information? And she’s a girl, so it’s alright to have her as my roommate. I shouldn’t be freaking out, right?
This is all because of that one summer night's fault! I shouldn’t have encouraged my friends to go and experience underage drinking at a local bar. If it weren’t for that, then I wouldn’t have met her.
And maybe, I wouldn’t be so confused right now.
Waking up at 4 am has never been my doing. But I couldn’t seem to sleep more with the fact that I’m not in my room anymore and I have Amelia as my roommate who’s already taking a shower since we have classes today.I watched as a bird tried to knock on our window, but immediately went away when it saw me looking at it. I shook my head as I tried to fix my appearance. Was the bird scared because of how I look? I let out a soft grunt before stretching my arms.I took my phone, and texted both my parents that I was sorry for just updating them now that I’m already at my school. I was so tired yesterday that I dozed off immediately.“You’re awake,” Amelia said as soon as she saw me. I wanted to reply to her sarcastically, but I was also afraid of what she would do to me if I ever tried to do mean things to her. So instead, I just gave her a nod and watched her now blow drying her blonde hair. She was already wearing her unif
Loud chattering was heard as soon as our teacher left our classroom. It was already near lunchtime, and I have introduced myself today for 3 times now. It was a good thing that the two other teachers didn’t let my classmates ask me questions, or else I’ll really choke that bitch from my first class without any hesitation.“Our next teacher wouldn’t be attending, so we have more free time. Enjoy.” Normally, in my old school, if there’s more free time, the one who announced it would be very happy and would even scream that news in the top of his or her lungs. But something about my new school and their students just screams that they’re different from other students outside Whistler High.I looked at the girl with glasses, her hair was in a neat ponytail and wasn’t showing any playfulness. She was serious and after
Classes were finally over, and I was so glad it was. I was now walking towards the cafeteria with my phone in hand since it was now allowed to use phones. The curious stares were still there, and I could feel their scrutinizing gaze as I was walking. Like one wrong step, and I’ll be dead in a minute.I felt a wave of relief when I was finally inside the cafeteria, and there I saw the girls at their usual table. I saw Zoe waving at me, so I waved back and immediately walked towards them. I can still feel the stares the other girls are giving, and that made me almost run towards their table, but stopped myself because it would seem inappropriate to run inside the cafeteria.When I finally sat at their table, they greeted me and I did too. I even thanked Zoe for ordering for me in advance. She was like a mother taking care of her children, making me smile at
As soon as I reached our room, I immediately showered and even prayed to all the gods out there to not let Amelia get inside our room yet, since if that happens, I wouldn’t be able to do my job properly. The water hit my face, and I shivered at the coldness of it. I grimaced at my own stupidity, for forgetting to make the water warm before showering. After doing my thing in the bathroom, I was shivering. I even saw my reflection in the mirror and there I saw my pale lips and the dark circles showing on the bottom of my eyes. “Why do I look so ugly today?” I asked myself, while still looking at the mirror as I finish my skincare routine, in hopes of it improving my face since I really look like I haven’t slept for a week because of the bags under my eyes. With my robe wrapped around my body, I walked towards my wa
Sunlight came through the open window of our bedroom. As I was watching the sun, it felt like it was waving at me, as if the sun is greeting me a good morning. I snorted at my own thoughts, before looking at Amelia who’s now ready. I would usually be still in bed at this hour, but I made sure to wake up early because today, there’s something I am looking forward to, and that is to know the suspects behind the suicide of Nova Miller. And believe me when I said that I’m going to use up all my courage for today just to speak to the administrator to change one of my subject teachers into Mr. Wilson. I wouldn’t mind if she thinks of me as someone who’s also attracted to that teacher, because I really can’t think of anything else to do in order to have at least a little conversation with that teacher. “You’re up early,
It was so quiet. Awkwardness was what I felt as we walked. Our footsteps could be heard as we were headed to Mr. Wilson’s classroom. The rooms that we passed by were closed, and even though I wanted to at least say something, I know I just can’t. Walking the quiet corridors alongside Amelia was never what I wanted. I had always been the confident gay among our friend group, but being with Amelia who now thinks that I might be interested in men too is so suffocating. Especially the fact that she might think I’m actually interested in Mr. Wilson is so disgusting. Whatever happened back with the administrator was just not what I had planned to happen. It was never in the plan to have Amelia inside the room to hear me plead just to have that predator as my freaking professor! If only I knew Amelia would be t
Students are slowly going out of the room, one by one they go, while some gave gifts to Mr. Wilson first before they would finally leave. My eyes widened when I saw just how much those gifts cost. Some were from Chanel, some were from Gucci and some just looked like it really costs a fortune. But then I realized that almost all the girls who are studying here came from rich families, so it shouldn’t really be at all that surprising. I looked at my wristwatch to see what time it was, I frowned when I noticed that it was almost lunch time, and it looks like I’ll be left behind with this weird teacher as the other students would eat their food. I can’t believe I really exchanged this for food. His class today was three hours long, and I almost stormed out of the room after knowing that some girls really made this class up to three hours just so they could be wit
I was walking alone, the bell rang so other students didn't really care about their surroundings, if they bumped you, they'd just run as if nothing happened, since tardiness was never a good thing in this school. But because I’m not quite aware of what punishments they gave students who are late, I took my time in walking, and there I heard everything that I shouldn’t have. “You can’t do that, Madam. I worked hard to be the winner of last year’s Fall Singing Contest. If you’d give them to another student, wouldn’t the press know?” I heard a voice of a girl said, and it seemed like she was crying. I stopped on my tracks, and despite my gut feeling telling me to continue on walking, I stayed in my place and decided to listen. ”If you’d do this, then the other students would stop bullying you, isn’t that what you want, Ms. Jones?” the teacher asked, and I fought
If someone ever told me that I was such a pain in the ass when I was a baby, I would believe them because I knew that they were the one who were able to witness it, and despite being the one who does all that, I was still basically unaware of what I was doing. And this time, I believed my friends because they were the ones who were able to witness everything. They were all here before me, I was the new girl who still has a lot to know about this mysterious school. But despite being a transferee, I am able to quickly realize how dangerous this school really is. I don’t know why they kept on lying to me, but I would like to assume that they are all doing it to protect me from what this school could do to me once I find out hidden secrets that they made their students to never talk about. Ever. Nina. She was a victim, or that’s what I believe. But, she can’t be the villain here, knowing how kindhearted she was. She was the opposite of Rei who is known to be mean to others and only kin
It couldn’t be Nina, right?Eve sent me half of the things about the past regarding this school, and from that information, there’s only one thing I can confirm. And that is Nina and Amelia had a past. It would be impossible if they were only friends. Amelia isn’t the type who would show she cares for you even if you’re just her close friend. I gritted my teeth, trying so hard to solve all these mysteries, but it kept on leading to nothing. I want to get it right this time, but why does my mind tell me that I’m wrong again? I let out a deep sigh, before focusing on the teacher who was busy lecturing for an hour now, dang! Having 2 hours in Statistics and Probability sure can make my day worse than before. During the lecture, my phone lit up, so I opened it in secret not wanting to let the others know that I was using it since if they ever find out, my phone could easily get confiscated, and I don’t want that. As soon as I opened my phone, I was surprised, it was from Eve. I thought
Three Sides of the StoryOne is your sideThe other, is theirsAnd last is the Truth.What could be the truth?What could it be that they were hiding?They were so protective of their secretThat it made me want to know more about itWhat could their secret be?Is it really important for them to kill others just to keep it to themselves?Was death really the only way for them to protect it?Maybe they were just so cruelSo evilThat they believed death was the answer to keeping their secret a secretBut is it really?Don’t they ever feel guilt?How can they sleep at night, knowing that they had killed someone?Blood. There was a lot of blood shed. And I hope they find out soonOr else there will be more innocent killedJust for their own gain.
As soon as the student council’s secretary was out of sight, I was able to breathe fine again. What she told me made my blood boil, but then again, I have no other choice but to follow her stupid orders. And by supid order, I mean, her ordering me to stay away from Amelia or else she’ll have me expelled by her powerful father. I can’t believe she could do that. To go to such an extent just because her crush is not looking her way. If only she knew that it isn’t me that Amelia adores, it was no other than Victoria. But of course, what can she do against Victoria? Nothing. Victoria was even more powerful and wealthier than her, and maybe that’s why she’s targeting me, because she knows I have nothing. I’m just some peasant for her who can’t do anything. I wiped the lone tear that escaped my eye, before turning around, and to my surprise, I was greeted by Jada who had a serious look on her face. I was about to escape, but she was fast enough not to let me. “We need to talk,” she told
“People are ruined by challenged economic lives. But they are ruined by wealth as well because they lose their pride and they lose their sense of self-worth. It’s difficult at both ends of the spectrum.” - Malcolm GladwellThis quote opens our eyes about the sad realityHow hard it is for the poor to live in this cruel worldWhere they are treated like animals by the rich.Is it offensive that most of the time, the rich are the villains?Or is it really just how it is in our universe?Where those who are unfortunate are treated as slaves by people in power. Just like in their school, where the scholars are treated badly, just because they don't have enough money to pay for their own tuition.That’s why, what’s the use of wanting to change everything, when we all know we could never change it, at all?They were teenage girls who wished for change, but could they really do it?Do they have the means to do it?Or were they all just stuck in their own fantasy?It’s hard to change somethi
I didn’t know what to do. I had been avoiding everybody I am close with, and I know they’re thinking of any possible reason why I was acting this way. But of course, they would never know the real reason behind my actions. I looked away when my eyes and Eun’s eyes met each other for the third time today. I felt guilty when Jada even offered to make me sit with them, but I only ignored them. I haven’t been inside this school for so long, but I already feel like my life here has been so long, that all I need is to get out of here in hopes of making my mind calm from the storm that has been bugging it. With our teacher still not being here, I stood up from my seat and decided to go out and just skip this class. I need to get out or else I’ll get suffocated inside there. I don’t like how all the girls I am avoiding are inside that classroom. It makes me sick in the stomach, knowing that they’ll forever hate me once they find out what I had been doing just to be able to keep my scholarsh
Maybe she was obsessed. Maybe she was still hurtingMoving on has never been easyAnd maybe that’s the reason she made sure to have a piece of her in her ownBut things were not going smoothlyBecause someone was also inside herAn experiment gone wrongMade her daughter experience things she shouldn’t haveQuestions will resurfaceAll the lies will be revealedAll the villains will be knownAnd the real heroes will be praisedA new leader will be bornAnd the old school shall be renewedAnd she will riseBecause everybody knows she’s deadBut is she? No body was found. She was just goneShe did leave some traces behindBut all of it pointed to nowhereShe was acting as if she wants to be found, but the truth is,She doesn't. She wanted to go missing without anybody looking for herShe will always be unpredictable. Like her daughter. They believed she was dead and buried somewhere But she’s notShe’s alive.
My body hurts. I woke up to the sound of Amelia baging on the bathroom door, and there I realized that I fell asleep on the bathtub. I closed my eyes in frustration, because this only means that I would have to explain myself to my roommate. And that’s what I don’t want to do right now.I don’t even know if I can still look her in the eyes. I feel so dirty and small. I just want to get away from here as much as possible. When the bathroom door was open, Amelia looked at me in shock when she saw that I was already fully clothed. She was busy finding the key perhaps, and I made sure to look presentable as soon as she was able to unlock the door. “You went inside the bathroom at 9 pm, and it’s already 3 am.” She informed me, and her tone was gentle. It was so soft that it made me want to go into her arms and cry. I want to tell her how much I fucked up, and how dirty I felt and how I failed the girls who were victims to that asshole of a teacher. So, I put my pride down and went to he
Who would have thought I would end up here? Being in a fucking place where I swore I would never find myself. I ought not to take part in any bad actions, but here I am. “You never disappoint. You’re my favorite now,” our teacher said and I heard a young girl’s sob when he finally was able to zip up his pants. My grip on the blanket covering me tightened when he went near me to give me a peck on the cheek, before he finally left the abandoned room. “You’re the student council president’s friend, right? I see you talk all the time, can you tell her about what’s happening inside here? Please… I already feel so dirty, I can’t handle this anymore. Please help us,” one girl pleaded, but I chose to ignore her. There’s nothing I can do when I myself is a willing victim to be fucking used. “I can’t do anything about it. They won’t believe us,” I told them, before getting all my stuff to finally get dressed. I hate myself. I hate myself. I hate myself so much. I feel so fucking dirty, but