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2024-10-29 19:42:56It has already begun and already a day has passed, I don't know how I feel about this because a part of me wants to go home, while the other finds itself wanting to stay.
I don't even know if this is about me anymore or maybe it's Connor or just my fears of getting back into the outside world.
Vicky and I haven't spoken to each other since yesterday.
I don't know, maybe this is me being stubborn but I'm still a little mad at her, for what she did. Even though Vicky and I are going through a minor glitz, I do miss talking to her.
She's my friend or more like my big sister and guardian here. She knows me and I think more than my own mother sometimes does.
I did mention the two week trial thing which instead of him being affected about this, his eyes began to twinkle and I instantly knew that he was summing up some crazy thought in his mind.
I shake my head slightly and try focus on what I'm doing. It's my day acti
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