Leanna looks white as a sheet when she comes out of the room with the tarot woman and I'm worried about what's going on, but then Ms Jewkes is calling my name and gesturing for me to follow her.
I have no idea why I'm here, I don't believe in this stuff and the weird stick thing she's burning is making me anxious, it's like I can't breathe properly which is the opposite of what should happen or so I'm told.
She gestures to a seat and asks me to sit down, then puts an oversized pack of cards in front of me and tells me to shuffle until I feel ready to split them into three. I do as she asks, because I don't want to be rude, but the whole time I'm wondering what amount of shuffle time is appropriate, in the end I go for slightly longer than I feel I should, just so I don't look like I'm not taking this seriously.
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It's the last week before half term, then we'll be going off skiing all together and for the first time in years, Nathan and I are friends again.I'm beyond excited!I hop in my car, singing along to the radio as I drive the short distance to school. My friends are waiting near the school gates and Max is hovering nearby."Do you need us to stay?" Italia hisses to me when he starts walking over."Leanna, can we talk?" He sounds nervous and I try to remind myself that he didn't do it on purpose, he didn't know, it's not his fault. He's a good guy."I'll catch up with you guys in a second." I tell my friends and Max waits until they're far enough away not to overhear before he starts s
I hate that I've resorted to this, but I saw Leanna and Max together on Monday and it damn near killed me, so I need to distance myself from her, at least for a little while.Winding her up is just too easy, her eyes get all intense and she struggles to control herself.I watch her storm off, knowing she's fighting the urge to turn around and at least send me a rude hand gesture, but I want that. Somehow I need that reaction from her, so I clear my throat loudly, seeing her back tense as she anticipates what I'm going to say."Oh and Lea, I know you'll have already packed, but I just wanted to check you were bringing that sexy purple nighty I like so much, you know the one I mean. The one you wore last year for me, the one that's pretty much see-through." She stops dead in her tracks, I can't help the gr
After stopping for a drink in the coffee shop nearest the school, I can't put it off any longer and head home, hoping that Nathan won't already be there. I won't lie, I'm so disappointed, but it is what it is, I got over it before, I can do it again.As luck would have it, the only person home is Kim, who's ransacking the house for her favourite t-shirt after leaving packing to the last minute. As usual."Have you got it in yours?" She asks, pulling out sofa cushions and stuffing them back, ignoring the chocolate and crisp wrappers that Shane and his friends have obviously stuffed down the back of it. "It's my black one with the big red drippy heart on one side.""No, but wasn't Susie wearing it instead of her school uniform last week?""Shit, yes, thank you." In s
I can't even be in the same room as Leanna without wondering who she's been with, it's causing an inordinate amount of anger to build inside me.Everyone at school knows she's off limits, I made sure of that. It wasn't Max, so who went behind my back?"What crawled up your butt?" Gemma strolls into my room and sits on the bed, picking up the school books I brought and smirking at me. "Do your friends know Mr Cool and Popular is planning on studying while he's on holiday? That would seriously ruin your rep, wouldn't it?""What do you want?" I snap at her and she just rolls her eyes."What's going on with you and Leanna? You've been glaring at h
"Urgh, where is she?" I hug my coat closer to me as I head outside, the snow is so thick that my feet sink up to my ankles, the cold and wet seeping straight through the soft material of my brand new UGG boots and I curse myself for wearing them to this stupid party.It was huge, it was inevitable we'd get separated. I shouldn't have had a drink, I wasn't going to but I got caught up playing drinking games and then ended up night skiing.I've got to admit it was fun, absolutely terrifying but also the most fun I've had in a very long time, but now I can't find Kim anywhere. It's past curfew, so maybe she's gone back to the room, although I don't think she would have left without me? I don't know what to do and I've wandered around so much that now everything looks the same and I'm not entirely sure where I am.
"Um… Nathan, did we use anything? A condom I mean?" I was in such a happy fucking stupor it took me a second to understand what she was asking and when I did, it was like my entire world froze in a matter of seconds.How could I be so stupid? It's like the first thing anyone tells you about sex, you don't want babies or diseases? Put a condom on, it takes a matter of seconds! What the hell have we done?"What do we do?" I ask her, like she's got any more of an idea than I do. She looks up at me with huge, terrified eyes. So I wrap my arms around her, pulling her close to me. "I'm sorry, it'll be ok. We'll figure it out.""Morning after pill." She says, leaning up and looking down at me. I know it's probably not the time to be thinking this, but with the sunli
I love skiing, it makes me feel light and happy, unlike I have been in ages. It's ridiculous to say but I feel different, like sleeping with Nathan, losing my virginity to him, and confessing my feelings, has given the whole world a rosy glow and I can't stop smiling. I'm fairly certain if I didn't have ski's strapped to my feet, I'd be skipping around like a happy child. I know we were stupid not to use anything, but I can't bring myself to regret what we did, especially whenever I look over and catch him watching me. I feel like the luckiest girl in the entire world right now. "Earth to Leanna." Kim rounds on me as we sit on the ski lift, our legs dangling as we leave the ground. "I've been waiting all day for you to tell me what's going on with you and Nathan, I can't wait any longer." "I don't know, not reall
I keep behind Leanna as we go down the mountain, she looks so happy that I don't want to overtake her and not see it. She's always loved these holidays, even the years we were here when she hated me, she would be so happy out here that she'd forget we weren't friends and we could almost skip back into our previous easy banter, just for the week. It was both my favourite and worst time of the year, I loved having her back, but I hated knowing it wouldn't last, it was almost cruel, knowing what we could have had if I hadn't fucked up by kissing her. But that was the past, now, the girl of my dreams is talking about sneaking into my bed tonight and I plan on spending the hours waiting for her, on my phone, trying to figure out what I can do to her to make sure she enjoys it as much as I did last night.