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Mixed feelings
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2021-01-14 06:51:03MIXED FEELINGS
Lillian was preparing everything she needed for her class trip. She wants to have fun with her students and make them see how intriguing Literature is. That morning before going to class,someone she wasn't expecting or expecting the least to visit her came, "Emmanuel"
" Good morning ma" she stared at him in awe,he was being polite too,on other days,he would say the good morning without a "ma".
" Good morning " she replied
" You are here for counseling right? Lillian asked
" Not really,I'd like for us to discuss" That was it,his boldness was back,though a little.
" That day you told us about being unable to have a child, I thought it was pitiful of you, seeking attention and pity from us..but now,I really
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